Thanks to John Baez,
Jennifer Brehl, Caroline Oakley, Anthony Cheetham, John Douglas, Simon
Spanton, Oisín Murphy-Lawless, Devi Pillai, Peter Robinson,
Russell Galen, Carol Jackson, Emma Bailey, Diana Mackay, Philip
Patterson, Christodoulos Litharis, Nicola Fantini, Giancarlo Carlotti,
Albert Solé, Petr Kotrle, Makoto Yamagishi, Florin Pîtea,
and Mihai-Dan Pavelescu.
Inhabited Space
Only a small proportion of all
systems are shown. Shaded systems
have been lost behind the border
as Tchicaya arrives on the
Rindler,
605 years after Mimosa.

Chapter 4
By choice, Tchicaya’s mind started running long before
his new body was fully customized. As his vision came into focus, he
turned his gaze from the softly lit lid of the crib to the waxen, pudgy
template that he now inhabited. Waves of organizers swarmed up and down
his limbs and torso like mobile bruises beneath the translucent skin,
killing off unwanted cells and cannibalizing them, stimulating others
to migrate or divide. The process wasn’t painful — at worst it tickled,
and it was even sporadically sexy — but Tchicaya felt an odd compulsion
to start pummeling the things with his fists, and he had no doubt that
squashing them flat would be enormously satisfying. The urge was
probably an innate response to Earthly parasites, a misplaced instinct
that his ancestors hadn’t got around to editing out. Or perhaps they’d
retained it deliberately, in the hope that it might yet turn out to be
useful elsewhere.
As he raised his head to get a better view, he caught
sight of an undigested stretch of calf, still bearing traces of the
last inhabitant’s body hair and musculature. "Urrggh". The noise
sounded alien, and left a knot in his throat. The crib said, "Please
don’t try to talk yet." The organizers swept over the offending remnant
and dissolved it.
Morphogenesis from scratch, from a single cell, couldn’t
be achieved in less than three months. This borrowed body wouldn’t even
have the DNA he’d been born with, but it had been designed to be easy
to regress and sculpt into a fair approximation of anyone who’d
remained reasonably close to their human ancestors, and the process
could be completed in about three hours. When traveling this way,
Tchicaya usually elected to become conscious only for the final
fitting: the tweaking of his mental body maps to accommodate all the
minor differences that were too much of a nuisance to eliminate
physically. But he’d decided that for once he’d wake early, and
experience as much as he could.
He watched his arms and fingers lengthen slightly, the
flesh growing too far in places, then dying back. Organizers flowed
into his mouth, re-forming his gums, nudging his teeth into new
locations, thickening his tongue, then sloughing off whole layers of
excess tissue. He tried not to gag.
"Dith ith horrible," he complained.
"Just imagine what it would be like if your brain was
flesh, too," the crib responded. "All those neural pathways being grown
and hacked away — like a topiary full of tableaux from someone else’s
life being shaped into a portrait of your own past. You’d be having
nightmares, hallucinations, flashbacks from the last user’s memories."
The crib wasn’t sentient, but pondering its reply made a
useful distraction from the squirming sensation Tchicaya was beginning
to feel in his gut. It was a much more productive rejoinder than:
"You’re the idiot who asked to be awake for this, so why don’t you shut
up and make the best of it?"
When his tongue felt serviceably de-slimed, he said, "Some people
think the same kind of thing happens digitally. Every time
you reconfigure a Qusp to run someone new, the mere act of loading the
program generates experiences, long before you formally start it
running."
"Oh, I’m sure it does," the crib conceded cheerfully. "But the
nature of the process guarantees that you never remember any
of it."
When Tchicaya was able to stand, the crib opened its lid
and had him pace the recovery room. He stretched his arms, swiveled his
head, bent and arched his spine, while the crib advised his Qusp on the
changes it would have to make in order to bring his expectations for
kinesthetic feedback and response times into line with reality. In a
week or two he would have accommodated to the differences anyway, but
the sooner they were dealt with, the sooner he’d lose the distracting
sense that his own flesh was like poorly fitted clothing.
The clothes that were waiting for him had already been
informed of his measurements, and the styles, colors, and textures he
preferred. They’d come up with a design in magenta and yellow that
looked sunny without being garish, and he felt no need to ask for
changes, or to view a range of alternatives.
As he dressed, Tchicaya examined himself in the wall
mirror. From the whorl of dark bristles on his scalp to the glistening
scar running down his right leg, every visible feature had been
reproduced faithfully from a micrometer-level description of his body
on the day he’d left his home world. For all he could tell, this might
as well have been the original. The internal sense of familiarity was
convincing, too; he’d lost the slight tension in his shoulder muscles
that had been building up over the last few weeks before his departure,
but having just rid himself of all the far more uncomfortable kinks
he’d acquired in the crib, that was hardly surprising. And if this scar
was not the scar from his childhood, not the same collagen laid down by
the healing skin in his twelve-year-old body, nor would it have been
the same in his adult body by now, if he’d never left home. All an
organism could do from day to day was shore itself up in some rough
semblance of its previous condition. The same was true, from moment to
moment, for the state of the whole universe. By one means or another,
everyone was an imperfect imitation of whatever they’d been the day
before.
Still, it was only when you traveled that you needed to
dispose of your own past, or leave behind an ever-growing residue.
Tchicaya told the crib, "Recycle number ten." He’d forgotten exactly
where the tenth-last body he’d inhabited was stored, but when his
authorization reached it, the memories sitting passively in its Qusp
would be erased, and its flesh would be recycled into the same kind of
waxen template as the one he’d just claimed as his own.
The crib said, "There is no number ten, by my count. Do
you want to recycle number nine?"
Tchicaya opened his mouth to protest, then realized that
he’d spoken out of habit. When he’d left Pachner, thirty years
before — a
few subjective hours ago — he’d known full well that his body trail
would
be growing shorter by one while he was still in transit, and he
wouldn’t have to lift a finger or say a word to make it happen.
He said, "Keep number nine."
As he stepped out of the recovery room, Tchicaya was
grateful for his freshly retuned sense of balance. The deck beneath his
feet was opaque, but it sat inside a transparent bubble a hundred
meters wide, swinging for the sake of gravity at the end of a
kilometer-long tether. To his left, the ship’s spin was clearly visible
against the backdrop of stars, all the more so because the axis of
rotation coincided with the direction of travel. The stars turning
slowly in the smallest circles were tinted icy blue, while away from
the artificial celestial pole they took on more normal hues, ultimately
reddening slightly. The right half of the sky was starless, filled
instead with a uniform glow that was untouched by the Doppler shift,
and so featureless that there was nothing to be seen moving within it:
not one speck of greater or lesser brightness rising over the deck in
time with the stars.
From the surface of Pachner, the border of the Mimosa
vacuum had appeared very different, a shimmering sphere of light
blazing a fierce steely blue at the center, but cooled toward the edges
by its own varied Doppler shift. The graded color had made it look
distinctly rounded and three-dimensional, and the fact that you could
apparently see it curving away from you had added to an already
deceptive impression of distance. Because it was expanding at half the
speed of light, the amount of sky the border blotted out was not a
reliable measure of its proximity. Looking away from its nearest point
meant looking back to a time when it had been considerably smaller, and
starlight that had grazed the sphere centuries before — skirting the
danger, and appearing to delineate it — actually told you nothing about
its present size. When Tchicaya had left, Pachner had been little more
than two years away from being engulfed, but the border had barely
changed its appearance in the decade he’d spent there, and it would
still have occupied a mere one hundred and twenty degrees of the view
at the instant the planet was swallowed.
Tchicaya had been on Pachner to talk to people on the
verge of making their escape. He’d had to flee long before the hard
cases, who’d boasted that they’d be leaving with just seconds to spare,
but as far as he knew he’d been the only evacuee who was planning to
end up closer to the border than when he left. Doomed planets were
useless as observation posts; no sooner did the object of interest come
near than you had to retreat from it at the speed of light. The Rindler
was constantly retreating, but no faster than was absolutely necessary.
Matching velocities with the border transformed its appearance; from
the observation deck, the celestial image that had become an emblem of
danger for ten thousand civilizations was nowhere to be seen. The
border finally looked like the thing it was: a vast, structureless,
immaterial wall between two incomparably different worlds.
"Tchicaya!"
He looked around. There were a dozen people nearby, but
they were all intent on the view. Then he spotted a lanky figure
approaching, an arm stretched up in greeting. Tchicaya didn’t recognize
the face, but his Mediator picked up a familiar signature.
"Yann?" Tchicaya had known for centuries that Yann was
also weaving his way toward the Rindler, but the
last place he’d expected to run into him was the observation deck. In
all the time they’d been in contact, exchanging messengers across
decades and light-years, Yann had been strictly acorporeal.
The half-stranger stood before him. "How are you?"
Tchicaya smiled. "I’m fine. You seem to have put on
weight."
Yann shrugged apologetically. "Conforming to local
fashions. I still think it’s an absurdity: boosting millions of tonnes
of furniture into a trajectory like this, when a few hundred kilograms
of instrumentation and Qusps could have achieved as much. But given
that they’ve gone ahead and done it anyway, and given that most of the
people here are wearing flesh, I have to take account of that. I need
to be in the thick of things, or there’s no point being here at all."
"That makes sense," Tchicaya conceded. He hated the idea
of anyone being forced out of their preferred mode, but the political
realities were undeniable.
If the optimists were right, and the border’s current
velocity was the highest it would ever be, the simplest way to avoid
the threat would be to flee from it. If your whole world already
consisted of compact, robust hardware that was designed to function in
interstellar space, the prospect of engineering in the necessary
shielding against relativistic collisions with gas and dust,
accelerating to a suitable velocity — half c plus a
chosen safety margin — then simply coasting away from the danger, was
not
unthinkable at all. A dozen acorporeal communities, and countless
scattered individuals, had already done that.
For people accustomed to dwelling on a planetary surface,
though, the notion of entering a permanent state of flight was more
likely to be horrifying. So far, the Mimosan vacuum had swallowed more
than two thousand inhabited systems, and while most of the
planet-hopping refugees were willing to transmit themselves at
lightspeed from point to point, in less than two millennia all the old,
established colony worlds that had taken them in would themselves be
gone. In principle, the process could be prolonged indefinitely: new,
habitable planets could be prepared in advance by high-velocity spore
packages, with people following close behind. Each temporary home would
last a little longer than the one before, as the border was outpaced.
People might even grow accustomed to the fact that every world they set
foot upon would be obliterated, not in billions of years, but in a few
thousand. It would take six times as long as recorded history before
the entire Milky Way was lost, and by then, the gulf between
neighboring galaxies might seem less daunting.
Even assuming a watertight proof, though, that the border
would not speed up without warning and turn that whole scenario into a
rosy-hued fantasy, exile was not a fate to be accepted lightly. If it
was physically possible to turn back the novovacuum — to seed its
destruction, the way the Mimosans had seeded its creation — Tchicaya’s
fellow embodied had by far the greatest stake in making that happen. It
was not going to be easy to persuade them that they shouldn’t try.
Yann said, "You’ve just come from Pachner?"
Tchicaya nodded. He was pleased to have met up with Yann,
but he was having trouble maintaining eye contact; the spinning sky
kept drawing his gaze. "When did you get here?" He’d lost track of
Yann’s recent movements; communication between interstellar travelers
had always been difficult, with line-of-sight time lags and transit
insentience, but having to route signals around a constantly growing
obstacle had added a further level of delays and fragmentation.
"Almost nine years ago."
"Ha! And there I was thinking you were the one out of
your element."
Yann took a moment to interpret this. "You’ve never been
in space before?"
"No."
"Not even planetary orbit?" He sounded incredulous.
Tchicaya was annoyed; it was a bit rich for a former
acorporeal to put such stock in where he had or hadn’t been, in the
flesh. "Why would I have been in space? Vacuum never used to be much of
an attraction."
Yann smiled. "Do you want to take the grand tour, while I
fill you in?"
"Definitely." Everything Tchicaya had heard about the
state of play on the Rindler was out of
date — though not by the full sixty years that his thirty-year journey
would normally have implied. He did a quick calculation before
confirming the result with the ship: fifty-two years had elapsed here,
since the last bulletin that he’d received on Pachner had been sent.
Stairs led down from the observation deck to a walkway.
The ship was made up of sixteen separate modules arranged in a ring;
the tethers joining them to the hub were not traversable, but there
were umbilicals linking adjacent modules. Once they’d left the shelter
of the deck behind, Tchicaya could see the engines sitting at the hub
as dark outlines clustered at the zenith. They were unlikely to be used
again for some time; if the border suddenly accelerated, it would
probably move too fast for the Rindler to escape,
and everyone onboard would evacuate the way they’d arrived: as data.
Even if the ship was destroyed without warning, though, most people
would only lose a few hours' memories. Tchicaya had instructed his Qusp
to transmit daily backups, and no doubt Yann was doing something
similar, having escaped from the Mimosan vacuum once already that way.
The view from the narrow walkway was disorienting;
without an expanse of deck imposing a visual horizon, the rim of the
border became the most compelling cue. Tchicaya began to feel as if he
was walking inside a huge horizontal centrifuge, hovering an
indeterminate distance above an ocean shrouded in white fog. Any
attempt to replace this mildly strange hypothesis with the idea that he
was actually keeping pace with a shock wave six hundred light-years
wide did nothing to improve his steadiness.
"The factions have names now," Yann began.
Tchicaya groaned. "That’s a bad sign. There’s nothing
worse than a label, to cement people’s loyalties."
"And nothing worse than loyalties cementing while we’re
still in the minority. We’re Yielders, they’re Preservationists."
"Yielders? Whose idea was that?"
"I don’t know. These things just seem to crystallize out
of the vacuum."
"With a little seeding from the spin doctors. I suppose
it’s a step up from being Suicidal Deviants, or Defeatist Traitors."
"Oh, those terms are still widely used, informally."
Without warning, Tchicaya’s legs buckled. He knelt on the
walkway and closed his eyes. He said, "It’s all right. Just give me a
second."
Yann suggested mildly, "If the view’s that unsettling,
why not paste something over it?"
Tchicaya scowled. His vestibular system wanted him to
curl up on the ground, block out all the contradictory visual signals,
and wait for normality to be restored. He spread his arms slightly,
reassuring himself that he was prepared to take action to recover his
balance at short notice. Then he opened his eyes and rose to his feet.
He took a few deep breaths, then started walking again.
"Both stances remain purely theoretical," Yann continued. "The
Preservationists are no more prepared to erase the Mimosan vacuum
than we are to adapt to it. But the team working on the Planck worms
has just attracted a fresh batch of recruits, and they’re running
experiments all the time. If it ever does come down to a technological
race, it’s sure to be a close one."
Tchicaya contemplated this prospect glumly. "Whoever
first gains the power to impose their own view decides the issue? Isn’t
that the definition of barbarism?" They’d reached the stairs that led
up to the deck of the next module. He gripped the rails and ascended
shakily, relieved to be surrounded by the clutter of ordinary objects.
They emerged at the edge of a garden, engineered in a
style Tchicaya hadn’t seen before. Stems coiled in elaborate helices,
sprouting leaves tiled with hexagonal structures that glinted like
compound eyes. According to the ship, the plants had been designed to
thrive in the constant borderlight, though it was hard to see how that
could have required some of their more exotic features. Still, the
embellishments did not seem overdone here. Purebred roses or orchids
would have been cloyingly nostalgic in the middle of interstellar space.
There were more people in the garden than on the
observation deck. When strangers caught his eye, Tchicaya smiled and
offered whatever gestures his Mediator deemed appropriate to greet them
in passing, but he wasn’t ready for formal introductions, sorting
everyone into opposing camps.
"Isn’t there a level where both sides can still
cooperate?" he asked. "If we can’t agree on the theory that’s going to
underpin whatever action finally gets taken, we might as well all give
up and join the wagon train to Andromeda."
Yann was apologetic. "Of course. Don’t let my moaning
give you too bleak a picture. We haven’t reached the point of hostility
for its own sake; we still pool resources for the basic science. It’s
only the goal-directed experiments that make things a little frosty.
When Tarek started scribing graphs at the border that he believed stood
a good chance of being viable proto-worms, we cut him out of all the
theoretical discussion groups and data sharing agreements — though none
of us thought he was in any danger of succeeding. Since then, he’s
backed off slightly, and agreed to limit himself to graphs that can
test his hunches without running amok if they happen to confirm them."
Tchicaya began to protest, but Yann cut him off. "Yes, I
know that’s a treaty full of holes: it wouldn’t take much
disingenuousness to pretend that success was just a terrible mistake.
But who am I to lecture anyone about the results they should or
shouldn’t have expected?"
Tchicaya muttered, "Everyone’s wise about the accident,
after the fact." He’d met people who’d claimed they’d happily
obliterate every extant version of Cass and her accomplices, though
that was the rare, extremist view. More commonly, it was conceded that
the Mimosans had been cautious, and could not be judged by the
magnitude of the force they’d unleashed. Few people could honestly
claim that in the Mimosans' place, they would have treated the
Sarumpaet rules — inviolate for twenty thousand years — as being subject
to
serious doubt, let alone erasure.
The last Tchicaya had heard, seventeen people out of the
billions of evacuees had chosen to stand their ground and die. He knew
that these suicides weighed on Yann’s conscience — as did the distress
of
all those who’d been driven from their homes — but that didn’t dictate
his attitude to the phenomenon. It might have been tactful to withdraw
from the debate entirely, as the other seven had, but Tchicaya
understood his refusal to do so. The fate of the vacuum had to be
argued on its merits, not treated as a surrogate through which its
creators could be condemned or absolved, and Yann intended the fact
that he’d dared to take sides to highlight that distinction.
"So there’s been no theoretical progress while I was in
transit?" A definitive breakthrough would have been the first thing
Yann mentioned, but there might still have been promising developments.
Yann shrugged. "Three steps left, four steps down. We
scribe these elaborate probe graphs and drop them through the border,
then hope that whatever we can see of their decay will tell us
something useful. Even when we make an inspired choice of probe and get
a clean set of data, as evidence for competing models it’s all
hideously indirect."
In the immediate aftermath of the accident, it had been
easy to devise candidates for meta-rules that stabilized both the old
and new vacuum in bulk. In those days, the theorists' biggest problem
had been an excess of possibilities. The borderlight’s spectrum had
helped narrow the choices somewhat, and even the single, fortunate fact
that the border was traveling slower than light had ultimately been
shown to rule out a class of theories in which the accident had merely
changed some particle masses and triggered a boring old Higgs field
collapse. In that case, the Mimosan vacuum would have been nothing but
a lower-energy version of the ordinary vacuum, and coming to terms with
its physics would have been as simple as altering a few numbers in the
old equations. A careful analysis, though, had eventually confirmed
most people’s instinctive hunch: any single kind of vacuum — even one
that was undergoing such a collapse — had to appear exactly the same to
anyone who was coasting through it, an ancient principle known as
Lorentz invariance, dating back to the abolition of the aether. The
only velocity at which a change could spread while satisfying that
criterion was lightspeed.
Since the Rindler had provided a
stable platform from which to probe the border experimentally — while
vividly driving home the point that it was not
Lorentz-invariant — the embarrassment of riches had proved illusory.
Once
it had become possible to put the new theories to the test, the only
ones that hadn’t been falsified were those that remained too
ill-defined to offer clear predictions. That provisional vagueness
wasn’t necessarily a flaw, though; it could easily be the case that the
correct grand generalization of the Sarumpaet rules simply couldn’t
be pinned down from one example of a stable vacuum and a murky glimpse
of another, and it was better to be forced to confront that fact than
to be lulled for a second time into a false sense of security.
Yann said thoughtfully, "I suppose we could always stop
messing about trying to peek behind the border, and just resurrect the
Quietener." He punched his hands together enthusiastically. "A few
well-planned experiments in the old style might cut straight to the
heart of things."
"Oh, that’s a great idea. We could do it right here." A
second seeding of the novo-vacuum, from a starting point that was
already moving rapidly in the same direction as everyone who was
fleeing the first, would be twice as difficult to escape. Yann’s
sardonic suggestion was sobering, though, since it was far from being
the only way in which the disaster might be magnified. However careful
they were, whatever their motives, there was always the chance of
simply making things worse.
"We’re dropping the next probe in about twelve hours'
time," Yann said. "If you’re interested, I could probably swing it."
"Swing what?"
"Bringing you along."
Tchicaya’s throat tightened. "You mean, you go down
there? In person?"
"Absolutely."
"Why?"
Yann laughed. "Don’t ask me! You’re the one with the
flesh fetish; I thought you’d understand. That’s how they do things
here. I just play along."
Tchicaya looked past him, into the opaque pearly light,
more featureless than any darkness he’d ever encountered. The eyes
relished darkness, conjuring up hints of what it might contain, but the
borderlight flooded his vision with incontrovertible blankness.
And he believed he could live in that light? He believed
the embodied should end their flight, end their resistance, and march
straight into that blinding whiteness?
The borderlight was a surface phenomenon, a distractingly
perfect veil. Whatever lay behind it could easily be as richly
structured and complex as the universe he knew.
He said, "Let me sleep on it."
Half the Rindler's sixteen modules
were devoted to accommodation. The ship informed Tchicaya of the cabin
he’d been allocated, but he declined detailed directions, since Yann
seemed eager to continue as his guide.
"I’ll show you where I am, myself, first," Yann offered. "It’s on
the way, and you’re always welcome to drop by." The
accommodation modules were all split into multiple levels; away from
the edges, where you could still glimpse the sky, it was like being in
a high-rise building. When they left the stairwell, Yann paced briskly
down a corridor, and pointed out the room.
Tchicaya’s heart sank. The cabin was divided into two
banks of narrow slots, each about a meter wide and half as high. A
number of the slots contained inert figures. Rows of handholds between
the pigeonholes were apparently intended to assist the occupants in
gaining access. Yann followed his gaze and said, "It’s not that hard,
once you’re used to it." He demonstrated, clambering up and sliding
into his coffin-sized bunk, the fifth in a stack of eight.
Tchicaya said forlornly, "My embodiment request had the
standard clause: if there was no room for me here at full size, the
ship was meant to bounce me to the nearest alternative destination.
Maybe I’m going to have to start spelling out the meaning of some of
those terms." In four millennia of traveling between planetary
surfaces, he’d encountered a wide range of living conditions deemed
acceptable by the local people, whether through custom or necessity. On
rare occasions, he’d even been provided with deliberately inhospitable
accommodation. He’d never seen people squeezed together as tightly as
this.
"Mmm." Yann’s response was noncommittal, as if in
retrospect he wasn’t surprised by the complaint, but it honestly hadn’t
occurred to him that a newcomer would see the Rindler
as cramped. He deftly reversed his insertion maneuver and joined
Tchicaya on the deck.
"I’d suggest they ease things by scrapping the garden,"
Tchicaya mused, "but given how little difference that would make, they
probably should keep it, for sanity’s sake."
Yann squeezed past him, back into the corridor. Tchicaya
trudged after him dejectedly. He’d felt no sense of panic upon waking
in the confinement of the crib, but he hadn’t realized he’d soon be
moving into something smaller.
He crossed the final walkway with his eyes locked
straight ahead, still faltering every ten or fifteen meters when the
false horizon became impossible to ignore. He was angry that he was
letting these petty tribulations weigh on him. He was lucky: he was
used to travel, he was used to change, and he should have been inured
to this kind of minor disappointment. Most of the evacuees on the verge
of leaving Pachner had lived there all their lives, and change of the
kind they were about to confront was something metaphysically foreign
to them. Never mind what lay behind the borderlight; those people knew
the shape of every rock within a thousand-kilometer radius of their
homes, and even if they ended up on a world miraculously similar by any
planetologist’s standards, they’d still feel alienated and dispossessed.
As they climbed the stairs, Tchicaya joked, "Let’s head
back to the garden. I can sleep in the bushes." His shoulders were
already aching at the thought of having to lie so still. He could
modify himself to lose his usual urge to turn over repeatedly as he
slept, but the prospect of needing to do that only made him feel
claustrophobic in a deeper sense. You could whittle away a hundred
little things like that, and not miss any of them individually, but
then you woke one day to find that half your memories no longer rang
true, every minor joy and hardship drained of its flavor and
significance.
"D37, wasn’t it?" Yann asked cheerfully. "That’s left
here, then fourth door on the right." He stopped and let Tchicaya walk
past him. "I’ll talk to you again soon about the probe drop, but I’m
sure the others won’t object."
"Yeah. Thanks." Tchicaya raised a hand in farewell.
The doors he passed were all closed, but the fourth
recognized him and opened to his presence.
In front of him stood a desk, two chairs, and a set of
shelves. He stepped into the room, and saw one, quite spacious, bed.
Behind a partition, there was a shower, toilet and basin.
He sprinted after Yann, who started fleeing
halfheartedly, then gave up and doubled over with laughter.
"Bastard!" Tchicaya caught up with him, and thumped him
on the arm, hard enough to elicit a satisfying yelp.
"Show some cultural sensitivity!" Yann pleaded. "Pain
isn’t part of my traditional gestalt." Which made it unlikely that he’d
actually felt any; even among the embodied, it was a shade conservative
to let anything short of structural damage register as genuine
discomfort.
"Nor is space, apparently."
Yann shook his head, and tried to appear earnest. "On the
contrary. I’ve always had a sophisticated self-and-environment map; us
ex-acorporeals just aren’t hung up about its correlations with the
physical world. Whatever it looks like to you, what we experience in
that crowded cabin is ten orders of magnitude beyond any luxury you’ve
ever known." He said this without a trace of gloating or pomposity. It
wasn’t hyperbole, or wishful thinking; it was simply true.
"You know I almost turned around and left the ship?"
Yann snickered, completely unconvinced.
Tchicaya was at a loss for any suitable parting threat,
so he just raised his arms in resignation and walked back to his cabin.
Sweeping his gaze around the modest few square meters
made him beam like an idiot. It was one-thousandth the size of the
house he’d lived in on Pachner, but it was everything he needed.
"Bastard." He lay down on the bed and thought about
revenge.
Chapter 5
The shuttle separated from the Rindler,
sending Tchicaya’s stomach into free fall. He watched the docking
module retreat, knowing full well that he’d been flung off at a
tangent, backward, but so viscerally convinced that he’d fallen
straight down that the sight of the module — continuing along its arc of
rotation, yet dropping from the zenith in front of him rather than
disappearing behind his head — scrambled his sense of balance and
direction completely. At first he felt as if he was tumbling backward,
which would at least have explained what he was seeing, but when his
inner ears failed to confirm the motion, the illusion vanished — only to
return a moment later, to take him through the same cycle again. The
lurching fits and starts that followed might have made him less queasy
if they’d actually been happening; it was the inability to make sense
of his perceptions that was disturbing, far more than any direct,
physical effect of the lack of gravity.
He began to get his bearings once the whole ship was
visible, edge-on. A minute later it had shrunk to a sparse necklace of
glass beads, and the newly fixed stars finally crystallized in his mind
as cues worth taking seriously. The infinite plane of whiteness on his
right might have been a moonlit desert seen through half-closed eyes.
He’d once flown a glider high over sand dunes at night, on Peldan,
nearly free-falling at times in the thin air. There’d been no
moonlight, of course, but the stars had been almost as bright as these.
Yann, sitting beside him, caught his eye. "You okay?"
Tchicaya nodded. "In the scapes you grew up in," he
asked, "was there a vertical?"
"In what sense?"
"I know you said once that you didn’t feel gravity…but
was everything laid out and connected like it is on land? Or was it all
isotropically three-dimensional — like a zero-gee space habitat, where
everything can connect in any direction?"
Yann replied affably, "My earliest memories are of CP4 — that’s
a Kähler manifold that looks locally like a vector space with four
complex dimensions, though the global topology’s quite different. But I
didn’t really grow up there; I was moved around a lot when I was young,
to keep my perceptions flexible. I only used to spend time in anything
remotely like this" — he motioned at the surrounding,
more-or-less-Euclidean space — "for certain special kinds of physics
problems. And even most Newtonian mechanics is easier to grasp in a
symplectic manifold; having a separate, visible coordinate for the
position and momentum of every degree of freedom makes things much
clearer than when you cram everything together in a single,
three-dimensional space."
So much for being a seasoned traveler.
Tchicaya didn’t envy Yann’s upbringing, but it probably rendered the
world behind the border less exotic to him than the notion of a jungle
had been to Tchicaya as a child. It shook his confidence to be reminded
that there were measures by which his millennia of experience had been
laughably narrow.
He couldn’t have it both ways, though: he couldn’t claim
that the embodied needed the shock and the strangeness of this
burgeoning universe, and then wish it could be no more daunting to
confront than one more mundane planetary surface.
Kadir turned around and interjected testily, "I can
analyze the flows in a symplectic manifold perfectly well without
pretending to inhabit it. That’s what mathematics is for. Imagining
that you need to float through every last abstract space that shows up
in a physics problem is just being literal-minded."
Yann smiled, unoffended. "I’m not going to argue with
you. I haven’t come here to proselytize for acorporeality."
Zyfete, seated in front of Tchicaya, muttered, "Why
bother, if you can render embodiment just as barren?"
Tchicaya bit his tongue. He’d been forewarned about the
level of acrimony, and at some point everyone on the Rindler
was going to have to wade waist-deep through their opponents' venom on
their way to a resolution, but spur-of-the-moment bickering in a
confined space wasn’t his idea of productive disharmony.
The shuttle’s drive kicked in, delivering a mild push
that Tchicaya succeeded in interpreting as a precipitous dive, rather
than a complete inversion of land and sky. He scanned the eye-watering
whiteness, hunting for their destination, but the glare was
impenetrable. It seemed miraculous to be skimming kilometers above an
object that dominated the sky for hundreds of light-years — without
being
burnt to a cinder, as he would have been this close to the surface of a
star — but it was sheer size that made the border visible from afar.
Each
square kilometer didn’t have to blaze fiercely for the total luminosity
to outshine any supernova. Without the usual Doppler shift to boost the
light’s power, a pinhole view looking straight at the border would
actually have been dimmer, here, by a factor of three, than the
equivalent view from any planet he’d visited. What dazzled was the fact
that it filled his vision, leaving room for nothing else. On Pachner,
for much of the year the border had been partly hidden by daylight, but
even when it reached its furthest angle from the sun there’d always
been a narrow strip of washed-out darkness left over somewhere on the
horizon, with a few pallid stars on which to rest your eyes.
As the drive reversed, he finally spotted the silhouette
of the Scribe. He made a mask against the surrounding glare with his
hands, and managed to discern some structure. At the top of the machine
was a sphere, rainbow iridescent in the light that grazed it. He knew
it was embossed with a fine pattern of microjets, trillions of tiny
devices capable of firing as few as one or two atoms in any direction.
While the Rindler could keep pace with the border
well enough simply by cruising, the Scribe’s stylus hovered so close
that collisions with interstellar gas, and even the pressure of the
borderlight itself, would have ruined the alignment if left
uncompensated. Presumably, the visitors' own influence would be well
within the machine’s defensive capacities, but to Tchicaya it was both
marvelous and comical that their presence could be accommodated — like a
calligrapher inscribing Gravitation on the head of
a pin, while four fat infants clambered onto the artisan’s shoulders
and proceeded to wrestle.
As the shuttle drew nearer, the Scribe’s modest size
became apparent; it was smaller than one of the Rindler's
modules, forty or fifty meters across, with the sphere of microjets
held out on a boom above a flat deck. The shuttle’s drive made one last
perceptible correction before a series of maneuvers too gentle to feel
brought them into contact with the deck.
Kadir unstrapped himself, and approached the hatch in the
floor of the shuttle. Tchicaya followed him.
"You keep an atmosphere in there?"
Kadir nodded. "People come and go, it’s easiest just to
maintain the pressure."
Tchicaya frowned. "I’m never going to get to use this, am
I?" He pinched the back of his hand to tug on the near-invisible
membrane that he’d sprayed all over his skin; he’d been told it would
let his body survive for up to a week in vacuum, and since it took
three months to grow a new one, that had seemed like a precaution worth
taking. The one thing the suit lacked was reaction mass. If he found
himself drifting toward the border, the best thing to do would be to
broadcast a final backup and resign himself to an interesting local
death.
Kadir said, "I’ll see if I can arrange an opportunity on
the way back." The remark was delivered without obvious malice, but it
was still hard to know how to take it. Since Tchicaya had allowed Yann
to introduce him to the two Preservationists as a fellow partisan, the
tension he’d felt had ebbed and flowed, and he was never sure when to
expect a bit of good-natured teasing, and when to brace himself for a
genuinely chilly rebuff as an enemy of the cause.
Zyfete and Yann joined them as the hatch irised open,
revealing a softly lit tunnel lined with handholds. Tchicaya hung back
until last, not wanting to block anyone’s progress if he froze. The
others all went feetfirst, as if they were descending a ladder, but he
felt more secure crawling along the tunnel, imagining himself more or
less horizontal. He recalled a playground back on Turaev, a maze of
interconnected pipes. When Zyfete glanced up at him and scowled, he
poked his tongue out at her and recited a few lines of childish rhyme.
In spite of herself, she smiled.
The Scribe’s control room was octagonal, with eight
slanted windows facing down toward the border. Judging the distance by
eye was difficult, with no texture to the light to set the scale, but
Tchicaya guessed he was now floating just five or six meters from the
novo-vacuum. He suddenly noticed the beating of his heart, though the
rhythm didn’t feel abnormal; it was a shift in his attention, rather
than a rush of adrenaline. He wasn’t afraid, but he was acutely aware
of his body: the softness and fragility of it, compared to most other
things in the world. It was the way he felt when he found himself
stranded in the middle of a harsh landscape, insufficiently prepared
for its rigors, but not so threatened that he’d simply write off his
current incarnation as unsalvageable. It would take a cosmic disaster
even larger than Mimosa to rob him of more than a few minutes'
memories, but while he inhabited a body he identified with it wholly.
He was in a place where a mishap could shred him into something smaller
than atoms, and under the circumstances he was more than happy to let
instincts predicated on absolute life and death come to the fore and do
their best to protect him.
A bank of displays in the center of the room surrounded
an octagonal dome, the housing for the stylus. Tchicaya watched as
Kadir and Zyfete issued a long series of spoken commands. The lack of
automation was almost ritualistic; he glanced inquiringly at Yann, who
whispered, "It’s a kind of transparency. There are more sophisticated
ways we could monitor each other, but having observers from both sides
at every experiment, and controlling everything with words, keeps the
proceedings out in the open on one level — while we check the equipment
and audit the software with a thousand different kinds of high-powered
tools, offstage."
"That’s so much like Earth-era diplomacy it’s depressing."
Yann smiled. "I knew your arcane knowledge would come in
handy here."
Tchicaya snorted. "Don’t look at me to spout Machiavelli.
If you want that shit, go and dig up an ancient."
"Oh, I’m expecting anachronauts to arrive at the Rindler
any day now — preceded by a few megatonnes of fusion by-products — and
announce that they’ve come to save the universe."
"Any day, or any millennium." It was an eerie prospect to
contemplate. Scattered remnants of pre-Qusp civilization, twenty
thousand or so years old, still chugged between the stars in
spluttering contraptions, spewing spent fuel and taking thousands of
years for every journey. Tchicaya had never met any of the ancients
himself, but his father had encountered one group, which had visited
Turaev long before he was born. None had traveled more than eighty
light-years from Earth, so as yet they hadn’t been endangered by the
novo-vacuum, but unless the Preservationists triumphed, within decades
the anachronauts would face a decision between adopting some of the
hated new technologies and annihilation.
Kadir shot them a disapproving look, as if their
chattering meant they weren’t taking their monitoring role seriously.
Tchicaya had full-sensory recall, regardless of conscious attention,
and Yann would undoubtedly boast something even fancier, but he
disciplined himself and fell silent.
Zyfete was describing a sequence of particles to be
emitted by the stylus. The disaster at Mimosa had provided at least one
compensatory boon: experiments in quantum gravity had become far easier
to perform. The border was only a few Planck lengths deep, providing
experimenters with a tool compared to which an atomic blade would look
wider than a planetary system. While the highest-energy particles the
Scribe could create were laughably blunt instruments, the border itself
could be made to carve them into shrapnel vastly more effective than
each innocuous whole. When the stylus fired a coherent beam of mesons
at the border, the razor wire of disrupted graphs sliced fragments of
their own surreal dimensions from the knot of virtual quarks and gluons
making up each meson, and it was possible to exploit coherence effects
to make some of these fragments act in unison to modify the border
itself. Natural sources of noise had no prospect of accidentally
triggering the same effect, so the kind of exorbitant shielding the
Quietener had used was no longer required.
Kadir turned to look at them inquiringly. Yann nodded
approval. "That’s all as we agreed. Go ahead."
Zyfete addressed the Scribe. "Execute that."
With no perceptible delay, the Scribe began to answer
with the results. Tchicaya’s skin tingled; he’d had no time to remind
himself between risk and reprieve, but they’d just tickled a tiger that
might have responded by raking the four of them into geometric quanta,
swallowing the Rindler a fraction of a millisecond
later, and redoubling its efforts to devour all their distant backups
and more prudent friends.
Kadir started cursing, his Mediator politely tagging the
words with a cue that would shut off translation for anyone inclined to
be offended. Zyfete watched him, anguished but silent.
When the tirade stopped, Tchicaya asked cautiously, "Not
what you were hoping for, but did it tell you anything?"
Kadir kicked the stylus housing, the recoil driving him
back to hit the window behind him with a thud. Tchicaya couldn’t help
wincing; however robust the participants in these collisions, precision
machinery, living flesh, and windows facing interstellar vacuum all
seemed to merit gentler treatment.
Zyfete said, "This sequence was meant to confirm a
previous experiment, but it didn’t yield the same results as the last
time we ran it. Our model can’t explain the discrepancy, either as a
statistical variation, or any predictable change in the novo-vacuum."
Kadir turned and blurted out, "Either you genocidal
traitors have corrupted this machine, or — "
Yann pleaded, "Or what? Give us the
more likely alternative!"
Kadir hesitated, then smiled grimly. "I think I’ll keep
that hypothesis to myself."
Tchicaya was dismayed, though he was prepared to put the
outburst down to frustration, rather than genuine contempt. Both sides
were equally helpless. If this went on, no one was going to get their
own way, and no one was going to forge a compromise. The novo-vacuum
would simply roll on over them.
Halfway back to the Rindler, Kadir
apologized. Tchicaya didn’t doubt his sincerity, though the words were
more formal than friendly. Yann tried to joke with him, making light of
the incident, but Kadir withdrew from the conversation.
When they reached the dock and disembarked, the group
broke apart. Yann wanted to observe some tests on a new spectrometer
package that were being conducted in a workshop higher up in the same
module, but Tchicaya didn’t feel like tagging along, so he headed back
toward his cabin.
He hadn’t expected to witness a breakthrough on the trip,
let alone gain some kind of dramatic insight himself from mere
proximity to the border; he might as well have hoped to learn the
secrets of the ordinary vacuum by gazing into thin air. Nevertheless,
he felt a pang of disappointment. Before he’d arrived, there’d been an
undeniable thrill to the notion of cruising just beyond reach of the
fatal shock wave, and then compounding the audacity by turning around
and studying it. Dissecting the danger, laying it bare. It was like a
legend his mother had told him: in the Age of Barbarism, when humans
had rained bombs on each other from the sky, people called Sappers had
dived from airplanes to fall beside them and defuse them in midair,
embracing the devices like lovers as they reached into their mechanical
hearts and seduced them into betraying their malign creators. But if
aerodynamics rendered this romantic fable unlikely, at least no one had
expected the Sappers to teach themselves nuclear physics from scratch
as they fell, then reach inside each atom of fissile material and pluck
out the destabilizing protons one by one.
Zyfete caught up with Tchicaya on the stairs leading down
to the walkway. She said, "Kadir’s home is this far away from the
border." She held up her hand, thumb and forefinger almost touching.
"Nine thousand years of history. In less than a year, it will be gone."
"I’m sorry." Tchicaya knew better than to respond with
platitudes about history living on in memory. He said, "Do you think I
want to see Zapata destroyed?" She didn’t need to name the planet;
everyone knew the awful schedule by heart. "If we can halt the border
without wiping out the entire novo-vacuum, I’ll back that. I’ll fight
for that as hard as anyone."
Zyfete’s eyes flashed angrily. "How very evenhanded of
you! You’d let us keep our homes, so long as there was no danger of you
losing your precious new toy!"
"It’s not a toy to me," Tchicaya protested. "Was Zapata a toy nine
thousand years ago, when it lay on the frontier?"
"That frontier spread out from Earth,
and it was made up of willing settlers. It didn’t incinerate anyone who
dared to stay put." She scowled. "What do you think you’re going to
find in there? Some great shining light of transcendence?"
"Hardly." Transcendence was a
content-free word left over from religion, but in some moribund
planetary cultures it had come to refer to a mythical process of mental
restructuring that would result in vastly greater intelligence and a
boundless cornucopia of hazy superpowers — if only the details could be
perfected, preferably by someone else. It was probably an appealing
notion if you were so lazy that you’d never actually learned anything
about the universe you inhabited, and couldn’t quite conceive of
putting in the effort to do so: this magical cargo of
transmogrification was sure to come along eventually, and render the
need superfluous.
Tchicaya said, "I already possess general intelligence,
thanks. I don’t need anything more." It was a rigorous result in
information theory that once you could learn in a sufficiently flexible
manner — something humanity had achieved in the Bronze Age — the only
limits you faced were speed and storage; any other structural changes
were just a matter of style. "All I want to do is explore this thing
properly, instead of taking it for granted that it has to be
obliterated for our convenience."
"Convenience?" Zyfete’s face
contorted with outrage. "You arrogant piece of shit!"
Tchicaya said wearily, "If you want to save people’s
homes, you have greater obstacles than me to overcome. Go and comfort
your friend, or go and work on your model. I’m not going to trade
insults with you."
"Don’t you think it’s insult enough that you come here
and announce your intention to interfere, if we ever look like we might
be on the verge of succeeding?"
He shook his head. "The Rindler was
built by a coalition with no agenda beyond studying the novo-vacuum.
The individual members all had their personal goals, but this was meant
to be a platform for neutral observation, not a launching pad for any
kind of intervention."
They’d reached the walkway. Tchicaya kept his eyes cast
down, though he knew it made him look ashamed.
Zyfete said, "The bodiless I can understand: what lies
outside their Qusps is irrelevant to them, so long as they can keep the
same algorithms ticking over. But you’ve felt the wind. You’ve smelled
the soil. You know exactly what we have to lose. How can you despise
everything that gave birth to you?"
Tchicaya turned to face her, angered by her bullying but
determined to remain civil. He said, "I don’t despise anything, and as
I’ve said, if it’s possible, I’ll fight to preserve all the same things
as you. But if all we’re going to do with our precious embodiment is
cling to a few warm, familiar places for the next ten billion years, we
might as well lock ourselves into perfect scapes of those planets and
throw away the key to the outside world."
Zyfete replied coldly, "If you think a marriage has grown
too stale and cozy, I suppose you’d step in and stave one partner’s
head in?"
Tchicaya stopped walking and held up his hands. "You’ve
made yourself very clear. Will you leave me in peace now?"
Zyfete faced him in silence, as if she’d run out of venom
and would have been happy to depart at precisely this moment, if only
he hadn’t asked her. After a delay long enough to preclude the
misconception that she might be doing his bidding, she turned around
and strode back along the walkway. Tchicaya stood and watched her,
surprised at how shaken he was. He’d never concealed his views from the
people he’d lived among — apart from keeping his mouth politely shut in
the presence of anyone in genuine distress — and over the decades he’d
had to develop a thick hide. But the closer he’d come to the source of
the upheaval, the harder he had found it to believe that he was
witnessing an unmitigated tragedy, like the floods and famines of old.
On Pachner, where the sorrow and the turmoil had been at their most
intense, he’d also felt most vindicated. Because beneath all the grief
and fear, the undercurrent of excitement had been undeniable.
If Zyfete’s attack had stung him, though, it was mostly
through the things she hadn’t said. Just being here meant that she had
already left her own home behind, already tasted that amalgam of
liberation and loss. Like Tchicaya, she had paid once, and no one was
going to tell her that the price had not been high enough.
Tchicaya took a shower to wash off his vacuum suit, then
lay on his bed, listening to music, brooding. He didn’t want to spend
every waking moment on the Rindler questioning his
position, but nor did he wish to grow impervious to doubt. He didn’t
want to lose sight of the possibility that he had chosen the wrong side.
If the Preservationists did achieve their goal, the
possibilities offered by the novo-vacuum need not be lost forever.
Whatever was learned in the process of destroying it might open up the
prospect of re-creating it, in a safer, more controlled fashion. In a
few tens of millennia, there could be a whole new universe on their
doorstep again, but this time it would pose no threat to anyone. No one
would be forced from their homes. No one would be made to choose
between exile and adaptation.
And in a few tens of millennia, how much tighter would
the deadening spiral of familiarity have wound itself? If the
nine-thousand-year history of Zapata was too precious to lose, after
ninety thousand years every tradition, every grain of sand on every
inhabited planet, would be positively sanctified.
Still, those who believed they were being smothered could
always flee, as he’d fled Turaev. Those who were happy sleepwalking
into eternity could stay. He had no right to force this cusp on anyone.
He didn’t have the right, but he didn’t have the power
either, nor did he aspire to it. He was only here to state an unpopular
case, and see if anyone could be swayed. If he believed that the
novo-vacuum offered the greatest wealth of opportunities the species
had faced since leaving Earth, what else would it be but cowardice and
dishonesty if he failed to argue against its destruction?
The cabin was beginning to feel less spacious by the
minute. He left it and made his way around the ship, heading for the
garden. He still felt jittery on the walkways, but his confidence was
slowly improving.
The garden was almost deserted. He found a bench that
faced away from the border, offering a view he could take in without
vertigo. The reel of the blue polar stars was slow enough to be
soothing, and with the foliage to break up their perfect arcs the whole
sight seemed less mechanical.
The Doppler shift was a novelty to him, but the motion of
the stars was familiar. The night sky on Turaev had looked just like
this, during a mild Slowdown. The only thing missing was the sun,
rising and setting with each turn.
He’d stood by the crib that would prepare his
body for storage, and his mind for transmission. It had asked him to
state his wishes on the eventual recycling of this, his birth flesh.
His father had pleaded gently, "We could still wait for you. For a
thousand years, if that’s what you need. Say the word, and it will
happen. You don’t have to lose anything."
Someone passing glanced his way, curious at the sight of
an unfamiliar passenger. Their Mediators interacted, and the stranger
requested an introduction. Tchicaya hadn’t asked not to be interrupted,
and he allowed the exchange of information to proceed. Protocols were
established, translators verified, mutually acceptable behavior
delineated. There were no local customs to defer to, here, so their
Mediators virtually flipped a coin to decide the manner in which they
should greet each other.
"I don’t believe we’ve met. My name’s Sophus."
Tchicaya stood and gave his own name, and they touched
each other lightly on the left shoulder. "I’ve only been here a day,"
he explained. "It’s my first time off-planet; I’m still adjusting."
"Do you mind if I join you? I’m waiting for someone, and
this is the nicest spot to do it."
"You’d be welcome."
They sat on the bench. Tchicaya asked, "Who are you
waiting for?"
"Someone who’ll usurp your present role as most junior
arrival. In fact, technically, I suppose she’s already done that, but
she’s not yet in a state to show herself and claim the position."
Tchicaya smiled at the memory of his own appearance in
the crib. "Two arrivals in as many days?" That wouldn’t have been so
strange if someone had been following him from Pachner, but he hadn’t
come across anyone there who’d shared his travel plans. "They’ll be
running out of bodies if this keeps up. We’ll have to squeeze the
ex-acorporeals right into the ship’s processors."
Sophus frowned, mock-reprovingly. "Hey, no
discrimination, please! It’s up to them to volunteer, not us to suggest
it."
"The way they offered to share those cabins, to make room
for new arrivals?"
Sophus nodded, apparently amused by the gesture. Tchicaya
felt a twinge of unease, unsure whether he had just endeared himself to
Sophus with some remarks that had been taken as evidence of bigotry, or
whether he was just being hypersensitive. He wondered how long it would
take Sophus to quiz him about his allegiance; either the answer had
spread through the grapevine already, or Sophus was polite enough to
make small talk for a while, and see if he could extract the
information indirectly.
"Actually, we’ll start some new bodies growing soon,"
Sophus explained. "We were expecting a rush about now — give or take a
decade. People will want to be here, it’s what the models predicted."
Tchicaya was puzzled. "What, because of Zapata?"
Sophus shook his head. "It’s far too late to save Zapata.
Maybe not literally, but most people are realistic enough not to think
that they can turn back the tide at the very last moment. Look a bit
further down the track. A century, a century and a half."
"Ah." In the right company, Tchicaya might have made a
joke of the prospect Sophus was raising, but it wasn’t the kind of
casual blasphemy he’d try out on a stranger. And the truth was, he did
feel genuine sorrow, in some ways deeper than his feelings about
Turaev’s eventual demise. Like the uprooting of some much-loved,
long-sedentary ancestor through whom a scattered family remained in
touch, the exodus of Earth’s people, and the destruction of its soil,
would scar the hearts of even the most cosmopolitan travelers.
"There’s still talk of moving it," Sophus said casually. "Pushing a
white dwarf into the solar system, to carry it away. Sirius
B is the obvious candidate." Tchicaya blinked at him, incredulous. "It
wouldn’t be impossible," Sophus insisted. "When you dump matter on a
white dwarf, it undergoes tidal compression heating. If you do it in
the right way, a significant amount squirts off in jets. If you arrange
for asymmetric jets, and if you have enough mass to play with, you can
achieve a modest net acceleration. Then you get the Earth into orbit
around the star; the acceleration displaces the orbit, but it can still
be bound."
"But to get Sirius B up to half the speed of
light — "
Sophus raised a hand. "I know, I know! You’d have to
gather so much reaction mass, and move all of it so swiftly into place,
the damage would rival Mimosa. To wreak that kind of havoc just to put
the whole ball of rock into exile as an unbroken whole would be like
saving New York from the floods by blasting it all the way to Io. The
only sane response is to work on designing an effective sandbag, while
being prepared to give up gracefully and watch the place sink if that
proves to be impossible."
"Yeah." If Tchicaya remembered the story correctly,
though, while New York hadn’t quite ended up on Io, gracefully
watching the place sink would be putting things charitably.
Hadn’t some famous statue ended up in Paris, and various bridges and
buildings gone to scattered theme parks?
Sophus attended briefly to an internal perception. "My
colleague is on the brink of emerging. Would you like to meet her?"
"I’d be delighted." They rose together and headed for the
stairs. On the walkway, Tchicaya forced himself to keep pace with
Sophus, as if no one would make allowances for his lack of experience
now that he’d ceased to be literally the rawest recruit.
"Where’s she come from?"
"You mean, directly?"
"Yeah. I was on Pachner, and no one else there was
talking about traveling to the Rindler. Maybe I
just didn’t bump into her — "
Sophus shook his head. "She’s been in transit almost a
century, standard time."
That was a long journey. Though it cost you more lost
years in total to travel by an indirect route, breaking up the trip
with as many stops as possible eased the sense of alienation. Whatever
faction she supported, she had to be serious about the cause.
Tchicaya pictured a map of the region. "She’s come from
Chaitin?"
"Right."
"But she wasn’t born there?"
"No. You know, you’ll be able to ask her for her life’s
history directly, in a couple of minutes."
"Sorry." Maybe it was absurd to be so curious about the
newcomer when he still knew next to nothing about the Rindler's
other passengers, but Yann’s gloomy summary, and his own limited
experience, had already made him long for someone who’d shake up the status
quo.
As they crossed the observation deck, the door to the
recovery room opened. Tchicaya smiled in recognition at the newcomer’s
posture: loose-limbed and confident after the kinesthetic retuning,
seizing up for a moment at the sight of the border.
Then he recognized something more, and his own body
turned to stone again.
He didn’t need to check her signature; she hadn’t changed
her appearance since their paths had last crossed. In fact, she hadn’t
changed in four thousand years, since the day they’d first parted.
Tchicaya broke into a run, blind to everything around
him, calling out her name.
"Mariama!"
She turned at the sound. He could see that she was
shocked, and then uncertain how to respond. He halted, not wanting to
embarrass her. It had been twelve hundred years since they’d set eyes
on each other, and he had no idea what she’d make of his presence.
Mariama held out her hands, and he ran forward to grip
them in his own. They whirled around, laughing, surefooted on the
polished floor, leaning back into their own centrifugal force, moving
ever faster, until Tchicaya’s arms ached and his wrists burned and his
vision blurred. But he would not be the one to stop moving, and he
would not be the one to let go.
Chapter 6
Something unseen stung Tchicaya’s hand, a vibration like
a tuning fork held against the bone. He turned and stared at the empty
space beside him, and a dark blur shivered into solidity.
"Quickly! Give your Exoself this code."
No sooner had the data passed between their Mediators
than Tchicaya wished he’d rejected it. He felt as if he’d been tricked
into catching something incriminatory thrown his way, the reflex action
triggered by the object in flight turning out to have been the wrong
response entirely.
"I can’t!"
Mariama said, "No one will ever know. They’re like
statues. You’ll be invisible."
Tchicaya’s heart pounded. He glanced at the door, and
caught himself straining his ears for footsteps, though he knew there’d
be nothing to hear. Could she have really walked through the house
undetected, marching right past his parents in that scandalous state?
"Our Exoselves scan for danger," he protested. "If
anything happens at ordinary speed — "
"Did your Exoself detect me?"
"I don’t know. It might have."
"Did it signal you? Did it bring you out of Slowdown?"
"No." He wasn’t an adult, though. Who knew how
differently theirs were programmed?
"We’ll stay clear of them," Mariama explained. "I’m not
doing this to pick their pockets. If we’re not a threat to anyone, we
won’t trigger any alarms."
Tchicaya stared at her, torn. He had never feared his
parents, but he basked in their approval. It only took the faintest
shadow of disappointment on his father’s face to make him ache with
unhappiness. His parents were good people; valuing their high opinion
was not just childish narcissism. If he did well in their eyes, he
would be respected by everyone. Mariama was only Mariama: a law unto
herself.
She inclined her head. "Please, Tchicaya. It’s fun doing
this, but I’m lonely without you."
"How long have you been out of Slowdown?"
Mariama averted her eyes. "A week."
That hurt. How lonely could she be, if it had taken her a
week to miss him?
She put a hand over her mouth and mumbled, "Or two."
Tchicaya reached out to grab her arm, and she danced back
and vanished from sight. He froze for a second, then rushed for the
door, and stood with his back pressed against it.
He searched the room with his eyes, knowing that it was
pointless looking for her if she did not want to be seen. Shadows slid
across the walls and floor with hypnotic regularity. Lighting panels in
the ceiling came on at night, and softened the changes at dusk and
dawn, but even when he looked away from the window the diurnal cycle
was obvious, everywhere.
Another week had passed, while he stood there. She could
not still be in the room with him; even if she was able to go that long
without food and water, she would have gone mad from boredom.
She reappeared in front of him like a trembling
reflection in a pan of water, jolted into turbulence but quickly
stilled.
"How did you get in?" he demanded.
She pointed a thumb at the window. "The same way I left."
"You’re wearing my clothes!"
Mariama grinned. "They fit me nicely. And I’m teaching
them lots of new tricks." She ran a hand down one sleeve and erased the
old pattern, supplanting it with golden starbursts on black.
Tchicaya knew she was goading him, hoping to prod him
into giving chase. She’d handed him the key; he didn’t need anything
more in order to pursue her. If he gave in and joined her now, at least
he’d be spared an elaborate game of hide-and-seek.
He said, "Two weeks." That sounded more than generous,
and the risk of his parents noticing his absence would be microscopic.
"We’ll see."
Tchicaya shook his head. "I want you to agree to it. Two
weeks, then we both come back."
Mariama chewed her lower lip. "I’m not going to make a
promise I might not be able to keep." Then she read his face, and
relented slightly. "All right! Barring exceptional
circumstances, we’ll come back in two weeks."
Tchicaya hesitated, but he knew that this was the closest
thing to a guarantee he could hope to extract from her.
She held out a hand to him, smiling slightly. Then she
silently mouthed the word Now.
Their Mediators were smart enough to synchronize the
process without needing to be told. Tchicaya sent the code to his
Exoself, and the two of them dropped out of Slowdown together.
Switching the metabolic modes of cells throughout his body, and
reconfiguring all the higher-level systems responsible for maintaining
posture, breathing, circulation, and digestion took nearly fifteen
minutes. The time passed imperceptibly, though, since his Qusp only
resumed its normal rate once his body had completed the shift.
The light in his room had frozen into a late-winter’s
afternoon. He could hear a breeze moving through the trees beside the
house, a different sound entirely to the throb of barometric pressure
changes to which he’d grown accustomed. They were only six civil days
into the Slowdown, but the new rhythms had seeped into his mind more
rapidly than they’d had any right to, as if abetted by some process
that his Exoself had neglected to retard.
Mariama tugged on his hand, pulling him toward the door. "Come on!"
Her expression made a joke of it, but she couldn’t disguise
the note of genuine impatience. They were like lightning now, their
least purposeful meanderings a dazzling feat in everyone else’s eyes,
but that still wasn’t fast enough.
"Not that way." He gestured at the window.
Mariama said accusingly, "You’re afraid to walk past
them."
"Of course." Tchicaya gazed back at her calmly. It was
perfectly reasonable not to want to be discovered, and however skillful
she was at manipulating him, he wasn’t going to be made ashamed of
every last instinct of his own. "It’s safer to use the window. So we’ll
use the window."
Mariama managed to look both amused and martyred, but she
didn’t argue. Tchicaya climbed out, then she followed him, carefully
pulling the hinged pane closed behind her. He was puzzled for a moment;
no one was going to notice an open window in the short time they’d be
gone. But in two weeks, the night frosts would have left an indelible
mark on some of his more fragile possessions.
As they crossed the garden, he said, "Don’t you go home
to sleep?"
"No. I’ve set up camp in the power station. All my food’s
there." She turned to face him, and Tchicaya was sure she was on the
verge of demanding that he go back to the house to pilfer some supplies
of his own, but then she said, "You can share it. I’ve got plenty."
The bright afternoon was eerily quiet, though Tchicaya
doubted that he would have been unsettled if he’d heard no other voices
for a minute, or an hour, on an ordinary day. As they stepped onto the
road, he spotted two other pedestrians in the distance. During
Slowdown, his Exoself had not only reprogrammed his own gait, it had
tweaked his expectations of other people’s appearance: moving with both
feet constantly on the ground, positioning the arms to maximize
stability, had looked as normal as it had felt. With his old notions of
bodily dynamics restored, the pedestrians appeared, not merely frozen,
but cowed and timid, as if they expected an earthquake at any moment.
He looked back at his house, quickly lowering his eyes
from the windows to inspect the garden. Wind and rain could shift soil
and pebbles into unwanted places on a time scale of decades, but the
plants were engineered to herd those unruly elements; he’d watched the
process with his own eyes. Out in the fields, the crops would be
tending themselves, collectively arranging whatever changes they needed
in irrigation and drainage, glorying in the strange seasons of
unharvested bounty.
Tchicaya said, "How did you find the code?" It was the
first Slowdown for both of them; she couldn’t have stored it on a
previous occasion.
Mariama replied casually, "It’s not a big secret. It’s
not buried deep, or encrypted. Don’t you ever examine your Exoself?
Take apart the software?"
Tchicaya shrugged. He’d never even dream of tinkering
with things on that level: his Exoself, his Mediator. Next thing you
were probing the working of your own Qusp, dissecting your own mind. He
said, "I only take things apart if I can survive not putting them back
together."
"I’m not stupid. I make backups."
They’d reached the park. Four giant hexapods huddled
motionless in a corner. The decorative robots consisted of nothing but
six coiled legs, arranged as three pairs that met at right angles in
the center. If they’d been endowed with even the mildest form of
sentience, they would have gone insane from the lack of stimulation,
but they were little more than pattern-recognizers on springs.
Mariama ran up to them and clapped her hands. The nearest
one stirred sluggishly, shifting its center of mass and wobbling on the
tripod of the three legs currently touching the ground. She started
dancing back and forth, encouraging it, and it began to tumble for her.
Tchicaya watched, laughing, biting back an admonition: someone
would notice that they’d moved, and know that the Slowdown had been
violated. He doubted that the hexapods had memories, but
there was machinery everywhere, monitoring the streets, guarding the
town against unlikely dangers. The fact that they hadn’t woken anyone
didn’t prove that they wouldn’t be found out in the end.
Mariama weaved between the robots. "Aren’t you going to
help me?"
"Help you do what?" She’d managed to get all four of them
moving simultaneously, without his aid. Tchicaya hadn’t played with
them since he was an infant, but he’d never been able to hold the
attention of more than one at a time.
"Make them collide."
"They won’t do that."
"I want to get their legs tangled together. I don’t think
they understand that that can happen."
"You’re a real sadist," he protested. "Why do you want to
confuse them?"
Mariama rolled her eyes. "It can’t hurt them. Nothing
can."
"It’s not them I’m worried about. It’s the fact that you
enjoy it."
She kept her eyes on him without breaking step. "It’s
just an experiment. It’s not malicious. Why do you always have to be
such a prig?"
Tchicaya felt a surge of anger, but he fought it down and
replied pleasantly, "All right, I’ll help you. Tell me what to do." He
caught the flicker of disappointment in her eyes before she smiled and
started issuing detailed instructions.
The hexapods were primitive, but their
self-and-environment model was more reliable than Mariama had imagined.
After fifteen minutes trying to trick them into tying their legs into
knots, she finally gave up. Tchicaya collapsed on the grass,
breathless, and she joined him.
He stared up into the sky. It had grown pale already,
almost colorless. It had been summer when the Slowdown began; he’d
forgotten how short the winter days were.
Mariama said, "Has anyone you know even heard
of Erdal?"
"No."
She snorted, her expectations confirmed. "He probably
lives on the other side of the planet."
"So? Do you want half the planet to go into Slowdown, and
the other half not?" Everyone on Turaev was connected somehow. While
Erdal traveled, the whole world would wait for him, together. It was
either that, or they broke into a thousand shards.
Mariama turned to face him. "You know why they do it,
don’t you?"
It was a rhetorical question. People always had an
ulterior motive, and Tchicaya had always been taken in by their
explanations. He squirmed like an eager child and asked with mock
excitement, "No, tell me!"
Mariama shot him a poisonous look, but refused to be
sidetracked. "Guilt. Cosmic apron strings. Do you
think poor Erdal would dare not come home, with nine million people
holding their breath for him?"
Tchicaya knew better than to dispute this claim directly;
instead, he countered, "What’s so bad about Slowdown? It doesn’t hurt
anyone."
Mariama was venomous. "While every other civilized planet
is flowering into something new, we do nothing and go nowhere, ten
thousand times more ponderously than before."
"Lots of other planets do Slowdown."
"Not civilized ones."
Tchicaya fell silent. A faint star had appeared directly
above him, even before the sun had fully set.
He said, "So you’ll leave one day? For good?" The
question produced an odd, tight sensation in his windpipe. He’d never
lost synch with anyone; he couldn’t imagine that kind of unbridgeable
separation.
"No."
He turned to her, surprised. She said, "I plan to whip
the whole planet into life, instead. Anything less would just be
selfish, wouldn’t it?"
The machinery inside the power station was robust and
intelligent enough to defend itself, and to safeguard any visitors,
without the need for high fences or locked doors. Tchicaya remembered
the place as being noisier the last time he’d explored it, but Slowdown
had reduced the flow of waste from the town to an inaudible trickle.
Energy was extracted from the waste by an enzyme-driven electrochemical
process that he was yet to study in detail; fortunately, some of the
energy ended up as heat, and even the diminished output was enough to
make the building habitable at night. Mariama had made a nest of
blankets right up against the coolant pipes that led to the radiator
fins on the roof.
Tchicaya sniffed the air cautiously, but there was no
trace of the usual offensive odor, maybe because there was not only
less sewage passing through, but the undiminished runoff from the
fields was diluting it. There was a strange, boiled-vegetable smell to
the place, but it was nothing he couldn’t tolerate.
Mariama had stockpiled cans of food, self-heating rations
of the kind people took into the untouched, frozen lands to the south.
It must have taken her a while to build up the collection without
attracting suspicion. She handed him a can, and he pressed the tab to
start it heating.
"How long were you planning this?" he asked.
"A bit more than a year."
"That’s before I even knew Erdal would be traveling."
"Me too. I just wanted to be prepared, whenever it
happened."
Tchicaya was impressed, and a little daunted. It was one
thing to watch the sun and the stars racing around the sky, and think: what
if I could be as fast as them? Plotting to break out of
Slowdown before she’d even experienced it required an entirely
different line of thought.
"What were you doing? Before you came to my house?"
She shrugged. "Just exploring. Messing about. Being
careful not to wake the drones."
Tchicaya felt his face harden at this contemptuous
phrase, but then he wondered how much allowance to make for the fact
that she was always striving to provoke him. The calculations became so
difficult at times, it drove him mad. He wanted the two of them to be
straightforward with each other, but he doubted that would ever be her
style. And he didn’t want her to be different, he didn’t want her to
change.
He opened the can and hunched over his meal, unsure what
his face was betraying.
After they’d eaten, they switched off the lamp and lay
beneath the blankets, huddled together. Tchicaya was self-conscious at
first, as if the contented glow he felt at the warmth of her body
against his was at risk of turning into something more complicated, but
he knew that it was still physically impossible for anything sexual to
happen between them. The prospect of that guarantee eventually failing
disturbed him, but it couldn’t vanish overnight.
Mariama said, "Two weeks isn’t long enough. You need to
walk out of your room a centimeter taller: just enough to make your
parents feel something is wrong, without being able to put their finger
on it."
"Go to sleep."
"Or learn something you didn’t know. Amaze them with your
erudition."
"Now you’re just mocking me." Tchicaya kissed the back of
her head. He immediately wished he hadn’t done it, and he waited,
tensed, for some kind of rebuke. Or worse, some attempt to move further
along a path on which he’d never meant to set foot.
But Mariama lay motionless in the darkness, and after a
while he began to wonder if she’d even noticed. Her hair was thick at
the back, and his lips had barely brushed a few loose strands.
In Tchicaya’s view, the town’s effective desertion didn’t
render it more interesting, and the freedom to wander the streets and
fields at any hour was less appealing now, in winter, than in the
ordinary summers when it was barely curtailed by parental authority
anyway. Tchicaya thought of suggesting that they drop back into
Slowdown and reemerge when the weather was warmer, but he was afraid of
compromising their original deal. If he didn’t stick to the letter of
it, he could forget about holding Mariama to her word.
Mariama wanted to catch a train to Hardy, further if
possible, preferably circumnavigating the entire continent. In one
weird concession to practicality, the trains moved at their ordinary
speed, whisking commuters to their destinations in an eye blink.
Understandably, though, departures were rare, and on examining the
schedules it turned out that they could not have traveled anywhere and
back in less than ten years.
Tchicaya did his best to keep Mariama distracted,
terrified that she might harbor a yearning for sabotage that went
beyond playground equipment. She’d know it was futile to hope to
succeed in damaging any of the town’s infrastructure, but he could
picture her delight at sirens wailing and people shuddering into motion
around her. This image might have been unfair, but there was no point
asking her for assurances; at best, that would only offend her, and at
worst it might tempt her to act out his fears. So he tried to go along
with any suggestions she made that weren’t completely outlandish, but
only after putting up enough resistance to keep her from becoming too
bored, or too suspicious of his compliance.
On their tenth night out of Slowdown, Tchicaya was woken
by lukewarm fluid dripping onto his face. He opened his eyes in the
pitch blackness, and rashly poked his tongue out to sample the fluid.
It was water, but it had a complicated, slightly metallic taint. He
pictured a crack in the ceiling, the heat from the radiator fins above
them on the roof melting the surrounding frost.
He slid out from the blankets without waking Mariama, and
groped for the lamp. When he held it up, a faint liquid sheen was
visible snaking down one thick coolant pipe, collecting in drops at a
right-angled bend above the cushion where his head had lain.
Mariama stirred, then shielded her eyes. "What is it?"
"Just some water from the roof. We might have to shift."
He moved the lamp about, hunting for leaks along the other pipes. Then
something different caught his eye, a flash of iridescent colors at the
very top of the pipe that had proved to be the original culprit. "Is
that oil?" Why would there be oil leaking from the roof? As far as
Tchicaya knew, the plant’s few moving parts were all inside the
building, and they’d all be molecularly smooth if they made physical
contact with each other at all. Maybe flakes of ice could catch the
light like that. But what could make them thin and flat enough?
There was sure to be a simple answer, but the puzzle
gnawed at him. It was cold, and part of him wanted nothing more than to
curl up beneath the blankets again — but what was the point of achieving
a state in which no one could tell him to stop worrying and leave it
till morning, if he didn’t take advantage of his freedom to act on his
curiosity immediately?
He said, "I’m going up on the roof."
Mariama blinked at him in the lamplight, apparently at a
loss for words.
Tchicaya put on his shoes and walked outside, taking the
lamp with him.
He circled the building twice, before settling on a
sturdylooking drainpipe. The lamp was attached to a chain; he hung it
around his neck, like a pendant worn backward, and gripped the
drainpipe between his forearms and knees. There were no handholds, and
the frosted surface was slippery. The first time he found himself
sliding back down, he panicked and almost let go, but the friction from
the polymer surface was never enough to really hurt him. After ending
up back on the ground twice, he found that if he tightened his grip the
instant he began to slip, he could bring himself to a halt in a
fraction of a second, and retain most of his hard-won altitude.
He reached the roof with his limbs numb and his chest
soaked in icy perspiration. He crouched on the sloped tiles, flapping
his arms vigorously to try to restore the circulation, until he
realized that this was driving him slowly backward toward the
sevenmeter drop behind him. If he did real damage to his birth flesh,
there’d be no prospect of concealing it from his parents. And to take
on a new body at the age of twelve would make him a laughingstock for
centuries.
He rose up on his haunches and waddled across the roof,
as wary of gravity now as if he’d been back in Slowdown. He had no idea
whether he was heading in the right direction; the dark shapes looming
ahead of him might have been anything. He stopped to work the lamp
around from his back to a more useful position, and noticed a long gash
along the inside of his right leg, wet with blood. Something had cut
him as he’d slipped along the drainpipe, but the wound wasn’t painful,
so it couldn’t be too deep.
Up close, the radiator fins were massive, each as wide as
his outstretched arms. He ambled around the structure, shining the lamp
into the angled gaps between the fins, hunting for the source of the
leak.
Mariama called out to him, "What have you found?" She was
outside, on the ground somewhere.
"Nothing, yet."
"Do you want me to come up?"
"Suit yourself." He felt a twinge of guilt at the way
that would sound, but it was hardly an expression of lofty disdain by
the standards she’d set. This was the first thing he’d done since he’d
joined her that wasn’t part of some complicated strategy to please her,
or confound her. He had to be indifferent to her, just this once, or
he’d go mad.
When the lamplight finally returned the rainbow sheen
he’d glimpsed from inside the building, it was unmistakable. An
irregular, glistening patch of some filmy substance covered half the
fin. Tchicaya approached, and touched it with a fingertip. The
substance was slightly sticky, and the film clung to his finger for a
fraction of a millimeter as he pulled away. When it parted from his
skin he could feel it snap back elastically, rather than tearing like
something viscous and treacly. He held his finger up for inspection;
the skin was unstained, and when he rubbed it against his thumb there
was no moisture or slickness at all. This wasn’t any kind of oil he’d
seen before, and it definitely wasn’t ice.
He held the lamp closer to the surface, hunting for some
sign of a damaged coolant channel. This had to be the residue left
behind by a leak, though why the coolant would contain some sticky
impurity was beyond him. Antifreeze? He was shivering with cold, but he
was in a stubborn frame of mind.
A small hole appeared in the film at the center of the
circle of lamplight, and grew before his eyes. He held the lamp as
still as he could; once the boundary of the film had retreated into the
penumbra cast by the lamp’s housing, the hole stopped growing.
Tchicaya moved the lamp to another spot. The same thing
happened: the lamplight seemed to melt the film away. But the beam
carried no heat whatsoever. Was it driving some kind of photochemical
reaction?
He turned back to the original rent in the film. It had
shrunk to half the size it had grown to when he moved the lamp away. He
made a hole in the film in a third location, then took the lamp back to
inspect the second hole. It was closing up, too.
Tchicaya stepped out from the gap between the fins and
sat huddled on the roof tiles, his teeth chattering. Maybe the light
broke up whatever molecules the film was made from, while the chemical
process that had formed it in the first place rebuilt it when he took
the light away. Some mixtures of simple chemicals could behave in a
complicated fashion. He had no right to start summoning up phrases from
his biology lessons, like negative phototropism.
His arms were shaking. Mariama had been silent since
their last exchange; she had probably gone back to bed.
He rose to his feet, and scrupulously searched the other
parts of the radiator, but it was only one side of one fin that bore
any visible trace of the film.
He took a knife from his pocket, opened it, and scraped
it over the film. The surface appeared unchanged, but when he lifted
the knife there was a waxy residue visible along the edge of the blade.
He walked around the structure, counting the fins as he
went, orienting himself with the stars. He closed his eyes and pictured
the arc the sun would make as it crossed the sky; it was an easier task
now than it would have been before he’d sat for a year in the front
room of his house and watched the ribbon of fire shift with the
seasons. He stepped between two of the fins and dislodged whatever had
adhered to the knife onto the clean surface of the radiator.
He looked up at the sky again. A million stars, a million
dead worlds. Only four planets had ever held anything different. His
hunch was sure to be disproved, but the prospect only made him smile.
There were some things so large and outlandish that you could only wish
for them with your tongue in your cheek, and to be disappointed when
they failed to appear would be like throwing a tantrum and cursing the
world because the sun failed to rise at your beck and call.
He made his way to the edge of the roof, his breath
frosting in front of him.
As he was climbing down the drainpipe, his leg began to
throb. His body had managed to close the wound, and now it was warning
him not to break the temporary seal of collagen it had woven across the
gap in his skin. As he adjusted his legs to shift the pressure away
from the cut, Tchicaya made a decision: he wanted to remember this
night, he wanted it to leave a mark. He instructed his Exoself never to
permit the cells of his skin to grow back in their normal pattern
across the wound. For the first time, he would let the world scar him.
"Why do we need to borrow your parents' ladder?"
Tchicaya waved Mariama back from the toolshed. "I’m
hoping it won’t trigger any alarms. If I tried to borrow someone
else’s, that might look like I was stealing." He didn’t want her taking
part in the act, though. That the house had permitted her to enter
uninvited, and even borrow his clothes without his permission, proved
that it was prepared to show some tolerance toward his friends. His
parents had never been obsessed with safeguarding their possessions, so
it was not surprising that they hadn’t programmed any paranoid,
hair-trigger responses. He didn’t want to push his luck, though.
When he emerged from the shed, Mariama said, "Yes, but
what do we need it for? What’s so interesting, up
on the roof?"
Tchicaya swung the ladder toward her, making her jump
back. "Probably nothing." He had planned to show her the film on the
coolant pipes inside the building when she woke that morning, but by
daylight the sight had been so drab and uninspiring that he’d changed
his mind; she’d probably looked herself, and seen nothing but a mild
discoloration. She’d laugh at his naiveté when he finally
described his experiment, but he didn’t care. "We’ll find out tonight."
Mariama was puzzled. "What’s to stop me going up there
before nightfall?"
Tchicaya tightened his grip on the ladder, but even if he
could keep it from her, she wouldn’t need it.
He said, "Nothing. I’m asking you to wait, that’s all."
This answer seemed to please her. She smiled back at him
sunnily.
"Then I’ll wait."
The ladder couldn’t stretch to the full height of the
roof, and Tchicaya had to argue with it before it would extend itself
at all.
"It’s not safe," the ladder wailed.
"I’ve already been up there once, without any help from
you," he protested. He showed it his new pink scar. "I’ll climb up the
drainpipe again if I have to. You can either make this as safe as
possible, or you can stay on the ground and be completely useless."
The ladder gave in. Tchicaya gripped the bottom end
firmly while a wave of deformation swept along the length of the
device. As the side rails stretched, material was redistributed into
new rungs. In its final shape, paper-thin, the ladder was still a meter
too short to touch the edge of the roof, but it would bring it within
reach.
Mariama said, "After you."
Tchicaya had planned to follow her up, so he’d have a
chance to catch her if she slipped, but he’d been assuming that she’d
demand to go first anyway, so he had no argument prepared. He mounted
the ladder and began to ascend. He didn’t need to look down to know
when she’d joined him; he could feel the structure vibrating with a
second load.
If she did fall and injure herself, she could retreat at
will into the painless world of her Qusp. An accident would mean
discovery and shame, but no great suffering. Yet Tchicaya’s hands shook
at the thought of it, and he could not imagine feeling differently. The
structure of his mind had been passed down with only a few small
modifications from the original human form, shaped by evolution in the
Age of Death, leaving him with the choice between embracing its
impulses in all their absurdity — like ancient figures of speech whose
literal meaning bore no resemblance to anything people still did — or
struggling to invent a whole new vocabulary to replace them. If you
cared about someone, what could replace the sick feeling of the misery
you’d feel if they came to harm? The bodiless, he knew, had found their
own, varied answers, but the idea that he might one day do the same
made him giddy.
He peered down.
Mariama said, "What?"
"Nothing."
The long climb was far easier than it had been the night
before, but Tchicaya found the act of reaching back to grab hold of the
gutter a lot more disconcerting while perched on the top rung of the
ladder than when he’d gripped the drainpipe firmly with his legs. He
hoisted himself up and clambered onto the roof, then moved away from
the edge quickly so he wouldn’t be in Mariama’s way. Seconds later, she
was beside him.
"We should have used ropes, and grappling hooks," she
said. "Like they do on mountains."
"I never thought of that," Tchicaya admitted.
"I was joking."
"It might have been fun, though." It might have been
safer.
"Are you going to let me in on the big secret now?"
Tchicaya feigned indifference. "I did warn you: there’s
probably nothing to see." He aimed the lamp’s beam across the roof, but
deliberately kept it low. "This way."
They crossed the tiles together in silence. When they
reached the radiator, Tchicaya showed her the patch of iridescent film
he’d discovered the night before.
Mariama examined it. Tchicaya had half-expected her to
identify the substance immediately, puncturing his fantasy with a far
simpler explanation, but she was as baffled as he was. When he showed
her how the film responded to the lamplight, she said, "Is that why you
thought there’d be nothing here? You expected the sunlight to destroy
it?"
"No. This surface ought to be in the shade all day."
"It would still get some light from the sky, though."
"That’s true," he conceded. "But if it was there last
night, it either had to be able to survive that much indirect sunlight,
or it had to have formed after sunset, at least once. So why wouldn’t
it be here again?"
Mariama nodded patiently. "All right. So what were you
warning me not to expect?"
Tchicaya’s throat tightened. "I scraped some off, and put
it on another fin. One that should have been about equally shaded. To
see if it would…" He couldn’t say the word.
"To see if it would grow?"
He nodded stupidly.
Mariama whooped with delight. "Where!" She clutched at
the lamp, but when he held on to it she didn’t fight him for it.
Instead, she took hold of his arm and said, "Will you show me? Please?"
They stumbled around the radiator, helping each other
stay balanced. Tchicaya told himself he didn’t care what they found;
when there turned out to be nothing, they could laugh at his grandiose
delusions together.
"This is the one." He aimed the lamp into the
wedge-shaped space between the fins, but he couldn’t hold it still. "Do
you see anything?"
Mariama put an arm around him, steadying his whole body
to steady the lamp.
There was a patch of the film in front of them, an oval
about the size of his hand, at exactly the height where he would have
scraped the knife clean.
Mariama took the lamp, and knelt to inspect the patch
more closely. It began to shrink immediately; she pulled the light away.
"This wasn’t here last night?"
"No."
"So it must be a new…" She struggled for the right word.
"Colony? Do you think that’s what it is?"
"I don’t know."
She turned to him. "But it is alive? It has to be!"
Tchicaya was silent for a moment. He’d thought the result
would settle the issue, but now he was having second thoughts. The
evidence was still too flimsy to support the extraordinary conclusion.
"There are chemicals that do some strange things," he said. "I’m not
sure what this proves."
Mariama rose to her feet. "We have to wake someone, and
show them. Right now."
Tchicaya was horrified. "But then they’ll know what we
did.
They’ll know we broke Slowdown."
"No one will care. Don’t you know how rare this is?"
He nodded. "But you promised me — "
Mariama laughed. "We’re not going to be in trouble! This
is a thousand times more important!"
Apart from Earth itself, native life had only been found
on three worlds. Simple and microbial, but in each case unique. Every
biosystem used different chemistry, different methods of gathering
energy, different structural units, different ways of storing and
transmitting information. On the crassest, most pragmatic level, this
knowledge might be of little value: technology had long ago surpassed
nature’s ability to do all of these things efficiently. But each rare
glimpse at a separate accident of biogenesis cast light on the nature
and prospects of life. The roof of this building would become the most
talked-about location for a hundred light-years.
Tchicaya said, "What if it’s something we brought
ourselves? That wouldn’t be much of a discovery."
"Such as what? Nothing we brought can mutate freely:
every cell in every crop, every cell in our bodies, has fifty different
suicide enzymes that kill off the lineage at the first genetic error.
This could no more be ours than if they found some
strange machine out in the ice that nobody owned up to making."
Tchicaya was growing tired of trying to keep his balance
on the sloping roof; he sat down, his back slumped against the fin. It
was lukewarm, body temperature. Once Slowdown ended, it would be hotter
than the boiling point of water. So which extreme did the
native life favor? Had it grown here before the Slowdown,
and then managed to cling on in the relative cool? Or had it blown out
of the icy wastes and only colonized the radiator once the Slowdown had
rendered this tiny niche benign?
Mariama sat beside him. "We’ll have to leave," she said.
"Can’t that wait until morning?"
"I don’t mean us, now. We’ll have to leave Turaev. They’ll
evacuate the planet. We’ll all have to go somewhere else."
She smiled, and added with a kind of mock jealousy, "I always wanted to
be the one to shake this place out of its stupor. But it looks as if
you’ve beaten me to it."
Tchicaya sat motionless, scowling slightly. The words
refused to sink in. He knew that she was right: it was a universal
principle, accepted by every space-faring culture. In each of the other
three cases, the planet in question had been strictly quarantined and
left to its own fate. Only one of those worlds had been settled,
though. Native life was supposed to have been ruled out, long before
the colonists' first spores were launched. However microscopic, and
however sparsely distributed, it should have left some detectable
chemical signature in the atmosphere.
Tears stung his eyes. In his euphoria, he’d never thought
beyond the unlikely confirmation that his own world, his own town, held
the fourth known example of extraterrestrial life. He could have lived
down the shame of this childish escapade, half-excused by that
serendipitous discovery. But he’d been more than disobedient, more than
disrespectful of the customs that bound the people of Turaev together.
He’d destroyed their whole world.
He didn’t want to weep in front of Mariama, so he
stammered out an incoherent stream of words instead. Everything he’d
planned, everything he’d pictured for the future, had just turned to
ashes. He might have traveled one day, like Erdal, but he would never
have left his friends and family behind, never lost synch. Fifty-nine
generations had made this planet their home; he could never belong
anywhere else. Now it would all be torn away from him. And nine million
people would suffer the same fate.
When he stopped to catch his breath, Mariama said
soothingly, "Everything here can be moved! Every building, every field.
You could wake up on New Turaev, a thousand light-years away, and if
you didn’t check the stars you’d never know."
Tchicaya replied fiercely, "You know it will never happen
like that! Five minutes ago, you were crowing about it!" He wiped his
eyes, struggling not to turn his anger against her. He’d always
understood what she wanted; he had no right to blame her for that. But
any reassurance she offered him was hollow.
Mariama fell silent. Tchicaya buried his head in his
hands. There was no escape for him: only adults had the right to shut
down their Qusp, to choose extinction. If he threw himself from the
roof and broke his spine, if he doused himself in oil and set himself
alight, it would only make him more contemptible.
Mariama put an arm around his shoulders. "On how many
worlds," she said, "do you think they’ve found life?"
"You know the answer. Three, since Earth."
"I don’t know that. There might have been ten. There
might have been hundreds."
Tchicaya’s skin crawled. He looked up and searched her
eyes in the starlight, wondering if she was testing him. What she was
proposing now was infinitely worse than anything they’d done so far.
She said, "If you believe it will hurt so many people, so
badly, then I’ll listen to you." Tears were trickling down his cheeks
again; she wiped them away with the back of her hand. "I’ll trust you."
Tchicaya looked away. She had the power to incinerate
everything around her, the power to break through every stifling
absurdity she’d railed against from the day they’d met. When they’d
spoken of the future, it was all she had ever talked about: finding a
way to force the world to change. Now she could gut the planet with its
own stupid rules, and nothing would ever be the same.
Unless he asked her to stay her hand.
Tchicaya slept through the end of Erdal’s Slowdown, and
woke from deep dreams, refreshed but disoriented. He lay in bed,
listening to the wind, thinking over what had happened in the last two
hundred and seventy-two years.
Erdal had traveled to Gupta, a hundred and thirty-six
light-years away, and stayed for ten days. When he rose from the crib,
back in his birth flesh, he would find that ten days had passed on
Turaev, too. He would be the one bearing news, eagerly describing his
travels to his family and friends. He would not be a stranger to them,
greeted with an incomprehensible litany of change.
The whole planet had waited for him. What else should
they have done? Turaev’s sun would burn for four billion years. How
much greed and impatience would it take to begrudge the wait, to cast
someone aside for the sake of a few centuries?
Tchicaya felt more pride than guilt. Despite his lapse,
his heart was still in the right place, and he had resolved never to be
so weak again.
As he was dressing, his gaze ran over the scar on his
leg. His was sure that his parents had noticed it, but neither of them
had asked him to explain its meaning. It was his right to decide who to
tell, and when.
Above the scar, between his legs, the skin was newly red
and swollen. Tchicaya sat on the edge of his bed and probed the
swelling gingerly. Touching it was like tickling himslef; it made him
smile faintly, but there was no disguising the fact that he’d much
rather be tickled by someone else.
He finished dressing, moving about the room slowly. He
hadn’t thought it would happen so soon. Some people were fourteen,
fifteen, sixteen. He was tall, but he wasn’t strong for his age. He was
nothing like his mother or father yet. He wasn’t ready. It was some
kind of sickness, some kind of mistake.
He sat down on the bed again, trying not to panic.
Nothing was irreversible yet. Whatever his body was constructing might
take another year to be completed; the first time always took longer.
And he could still change his mind, change his feelings. Everything was
voluntary, his father had explained. Unless you loved someone deeply,
and unless they felt the same way toward you, neither of you could grow
what you both needed to make love together.
Tchicaya exposed the raw skin again, and stared down
glumly at the formless nub. Every couple grew something different, just
as every couple would have a different child. The molecules that had
already passed between them in the air would determine the pair of
shapes that formed. The two of them would be bound together then,
literally remade for each other, even the chemical signals that gave
them pleasure fitting together in a complementary pattern as unique as
their interlocking flesh.
Tchicaya whispered, "I don’t love you. You’re nothing to
me. I don’t love you." He would picture her face and recite the words
every day, once when he rose and once before he slept. If he was strong
enough, stubborn enough, his body would have to listen.
Chapter 7
Sophus was far too tactful to ask Tchicaya how he and
Mariama knew each other; it must have been obvious that the answer was
long, complicated, and largely none of his business. Tchicaya
volunteered the bare minimum that the situation seemed to require. "We
grew up together, in the same town on Turaev," he explained. "It’s been
a while since we last ran into each other."
When Mariama asked to hear what was happening on the Rindler,
Tchicaya deferred to Sophus, who took up the task of outlining some
seventeen decades' worth of advances and disappointments. Tchicaya
listened politely, hoping Mariama was taking in more than he was. His
thoughts were still so scattered by the shock of her arrival that he
gave up trying to pay attention; he could replay the whole conversation
later.
As Sophus talked, the three of them strolled around the
ship. Mariama was unfazed by the view from the walkways; she might not
have been this close to the border before, but apparently she’d become
accustomed to space. Then again, it would not have surprised him if she
had decided to choose equanimity in the new environment by fiat, even
if this was her first time off-planet.
When Tchicaya tuned in to the discussion again, Mariama
was saying, "So there’s no prospect of using universality-class
arguments to design a generally effective Planck worm, before we pin
down the detailed physics?"
Sophus said, "Tarek has looked into that, and even tried
some experiments, but I believe it’s a dead end. For a start, we still
don’t know what the bulk symmetries of this system are. I’ve more or
less given up talking about the novo-vacuum; it’s too misleading.
What vacuum? We don’t know that there’s state that lies in the null
space of all annihilation operators for the Mimosan seed particles. And
if there is such a state, we don’t know that it will obey anything
remotely analogous to Lorentz invariance. Whatever’s behind the border
might not even posses any kind of time-translation symmetry."
"You’re joking!"
"No. In fact, it’s looking more likely every day." Sophus
glanced at Tchicaya meaningfully, as if he was waiting for the
Preservationists' laudable openness to be acknowledged.
Tchicaya said, "That’s right. I watched one experiment
myself, just a few hours ago." Mariama smiled at him, envious at this
slight head start.
He smiled back at her, hoping his face wasn’t betraying
his confusion. At the instant he’d seen her standing on the observation
deck, he hadn’t consciously assumed anything about the faction she’d be
joining; such ephemeral concerns had been swept from his thoughts
entirely. Now that she’d casually revealed in passing that she’d come
here to support the side that he would have sworn she’d be committed to
opposing, the one part of his mind that resonated with this fact was
the oldest, crudest model he had of her: someone whose only role in
life was to confound and unsettle him. The original Mariama, who he had
imagined would go to any lengths, not so much to spite him as to prove
that he had no hope of pinning her down.
Tchicaya dragged his thoughts back to Sophus’s comments.
Kadir and Zyfete had been nowhere near as explicit, but
then they’d not been in the friendliest of moods. Kadir’s despair made
more sense now, though; it went beyond his growing fears for his home
world, and one more ordinarily frustrating encounter with the border.
Time-translation symmetry was the key to all their hopes
of predicting how the novo-vacuum would behave. In ordinary physics, if
two people performed the same experiment, one starting work at midnight
while the other began at noon, their separate versions could be
compared, very easily: you merely added or subtracted half a day, and
all their data could be superimposed. That sounded too obvious to be
worth stating, but the fact that it was possible, and the fact that any
laws of physics had to be compatible with this process of sliding the
two sequences of events together, was a powerful constraint on the
forms such laws could take.
Everything that happened in the universe was unique, on
some level. If that were not true, there’d be no such thing as memory,
or history; there’d be no meaningful chronology at all. At the same
time, it was always possible to unpick some features of an event from
the complicated tapestry of its context, and demand that this tiny
patch of reality look the same as countless others, once you knew how
to orient them all for the purpose of comparison. Taking a step north
on Turaev on your eighteenth birthday could never be the same as taking
a step west on Pachner four thousand years later, but in analyzing
these two admittedly singular activities, you could safely abstract the
relevant joints and muscles from the surrounding thicket of
biographical and planetological detail, and declare that the applicable
laws of mechanics were precisely the same in both cases.
It had been obvious since the accident that whatever the
Mimosans had created in the Quietener did not possess the same
symmetries as ordinary space-time, which allowed the unique location,
time, orientation, and velocity of any physical system to be stripped
away, revealing its essential nature. Still less had anyone expected
the Mimosan vacuum to obey the "internal" symmetries that rendered an
electron’s phase or a quark’s color as arbitrary as the choice of a
planet’s prime meridian.
But everyone studying the novo-vacuum had been relying on
the assumption that these familiar regularities had merely been
replaced by more exotic ones. Mathematicians had long had a catalog of
possibilities on offer that dwarfed those realized in nature: more or
fewer dimensions, different invariant geometric structures, novel Lie
groups for the transformations between particles. All of these things
would be strange to encounter, but ultimately tractable. And at the
very least, it had been taken for granted that there was some prospect
of using the results of sufficiently simple experiments to deduce what
would happen when those experiments were repeated. Once you lost that,
prediction in the conventional sense became impossible. You might as
well try to guess who you’d meet in a crowded theater on Quine by
consulting the guest list for an opening night of Aeschylus.
Tchicaya said, "If you’re right, we’re wasting our time
here."
Sophus laughed. "I wish all Yielders were so easily
discouraged."
Tchicaya caught the change in Mariama’s demeanor as he
was finally labeled for her. She did not appear surprised, or cooler
toward him, but a look of resignation crossed her face, as if she was
letting other possibilities slip away.
He replied, "I didn’t say I believed you. Now I know
you’re just spreading misinformation."
Sophus said, "The data’s all public; you should judge for
yourself. But I’m giving a presentation later today that might interest
you."
"On why we should all give up and go home? Yielders
first, of course."
"No. On why we shouldn’t, even if I’m right."
Tchicaya was intrigued. "Dishing out despair with one
hand, taking it away with the other. You’re never going to drive us
away like that."
"I’m really not interested in driving anyone away,"
Sophus protested. "The more people there are working on this, the
sooner we’ll understand it. I’m happy to share my ideas with
everyone — and if some Yielder beats me to the punch line because of it,
and fails to show reciprocal generosity, what have I lost?"
"You’re not afraid we’ll get through the border first?
And shore up what you hope to annihilate?"
Sophus smiled amiably. "There might come a point when
that’s a real threat. If I’m ever convinced that we’ve reached it, I
suppose I might change my strategy. For now, though, it’s like a game
of Quantum Pass-the-Parcel: all the players work simultaneously to tear
off the wrapping, and all the players share the benefits. Why convert
to the classical version? This is faster, and much more enjoyable."
Tchicaya let the argument rest. It would have been
impolite to state the obvious: when Sophus finally decided that sharing
his insights had become too risky, it would not be to his advantage to
announce the fact. At that point, the most logical strategy would be to
continue displaying the same generosity as he’d shown in the past, but
to replace the genuine, hard-won conjectures he’d revealed to his
opponents in the past with equally well-crafted red herrings.
When they reached Mariama’s cabin, Sophus left them.
Tchicaya hung back in the corridor, unsure whether she wanted him to
stay or go.
She said, "Would you come in, if you’re coming in?"
He sat cross-legged on the bed while she moved around the
cabin. She’d included some physical ornaments in her transmission — a
handful of carved rocks and blown-glass objects that the Rindler's
reception unit had obligingly re-created for her from spare
materials — and now she couldn’t decide where to put them.
"I traveled light, myself," Tchicaya said teasingly. "It
didn’t seem fair to ask them to cannibalize the ship to provide me with
knickknacks."
Mariama narrowed her eyes. "Aren’t you the puritan? Not
to the point of amnesia, I hope."
He laughed. "Not these days." In the past, he’d left some
rarely used memories behind in the Qusps of his body trail. With
fullsensory recall, the amount of data mounted up rapidly, and there’d
come a point when knowing precisely what it had been like to shake
water out of his ears in a river on Gupta or roll over and fart while
camping in a desert on Peldan didn’t really strike him as a crucial
part of his identity.
Yet he’d gathered up all the trivia again, before any of
the Qusps were erased. And now that there was nowhere he could store
his memories in the expectation that they’d remain secure — even if he
archived them with a fleeing acorporeal community, their safety would
come at the price of accessibility — they all seemed worth dragging
around with him indefinitely.
Mariama finally settled on the shelf by the bed as the
place for an elaborately braided variant of Klein’s bottle. "Holding on
to your memories is one thing," she said. "It doesn’t stop you going
over the horizon."
Tchicaya snorted. "Over the horizon? I’m four thousand
and nine years old! Take out Slowdowns and travel insentience, and I’ve
barely experienced half of that." Information theory put bounds on the
kind of correlations anyone could sustain between their mental states
at different times; the details depended on the structure of your mind,
the nature of its hardware, and, ultimately, on the recently rather
plasticized laws of physics. If there were unavoidable limits, though,
they were eons away. "I think I can still lay claim to doing a far
better job of resembling myself — at any prior age — than a randomly
chosen
stranger."
Mariama folded her arms, smiling slightly. "In the strict
sense, obviously. But don’t you think people can cross another kind of
horizon? The strict definition counts everything: every aspect of
temperament, every minor taste, every trivial opinion. There are so
many markers, it’s no wonder it takes an eternity for all of them to
drift far enough to change someone beyond recognition. But they’re not
the things that define us. They’re not the things that would make our
younger selves accept us as their rightful successors, or recoil in
horror."
Tchicaya gave her a warning look that he hoped would
steer her away from the subject. With a stranger, he might have asked
his Mediator to handle the subtext, but he didn’t believe either of
them had changed so much that they couldn’t read each other’s faces.
He said, "Any more children?"
She nodded. "One. Emine. She’s six hundred and twelve."
Tchicaya smiled. "That’s very restrained. I’ve had six."
"Six! Are any of them with you here?"
"No." He took a moment to realize why she was asking;
he’d always sworn that he’d never leave a child before a century had
passed. "They’re all on Gleason; large families are common there. The
youngest is four hundred and ninety."
"No travelers among them?"
"No. What about Emine?"
Mariama nodded happily. "She was born on Har’El. She left
with me. We traveled together for a while."
"Where is she now?"
"I’m not certain." She admitted this without a trace of
reticence, but Tchicaya still thought there was a hint of sadness in
her voice.
He said, "One thing about being planet-bound is, once
you’ve committed to the place, that’s it. Even if you wander off to the
other side of the world, everyone else who’s chosen to stay is just a
few hours away."
"But two travelers? What does that guarantee?" Mariama
shrugged. "Chance meetings, every few hundred years. Or more often, if
you make the effort. I don’t feel like I’ve lost Emine."
"Of course not. Nor the others. What’s to stop you
visiting the ones who’ve stayed put?"
She shook her head. "You know the answer to that. You’re
like a cross between a fairy-tale character and some kind of…rare
climatic disaster."
"Oh, come on! It’s not that bad." Tchicaya knew there was
a grain of truth in what she said, but it seemed perverse to complain
about it. When he was made to feel welcome, it was as a visitor, a
temporary novelty. When your child had lived with three or four
generations of their own descendants, for centuries, you were not a
missing piece of the puzzle. But he never expected to slot in,
anywhere. Once he’d told the crib on Turaev that his birth flesh could
be recycled, he’d given up the notion that somewhere there’d always be
a room waiting for him.
He said, "So what about Emine’s other parent?"
Mariama smiled. "What about your partner back on Gleason?
The one you raised six children with."
"I asked first."
"What is there to say? She stayed on Har’El. Not even
Emine could drag her away." Mariama lowered here eyes and traced a
fingertip over the edges of one of the abstract carvings.
Tchicaya said, "If you could drag everyone with you, what
would be the point of leaving? There were cultures back on Earth that
traveled across continents, whole extended families together — and they
were usually more conservative than the ones that stayed put, or the
ones that spawned diasporas."
Mariama scowled. "If two travelers happened to have a
child, would that constitute a tribe?"
"No. But traveling is not about a change of scenery. It’s
about breaking connections." Tchicaya felt a sudden sense of déjà
vu, then realized that he was quoting her own words back at
her. He’d got into the habit long ago of using them on other people.
"I’m not saying that there’d be anything wrong if six whole generations
uprooted themselves together, if that’s not a contradiction in terms.
But they wouldn’t stay together for long — or at least, they wouldn’t
without imposing rules on themselves a thousand times more restrictive
than any they’d needed when they were planetbound."
Mariama said irritably, "You’re such a fucking ideologue
sometimes! And before you call me a hypocrite: it’s always the converts
who are the worst."
"Yeah? That’s not such a convenient axiom for you, if you
remember that it cuts both ways." Tchicaya raised his hands in apology;
he wasn’t really angry or offended yet, but he could see where they
were heading. "Just…forget I said that. Can we change the subject?
Please?"
"You can tell me what happened on Gleason."
Tchicaya thought for a while before replying. "Her name
was Lesya. I was there for a hundred and sixty years. We were in love,
all that time. We were like bedrock to each other. I was as happy as
I’ve ever been." He spread his arms. "That’s it. That’s what happened
on Gleason."
Mariama eyed him skeptically. "Nothing soured?"
"No."
"And you don’t wish you were still there?"
"No."
"Then you weren’t in love. You might have been happy, but
you weren’t in love."
Tchicaya shook his head, amused. "Now who’s the
ideologue?"
"You just woke up one morning and decided to leave? And
there was no pain, and no rancor?"
"No, we woke up one morning, and we
both knew I’d be gone within a year. Just because she wasn’t a traveler
doesn’t mean it was all down to me. What do you think? I lied to her at
the start?" He was becoming so animated he was messing up the bed; he
stroked the sheet, and it tightened. "You know how I think she’ll feel,
if the border reaches Gleason?"
Mariama resisted answering, knowing that she was being
set up. After several seconds, she succumbed anyway.
"Terrified?"
"No. I think she’ll be grateful." Tchicaya smiled at
Mariama’s expression of disgust. It was strange, but she’d probably
given him more confidence in his stance, now that she’d turned out to
be his opponent, than if they’d been allies willing to reassure each
other endlessly.
He continued. "You don’t take a traveler for a partner if
you hope that the world will always stay the same. You do it because
you can’t quite break away, yourself, but you can’t live without the
promise of change hanging over you every day.
"That’s what the border means, for a lot of people. The
promise of change they’d never be able to make any other way."
Sophus’s presentation took place in a theater that the
ship had improvised in the middle of one of the accommodation modules,
folding up all the cabins that happened to be unoccupied to create a
single large space. When Mariama realized that this included her own,
she was not pleased.
"I have glass in there!" She pointed across the theater. "Right
where that person’s sitting."
"It’ll be protected," Tchicaya reassured her, as if he
were a veteran of the concertina effect. "Anyway, what’s there to lose?
If anything’s broken, it can be reconstructed."
"They’ve never been broken," she
complained.
Tchicaya said, "I hate to be the one to point this out,
but — " He held up his thumb and forefinger and adjusted the spacing to
atomic size.
Mariama glared at him until he dropped his hand. "It’s
not the same thing. But I wouldn’t expect you to understand."
Tchicaya winced. "So now I’m an all-round philistine?"
Mariama’s face softened. She reached over and ran a hand
affectionately across his stubbled scalp. "No. Your failings are much
more specific than that."
Tchicaya spotted Yann coming through the entrance with a
small group of people. He raised a hand and tentatively beckoned to
him. Yann responded by bringing the whole group along to sit beside
them.
Rasmah, Hayashi, Birago, and Suljan had been involved in
designing the new spectrometer. Catching the tail end of the
conversation they’d been having made it clear that all but Birago were
Yielders; the other three were joking about his plans to sneak in a
filter to conceal the telltale signature of Planck worms devouring the
scenery. Birago seemed to be taking their teasing with equanimity,
though it struck Tchicaya that he had the quietness of someone
outnumbered, who had decided that there was no point in speaking his
mind.
Perhaps Mariama felt outnumbered, too, but she appeared
genuinely amiable toward the Yielders as introductions were made; she
was certainly more than diplomatically polite. Tchicaya had been
wondering whether their friendship had caused her to conceal the full
measure of her distaste for his position, but whatever effort she was
making for his benefit, she was nowhere near the point that Kadir and
Zyfete had reached.
Yann said, "The new spectrometer looks good. We’ll be
able to resolve a whole new band of gamma rays, and with twice the
precision of the old machine."
Tchicaya nodded, unsure how much difference that would
make. "Do you know what this is all about?" He gestured at the podium
that was now growing before their eyes. His Mediator had explained that
the timing was meant to encourage people to stop talking among
themselves — like a change of lighting, or the raising of curtains — but
apparently this was an aspect of the Rindler's
local culture that had been documented without ever being practiced.
"Not really," Yann admitted. "There’s usually something
on the grapevine about these talks, weeks in advance, but this one has
come out of the blue. Sophus is always interesting, though. I’m sure
he’ll be worth listening to."
"He said something to me earlier about time asymmetry."
"What, time-reversal asymmetry? He’s talking about an
arrow of time in the novo-vacuum?"
"No, time-translation asymmetry."
Yann’s eyes widened. "Interesting might have been an
understatement."
Sophus appeared and made his way to the podium, but then
he stood to one side. People were still entering the theater, and it
looked as if they’d keep on streaming in until it was completely full.
Mariama surveyed the latecomers irritably. "Why can’t
they watch this in their heads?"
"It’s a flesh thing," Yann confided. "I don’t understand
it either."
Tchicaya glanced up. People were sitting in chairs
suspended from the ceiling, accessed via corridors through higher
levels that would otherwise have come to a sudden end. The ship had
made use of every square meter of available surface, even though there
was no prospect of cramming every last passenger in. Rasmah caught
Tchicaya’s eye and joked, "I always wanted to be at a performance where
people were hanging from the rafters."
Sophus cleared his throat, and the audience fell silent
almost immediately. Tchicaya was impressed; even if he’d known everyone
on the ship personally, he would probably have asked his Mediator to
plead on his behalf for their attention.
Sophus began. "We’ve been scribing probes and gathering
data now for more than two hundred and fifty years, trying to
understand what’s going on behind that wall." He motioned with a raised
fist, as if pounding against the border. "The results are there for
everyone to see. Theories come and go, and all we have gained is the
ability to rule out ninety-nine percent of new models without
performing a single new experiment, because we already have enough data
to kill off most of our ideas at birth.
"To some people, it’s beginning to look hopeless. How can
the laws we’ve failed to understand be so difficult to grasp? It only
took three and a half centuries to get from Newton to Sarumpaet. What’s
wrong with us? We have the mathematical tools to model systems far more
arcane than anything nature has ever actually thrown at us, before. The
acorporeals grew bored with physics ten thousand years ago; expecting
them to live with such meager intellectual stimulation was like asking
an adult to spend eternity playing with a child’s numbered blocks. But
even their boundlessly flexible minds can’t make sense of the new toy
they’ve come here to admire."
Tchicaya glanced at Yann, who whispered plaintively, "Maybe I should
be grateful whenever it slips someone’s mind that
acorporeals were running the Quietener."
"The Sarumpaet rules survived twenty thousand
years of scrutiny!" Sophus marveled. "How flawed, how
misguided, could they possibly be? So we began with the sensible,
conservative approach: we’d find a new set of rules that extended the
old ones, very slightly. The smallest change we could possibly make,
the tiniest correction, or expansion, that would encompass all their
past successes — but also explain what happened at Mimosa.
"Fine. That’s a simple enough piece of mathematics;
people solved the equations within days of hearing the news. Then we
built the Rindler…and that minimal extension
didn’t quite fit what we found. So we tweaked the rules a little more.
And a little more.
"In essence — and I know this is unfair to some of you, but
I’m going to say it anyway — most of what’s been done here has consisted
of repeating that process, over and over, for a quarter of a
millennium. We’ve raised ever more elaborate theoretical towers on the
same foundations, and most of them have been toppled by the very first
prediction they made."
Sophus paused, frowning slightly. He looked almost
apologetic, as if he’d been surprised by the tone of his own rhetoric.
When he’d spoken to Tchicaya earlier, he’d appeared casually
optimistic, but now his frustration was showing through. That sentiment
was understandable, but it risked undermining the reception of whatever
he said next: to claim any kind of fundamental new insight now would
sound like arrogance, after so many people before him had struggled and
failed. Still, if he honestly believed that they’d all been misguided,
and that progress would come not from standing on their shoulders but
from digging in the opposite direction entirely, there was a limit to
how graciously that opinion could be expressed.
He collected himself and continued, loosening his
posture, visibly striving to make light of his subject, however many
worlds, and egos, were at stake.
"Sarumpaet was right about everything that happened
before Mimosa. We have to hold on to that fact! And in one sense, we
were right, to aim to tamper with his work as little as possible. But
what we shouldn’t have done was paint ourselves into a corner where we
just kept building ever more baroque and elaborate refinements of the
original rules.
"What do the Sarumpaet rules really say?"
Sophus looked around the theater, as if expecting volunteers, but he’d
caught everyone off-balance, and there were no takers. "We can write
them half a dozen ways, and they’re all equally elegant and compelling.
A combinatorial recipe for transition amplitudes between quantum
graphs. A Hamiltonian we exponentiate to compute the way a state vector
evolves with time. There’s a Lagrangian formulation, a
category-theoretic formulation, a qubit-processing formulation, and
probably a hundred more versions cherished by various enthusiasts,
who’ll never forgive me for leaving out their favorite one.
"But what do they all say, in the end? They say that our
vacuum is stable. And why do they say that? Because
Sarumpaet required them to do so! If they’d implied anything else, he
would have considered them to be a failure. The stability of the vacuum
is not a prediction that emerges from some deep principle that had to
be satisfied, regardless; it was the number one design criterion for
the whole theory. Sarumpaet certainly found some simple and beautiful
axioms that met his goal, but mathematics is full of equally beautiful
axioms that don’t get to govern everything that happens in the
universe."
Sophus halted again, arms folded, head inclined. To
Tchicaya he seemed to be pleading for forbearance; what he’d just
stated was so obvious and uncontroversial that half the audience had
probably found it baffling, if not downright offensive, that he’d
wasted their time spelling it out for the thousandth time.
"Our vacuum is stable: that was the hook on which
Sarumpaet hung everything. So why did he have such unprecedented
success, despite basing his entire theory on something we now know to
be false?"
Sophus let the question hang in the air for a moment,
then changed tack completely.
"I wonder how many of you have heard of superselection
rules? I only learned the phrase myself a month ago, while doing some
historical research. They’re an arcane notion from the dawn of quantum
mechanics, and they only persisted in the vocabulary for the first
couple of centuries, before people finally got things straightened out.
"Everyone knows that it’s an axiom of quantum mechanics
that you can form superpositions of any two state vectors: if V and W
are possible physical states, then so is aV + bW, for any complex
numbers a and b whose squared magnitudes sum to one. If that’s true,
though, then why do we never see a quantum state with a fifty-percent
probability of being negatively charged, and a fifty-percent
probability of being positively charged? Conservation of charge is not
the issue. Long after people could routinely prepare photons that were
equally likely to be on opposite sides of a continent, why couldn’t
they manage to prepare a system that was equally likely to be an
electron here and a positron here" — Sophus held up his left hand, then
his right — "or vice versa?
"For a hundred years or so, most people would have
answered that question by saying: Oh, there’s a superselection rule
for charge! You can usually combine state
vectors…but not if they come from different superselection sectors of
the Hilbert space! Apparently there were these strange ghettos that
had been cordoned off from each other, and whose inhabitants were not
allowed to mix. Cordoned off how? There was no
mechanism, no system; it was just an inexplicable fact dressed up in
some fancy terminology. But people went ahead and developed methods for
doing quantum mechanics with these arbitrary borders thrown in, and the
lines on the map became something to be memorized without too much
scrutiny. If some innocent novice asked a jaded elder student, Why
can’t you have a superposition of different charges? the reply would
be, Because there’s a superselection rule forbidding it, you idiot!"
Sophus lowered his gaze slightly before adding
acerbically, "We’re far more sophisticated now, of course. No one would
tolerate mystification like that — and besides, every child knows the
real reason. An electron and a positron in the same position would be
correlated with vastly different states for the surrounding electric
field, and unless you could track all the details of that
field and incorporate them into your observations, you’d
have no hope of recognizing the state as a superposition. Instead, the
two different charge states would decohere, and you’d be split into two
versions, one believing that you’d detected an electron, the other that
you’d detected a positron. So although there are no
superselection rules, the world still looks so much like the way it
would look if there were that all the mathematics that revolved around
the term lives on, in various guises."
Tchicaya sensed a sudden change in the atmosphere around
him. When he’d glanced at people before, most had seemed puzzled that
they were being offered such mundane observations. Tolerant, and
prepared to go on listening for a while, thanks to Sophus’s reputation,
but clearly not expecting much from yet another tortured reexamination
of their field’s basic assumptions. Now there was a shifting of bodies,
a creaking of seats, as people felt compelled to transform their
postures of indifference or mild disappointment into something
altogether more vigilant.
As this mood swept the room, Tchicaya felt gooseflesh
rise along his spine. He couldn’t claim to have anticipated the words
he heard next, but they thoroughly merited his body’s reaction.
"I believe there are no Sarumpaet rules," Sophus
proclaimed. "Not the originals, and not some grander, more perfect
version that will explain what happened at Mimosa. But the world still
looks so much like the way it would look if there were that we couldn’t
help but think such rules existed."
In the silence that followed, Tchicaya turned to Mariama,
wondering if she’d picked up more from Sophus’s earlier remarks than he
had, but she appeared to be equally stunned. Tchicaya was beaming with
delight at the audacity of Sophus’s claim. Mariama looked dismayed,
almost fearful.
Sophus continued. "How can the Sarumpaet rules seem to be
true, when they’re false? How can our vacuum seem to be stable, when it
isn’t? I believe that the right way to answer these questions is
virtually identical to the resolution of another paradox, one that was
dealt with almost twenty thousand years ago. How can the universe
appear to obey classical mechanics, when it really obeys quantum
mechanics?
"What creates the illusion of classical mechanics is our
inability to keep track of every aspect of a quantum system. If we
can’t observe the whole system — if it’s too large and complex in
itself,
or if it’s coupled to its surroundings, making them
part of the system — we lose the information that distinguishes a
genuine
superposition, where alternatives coexist and interact, from a
classical mixture of mutually exclusive possibilities.
"I believe the same effect is responsible for the
Sarumpaet rules. How can that be? The Sarumpaet rules are quantum
rules. They apply to systems that have not been
rendered classical by decoherence. How can interaction with the
environment explain anything wholly quantum-mechanical?"
Sophus smiled wearily. "It’s been staring us in the face
for twenty thousand years. An electron — a charged particle, which
transforms the ordinary vacuum around it into an entirely different
state — still obeys quantum mechanics in all of its other
degrees of freedom. Its position is quantum-mechanical, its charge is
classical. Even when we do our best to isolate an electron from its
surroundings, we actually fail miserably at half of the task, while
succeeding at the other half. So decoherence hides superpositions of
different charge states from us, but not different
position states. Our failure looks classical, our success is
quantum-mechanical.
"We thought the Sarumpaet rules were pure quantum
mechanics: the final story, the lowest level, the rules that held for a
system in perfect isolation. Of course, we accepted the fact that, in
practice, we could never isolate anything from its
surroundings completely, but that wasn’t the point. The universe
itself, the total system, was assumed to be obeying the Sarumpaet
rules — because whenever we did our best to examine any small part of
it,
separated out as scrupulously as possible, those were the laws that
held.
"That was the wrong conclusion to reach. The electron
shows how quantum and classical properties can coexist. The fact that
you can demonstrate some quantum behavior in a
system doesn’t mean you’ve uncovered all that there is to be found.
"I believe that the Sarumpaet rules are classical
rules. Part of the total state vector of any system obeys
them, but not the whole. The part that does follow the Sarumpaet rules
interacts with the environment one way: transforming its surroundings
into what we think of as our own vacuum. But there are other parts that
interact differently, creating other states. Because we can’t begin to
track what’s really happening to the environment on the Planck scale,
what we see is a single, certain, classical outcome: the Sarumpaet
rules hold absolutely true, and our vacuum is absolutely stable."
A member of the audience stood, and Sophus acknowledged
the request. "Tarek?"
"You’re claiming that the vacuum has been stabilized by
something like the quantum Zeno effect?"
Tchicaya craned his neck to observe the questioner more
closely. Tarek was the Preservationist who’d been trying to scribe
Planck worms to devour the novo-vacuum, without waiting to discover
what it was, or what it might contain. There was nothing fanatical
about his demeanor, though; he merely radiated an impatience that
everyone in the audience shared.
"It’s similar to that," Sophus agreed. "The quantum Zeno
effect stabilizes systems through constant measurement. I believe that
part of the total graph in which everything’s embedded measures the
part we see as the vacuum, which also determines the dynamic laws that
govern matter moving through that vacuum. It’s like the vapor in a
cloud chamber, condensing in droplets around the path of a subatomic
particle. The particle only appears to follow a definite trajectory
because each path is correlated with a particular pattern of
droplets — and the droplets have too many hidden degrees of freedom to
exhibit quantum effects themselves. But we know there are branches
where the particle follows different paths, surrounded by different
trails of droplets."
Tarek frowned. "So why can’t we discover the path, the
rules, that are holding sway behind the border?"
Sophus said, "Because what lies behind the border is not
another vacuum, another set of rules. It has no classical properties
like that to discover. It’s not that it couldn’t be divided
up — formally, mathematically — into a sum of components, each obeying a
different analog of the Sarumpaet rules. But we’re not correlated with
any particular component, the way we are with our own vacuum, so we
can’t expect to uncover any particular set of rules."
Tchicaya was exhilarated. It was too soon to take
Sophus’s idea seriously, but there was something deeply appealing in
the simplicity of the notion. Behind the border was a superposition of every
possible dynamic law.
Tarek said, "We can’t measure those properties? Make them
definite, if only for different branches of ourselves? When we interact
with the novo-vacuum — or whatever you now wish to call it — shouldn’t we
end up as a superposition of observers who each find definite laws?"
Sophus shook his head firmly. "Not by dropping a few
Planckscale probe graphs into a system six hundred light-years wide. If
there were preexisting laws behind the border, we
might hope to discover them that way, but that’s not what we’re dealing
with. On our side of the border, there’s a tight correlation stretching
across all of space-time: the dynamics being followed at different
times and places has become a tangle of mutual interdependence. What
lies behind the border isn’t correlated from place to place, or from
moment to moment. What we’re sampling with our probe graphs might as
well be random noise at every level."
Rasmah stood, just ahead of a dozen other people. The
others resumed their seats, and Tarek begrudgingly followed.
She said, "This is wonderful speculation, Sophus, but how
do you plan to test it? Do you have any solid predictions?"
Sophus gestured at the space behind him, and a set of
graphs appeared.
"As you see, I can match the borderlight spectrum. That’s
not claiming much. I can match the half-c velocity of the border, which
is slightly harder. And I can match the pooled results of all the
experiments performed here so far: namely, their complete failure to
identify anything resembling a dynamic law.
"So much for retrodiction. I’m making the following
prediction: when we repeat the old experiments, re-scribe the old probe
graphs, and monitor the results with your new spectrometer…we’ll find
exactly the same thing, all over again. No patterns will emerge, no
symmetries, no invariants, no laws.
"We’ve already discovered that there’s nothing to be
discovered. All I can predict is that however hard we look, that
absence will be confirmed."
Chapter 8
Yann rolled off the bed and landed on the floor, laughing.
Tchicaya peered over the edge. "Are you all right?"
Yann nodded, covering his mouth with a hand but unable to
silence himself.
Tchicaya didn’t know whether to be annoyed or concerned.
Acorporeals taking on bodies often mapped them in unusual ways. Perhaps
laughter was Yann’s only available response to some terrible psychic
affront that Tchicaya had unwittingly inflicted.
"You’re sure I haven’t hurt you?"
Yann shook his head, still laughing helplessly.
Tchicaya sat on the edge of the bed, struggling to regain
his own sense of humor. "This is not a reaction I’m accustomed to.
Rejection and hilarity are perfectly acceptable responses, but they’re
supposed to occur much earlier in proceedings."
Yann managed to regain some composure. "I’m sorry. I
didn’t mean to offend you."
"I take it you’re not interested in finishing what you
started?"
"Umm." Yann grimaced. "I could try, if it’s important to
you. But I think it would be very difficult to take seriously."
Tchicaya planted a foot on his chest. "Next time you want
an authentic embodied experience…just simulate it." He still felt a
pang of lust at the touch of skin on skin, but it was fading into a
kind of exasperated affection.
He crouched down and kissed Yann on the mouth, meaning it
as a gesture of finality. Yann smiled, puzzled. "That was nice."
"Forget it." Tchicaya stood and started dressing.
Yann lay on the floor, watching him. "I think I’m getting
all the signals you talked about," he mused. "But they’re so crude,
even now. And before, it was just a single message, repeating itself
endlessly: Be happy, be happy, be happy! Do you think there’s
something wrong with this body?"
"I doubt it." Tchicaya sat cross-legged on the floor
beside him.
"You expected more?"
"I was already happy, so it was a bit redundant."
"How happy?"
"As happy as it’s possible to be, for no particular
reason."
"I have no idea how to interpret that. What gets to count
as a particular reason?"
Yann shrugged. "Something more than being told by my
body: Be happy. Be happy…why?"
"Because you’re with someone you like. And you’re making
them happy, too."
"Yes, but only if they accept the same reasoning. That’s
circular."
Tchicaya groaned. "Now you’re being disingenuous. It’s a
tradition, passed down from reproductive biology. Every tradition’s
arbitrary. That doesn’t mean it’s empty."
"I know. But I still expected something more subtle."
"That takes time."
"What, hours?"
"Centuries."
Yann narrowed his eyes with suspicion.
Tchicaya laughed, but made a face protesting his honesty. "On
Turaev, it takes six months of attraction before anything’s
physically possible." Like most generic bodies, the Rindler's
were promiscuous: any two of them could develop compatible sexual
organs, more or less at will. You could wire in your own chosen
restraints while you inhabited them, but since leaving home, Tchicaya
had never felt the need to delegate the task. "The waiting was nice, in
its own way," he admitted. "You might think it was risking an awful
anticlimax, but I think the buildup improved the sex itself almost as
much as it raised expectations. Acting on the spur of the moment is
more likely to be disappointing."
Yann protested, "I’ve been contemplating this for almost
six months."
"Since I arrived? I’m flattered. But then, who else would
you dare to ask?"
Yann smiled abashedly. "How could I not be curious? It’s
what flesh is famous for. However undeservedly." He watched Tchicaya
carefully, serious for a moment. "Have I hurt you?"
Tchicaya shook his head. "That usually takes longer,
too." He hesitated. "So what do acorporeals do, instead? When I was a
child, I used to imagine that you’d all have simulated bodies. Sex
would be just like embodied sex, but there’d be lots of colored lights,
and cosmic bliss."
Yann guffawed. "Maybe twenty thousand years ago there
were people that vacuous, but they must have all decayed into thermal
noise before I was born." He added hastily, "I’m not saying you’re
wrong to continue the tradition. You’ve mapped some stable mammalian
neurobiology, and it’s not too pathological in its original form. I
suppose it still serves some useful social functions, as well as being
a mild existential placebo. But when you have a malleable mental
structure, intensifying pleasure for its own sake is a very
uninteresting cul-de-sac. We worked that out a
long time ago."
"Fair enough. But what do you do instead?"
Yann sat up and leaned against the side of the bed. "All
the other things the embodied do. Give gifts. Show affection. Be
attentive. Sometimes we raise children together."
"What kind of gifts?"
"Art. Music. Theorems."
"Original theorems?"
"If you’re serious."
Tchicaya was impressed. Mathematics was a vast territory,
far more challenging and intricate than physical space. Reaching a
theorem no one had proved before was a remarkable feat. "That’s
positively…chivalric," he said. "Like a knight riding off to the edge
of the world, to bring back a dragon’s egg. And you’ve done that,
yourself?"
"Yes."
"How often?"
"Nine times." Yann laughed at Tchicaya’s expression of
astonishment, and added, "It’s not always that serious. If it was, it
really would be as daunting as winning the hand of medieval royalty,
and no one would bother."
"So you start with something easier?"
Yann nodded. "When I was ten years old, all I gave my
sweet-heart was a pair of projections that turned the group of
rotations in four dimensions into principal bundles over the
three-sphere. Ancient constructions, though I did rediscover them for
myself."
"How were they received?"
"She liked them so much, she extended them to larger
spaces and gave me back the result."
"Can you show me?"
Yann sketched diagrams and equations with his hands;
through their Mediators, Tchicaya saw them painted in the air. To make
sense of the group of four-dimensional rotations, you could project it
down to the three-dimensional sphere of directions in four dimensions,
by mapping each rotation to the direction to which it took the x-axis.
All the rotations that treated the x-axis in the same way then differed
from each other by rotations of the other three directions. This
effectively sliced the original group into copies of the group of three-dimensional
rotations — which was just a solid sphere with opposite points on its
boundary glued together, since any pair of rotations around opposite
axes became equal once you reached one hundred and eighty degrees. Like
an artful rendering of depth in a painting, these striations made the
topology of the larger group much clearer.
"The other projection inverts all the rotations first, so
it turns the whole construction inside out." Yann demonstrated, smiling
nostalgically. "I know it’s sentimental, but the first time always
stays with you."
"Yeah." The mathematics was simple, but it struck
Tchicaya as having all the charm of an embodied child’s handmade gift.
"So what about you?"
"I’ve generally had more success with flowers."
Yann rolled his eyes. "Your own first love. What was that
like?"
Tchicaya contemplated lying, but he usually did it badly.
And what would he say? He wasn’t going to substitute someone else,
writing Mariama out of his life.
He said, "I can’t tell you."
"Why not?" Yann was twice as eager for the details, now. "How
embarrassing can it be, four thousand years later?"
"You’d be surprised." Tchicaya struggled to think of a
way to deflect the inquiry without piquing Yann’s curiosity further.
"There’s much better story I can tell you," he said. "About my father’s
first love. Can I trade that instead?"
Yann agreed, reluctantly.
"When my father was fourteen," Tchicaya began, "he fell
in love with Lajos. It started in winter, when they used to sneak into
each other’s houses at night and sleep together."
Yann said, "Why did they have to sneak? Would their
parents have stopped them?"
Tchicaya was momentarily at a loss for an answer; he’d
never had to explain this before. "No. Their parents would have known.
But it’s more enjoyable to pretend that it’s a secret."
Yann seemed slightly bemused by this claim, but willing
to take his word for it. "Go on."
"By summer, they were giddy with it. They could touch and
kiss, nothing more, but they knew it wouldn’t be much longer. They’d go
swimming together, walking together, waiting for it to happen. Aching
this wonderful ache." Tchicaya smiled, hiding a sudden upwelling of
sadness. He doubted he’d ever return to Turaev, to talk to the stranger
his father had become.
"At the height of summer, they were walking on the
outskirts of town. And my father witnessed the strangest, most
terrifying event that had happened on Turaev for a thousand years. A
spaceship descended from the sky. An ancient engine, spouting flames,
burning up crops, melting rocks."
Yann was outraged. "And Lajos — " He struggled with his
emotions. "Your father saw Lajos — "
"No, no!" Tchicaya was amused at the preposterousness of
this suggestion, but he still warmed to Yann’s response. He’d met
bigots who would have assumed that an acorporeal would shrug off the
notion that witnessing the local death of your first love would be of
any consequence at all.
"Not even anachronauts land their spacecraft on top of
people," he explained. "They do have instruments."
Yann relaxed. "So your father and Lajos got to meet the
anachronauts. What were they like?"
"They’d left Earth fourteen thousand years before.
Pre-Qusp. They used biological techniques to keep their flesh viable,
but they spent a lot of time cryogenically suspended."
"Cryogenically suspended." Yann was
mesmerized. "I always knew they were out there, but I’ve never met
anyone before who’s spoken to someone who’s seen them in the flesh." He
shuddered with vicarious otherworldliness. "What did they want?"
"When they left Earth, they knew they’d be overtaken by
newer technologies; they knew they’d be traveling into the future. They
knew there’d be established societies along their route. That was why
they left. They wanted to witness what humanity would become."
"I see." Yann appeared to be on the verge of raising
another objection, but then he let it pass.
"They had one particular interest, though," Tchicaya
continued. "They told my father that they wanted to know what stage his
people were in, in the eternal struggle between women and men. They
wanted to hear about the wars, the truces. The victories, the
compromises, the setbacks."
"Wait. How old is your father now?"
"About six millennia."
"So…" Yann rubbed his neck, perplexed. "Turaev was the
very first planet they’d visited? After fourteen thousand years?"
"No, they’d made planet-fall six times before."
Yann spread his arms in surrender. "You’ve lost me, then."
"No one had had the heart to tell them," Tchicaya
explained. "When they first made contact with a modern society, on
Crane, it took a while before they were sufficiently at ease to reveal
their purpose. But by the time they got around to asking questions, the
locals had already gained a clear sense of the kind of preconceptions
these travelers had. They’d been in cold storage for millennia, and now
they were finally beginning the stage of their voyage that would
justify the enormous sacrifices they’d made. Nobody could bring
themselves to break the news that the sole surviving remnant of human
sexual dimorphism was the retention, in some languages, of different
inflections of various parts of speech associated with different proper
names — and that expecting these grammatical fossils to be correlated
with any aspect of a person’s anatomy would be like assuming from
similar rules for inanimate objects that a cloud possessed a penis and
a table contained a womb."
"So they lied to them?" Yann was
horrified. "On Crane? And on all the other planets?"
"It must have seemed like the kindest thing to do,"
Tchicaya protested. "And when it started, no one seriously expected
them to reach another planet. When they did, though, word had gone
ahead of them, so people were much better prepared."
"And this happened six times? Even
if they were fed the same story on every planet, by the time they’d had
a few chances to compare it with reality — "
Tchicaya shook his head. "They weren’t fed the same story
on every planet; that would have defeated the whole point. They’d
traveled into the future in the hope of being entertained in a very
specific way. On Crane, they’d revealed a lot about the kind of
histories and practices they expected to encounter on their voyage, and
so people played along with their expectations. The locals there told
them that all the men had been wiped out by a virus shortly after
settlement, and made a big song and dance about the struggle to adapt:
one faction trying to reinvent the lost sex; another, bravely pursuing
monosexuality, finally triumphant. The anachronauts lapped it up,
oohing and aahing over all the profound things this told them about
gender. They made notes, recorded images, observed a few fake
ceremonies and historical re-enactments…then moved on."
Yann buried his face in his hands. "This is unforgivable!"
Tchicaya said, "No one lied to them about anything else.
They had some equally bizarre notions about the future of physics, but
the people on Crane gave them an honest account of all the latest work."
Yann looked up, slightly mollified. "What happened next?"
"After Crane? It became a kind of competition, to see who
could Mead them the best: make up the most outlandish story, and get
the anachronauts to swallow it. A plague wasn’t really barbaric enough.
There had to be war between the sexes. There had to be oppression.
There had to be slavery."
"Slavery?"
"Oh yes. And worse. On Krasnov, they said that for five
thousand years, men had slaughtered their own firstborn child to gain
access to a life-prolonging secretion in mother’s milk. The practice
had only ended a century before."
Yann swayed against the bed. "That’s surreal on so many
levels, I don’t know where to begin." He regarded Tchicaya forlornly.
"This is really what the anachronauts expected? No progress, no
happiness, no success, no harmony? Just the worst excesses of their own
sordid history, repeated over and over for millennia?"
Tchicaya said, "On Mäkelä, the people insisted
that their planet had been peaceful since settlement. The anachronauts
were terribly suspicious, and kept digging for the awful secret that no
one dared reveal. Finally, the locals reviewed the transmission from
Crane describing the first contact, and they realized what was needed.
They explained that their society had been stabilized by the invention
of the Sacred Pentad, in which all family units were based around two
males, two females, and one neuter." Tchicaya frowned. "There were
rules about the sexual relationships between the members, something
about equal numbers of heterosexual and homosexual pairings, but I
could never get a clear description of that. But the anachronauts were
thrilled by the great cultural richness they had finally uncovered.
Apparently, their definition of cultural richness was the widespread
enforcement of any social or sexual mores even more bizarre and
arbitrary than the ones they’d left behind."
Yann said, "So what happened on Turaev?"
"The ship had been tracked for centuries, of course, so
the mere fact of its arrival was no surprise to anyone. My father had
known since early childhood that these strangers would be turning up,
somewhere on the planet, at about this time. A variety of different
hoaxes had been advocated by different groups, and though none of them
had gained planet-wide support, the anachronauts rarely visited more
than one place, so it would only require the people in one town to back
each other up.
"My father wasn’t prepared at all, though. He hadn’t kept
up with news of the precise timing of the ship’s arrival, and even
though he’d been aware that it would happen soon, the chance of
planet-fall outside his own town had been too microscopic to worry
about. He’d had far more important things on his mind."
Yann smiled expectantly, despite himself. "So when the
flames died down, and the dust settled, and your father’s Mediator dug
up the visitors' ancient language from its files…he had to stand
there and insist with a straight face that he knew nothing whatsoever
about the subject of their inquiries?"
"Exactly. Neither he nor Lajos had the slightest idea
what they were supposed to tell these strangers. If they’d read the
reports on the anachronauts, they’d have realized that they could have
claimed all manner of elaborate taboos on discussing the subject, but
they weren’t in a position to know that and invoke some imaginary code
of silence. So all they were left with was claiming ignorance: claiming
to be both prepubescent, and stupid." Tchicaya laughed. "After six
months of longing for each other? Within days, or even
hours, of consumation? I don’t know how to translate that into terms
you’re familiar with — "
Yann was offended. "I’m not an idiot. I understand how
much pride they would have had to swallow. You don’t need to spoonfeed
me similes."
Tchicaya bowed his head in apology, but he held out for
precision. "Pride, yes, but it was more than that. Claiming anything
but the truth would have felt like they were renouncing each other.
Even if they’d known their lines, I’m not sure that they could have
gone through with the charade." He held a fist against his chest. "It
hurts, to lie about something like that. Other people might have been
swept up in the excitement of the conspiracy. But to Lajos and my
father, that was just noise. They were the center of the universe.
Nothing else mattered."
"So they told them the truth?"
Tchicaya said, "Yes."
"About themselves?"
He nodded. "And more."
"About the whole planet? That this was the custom all
over Turaev?"
"More."
Yann emitted an anguished groan. "They told them
everything?"
Tchicaya said, "My father didn’t come right out and state
that all their earlier informants had lied to them, but he explained
that — apart from a few surviving contemporaries of the travelers
themselves — there’d been nothing resembling sexual dimorphism in the
descendants of humans, anywhere, for more than nineteen thousand years.
Long before any extrasolar world was settled, it had gone the way of
war, slavery, parasites, disease, and quantum indecisiveness. And apart
from trivial local details, like the exact age of sexual maturity and
the latency period between attraction and potency, he and his lover
embodied a universal condition: they were both, simply, people. There
were no other categories left to which they could belong."
Yann pondered this. "So did the intrepid gendographers
believe him?"
Tchicaya held up a hand, gesturing for patience. "They
were far too polite to call my father a liar to his face. So they went
into town, and spoke to other people."
"Who, without exception, gave them the approved version?"
"Yes."
"So they left Turaev none the wiser. With an unlikely
tale from two mischievous adolescents to add to their collection of
sexual mythology."
Tchicaya said, "Perhaps. Except that since Turaev, they
haven’t made planet-fall anywhere. They’ve been tracked, the ship’s
still functioning, and they’ve had four or five opportunities to enter
inhabited systems. But every time, they’ve flown on by."
Yann shivered. "You think it’s a ghost ship?"
Tchicaya said, "No. I think they’re in cold sleep, with
their bodies frozen, and tiny currents flowing in their brains.
Dreaming of all the horrors they’d wished upon us, in the name of some
crude, masochistic notion of humanity that must have been dying right
in front of them before they’d even left Earth."
As Tchicaya boarded the shuttle ahead of Yann, Mariama
looked back and flashed him a brief smile. Her meaning was
unmistakable, but he pretended not to notice. He didn’t mind her
knowing what he and Yann had attempted, or even how it had ended, but
it drove him to distraction that she could deduce at least half the
story just by watching them together.
He could have instructed his Exoself to embargo whatever
small gestures were giving him away. But that was not how he wanted to
be: hermetically sealed, blank as a rock. For a moment, Tchicaya
contemplated reaching over and putting his arm across Yann’s shoulders,
just to devalue her powers of observation. On reflection that would
have been petty, though, and likely to cause Yann all kinds of
confusion.
Mariama sat beside Tarek. In the unlikely event that the
two of them were lovers, Tchicaya would be the last to know. Behind
him, the fifth passenger, Branco, strapped himself in place. Tchicaya
turned to him and joked, "It doesn’t seem right that you’re
outnumbered. You should at least have brought an observer along."
Branco said pleasantly, "Fuck that. The last thing I want
to do is start mimicking all your paranoid games."
Branco had been part of the original coalition who’d
designed and built both the Rindler and the
Scribe. Yielders and Preservationists had arrived over the decades,
exuding a kind of bureaucratic fog through which he was now forced to
march, but as he’d explained to Tchicaya earlier, he’d become inured to
the squatters and their demands. The Scribe was still available to its
creators, occasionally, and with patience he could still get work done.
The factions made a lot of noise, but in the long run, as far as Branco
was concerned, they’d be about as significant as the vapid religious
cults who’d once squabbled over contested shrines on Earth. "And you
sad airheads can’t even slaughter each other," he’d observed gleefully.
"How frustrating that must be."
As they fell away from the Rindler,
Tchicaya barely noticed the weightlessness, or the strange
doll’s-house/termite-colony view some of the modules offered as they
shrank into the distance. The trip hadn’t quite become as unremarkable
to him as air travel in a planetary atmosphere, but on a planet even
repeated flights along the same route were never as unvarying as this.
Tarek said, "Actually, we’re outnumbered, three to two.
If you’re neutral, you’re a Yielder. There is no difference."
"Oh, here we go!" Branco chuckled and settled back into
his couch. "It’s a short trip, but please, entertain us."
"You’re not fooling anyone," Tarek insisted heatedly.
"It’s not important," Mariama said. Tchicaya watched her,
wondering if she’d make eye contact with Tarek as she spoke. She
didn’t. "There are observers here for both sides. It doesn’t matter how
many there are." Her tone was calm, neither argumentative nor imploring.
Tarek dropped the subject. Tchicaya was impressed; she’d
defused the situation without alienating Tarek, or incurring any debt
to him. She hadn’t lost her touch, she’d only grown more subtle. When
Tchicaya had trailed after her as a tortured, infatuated child, it must
have perplexed and frustrated her to find that she couldn’t hone her
skills on him. Anything above and beyond mere hormonal effects had been
superfluous; she might as well have tried to learn martial arts by
practicing on a rag doll.
Branco sighed with disappointment, then closed his eyes
and appeared to doze off.
Most of the Rindler's passengers had
watched with a mixture of denial and dismay as Sophus’s predictions had
been borne out, and all their ingenious models had been dashed to
pieces, once again, by the new spectrometer. Branco, however, had
embraced the No Rules Theory wholeheartedly, and managed to extract
predictions that went far beyond Sophus’s gloomy verdict. Just because
there were no preexisting correlations between the dynamics on the far
side of the border, that didn’t mean none could be created. Branco had
designed an ingenious experiment that aimed to use the near side of the
border as a kind of intermediary, to entangle different regions of the
far side with each other. The dynamics revealed would still be a random
choice from all the possibilities — or, strictly speaking, the near-side
universe would split into decoherent branches, and in each, a different
result would be observed — but at least the result would apply across
more than a few square Planck lengths.
As they docked with the Scribe, Yann mused, "I think this
is the first time I’ve come here with any possibility of being
disappointed."
Tchicaya was taken aback. "You never had your hopes
pinned on any of the old models? You never even had a favorite?"
"There were some esthetically pleasing ones," Yann
conceded. "I certainly would have been happy if they’d survived
testing. But I never had a good reason to expect it. Not until now."
"That’s very touching," Branco said dryly, "but I see no
reason why you should abandon your earlier stance."
Tchicaya challenged him, "You have no emotional stake in
the outcome at all?"
Branco regarded him with amusement. "You’ve been here how
long?"
Tarek went through the tunnel first, then Mariama.
Tchicaya followed her. "Do you remember that playground?" he whispered.
"With all the pipes?" She glanced back at him, puzzled, and shook her
head. Tchicaya felt a stab of disappointment; he’d assumed that the
sight would have triggered the same memory in her.
In the control room, Branco instructed the stylus. With
his gravelly voice and deliberate singsong intonation, he succeeded in
making every word drip with contempt, like a kind of sardonic poetry.
"The phase relationships between the twelve TeV and fifteen TeV beams
will be as follows." They really are making me read this aloud.
Tchicaya looked out the window, down at the immutable
plane of light. He’d had vivid dreams about the border, imagining as he
slept that the wall of his cabin was the thing itself. He’d hold his
ear against it, listening for sounds from the far side, straining with
his whole body, urging the signal across.
Sometimes, the instant before he woke, he’d see an
iridescent film blossoming on the wall, and his heart would race with
joy and fear. Did this new infestation mean that he’d been
found out? Or that his crime had never really happened?
Branco looked up and announced with mock astonishment, "Am I
finished already? Is that all I have to do?"
Tarek said, "For now. But I’m invoking my right to a
functional audit."
"Hooray," said Branco. He pushed himself away from the
control panel and floated by the window with his hands on his head.
Tarek took his place, and instructed the stylus to rise
from the border. Tchicaya had heard about functional audits, but he’d
never witnessed one before. A package of detectors, verified by the
faction invoking the audit, was placed under the tip of the stylus, and
the particles emitted were scrutinized directly, to be sure that they
conformed to the agreed sequence.
Tchicaya was tempted to say something derisive, but he
held his tongue. Whatever made Tarek believe that this was necessary,
complaining about the procedure would do nothing to lessen his
suspicions.
He used the handholds beneath the windows to drag himself
closer to Mariama. "Where have you been hiding? I haven’t seen you for
weeks."
"I have a lot of meetings."
"I go to meetings, too."
"Not these ones," she said.
She didn’t need to spell it out. She’d come to the Rindler
hoping to work with Tarek on Planck worm design, and apparently the
notion still wasn’t dead.
The novo-vacuum was already the largest object in the
galaxy, and it was growing so rapidly that its surface area would
increase almost forty-fold while it was encircled at the speed of
light. Even if the Preservationists discovered a potential method for
dealing with it, there was no prospect whatsoever of surrounding the
entire thing with conventional machinery to administer the cure. The
only practical tool would be a self-replicating pattern embedded at the
level of quantum graphs, able to "eat" novo-vacuum and excrete
something more benign.
To supporters of the idea, these hypothetical Planck
worms would do no more than reverse the disaster of Mimosa. To
Tchicaya, the symmetry was false. The places lost to Mimosa — ordinary
planets, unique as they were — had already been thoroughly understood.
Learning just enough about the novo-vacuum to infect it with a kind of
fungal rot struck him as a corruption of every impulse that made
intelligence worthwhile. He had enough trouble forgiving that kind of
cowardice in a child.
"So what do you think the prospects are?" He meant those
for Branco’s experiment succeeding, though if she cared to disclose her
thoughts on anything further down the line, so much the better.
Mariama thought carefully before replying. "I’m almost
persuaded that Sophus is right, but I’m not certain that Branco’s ideas
follow. When we have no access to any particular far-side dynamics,
even plucking out a random correlated state seems like too much to ask."
Yann had been floating a polite distance away, but the
room was too small for any real privacy, and now he gave up pretending
that he couldn’t hear them. "You shouldn’t be so pessimistic," he said,
approaching. "No Rules doesn’t mean no rules; there’s still some raw
topology and quantum theory that has to hold. I’ve reanalyzed Branco’s
work using qubit network theory, and it makes sense to me. It’s a lot
like running an entanglement-creation experiment on a completely
abstract quantum computer. That’s very nearly what Sophus is claiming
lies behind the border: an enormous quantum computer that could perform
any operation that falls under the general description of quantum
physics — and in fact is in a superposition of states in which it’s
doing
all of them."
Mariama’s eyes widened, but then she protested, "Sophus
never puts it like that."
"No, of course not," Yann agreed. "He’s much too careful
to use overheated language like that. The universe is a
Deutsch-Bennett-Turing machine’s is not a statement that goes down well
with most physicists, since it has no empirically falsifiable content."
He smiled mischievously. "It does remind me of something, though. If
you ever want a good laugh, you should try some of the pre-Qusp anti-AI
propaganda. I once read a glorious tract which asserted that as soon as
there was intelligence without bodies, its 'unstoppable lust for
processing power would drive it to convert the whole Earth, and then
the whole universe, into a perfectly efficient Planck-scale computer. Self-restraint?
Nah, we’d never show that. Morality? What, without
livers and gonads? Needing some actual reason to want to do
this? Well…who could ever have too much processing power?
"To which I can only reply: why haven’t you indolent
fleshers transformed the whole galaxy into chocolate?"
Mariama said, "Give us time."
"The equipment seems to have passed inspection." Tarek
pocketed the detector package and began lowering the stylus.
Branco folded his arms and pondered this announcement. "Seems?
I’ll take that as a general statement of Cartesian
skepticism, shall I?"
Tarek replied curtly, "You’re free to instruct it again."
Branco began repeating the sequence. Tchicaya was
expecting him to rush through it this time, but instead he took pains
to reproduce the same pacing and intonation as he’d employed originally.
Tchicaya caught Tarek’s eye and said, "You know, you have
as much to gain from this experiment as anyone."
Tarek frowned, as if the implication was not merely
unjust but completely surreal. "You’re right. That’s why I’m taking it
seriously." He hesitated, then added defensively, "Don’t you think I’d
prefer to believe that everyone was acting in good faith? I’d like to
assume that. But I can’t; there’s too much at stake. If that makes me
look petty to you, so be it. I’ll answer to my descendants."
Branco completed his second recitation. Yann said, "Approved."
Tarek said, "Yes, go ahead."
Branco addressed the Scribe. "Execute that."
The Scribe remained silent, but a heartbeat later there
was a sharp hissing sound from under the floor. Tchicaya had no idea
what this could be, until he saw the realization dawning on Branco’s
face.
A fine crack appeared in one window, then another.
Tchicaya turned to Mariama. "You’re backed up?"
She nodded. "While I slept. You?"
"The same." He smiled uncertainly, trying to reassure her
that he was prepared for whatever happened, without discouraging her
from expressing her own feelings. They’d been through a lot together,
but neither of them had ever witnessed the other’s local death.
"Yann?"
"I’m covered, don’t worry."
Branco and Tarek were in the same position: no one risked
losing more than a day’s memory. After his fourth local death, Tchicaya
had ceased to feel genuine, gut-churning dread at his own fate — and he
had some memories that led up to the moment itself — but in the company
of others it was always more stressful. Wondering how much fear they
felt, and how careful they’d been.
The hissing beneath them intensified, and the room began
to creak. The windows had healed themselves, and the whole structure
would be capable of a certain amount of self-repair, but if the border
was lapping up against the Scribe, the wound it made would be reopened
with every advance. The microjets were designed to compensate for the
effects of bombardment with interstellar gas; shifts measured in
microns were the crudest adjustments imaginable. The Scribe was not
going to whisk them away to safety.
Tarek looked around nervously. "Shouldn’t we head for the
shuttle?"
Branco said, "Yes."
The wall behind Tchicaya emitted a tortured groan. As he
turned, it concertinaed visibly, the angle between two windows becoming
impossibly acute. Tchicaya marveled at the sight. Air leaking from the
Scribe couldn’t be producing shear forces of that magnitude; the border
had to be tugging on the structure beneath them. Nothing of the kind
had ever been witnessed before. Beams constructed from a variety of
substances, poked through the border, had always behaved as if the
far-side portion had simply ceased to exist; there were no forces
exerted on the remainder. Whatever Branco had triggered, he’d done more
than displace the border by a few centimeters.
The wall flexed again, and the pair of windows that had
been squashed together separated. Instead of reversing their original
motion, though, they parted at the seam, like doors swinging open.
Tchicaya bellowed with fright, and reached out for
something to stop himself. He succeeded only in clutching Yann’s
shoulder, and the two of them tumbled through the opening together.
For several seconds, Tchicaya remained rigid, preparing
himself on some instinctive level for intense pain and a swift
extinction. When neither arrived, his whole body began shaking with
relief. He’d known that his suit would protect him, but the
understanding hadn’t penetrated far. He’d skydived from altitudes where
oxygen was needed, and swum at depths where the next free breath was
hours away, but black and starry space had remained the quintessence of
beautiful danger: pristine, indifferent to his needs, predating every
form of life. Vacuum was not a word that offered
hope. He should have been snuffed out in an eye blink.
He looked around. The push of the escaping air had been
firm but brief, so it was unlikely that they were moving very rapidly,
but he was facing the wrong way to catch sight of the Scribe, the only
meaningful signpost. The border itself offered no cues as to their
velocity in any direction.
He’d been holding his breath deliberately, as if he’d
plunged into water, but he realized now that the urge to inhale had
vanished as soon as the suit’s membrane had sealed off his mouth and
nose. His body had shut down its lungs; the Rindler's
model could operate for days on anaerobic metabolic pathways. His skin
felt slightly chilly, but he could see the exposed film of the suit on
the back of his hand, silvered to retain heat. He extended his arm
shakily so he could examine Yann, whose face had turned entirely
metallic except for two holes for his pupils.
"You should have known it was futile, Tin Man, trying to
walk among us. Robot nature always shows through." Tchicaya’s teeth
were chattering, but that made no difference; his Mediator grabbed his
speech intentions and routed them away from his useless vocal cords,
shunting them into a radio channel.
Yann said, "Believe me, the effect looks much stranger on
you."
They were rotating slowly together, around an axis
roughly perpendicular to the border. As they turned, the Scribe came
into view over Yann’s shoulder. The lower half of the structure was
buckled and twisted, but the control room was still safely clear of the
border. As far as he could judge, he and Yann were still four or five
meters from the border themselves, and their trajectory was virtually
parallel to it. This freakish alignment was sure to prove inexact,
though, one way or the other.
He spotted a shiny Mariama standing at the ruptured wall,
watching him.
"We’re all right," he said. "Get in the shuttle."
She nodded and waved, as if he’d be unable to hear a
reply.
Then she said, "Okay. We’ll come and pick you up." She
vanished from sight.
Tchicaya instructed his Mediator to make his next words
private. "Are we all right? I don’t have the skills to determine our
velocity that accurately."
"We’re moving toward the border, but it would take hours
before we’d hit it."
"Oh, good." Tchicaya shuddered. His right hand was still
locked on to Yann’s shoulder, the fingers digging in as if his life
depended on it. He knew that wasn’t true, but he couldn’t relax his
grip.
"Am I hurting you?" he asked.
"No."
Yann’s metallic face brightened strangely, and Tchicaya
glanced down. A patch of borderlight more intense than its surroundings
drifted slowly by.
"What do you make of that?" Tchicaya asked. He was
suddenly light-headed, from more than the shock of ejection. The
Doppler-shift tints aside, he’d known the border as a featureless wall
for centuries. The tiniest blemish was revolutionary; he felt like a
child who’d just watched someone reach up and scratch a mark into the
blue summer sky.
"I’d say Branco has succeeded in pinning something to the
near side."
"We have physics? We have rules now?"
"Apparently."
Mariama said, "We’re in the shuttle. Everyone’s safe
here."
"Good. No rush; the view is wonderful."
"I won’t hold you to that. We’ll be there in a few
minutes."
The strange patch of brightness had moved out of sight,
but after a few seconds another came into view. They were fuzzy-edged
ellipses, traveling from the direction of the Scribe.
"They’re like the shadows of reef fish," Tchicaya
suggested. "Swimming above us in the sunlight."
Yann said, "Do you think you might be coming slightly
unhinged?"
As Tchicaya swung around him in their involuntary dance,
he caught sight of the shuttle rising from the ruined Scribe. He smiled
at the memory of Mariama’s voice, promising to rescue him. On Turaev,
if they’d given in to their feelings, it would have ended badly,
burning out in a year or two. When this was over, though —
Yann said, "That’s a bit ominous."
"What?"
"Can you turn your head back toward the Scribe? That
might be quicker than me trying to put it into words."
Tchicaya twisted his neck. The border had formed a
bellshaped hillock, forty or fifty meters high, that had completely
swallowed the Scribe. As his rotation forced him to stretch even more,
he stopped fighting it and twisted his neck the other way, hastening
the sight’s return instead of trying to delay its departure.
The hillock was collapsing now, but as it did, a ring
around it was rising up. Suddenly, Tchicaya noticed a whole series of
lesser rings surrounding the first, like concentric ripples in water.
They were undulating out from the center at great speed: the leading
edge, the fastest component, in some kind of surface wave. The bulk of
the wave was spreading more slowly. But it was still traveling faster
than they were.
He searched for the shuttle, and found it, its exhaust a
pale blue streamer against the stars. The thrust generated by the ion
engine was very low; over time it could accumulate into a significant
velocity, but the craft was about as maneuverable as a bathtub on ice.
It might just reach them before the wave, and even accelerate away from
the border again in time, but there’d be no margin left for any more
surprises that might manifest themselves in the wake of Branco’s
intervention.
Yann read his mind, and declared flatly, "They have to
stay clear."
Tchicaya nodded. "Mariama?"
"No!" she hissed. "I know what you’re going to say!"
"It’s all right. We’re backed up, we’re calm. Don’t even
think about it."
"It’s a wave. It’s a predictable phenomenon! I’ve
computed a trajectory that meets all the constraints — "
"Predictable?"
"We can do it!"
"You’ve all voted on that, have you? Tarek? Branco?"
Branco replied laconically, "It’s all the same to me."
Tarek said nothing, and Tchicaya felt a pang of sympathy
for him. No one could reasonably expect him to put himself at risk,
merely to spare his two adversaries the loss of their replaceable
bodies and a few hours' memories. Yet if he did, many people would
respect him for it. You had to be a utilitarian zealot, rotted to the
core by dogma, not to admire someone who was willing to jeopardize
their own comfort and continuity to preserve another’s. Whether or not
this required courage, at the very least it was an act of generosity.
Tchicaya said, "Stay clear! We can’t afford to lose the
shuttle!" This argument made no sense — the Rindler's
stock of raw materials had not been depleted, and there were parts of
the ship itself that could be cannibalized anyway, if necessary — but he
wanted to offer them an unselfish-sounding alibi. "You have to gather
all the data you can," he added, a little more cogently. "With the
Scribe gone, every observation you can make is invaluable." The Rindler
itself had powerful instruments trained on the border, but some crucial
detail might conceivably depend on the shuttle’s proximity.
Mariama did not reply immediately, but in the silence
that followed Tchicaya knew that he’d swayed her.
"All right." Her voice was still strained, but there was
a note Tchicaya recognized from their days on Turaev: a rare
concession, not so much of defeat, as the realization that they’d been
struggling over the wrong thing altogether. She understood the
tradeoff, and she knew that he and Yann were resolved. "Peace,
Tchicaya."
"Peace," he replied.
Yann said, "You handled that well."
"Thanks." Over Yann’s shoulder, Tchicaya could see the
wave closing on them. It was dropping in height as it spread out from
the point where the Scribe had been, but it wouldn’t fall far enough to
miss them. Tchicaya wondered if Yann would want to be distracted, or to
confront what was happening directly.
"So well that I almost hate to do this. How strong do you
think your legs are?"
"What?" It took a moment for Tchicaya to understand what
he was suggesting. "Oh, no. Please — "
"Don’t go squeamish on me; we don’t have time. It would
be hard to decide who to save if we were from the same modes, but I can
start from backup with no delay. You’d be out of the picture for
months."
That was true. The Rindler had run
out of bodies, and there were currently about twenty new arrivals
waiting. Tchicaya would have to join the queue. Normally, a delay like
that would mean nothing compared to the centuries he’d lost to transit
insentience, but Branco’s experiment had just guaranteed that every day
from now on would be unique.
"I’ve never killed anyone," he said. His stomach was
knotted with revulsion at the thought.
Yann didn’t quibble over the hyperbole. "And I’ve never
died, in a body. Sex and death, all in one day. What more could an
acorporeal ask for?"
The wave came into view again; they’d have a minute or
less. Tchicaya struggled to clear his head. Yann was demanding no more
of him than he’d demanded of Mariama. The sense of shame and
selfishness he felt, at the thought of indulging his own visceral urge
to survive at Yann’s expense, was the right thing to feel, but that
didn’t mean he had to elevate it above every other consideration. Nor,
though, did he have to annihilate the emotion in order to act against
it. He would do what the situation required, because it would be a
foolish waste for both of them to lose their bodies, but he wasn’t
going to pretend that he was happy, or indifferent about it.
He took hold of Yann’s left hand, then released his iron
grip on his shoulder so they could join right hands as well. He folded
his knees up against his chest, then froze. The crest of the wave was
thirty meters away. This was too complicated. They’d never have time.
Yann said calmly, "Give me your body. I’ve worked out the
steps."
Tchicaya surrendered motor control, and they began to
move together in a perfect, symmetrical ballet. It was as if his limbs
had been gripped by a dozen firm, invisible hands, manipulating him
without resistance. His back arched, his arms stretched painfully, but
their fingers stayed tangled in a monkey grip as their legs forced
their bodies apart, until their feet met, sole to sole.
Tchicaya said, "You made me an isotopy."
Yann laughed. "Nothing original, I’m afraid."
"It’s the thought that counts."
Tchicaya had become disoriented, but as they swung around
together his line of sight fell from the stars to the approaching wave.
The muscles in his legs tensed, and the pressure against his feet grew
until he felt as if his arms would be torn from his shoulders.
Yann said, "See you later."
Their fingers parted.
Tchicaya clutched at the emptiness between them, then
stopped himself and wrapped his arms across his chest. He was ascending
at a shallow angle, back toward the point where the Scribe had been. As
the crest approached, he curled into a ball, and it raced past beneath
him, a flash of silver licking at his heels as he tumbled.
An elaborate grid of colored lines scarred the inside of
the retreating wave, like the map of some kind of convoluted maze. The
pattern shifted as he watched. There was a tantalizing logic to the
changes — the lines weren’t dancing about at random — but deciphering it
on
the spot was beyond him. All he could do was record the sight.
Drained for a moment of every other concern, Tchicaya
locked his gaze on the retreating enigma.
Everything had changed, now. Whatever Branco had
revealed, or created, the wall between the worlds had finally been
breached.
Chapter 9
"Everyone complains about the laws of physics, but no one
does anything about them."
Tchicaya turned away from the control panel. He hadn’t
heard Rasmah entering the Blue Room.
"It’s an old joke they used to tell, back on Maeder," she
explained, crossing the wide, empty floor. "Which just goes to show how
much work it takes to send a bad meme off to smallpox heaven."
"Don’t count on having done that," Tchicaya warned her. "I believe
the original version was Everyone complains about human
nature. When the second half became patently false, the meme just
shifted context. You can tear the meaning right out of these
one-liners, and they’ll still find a way to keep propagating."
"Damn." She sat beside him. "So what are
the laws, right now?"
"As far as I can tell, we have a macroscopic SO(2,2)
symmetry, and E7 as the gauge group." He gestured at the display.
"Nothing we haven’t grabbed before, generically, though the details of
the Lagrangian are unique." Tchicaya laughed. "Listen to me. I really
am getting blasé about this."
"Seen one universe, seen them all." Rasmah leaned closer
to examine the symmetry diagrams that the software had guessed from
some partial results, and was now proceeding to test further with the
Left Hand.
She glanced at the endurance clock. "Thirteen minutes?
That’s close to the record. You think this might — " Tchicaya glowered
at
her, and she laughed. "Don’t tell me: I’m jinxing the result."
"Hardly. I’m just growing a little impatient with the
idea that we keep grabbing dynamics, over and over, in the hope that
one of them will turn out to be stable. It’s never going to happen."
"You think not?" Rasmah pursed her lips. "Okay. It’s no
use just complaining, though. What do you want to do about it?"
Tchicaya made a gesture of helplessness.
She regarded him with disappointment. "Are you this lazy
about everything?"
She was only teasing, but the accusation stung. Rasmah
had been on the Rindler just six months longer
than he had, but she’d already contributed substantially to several
projects. Having helped to design the spectrometer that had been lost
with the Scribe, she’d gone on to improve the design still further for
the models used in both the Left and Right Hands. The Scribe’s
replacement had been planned as a single machine, but when attempts to
renegotiate the protocols for its shared use collapsed for the seventh
time, even the most ecumenical researchers had lost patience, and
agreed to the duplication.
Tchicaya stretched his arms. "I’ve certainly had enough
of staring at this for one day. Are you here to take over?"
"Yes." She smiled and added, "But I’m early, so I’m
afraid you can’t actually leave yet."
The destruction of the Scribe, and the end to cooperation
between the factions, had delayed follow-ups to Branco’s experiment,
but once the two Hands were in place and gathering data, everybody on
the Rindler had been riveted by the results. For
months, the Blue Room — where the Left Hand’s data was displayed, now
that trips to the border were considered imprudent — had been packed
with
people twenty-four hours a day, and it was no secret that the
Preservationists had reacted in the same way.
Branco’s technique appeared to have confirmed Sophus’s
original assertion: the novo-vacuum did not obey any single analog or
extension of the Sarumpaet rules. It was possible to correlate a
macroscopic portion of the near side of the border with parts of the
total far-side state that did obey specific rules,
but each time the experiment was repeated, the rules were different.
All of Sarumpaet’s carefully reasoned arguments about which patterns of
nodes in a quantum graph could persist as particles had been revealed
as utterly parochial; the larger truth was, the ordinary vacuum that
dominated the near side was correlated with sequences of graphs that
behaved in that particular fashion, so it hid the fact that they were
really just part of a superposition of countless other possibilities.
The quantum subtleties that could, in principle, render the whole
superposition visible were buried in the sheer number of details that
would have had to be tracked in order to observe it.
The far side lacked the means to conceal its quantum
nature in the same fashion, but if the view was less misleading, it
remained confusing. Interpreting the new experiments was like trying to
make sense of a jungle by watching an endless parade of exotic
creatures cling briefly to the windows of a vehicle, stunned by the
light, curious, or angry, but always flying off a moment later, never
to return.
At first, every new set of laws had had their fifteen
minutes of fame, but since none of them could be pinned to the near
side for much longer than that, the novelty had begun to wear thin.
Exhilaration at the cornucopia had given way to frustration. The
experiments continued, but it had become a struggle to maintain even
the symbolic presence of one sentient observer around the clock.
Tchicaya supposed that this was fair enough: all the theorists were
drowning in data already, and they had better things to do than sit and
watch more come pouring in. For a week or two, he’d hoped that patient
observation might actually lead him to a worthwhile discovery himself,
but that was beginning to sound as crazy as looking for patterns in any
other set of random quantum results.
"Oh, there it goes!" Rasmah wailed, as if she’d seriously
expected otherwise. The patch of the border they’d pinned to the latest
set of laws had just reverted to the old inscrutable glow. "What do you
think would happen," she mused, "if we scribed some device that could
function under the far-side dynamics, before we lost the correlation?"
Tchicaya said, "Even if it survived, what good would that
do us? We’ve never been able to grab the same dynamics twice."
"What if we scribed a Scribe?"
"Ha! Like that Escher drawing?"
"Yeah." Rasmah pulled a face, suddenly aghast. "Though…that’s a
left hand drawing a right, and vice versa. We can’t
have that, can we?"
"Are you serious, though? Do you think we could insert a
machine that could signal back to us in some way?"
Rasmah didn’t reply immediately. "I don’t know. What does
the border look like, from the other side? Does it always look as if
our physics is happening behind it? Or is something more symmetrical
going on, where someone on the far side would catch glimpses just as
varied and transient as the ones we’re seeing?"
"I have no idea," Tchicaya admitted. "I don’t even see
how you could pose that question, in Sophus’s model. You’d have to
describe a specific observer on the far side, on whose terms you wanted
to see things. But if the different far-side dynamics don’t form
decoherent branches — except over the tiny patches where we’re forcing
them to do so — what exactly are the laws the observer is supposed to
obey?" The startled birds and butterflies fluttering against the window
weren’t even real; it was no use asking what they saw, staring back.
The slices of different "universes" pinned against the border were more
like the patterns formed by splattered insects. If they hadn’t been
dead, they would never have been seen side by side in quite the same
way.
It was midnight, by the Rindler's
arbitrary clock. The lighting of public spaces changed with the cycle,
and though many people happily slept through the daytime and worked all
night, Tchicaya had ended up in synch with the light.
He stood. "That’s it, I’ve had enough."
"You could stay and keep me company," Rasmah suggested.
"I wouldn’t want to distract you." He smiled and backed
away, raising a hand good night. They’d been circling each other at a
distance for weeks, and his body had begun to change for her, but
Tchicaya had decided that he would not allow anything to happen between
them. While it would have been unlikely to end as swiftly, or as
comically, as his experiment with Yann, he wanted to keep his life free
of complications.
Tchicaya made his way around the ship, slightly removed
from everything around him. The corridors were nearly deserted; maybe
the Preservationists were having some kind of conference. The ghost
town ambience reminded him of a hundred provincial cities he’d trekked
through at night; on the empty walkways, the blaze of stars was like
the view when you left the brightest streets behind, and the sky came
suddenly to life.
He recalled a night he’d spent in a small town on Quine,
thirty-six subjective years after he’d left Turaev: the mirror image of
his birth in the moment of his departure. Three centuries had passed,
in real time. He’d sat in an alley and wept for hours, like an
abandoned child. The next day, he’d made half a dozen new friends among
the locals, and some of the friendships had lasted three times longer
than all the years he’d spent on his home world.
He still missed those people. He still missed Lesya, and
his children and grandchildren on Gleason. And yet, he could never
entirely separate that from the realization that part of the joy he’d
felt in their presence had come from the sense that they were lifting
him out of his state of exile. They had never been substitutes for the
home and family he’d left behind; it had never been that crude. But
every kind of happiness bore some imprint in the shape of the pain it
had assuaged.
He heard footsteps behind him, outpacing his own. He
stopped and turned to face the wall of the walkway, as if admiring the
view, wiping his eyes with his forearm, less embarrassed by his tears
than the fact that he’d be at a loss to explain them. If he’d still
been on Turaev after four thousand years, he would have gone mad. And
if he’d traveled and returned in the approved way, to find that nothing
had changed in his absence, he would have gone mad even faster. He did
not regret leaving.
Mariama said, "You look like you’re about to jump off a
bridge."
"I didn’t realize you were following me."
She laughed. "I wasn’t following you.
What are we meant to do? Walk in opposite directions around the ship?
All Preservationists must march clockwise? That would make for some
long journeys."
"Forget it." He turned to look at her. It was unjust
beyond belief, but right at this moment — having resolved for the
thousandth time that he’d made the right decision — he wanted to rant in
her face about the price she’d made him pay. After all her talk as a
rebel child, after leading by example, after four thousand years as a
traveler, she had now decided that her role in life was to fight to
keep the planet-bound cultures — all the slaves she’d vowed to liberate,
all the drones she’d promised to shake out of their stupor — safely
marinating in their own inertia for another twenty thousand years.
He said, "Where are you heading?"
Mariama hesitated. "Do you know Kadir?"
"Only slightly. We didn’t exactly hit it off." Tchicaya
was about to add something more acerbic, when he realized that today
was the day Kadir’s home world, Zapata, would have fallen. That was
only true in terms of a reference frame fixed to the local stars, not
the Rindler's notion of simultaneity, and in any
case no confirmation of the event would reach them for decades, but
unless the border had magically altered its speed in distant regions,
the planet’s loss was a certainty.
"He’s holding a kind of wake. That’s where I’m going."
"So you and he are close?"
Mariama said, "Not especially. But he’s invited everyone,
not just his friends."
Tchicaya leaned back against the wall, unfazed by its
transparency. He said, "Why did you come here?"
She shaded her eyes against the borderlight. "I thought
you’d decided that we were never going to have this argument."
"If you think I’ve shut you up, now’s your chance."
"You know why I’m here," she said. "Don’t pretend it’s a
mystery." The glare was too much; she turned to stand beside him. "Do
you want to come with me, to this thing of Kadir’s?"
"You must be joking. Do you think I’m a provocateur, or
just a masochist?"
"This isn’t factional. He’s invited everyone." She
frowned. "Or are you afraid to spend ten minutes in the company of
people who might disagree with you?"
"I spent ten years on Pachner."
"Keeping your mouth shut."
"No. I was honest with everyone I met."
"Everyone who asked. If the issue came up."
Tcicaya moved away from her angrily. "I wasn’t sure of my
plans, when I first arrived. And when I was sure, I didn’t walk around
with a banner that read I’m off to the Rindler,
to make certain the same fate befalls as many other worlds as
possible. Does that make me dishonest? Does that make me a coward?"
Mariama shook her head. "All right, forget Pachner. But
if you’re so sure of your position now, why don’t you come with me? No
one’s going to lynch you."
"It would be inflammatory. What makes you think Kadir
wants the company of people who disagree with him?"
"There’s an open invitation," she protested. "Check with
the ship if you don’t believe me."
She was right. Tchicaya’s Mediator had filtered it out
automatically; he’d told it to classify general announcements by known
factional allegiances, to keep him from being distracted, and
depressed, by news of events where Yielders were unlikely to be welcome.
"I’m tired," he said. "It’s been a long day."
"You’re pathetic." Mariama walked away without another
word.
Tchicaya called after her, "All right! I’ll come with
you!" She didn’t stop. He ran to catch up with her.
They walked in silence for a while, then Tchicaya said, "This whole
iron curtain thing is insane. Within a decade, we’ll find a
way to pin some state to the border that will freeze it in place. If we
worked on it together, it would take half as long."
Mariama regarded him coolly. "If we froze it, you think
that would be enough?"
"Enough for what?"
"Enough to satisfy either side."
"Ideally, I still want to cross through," Tchicaya
admitted. "We shouldn’t have to flee from this, or annihilate it. We
should be able to adapt. If the ocean comes a few meters inshore, you
retreat. A few kilometers, you build a dike. A few thousand…you learn
to live in boats. But if freezing the border turns out to be possible,
and it rules out exploration, I’d just have to accept that."
Mariama was skeptical. "And you’d take no risks at all,
from that moment on? You’d do absolutely nothing that had a chance of
unfreezing it? You’d let it sit there for a hundred thousand years,
undisturbed, and you wouldn’t be tempted in the least?"
"Oh, I see. That’s the logic that dictates the use of
Planck worms? If you don’t wipe the whole thing out of existence, some
Yielder is certain to come along eventually, and unplug the dike."
Mariama didn’t reply. They entered the module where the
wake was being held, and walked up the stairs.
On the map Tchicaya consulted, Kadir’s cabin had been
merged with a dozen of his neighbors', producing a roughly circular
room. Ahead of him, the entrance was wide open, and music wafted out
into the corridor.
Mariama’s clothes changed as they approached the doorway,
forming a pattern of woven bands broken up by ellipses, in earthen
colors. "You look good in that," Tchicaya observed. The comment
elicited a reluctant flicker of warmth in her eyes, and she knew him
too well to mistake it for insincere flattery, but she walked on into
the room without a word. He steeled himself, and followed her.
There was quite a crowd inside, talking, eating, a few
people dancing. Tchicaya could see no other Yielders, but he resisted
the urge to ask his Mediator to hunt for friendly signatures.
Images of Zapata shone from the walls. The planet from
space; aerial views of towns, mountains, and rivers. Tchicaya had spent
forty years on Zapata, moving from continent to continent, never really
settling down long enough to make close friends.
The life the settlers had unleashed on the sterile
planet, though ultimately derived from natural terrestrial genomes, had
been a little wilder and stranger than most. There were lithe winged
cats in some of the jungles that could tear out your throat. Toward the
end of his stay, it had been discovered that in one small, isolated
town, deliberate exposure to harm by these creatures had become a "rite
of passage" into adulthood — as if adolescence itself was insufficiently
traumatic. The partially eaten bodies could generally be repaired, and
at worst the Qusp could always be tracked down and recovered from the
animal’s stomach, so the ritual fell short of local death, but as far
as Tchicaya was concerned, that only made it more barbaric. Better to
suffer memory loss and discontinuity than the experience of having your
jugular gnawed open — and better anything than the company of people
who’d decided that this was the definition of maturity.
Children in the town who declined to participate had been
ostracized, but once the practice came to light, the wider society of
Zapata had intervened — with a concerted effort to improve transport and
communication links. After a few years of heightened exposure to the
possibility of simply walking away from the town and its self-appointed
cultural guardians, no one was interested in being bullied into
conformity anymore.
It was the kind of behavior that could only occur when
people had been trapped for thousands of years, staring at the same
sights, fetishizing everything around them, spiraling down toward the
full-blown insanity of religion. You didn’t need gates and barbed wire
to make a prison. Familiarity could pin you to the ground, far more
efficiently.
Mariama waved a small yellow fruit at him, half-bitten. "Try one of
these. They’re delicious."
"Good grief. Where do you think he grew them?"
"In the garden. Lots of people have set up plots for
food. You have to tweak the genomes to get photosynthesis to work in
the borderlight, but that’s old hat, you just copy those ugly things
the original builders put in."
"I must have walked past without even noticing."
"They’re quite far back from the path. Are you going to
try one?"
Tchicaya shook his head. "I’ve tasted them before. There
can’t be many; I’m not going to hog them."
Mariama turned to address Kadir, who’d appeared before
them like a perfect host. She said, "Tchicaya was just telling me that
he’d already tasted quetzal-fruit."
Kadir said, "You’ve visited Zapata?" He had probably
intended to greet them politely then move on, but this claim could not
be left unexamined.
"Yes." Tchicaya braced himself for a barrage of insults
about travelers and other parasites.
"How long ago?"
"About nine hundred years."
"Where did you go?"
"All over." Kadir waited expectantly, so Tchicaya reeled
off a list of towns.
When he’d finished, Kadir said, "I was born in Suarez,
but I left when I was twenty. I never managed to get back. How long
were you there?"
Tchicaya had been reorganizing his memories as they
spoke, dragging the whole period upward in his association hierarchy.
"Less than a year."
Kadir smiled. "That’s longer than most visitors stay.
What was the attraction?"
"I don’t know. It was a quiet spot, I was tired of moving
about. The landscape wasn’t spectacular, but from the house where I
stayed you could see the top of the mountains in the distance."
"That slate-gray color, against the sky in the morning?"
"Yeah. Completely different at sunset, though. Almost
pink. I could never work that out." He’d raised the memories so high
that it might have been yesterday. He could smell the dust and the
pollen, he could feel the heat of the evening.
Kadir said, "I think I know where you were. Not the
house, it wasn’t built when I was there, but — do you remember the
creek,
north of the main road?"
"Yes. I was close to it. A few minutes' walk."
Kadir’s face lit up. "That’s amazing! It was still there?
We used to go swimming in that creek. My whole family. All through
summer, around dusk. Did you swim in it?"
"Yes." At the same time, the same season. Watching the
stars come out, lying on his back in the cool water.
"Was the big tree still there? With the branch
overhanging the deep end?"
Tchicaya frowned, summoning up eidetic imagery,
constructing a panoramic view in his mind’s eye and searching for
anything meeting this description. "I don’t think so."
"No, it wouldn’t have been." Kadir turned to Mariama. "We
used to walk out along this branch, about four meters up, and dive off
backward." He spread his arms and swayed. "The first time I did it, it
must have been an hour after sunset. I couldn’t see anything, and when
I hit the water I just kept sinking into the blackness. I was nine
years old. I was terrified!"
Tchicaya said, "There was no deep water, when I was
there. It must have silted up."
"Or the banks might have shifted," Kadir suggested. "I
was there three hundred years before you. They might have built
anything upstream."
Zyfete approached, and slipped an arm around Kadir’s
waist. She regarded Tchicaya warily, but it must have been obvious that
he was not making trouble.
Looking away from her into the crowd, Tchicaya spotted
Sophus, Tarek, Birago. He was conspicuous here; it couldn’t be
otherwise.
He said, "I have to go."
Kadir nodded, unoffended. He reached out and shook
Tchicaya’s hand. "I’m glad you saw Suarez," he said.
Mariama caught up with him outside.
"Go back in with your friends," he said.
She ignored him. "Was that so unbearable?"
"No. I never claimed it would be. I was afraid my
presence might upset someone. It didn’t. I’m glad."
"I suppose you think that’s all pathological? The music,
the pictures, the food?"
Tchicaya scowled. "So much for you reading my mind. It’s
ordinary nostalgia. I feel the same way about all kinds of places.
There’s nothing sick or obsessive about it. And because of that, it’s
hardly going to destroy him that he can’t go back. His favorite
swimming hole would have turned into a silted-up pond by now, anyway.
He’s been spared the disappointment."
"You really are made of stone." She sounded disappointed,
as if she’d seriously expected a few minutes' reminiscing with Kadir to
change his mind about everything.
"No one will have died, leaving Zapata. The rocks are
gone. The trees are gone. If anyone really lived for those things,
they’ll find a way to re-create them."
"That will never be the same."
"Good." Tchicaya stopped and turned on her. "What exactly
do you imagine he’s suffering? He’s thinking about the things he’s
experienced, and the things he’s lost. We all do that. He hasn’t been
eviscerated. Nine thousand years is a long time, but no one sprang from
the ground of Zapata fully formed."
"They’ve still been dispossessed," Mariama insisted.
"Of rocks. Nothing else."
"Of memories. Of meaning."
"You know that’s not true! What do you think, we’re back
in the colonial era, on Earth? There was a time
when it was possible for an honest, intelligent person to subscribe to
a cosmology where their dead ancestors lived in the mountains, and if
you angered the spirit of the waterhole the crops would fail for the
next ten years. Where the land was alive, and unique, and sacred. And
if some horde of barbarians came marching through, subscribing to an
even more surreal religion and claiming everything in sight for some
inbred fop in a powdered wig, what else would you do but fight for your
land, and cling to your beliefs?
"No one is in that position anymore. No one can confuse the
landscape with the inalienable things inside them."
Mariama replied pointedly, "Which would explain why you
don’t care at all what lies behind the border, and why you’d be just as
happy to go and live in some abstract scape with the acorporeals."
Tchicaya was tongue-tied. He believed she understood the
difference perfectly, but he knew he’d sound clumsy and
self-contradictory if he backtracked to spell it out.
He said, "How many thousands of years should Zapata have
remained unchanged? How many million?"
She shook her head. "That’s not the question. It would
have changed of its own accord."
"When? And how many children would it
have smothered, before it changed?"
"You weren’t smothered on Turaev. You got out in time."
"Not everyone did."
"Not everyone needed to."
They’d reached the stairs leading up to his cabin.
"You think I’m a hypocrite?" Mariama demanded. "Because
I’m a traveler, and I’m championing people’s right to stay put?"
"I don’t think you’re a hypocrite."
"I’ve seen change," she said. "Unforced, driven
from within, not a response to some crisis that
dictates the alternatives. That’s painful in its own way, but it’s
better to go through that than have your whole way of life determined
by some senseless accident that has nothing to do with anything.
"When I arrived on Har’El, there was a genuine
renaissance going on. People were reexamining their own traditions, not
having them undermined by external events. Everything was fluid,
everything was being questioned. It was the most exciting place I’ve
ever lived in."
"Really? For how long?"
Mariama shrugged. "Nothing lasts forever. You can’t have
a whole world in perpetual upheaval."
"No, but when the upheaval ended the result was
apparently not a world you were prepared to live in."
"My marriage broke up," she said. "And Emine wanted to
travel. If she’d stayed on Har’El, I might still be there. But those
are personal, idiosyncratic reasons. You can’t start treating my
decisions as some kind of measure of whether or not a whole society
deserves to exist."
"That’s true," Tchicaya conceded. He was beginning to
feel both battered and invigorated; she’d always had to push him to the
edge of defeat before he got his second wind. He’d forgotten how much
he’d loved arguing with her, when they’d taken the opposite sides back
on Turaev. The only part he hated was the very thing that made it so
exhilarating: there was always far too much at stake.
He said, "But even if Har’El and all the other worlds
deserve to be left in peace, that right isn’t absolute." He gestured at
the border. "How can you mourn the loss of Zapata, and then turn around
and destroy something a thousand times more beautiful?"
"I’m not mourning Zapata," Mariama replied. "I’ve never
been there. It means nothing to me."
"So because no one has been through the border, whatever
lies behind it is worthless?"
Mariama thought for a moment. "That’s putting it crudely.
But however beautiful, and challenging, and fascinating it is, it’s not
worth losing what we already have."
"And if someone gets through and lives there for a day?
Or a week? Or a century? When does the magic thing happen? When does
their right to their home become equal to everyone else’s?"
"Now you’re just being jesuitical."
"I think that’s the cruelest thing you’ve ever said to
me." Tchicaya smiled, but she didn’t soften.
"Freeze the border," he pleaded.
Mariama said, "You freeze the border,
if that’s what you want. If you do it soon, and if you do it properly,
maybe that will convince us to leave it at that." She inclined her
head, and he could see her assessing the idea, judging it to be the
farthest she was prepared to go. "Freeze the border before we do
anything more, and you might just save whatever lies behind it."
She turned and walked away.
Tchicaya watched her go, trying to untangle the
negotiations he’d just stumbled through unwittingly. Without revealing
any secrets, she’d all but declared that Tarek’s Planck worms were
visible on the horizon. The fanciful notion was finally taking real
shape, and she’d responded by giving him one last chance to put his own
case, and to listen to her own. One last chance to sway her, or to be
swayed himself.
She had given as much ground as she could. Neither of
them were envoys for their factions; their decisions counted for
nothing with anyone else. Between the two of them, though, there’d be
no more engagement, no more discussion.
Just this challenge. This ultimatum.
This race.
Chapter 10
"I’ve already designed the vehicle you’re looking for,"
Yann insisted. "I just need some help to describe it in more palatable
terms, so I can sell it to the others."
Rasmah said, "It’s not a vehicle.
It’s software. And it’s software for a nonexistent computer."
Yann shook his head. "That’s just the mathematical
formalism I’ve used. It’s the best way to describe it — the most
elegant,
the most transparent. All we have to do now is disguise it." He added,
deadpan, "You can obfuscate, can’t you? Physicists
have been taking simple mathematical ideas and obfuscating them for
centuries. It must have been part of your training, surely?"
Rasmah took a swipe at him, and he flinched away from
her. No doubt this was a habit he’d acquired during embodiment, when
he’d managed to elicit a similar response from people on a regular
basis.
With the queue for bodies growing ever longer as new
arrivals flooded in, Yann had decided to remain acorporeal. Tarek had
responded to this news at the weekly interfactional meeting with a
long, paranoid dissertation on Yann’s self-evident intention to use his
new position to "corrupt" the Rindler's processor
network, infiltrating the Preservationists' communications and data
storage systems, spying on them and undermining all their efforts.
Fortunately, Sophus had spoken next, gently guiding Tarek back into
contact with reality. Many things in the universe remained difficult
and mysterious, but the casual structure of computer networks was not
one of them. It would have required an act of cartoonish incompetence
on the part of the Rindler's designers to create a
network in which any of the abuses Tarek feared were physically
possible.
Tchicaya said, "So you shift dynamics, once you’re
through the border? You navigate between them?" He had arranged for the
three of them to meet in his cabin so that Yann could try out the idea
on Rasmah and refine his pitch, before taking it to a meeting of all
the Yielders. "The dynamic laws are like stepping-stones that only need
to last for as long as you use them?"
Yann grimaced. "That sounds ugly enough, but it’s not
even close to the truth. The algorithm never obeys
a sharply defined dynamic law; if it tried to do that, it would be
doomed from the start." He thought for a while. "You know how a
Gaussian wave packet can keep its shape in a harmonic oscillator
potential?"
"Yes." Tchicaya felt a burst of confidence; that was just
elementary quantum mechanics. In empty space, a particle’s wave packet
would always disperse, spreading out without limits. But if the
particle experienced an attractive force analogous to the tug of a
spring in classical physics, there was a certain shape — a certain
Gaussian, like the bell curve of statistics — which was stable. Any
tighter, sharper wave packet would necessarily have a range of values
for momentum that made it spread out; that was just the uncertainty
principle. The right Gaussian, though, in the right environment, was
the perfect compromise between uncertainty in position and momentum,
allowing the shape of the wave to remain unchanged as it moved.
"This isn’t really the same," Yann admitted. "But it
might sound persuasive if I put it that way."
Rasmah glanced at Tchicaya, exasperated. He made puppydog
eyes back at her, pleading on Yann’s behalf.
She laughed, and relented. "Why don’t you just give me
the description of the graph you want to scribe, and I’ll grind through
the calculations using my own picture of Sophus’s model. If I can
demonstrate that we’d get some inforamtion back through the
border — something more than we put in — that might be enough to persuade
people. I’ll make sure I phrase my results in the ugliest possible way."
Yann said, "That’s wonderful. Thank you!"
He passed something to Rasmah — Tchicaya’s Mediator saw the
fact of the exchange, but not the content — and then vanished.
Rasmah sighed. "You really think he’s on to something? A
quantum computer can simulate any quantum process; that’s old news. It
doesn’t mean that there is a quantum computer
underlying anything."
"No," Tchicaya agreed. "But qubit network theory doesn’t
claim that. It just says that when you get to a low enough level, you
have nothing left to lose by treating the system as if
it were software. It’s like all the proofs in applied algorithmic
theory that are based on imagining Turing machines. No one complains
that the real universe is conspicuously devoid of paper tape."
"Old habits die hard," she confessed. "I’m still in
mourning for the Sarumpaet rules, and they were disproved before I was
born. They’re what I was brought up on, they’re what I’ve thought of
all my life as the template for a physical theory. It’s not easy
adapting, even to Sophus’s model."
"Yeah. I really am grateful to you for trying this,"
Tchicaya said. Since the factional rift had widened, it was more
important than ever to keep all the Yielders open to each other’s new
ideas, and where he wasn’t competent to contribute directly himself, he
could at least act as a kind of broker, prodding the appropriate
experts into action.
Rasmah seemed on the verge of pointing out that he might
have expressed his gratitude to her more palpably, but then she smiled
and accepted his words at face value.
"Okay. Here I go."
She turned her attention to something invisible to
Tchicaya. For several minutes, she sat in complete silence.
Suddenly, she exclaimed, "Oh, I see! This is actually
quite nice."
Tchicaya was excited, and slightly jealous. "Can you
explain?"
Rasmah held up her hand for patience, retreating back
into her private scape.
After a while, she spoke again. "Think of all the
different dynamic laws that might make topological
sense, in terms of the propagation of various kinds of particles that
are defined as patterns embedded in a graph. I know that’s horribly
vague, but I don’t think you’d want the version with added jargon."
Tchicaya said, "Okay. I’m thinking of them." He’d seen
enough examples that they’d pinned to the border over the last few
months to have some feel for what this meant.
"Now imagine each one is a quantum state vector in a big
fat Hilbert space. All of them orthogonal to each other."
"Yes." Tchicaya had never had his mind restructured to
enable clear images of more than three dimensions, but since Rasmah’s
Hilbert space was infinite-dimensional anyway, three was as good as any
other number. "I’m doing that. Go on."
"Now imagine a new set of vectors that consist of equal
amounts of all these dynamic-law vectors, and that
are all orthogonal to each other. These vectors represent definite
values of a variable that’s complementary to the law vectors. Branco
calls them law-momenta — which is a bit sloppy, because they’re not true
Lagrangian conjugates, but never mind."
"I’ll try not to fret." Tchicaya thought of the
directions on a map. If the dynamic-law vectors were north and east,
then the new, unbiased, law-momenta vectors would be north-west
and north-east. Both had equal portions of the old
directions — if you counted west as being the negative of east, and only
cared about the size of things, not their sign — and they were at right
angles to each other. In three dimensions or more you needed to
introduce complex numbers to pull off the same balancing act, but from
there you could keep on going to any number of dimensions. The amounts
of the original vectors you combined were just a series of complex
numbers that moved around a circle in the complex plane; to get
different vectors, all orthogonal to each other, you just moved around
the circle at different rates.
"Now picture a state vector which has equal components
when written as superpositions of the old set, or the new."
In two dimensions, that was easy: north-north-east lay at
the same angle to north as it did to north-east, and
the same angle to east as it did to north-west. In terms of the quantum
mechanics Rasmah was describing, it had equal uncertainty in the two
complementary variables: it did not obey a precise dynamic law, but nor
did it have any precise law-momentum. It split the difference and
compromised, in the most symmetrical way.
Rasmah continued. "These are the states Yann wants to
scribe, because if you create one on the border, and then arrange to
measure the same kind of state coming back, they yield the highest
attainable probability of returning with information about the
interior."
" The highest attainable probability? That’s a
resounding declaration of confidence." Tchicaya had been hoping for
something more reliable. He knew what quantum mechanics was like, but
if his own Qusp could pluck certainty from the haze, granting him the
ability to make unique decisions, surely Yann could work some similar
trick with the vastly more powerful abstract machine behind the border?
Rasmah emerged from her visualization. "I know how that
sounds, but it really is the best we can hope for. We’re not arranged
in the same way as the far side; we’re stuck in a dynamic-law
eigenstate, and that’s always going to make things difficult."
"Yeah." Tchicaya was grateful for anything that took them
beyond the current, artificial view of definite laws spread across the
border, but it was sobering to realize how much stranger things became
as the price of that advance. "I shouldn’t be disappointed, but I keep
underplaying the problems in my head: sweeping all the hard parts off
to one side, where I don’t have to look at them. If I faced the
difficulties squarely, I’d probably just turn around and run."
Rasmah regarded him with a mixture of curiosity and
affection. "You really do want to go through the border, don’t you?"
"I think so. What about you?"
"Absolutely. That’s what I came here to do." She
hesitated, then added, "For a while, I thought I must have said
something too extreme along those lines, and it put you off. But I
don’t think that’s it. So what is it about me that you hate so much?"
Tchicaya shook his head vehemently. "Nothing."
"But we got halfway," she said, "and then you changed
your mind." This wasn’t a question. Their bodies had ceased the silent
exchange of pheromones, and that in itself would have dampened her
feelings toward him, but it must have been clear to her that he was the
one who’d halted the process.
"You’re very good company," Tchicaya said. "But you
remind me too much of someone else, and I don’t feel right about that.
I don’t want to confuse you with her; that wouldn’t be fair on either
of us." He frowned apologetically. "Am I making any sense?"
Rasmah nodded uncertainly. "The other thing I thought
was, maybe you and Yann were still, somehow — "
"No!" Tchicaya was taken aback. "Where did you hear about
that?"
She waved a hand dismissively. "Everyone knows."
"Actually, I think Yann might have forgotten."
"But there is no one else, in the present? Just this
nameless competitor from the past?"
Not exactly a competitor. And not wholly in
the past. But Tchicaya didn’t want to explain any further.
"That’s right."
"Okay." Rasmah stood, and Tchicaya rose beside her. In
part, he was glad that she’d cleared the air, though at the same time
he felt a surge of resentment, now that he’d been forced to put his
reasons into words. He and Mariama would never be together. Why was he
letting her shape his decisions at all?
"You’ll support Yann with this?" he asked.
Rasmah smiled. "Definitely. This is our best hope, and
I’m sure I can sell it to the others. Suitably uglified."
The Blue Room was packed from wall to wall; it hadn’t
been so crowded since the Left Hand’s first trial run. The room was
near the bottom of its module, and it had already been expanded as far
as possible in all horizontal directions; several unobliging neighbors
above prevented it from growing upward. As relations had deteriorated,
some Yielders and Preservationists had swapped cabins in order to be
surrounded by fellow partisans, but the Rindler
hadn’t yet reached a state where every module was "owned" by one
faction or another.
Yann paced the ceiling, ducking away from the tallest
heads and shoulders — making his presence visible, but wisely desisting
from trying to claim space that he could not defend with solid elbows.
Other acorporeals came and went beside him, and no doubt he was
conversing with some who weren’t bothering to display icons. Almost
everyone who’d been born acorporeal had now donated their bodies to new
arrivals, effectively splitting the Yielders into two distinct
communities, more so in some ways than the factions themselves.
Tchicaya had mixed feelings about this; their generosity had given many
more people a chance to participate in events on the ship, in the only
manner that would not have been alien to them. But the acorporeals had
been willing to change modes in the first place, so why couldn’t the
newcomers make do with software bodies? Maybe he had no right to think
that way, having accepted the first such sacrifice himself, but the
segregation by birth still depressed him, however well acclimatized to
their condition the acorporeals were.
The Left Hand had scribed Yann’s state almost an hour
before, and they were still waiting hopefully for an echo. Rasmah had
ended up translating Yann’s purely algorithmic account into a kind of
sophisticated scattering experiment: they were probing the far side by
sending in an elaborately structured pulse that was capable of
propagating relatively large distances. At least part of this pulse
stood a good chance of bouncing off any structure that lay in its path,
and coming back to them bearing an imprint of whatever it encountered.
This made it sound cozily familiar: a cross between
radar, particle physics, and tomography. But the "distance" the pulse
would travel and the "structures" it might or might not interact with
were the raw topological details of an unknown superposition of quantum
graphs, not properties of such elaborate near-side constructions as
vacuum obeying Euclidean geometry, or the kind of matter that would
reflect light or microwaves. Even the pulse itself had no real
analogies in the ordinary world: it was not a particle, or a
gravitational wave, or any kind of electromagnetic signal. It was a new
form of dislocation in the pattern of threads from which all those
mundane things were woven.
Rasmah cried out, "We’ve got something!"
People started jostling for a better view of the screen,
though the image was being made available directly to everyone in the
room. Tchicaya stubbornly stood his ground behind Rasmah for several
seconds, then he gave up and let the crowd percolate around him,
forcing him back.
He closed his eyes and saw, unobstructed, the first raw
image of the returning pulse. It was a speckled, monochrome, pockmarked
pattern, like a fuzzy shot of a cratered landscape, taken in such low
light levels that you could count the individual photons. As he
watched, the speckling of the image shimmered; it reminded Tchicaya of
some kind of weird laser effect.
"Interference!" Yann crowed happily from the ceiling. "Wait, wait,
let me — " An inset blossomed in the image, a huge, tangled,
branching polymer, studded with loops and knots, built from nodes of
every valence. Different parts of the pulse would have been modified in
different ways by the same topology; Yann had used the interference
between these altered components to reconstruct a typical portion of
the kind of graph the signal must have passed through.
Rasmah said, "That’s far from an unbiased superposition.
It’s not the sum of all random haystacks in there. There’s no vacuum,
but there’s still order."
Tchicaya stared at the polymer. From childhood, he’d
studied the Sarumpaet patterns, the quantum graphs that could maintain
stability under the old rules. And for months, he’d seen the
alternatives: all the different possible families of particles, deduced
from the physics they’d trapped on the border.
This was like an amalgam that some magpie of a sculptor
had created to sum up that experience, combining features from all of
them — grabbing fragments of every kind of ordinary, vacuumbased physics
and welding them together, without regard to such niceties as having to
build a uniform, homogeneous geometry, or having to respect a simple
set of rules that stayed constant over time.
Hayashi called out from behind Tchicaya, "Is that
fractal? Can you give it a dimension?"
Rasmah invoked some further processing. "No. No
dimension, integer or otherwise. The branching’s not at all
self-similar; there’s no redundant information."
"Modify the probe pulse and send it again. Here are the
details." Branco’s voice rang out from midair, as if he were among the
acorporeals; he’d declined to leave his cabin and join the crush. Some
Yielders had been reluctant to grant access to the results to anyone
who refused to declare their allegiance, but sanity had finally
prevailed.
Rasmah said, "Thanks for the suggestion, but it will have
to wait." The meeting that had approved Yann’s experiment had set aside
a week for the interpretation of the results, before any further action
was to be taken.
Branco sighed. "Do it, don’t do it. I couldn’t care less."
Rasmah displayed Branco’s proposal for everyone to see.
It was a straightforward alteration to Yann’s original state,
accompanied by some calculations suggesting that components would
bounce back to them in a staggered sequence that would make changes in
the graphs over time easier to deduce. If this worked, it would give
them a movie of the far side, in place of a single, still image.
Suljan yelled out, "We should try that, immediately!"
Bhandari, in a far corner of the room, disagreed. People started
voicing approval and shouting alternative suggestions from all
directions. Tchicaya would have covered his ears, but his hands were
trapped. This was bedlam, but it was intoxicating. It reminded him of
the time he and a group of friends on Peldan had landed a
remotecontrolled vehicle on a passing asteroid: everyone wanted to grab
the joystick.
Rasmah screamed, "Shut up!"
Something approximating silence descended.
"Read Branco’s proposal," she pleaded. "Think about it.
We’ll have a vote in fifteen minutes. And if anyone feels like going
out to stretch their legs in the meantime…don’t rush back. You can
vote from anywhere."
The noise rose up again, but there was no real note of
discord. Rasmah slumped against the control panel.
Yann poked his head down in front of Tchicaya. "You’re
all completely mad. Someone’s going to get crushed."
"Some of us have no choice about taking up space."
"There’s plenty of room up here," Yann suggested
helpfully.
"Yeah, right, just give me a hand up." The ship could
probably have molded a tier of hanging chairs, but the ceiling was so
low that this would have meant a constant risk of being kicked in the
head.
"Some people are so inflexible. When Cass came to Mimosa,
she insisted on a body. We obliged, but we made it small enough to fit."
Tchicaya had never heard this detail before.
"How small?" he asked.
Yann held out his hand, thumb and forefinger a couple of
millimeters apart.
"You evil, sadistic bastards."
Tchicaya squeezed his way through the crowd back to the
control panel. Rasmah looked frazzled but happy.
"What do you make of this?" he asked, gesturing at the
polymer.
"It’s too early for interpretations," she said.
"But it’s structured, isn’t it?" he suggested. "You said
as much yourself."
Rasmah had grown more cautions. "It’s not an equal
superposition of all the things it could be. It’s not a maximum-entropy
quantum blancmange. That still leaves a lot of room for it to be
disordered, in lesser ways."
Tchicaya didn’t pursue the point, but the very fact that
Yann’s pulse had come back to them bearing information proved that
there was some potential for setting up causal processes on the far
side. Lawless as it was in the conventional sense, it could still
support a kind of machinery. They could try to build more sophisticated
exploratory vehicles. Perhaps, eventually, even bodies and Qusps.
More importantly, if they ever succeeded in doing that,
the place they’d be entering was looking less and less like a
featureless desert. When Tchicaya had arrived on the Rindler,
it had still been conceivable that the world behind the border would be
nothing but a different form of empty space, with no particular reason
to contain even the equivalent of the tiny smudge of matter that
enlivened the near side. They’d barely glimpsed the structure of the
far side, but his first impression was that the hundred million cubic
light-years of vacuum claimed by Mimosa had been rewoven into something
orders of magnitude more complex.
"Do you think we should show this to the opposition?"
Tchicaya asked. "It might give them pause, if they can finally see that
they’re not just dealing with a corrosive void."
Rasmah laughed. "You honestly believe they’d care?"
"Some would. And I don’t see what we have to lose."
"Nor do I, but only because I’m sure they’ll end up with
exactly the same details, whether we inform them officially or not."
Tchicaya was startled. "You think someone’s spying for
them?"
"Of course."
"What makes you so sure? Do we have spies with them?"
"Not that I know of," Rasmah admitted. "But that’s not a
fair comparison. The most relaxed Preservationist is an order of
magnitude more security-conscious than our most diligent supporter."
The vote was taken, returning ninety-two percent support
for Branco’s suggestion. Rasmah scribed the modified pulse, and they
waited again.
Tchicaya sat on the console as people talked around them. "I never
really thought we’d get this far," he admitted. "Even once I’d
made up my mind to come here, it seemed like a mad, quixotic notion."
He described the legend of the falling Sappers.
"I like that story," she said, "but it’s not a good
metaphor. Bombs hit the ground, and that’s that. We’re not facing a
single, decisive deadline. Thousands of planets have fallen, but there
is no moment when everything will be won or lost. So long as the border
doesn’t accelerate, we could hang on here for another thousand years,
learning whatever we need to learn."
"Unless we lose everything to the Preservationists first."
Rasmah shrugged, as if that went without saying. Tchicaya
hadn’t told her about Mariama’s ultimatum; the actual words had been so
ambiguous that to most people they’d convey little more than the
obvious fact that Planck worms were on the Preservationists' agenda. He
hadn’t given up hope of finding a way to freeze the border, but there
was no clear path leading toward that outcome; randomly pinning
dynamics was never going to do it. They had to look deeper, they had to
learn more.
He said, "So you never doubted that this moment would
come?"
"Never. Not for a second." She laughed. "You should see
your face, Tchicaya. I grew up with the border, remember? My parents
used to take me outside at night and show me this tiny little disk of
light, where the brightest star in the sky used to be. Sixty years
later, it was on top of us. I’d never felt as angry as the day we had
to evacuate. Not just because I was losing all the places I’d known on
Maeder. I hated running from this thing."
"You wanted to stay and fight?"
"I wanted to stay and understand it. I would have been on
the Rindler from the start if I’d heard about it
early enough. Instead, I went chasing rumors of another project. That
fell through, and it took me centuries to make my way here. But I
always knew we’d find a way through the border. The night before I left
Maeder, I stood on the roof of my house and promised myself: next time,
it won’t just look as if I could reach up and push my hand into the far
side. It will be possible. It will be true."
Tchicaya could easily picture her in this scene. "You’re
making me feel very old and indecisive," he complained.
She smiled. "I’m sorry, but that’s because you are."
The console said, "Move your backside, please." Tchicaya
slid off; data was coming through.
This time, he fought harder to stay beside Rasmah,
peering over her shoulder at the console as the pulse appeared, and its
interference pattern was analyzed.
Branco’s refinement had been on target: the new set of
images showed a graph changing smoothly. Again, this was just an
average for the whole path that had been traversed, not any particular
piece of the far side, but it was still as informative as, say, a
sample of images of terrain from a million different Earth-sized
planets of different ages. You didn’t need to have the entire history
of one specific world to get a qualitative sense of how things changed.
Rasmah set the image looping, and the Blue Room crowd
fell silent. The intricate waves of knotted edges flowing through the
graph were mesmerizing. Animations of standard particle physics could
be austerely beautiful; watching something like pair-production, with
the mirror-image patterns of electrons and positrons forming out of
their parent photons and moving through the vacuum, you couldn’t help
but admire the elegant symmetry of the process. This was a thousand
times more complex, without being random or chaotic. The still image
had reminded Tchicaya of a clumsy sculptural collage, but that was only
because he’d imagined all the separate parts still playing their old,
vacuum-based roles. Seeing the integrated whole in action destroyed
that impression completely. Rather, the old Sarumpaetstyle patterns and
interactions were beginning to look like repetitive attempts to imitate
parts of this — like the work of some awful,
sample-driven artist who took a tiny piece of someone else’s
intricately composed, wall-sized image and treated it as a decorative
tile to be stamped out a thousand times in a rectangular grid.
Near-side physics did achieve the same kind of complex
beauty, but not at this scale, twenty orders of magnitude smaller than
a proton. You had to move up to the size of atoms, at least, and even
the richness of chemistry appeared crude and stodgy in comparison. When
atoms changed their bonds, it was generally a haphazard,
rough-and-tumble process, driven at random by thermal collisions, or at
best chaperoned by enzymes or nanomachines. These polymers of
indivisible nodes and edges were reweaving themselves with a speed and
precision that made the most sophisticated molecular factories look
like children tossing snowballs.
Tchicaya heard someone clear their throat, nervous and
tentative, reluctant to break the spell. He turned away from the
console, curious and slightly annoyed, wondering what anyone thought
they could add to this extraordinary sight with words. But the crowd
moved respectfully away from the speaker, making space as if in
encouragement.
It was Umrao, a recent arrival from Nambu who Tchicaya
had only met once. He looked around shyly, even more nervous now that
he had everyone’s attention.
He said, "That’s not particle propagation, but it’s
something I’ve seen before, in simulations. It’s persistence, and
replication, and interdependence. It’s not a superposition of a billion
different vacua — or if it is, that’s only one way to describe it, and I
don’t believe it’s the best.
"It’s a biosphere. It’s an ecology. Right down at the
Planck scale, the far side is crawling with life."
Chapter 11
Tchicaya said, "We should tell them, now! Take them all
the evidence. No, no — better, teach them Yann and Branco’s method, and
let them probe the far side for themselves. Then they’ll know they’re
not being cheated with some kind of elaborate simulation."
Hayashi groaned. "And then what? They convince themselves
that they’re now facing the Virus That Ate Space-Time. While we’ve
surrendered our sole advantage."
Pacing the ship, unable to sleep, Tchicaya had run into
Suljan and Hayashi. When a casual exchange of views in the corridor had
come perilously close to disclosing all the latest discoveries, he’d
accompanied them to the Yielders' cafeteria, which was supposedly
secured against listening devices. Other people passing through had
become entangled in the debate.
Rasmah said, "I agree. This isn’t going to sway anyone.
Even if they’re willing to interpret this as evidence for Planck-scale
biota, and even if that destroys all their preconceptions about the
Mimosan vacuum…if you didn’t care that much about far-side physics,
why should you care about far-side microbiology?"
Yann’s icon appeared, seated beside her. "Microbiology?
These organisms are a few hundred Planck lengths wide: about
ten-to-the-minus-thirty-three meters. This is vendekobiology."
Suljan picked up a mug and raised it threateningly. "What
are you doing here? This is where the real people come, to metabolize
in peace."
Yann said, "My mistake. I thought you might be sitting
around singing the praise of everyone who helped win you a glimpse of
the far side. But I can see you’re more interested in getting in some
valuable belching and farting time."
Hayashi reached over and slapped Suljan on the back of
the head. "You’re an oaf. Apologize."
"Ow. It was a joke!" He turned to Yann. "I apologize. I’m
in awe of your accomplishments. I’m already working on an ode to your
sacred memory."
Umrao looked embarrassed by all the bickering going on
around him. He said, "I suppose we need more evidence if we’re going to
convince the skeptics, but for what it’s worth, I’ve been doing some
simulations." He summoned graphics, floating above the table. "The mix
of replicators is probably not the same throughout the far side. There
are other possible equilibria, other population mixtures that look more
or less stable — and that’s just changing the relative numbers of the
species we’ve seen, not accounting for entirely different ones." The
images showed both a graph-level view of these teeming communities of
organisms, and a higher-level map of a possible set of neighboring
regions.
"The transition zones tend to be quite sharp, and
sometimes they just advance relentlessly in one direction at a constant
velocity, like the border itself. But there are other situations where
an intermediate mix of species forms in a narrow layer, and it stops
either side from invading the other."
Tchicaya seized on this. "A kind of internal freezing of
the border?"
Umrao nodded. "I suppose you could think of it like that.
Except that our side of the border is completely sterile, so it’s not
really subject to the same effects."
"You don’t think we could create a layer population like
these, that worked with one side unpopulated?"
Umrao thought for a while. "I couldn’t say. For a start,
these are simulations, so I’m not even sure that any of this happens in
reality. And we’d need to understand many things much more thoroughly
before we set out to engineer a layer population with particular
properties."
Suljan said, "Screw it up, and the border might just move
faster."
Tchicaya gazed into the simulation. Our side of
the border is completely sterile. All these millennia
looking for life, scratching around on rare balls of dirt for even
rarer examples of biochemistry, only to find that the entire substrate
of the visible universe was a kind of impoverished badlands. Life had
still arisen here, thirty orders of magnitude up the length scale, as
heroic and miraculous as some hardy plant on a frozen mountain peak,
but all the while, infinitely richer possibilities had been buzzing
through the superposition that the dead vacuum concealed.
He said, "Keeping this quiet is insane. People have
evacuated whole planets for fewer microbes than there are in one
atom-sized speck of the far side."
"Not always enthusiastically," Rasmah replied dryly.
For a moment, Tchicaya was certain that she knew what
he’d done. Mariama had revealed their secret, whispered it in a few
well-chosen ears, to punish him for his hypocrisy.
That was absurd, though. It was common knowledge that
compliance with the ideal of protective isolation had often been
begrudging, and everyone suspected that there’d been cases where the
evidence had been ignored, or destroyed.
"This could win us the Wishful Xenophiles," he persisted. "One
glimpse of this, and they’d desert en masse."
Not all Preservationists shared the view that cultural upheavel was the
worst consequence of Mimosa; a sizable minority were more afraid that
it might obliterate some undiscovered richness of near-side alien life.
Four known planets dotted with microbes — whatever potential they
offered
for evolutionary wonders in a few hundred million years' time — might
not
be worth fighting for, and most people had abandoned hope that the
galaxy contained other sentient beings, but unexplored regions could
still be home to alien ecologies to rival Earth’s. Now, that uncertain
possibility had to be weighed against life-forms by the quadrillion,
right in front of their noses.
"These aren’t sophisticated creatures," Hayashi pointed
out. "We can quibble about the definition of life in different
substrates, but even if that’s conceded, these things really aren’t
much more complex than the kind of RNA fragments you find in
simulations of early terrestrial chemistry."
"That’s true," replied Suljan, "but who says we’ve seen
all the life there is to see?" He turned to Umrao. "Do you think these
could just be the bottom of the food chain?"
Umrao spread his hands helplessly. "This is very
flattering, but I think some of you are beginning to ascribe oracular
powers to me. I can recognize life when I see it. I can extrapolate a
little, with simulations. But I have no way of knowing if we’re looking
at the equivalent of Earth in the days of RNA, or if this is plankton
on the verge of disappearing into a whale."
Yann said, "Now we’re talking xennobiology!" Tchicaya
shot him a disgusted look, though on reflection the hideous pun seemed
inescapable. A complex organism based on similar processes to the
primitive ones they’d seen probably would be about a xennometer in size.
Suljan wasn’t satisfied with Umrao’s modest disclaimer. "You can
still help us take an educated guess. Start at the bottom,
with what we’ve seen. I don’t think we should try to imagine
evolutionary processes; we don’t know that these things are primeval,
we just know that they seem to be ubiquitous. So we should ask, what
else can fit in the same picture? The vendeks don’t really prey on each
other, do they?"
"No," Umrao agreed. "Where they coexist in a stable
fashion, it’s more like exosymbiosis. In totality, they create an
environment in the graph where they can all persist, taking up a fixed
share of the nodes. A given vendek in a given place in the graph will
either persist or not, depending on the surrounding environment. At
least in the sample we’ve seen, most do better when surrounded by
certain other species — they don’t flourish in a crowd of their own
kind,
but they can’t make do with just any sort of neighbor. In microbiology,
you get similar effects when one species can use the waste of another
as food, but there’s nothing like that going on here — there is no food,
no waste, no energy."
"Mmm." Suljan pondered this. "No vacuum, no
timetranslation symmetry, no concept of energy. So even if there’s
another level of organisms, there’s no particular reason why they
should eat the vendeks."
"They might have subsumed them, though," Hayashi
suggested. "Imagine the equivalent of multicellularity. A larger
organism might have different vendeks playing specialized roles.
Different tissues of a xennobe might consist of — or be derived
from — some of the species we’ve seen."
"I suppose so," Umrao said cautiously. "But remember,
these things are much, much simpler than single-celled organisms. They
don’t have anything remotely akin to genomes. In most multicellular
creatures, all the cells in all the tissues share their full genome,
with different parts of it switched on and off. It’s hard to see how
vendeks could be regulated with the necessary precision."
Rasmah frowned. "Maybe multicellularity’s not the right
analogy. What’s it actually like, on a larger
length scale, to be immersed in these different vendek populations?"
Umrao shrugged. "For what to be
immersed? I don’t know what kind of organized patterns of information
can persist, apart from the vendeks themselves. If we’re going to model
the behavior of some object, we need to know what it’s made from."
Tchicaya took a stab at this. "Different vendek
populations, with stable layers between them? A kind of honeycomb of
different heterogeneous communities?"
Suljan said, "Hey, maybe they’re the cells! Vendeks
themselves are too small to play tissue types, but certain communities
of them can be maintained within intact membranes, so maybe our
xennobes could regulate the population mixtures as a surrogate for cell
differentiation." He turned back to Umrao. "What do you think? Could
you look for a form of motility in these walled communities?"
"Motility?" Umrao thought for a moment. "I think I could
build something like that." He began tinkering with the simulation, and
within minutes he’d produced an amoebalike blob moving through a sea of
free vendeks. "There’s one population mix for the interior, and a layer
around it that varies as you go from the leading surface to the
trailing one. The leading surface acts like an invasion front, but it
decays into the interior mix as it travels. The trailing surface does
the reverse; it actually invades its own interior, but it lets the
external population take over in its wake. Perpetual motion only,
though: this cell could never stand still. And it’s a contrived setup.
But I suppose there are all kinds of opportunities to modulate
something like this."
Tchicaya looked away from the simulation to the mundane
surroundings of the cafeteria. He was beginning to feel more optimistic
than he had since he’d arrived, but this was all still speculation. To
build a machine, a body, from anything like these "cells" was going to
be a dauntingly complex endeavor.
He said, "We have to win time from the Preservationists.
There has to be a truce, a moratorium, or this could all be wiped out
before we learn anything."
Rasmah said, "You think they could make effective Planck
worms, without knowing what they’re dealing with?"
"You’re the one who’s convinced that they have spies."
"If they have spies, why should telling them anything buy
us more time?"
"When did spies ever share their intelligence with the
masses?" Tchicaya countered. "Suppose Tarek was looking over our
shoulder right now, but everyone else remained in the dark?" He turned
to Umrao. "I don’t suppose you’ve investigated the possibility of
Planck worms? A plague that kills the vendeks, and leaves a sterile
vacuum in its wake?"
Umrao glanced around the table warily. "If any of what
you just said was serious, I don’t think I should answer that question."
Suljan groaned. "Forget about politics. We need more
data!" He slumped down across the table, drumming his fists on the
surface. "I was playing around with something last night, before I
stepped out for a snack and ended up mired in this discussion. I think
I might have found a way to extend Yann and Branco’s technique, pushing
the range about ten thousand times further." He looked up at Yann,
smiling slyly. "The only way I could make any progress with your work,
though, was to translate it all into my own formalism. Everything
becomes clearer, once you express it in the proper language. It only
took me a few hours to see how to scale it up, once I’d dealt with the
mess you left us."
Rasmah asked sweetly, "So what was the great conceptual
breakthrough, Suljan? How did you sweep our Augean stables clean?"
Suljan straightened up in his seat and beamed proudly at
them all. "Qubit network theory. I rewrote everything as an algorithm
for an abstract quantum computer. After that, improving it was
simplicity itself."
On his way to the Blue Room, crossing the observation
deck, Tchicaya spotted Birago standing by the starside wall. His first
thought was to walk on by; minimizing friction by minimizing contact
had become an unwritten rule of shipboard life. But the two of them had
got on well enough before the separation, and Tchicaya was sick of only
talking to Preservationists at the interfactional meetings, when the
entire discussion was guaranteed to revolve around a mixture of
procedural issues and mutual paranoia.
As Tchicaya approached, Birago saw him and smiled. He
looked slightly preoccupied, but not annoyed at the interruption.
Tchicaya said, "What are you up to?"
"Just thinking about home." Birago nodded vaguely in the
direction of the blue shift, but Tchicaya knew which star he meant. It
had been chosen by the people on Viro before they were scattered, and
Tchicaya had had it pointed out to him by the evacuees he’d encountered
on half a dozen worlds. The spore packages had already been launched
from Gupta, and the evacuees — who’d spread out to many different
intermediate destinations, to avoid overtaxing the hospitality of the
locals — would follow within a couple of centuries. "We’re not losing
this one," he said. "Not until the sun burns out."
Tchicaya had heard the slogan many times before. Whether
it was a matter of being the oldest community of evacuees, or some
other factor in the original culture, people from Viro always appeared
more focused on their new home than on the loss of the old. Birago
himself had no clear memories of Viro — he’d left as an infant, and
moved
from world to world a dozen times — but if his family had wrapped him in
any vision of permanence, any sense of belonging, it was anchored to
their future, not their past.
Tchicaya said, "There’s good reason to be hopeful now."
That wasn’t giving anything away: the Preservationists would know, at
the very least, that his side had had a series of breakthroughs. Their
understanding was snowballing; a concrete plan for some form of stable
compromise could only be a matter of time now.
Birago laughed. "Hope is for when you
have nothing else. When I was a child, no one around me would ever look
up at the border and say, It’s too big. We’re too late. It’s
unstoppable. We had no plans, we had no remedies; the only strength we
had came from refusing to give up. Which was all very laudable…but
you can’t go on like that forever. There has to come a time when hope
turns into something more tangible."
"Honey or ashes."
"Ah, know-it-all travelers." Birago smiled, but there was
an edge to his voice. Picking up a few idiomatic phrases in passing
didn’t mean you understood anything.
"We’ll both have certainty soon," Tchicaya insisted. "I
can’t believe it will be much longer now."
"We? What counts as certainty for
you?"
"Safeguarding the far side."
Birago was amused. "And you think that could ever be part
of certainty for us?"
Tchicaya felt a chill of disappointment, but he
persisted. "I don’t see why not. Once we understand this thoroughly,
we’ll know what is and isn’t safe. No one runs around extinguishing
stars out of fear that they might go supernova."
Birago gestured with his right hand, "There are tens of
billions of stars to learn from" — then with his left, toward the
border — "but there’s only one Mimosa."
"That doesn’t mean it will remain a mystery forever."
"No. But no one’s patience lasts forever. And I know
where the benefit of the doubt belongs."
Tchicaya arrived late in the Blue Room, missing the start
of Suljan’s experiment. Many more people had chosen to avoid the crush
and watch from their cabins, so the place was far less crowded than
before, to the point where there was space for furniture.
As Tchicaya joined Rasmah, Yann, and Umrao at a table not
far from the console, Rasmah was saying, "I’m not optimistic about
seeing anything new, such a short distance in. If the outermost mixture
of vendeks is converting our vacuum at the fastest possible rate, there
could be light-years of them behind the border."
"Light-years?" Yann regarded her with amusement, as if
she’d made some kind of category error: a liter of energy, a kilogram
of space. The normal geometrical meaning of a quantum graph was
intimately bound up with the presence of particles, and they were yet
to unravel any simple notion of distance for the far side.
"You know what I mean," Rasmah retorted. "Ten-to-the-fiftieth nodes'
worth."
Umrao said, "The hardest thing for me to wrap my mind
around is the complete lack of Lorentz invariance. If you picture the
graph’s history as a foam — the edges all extending into surfaces, the
nodes all extending into lines — you’d actually see different
vendek populations if you re-sliced that foam in a different way."
Tchicaya grimaced. "Doesn’t that imply that there’s a
preferred reference frame? Couldn’t you assign yourself an absolute
velocity, just by seeing what kind of vendeks you were made from?"
Umrao gestured with his hands in a fashion that
Tchicaya’s Mediator translated as negation. "Without any external cues
to guide you, you’d always slice your own world foam the same way, and
see yourself as being made from the same vendeks. Other people
moving past you might see your constituents change, depending on their
velocity relative to you, but you’d see them change in the same way.
And both of you would be entitled to claim that you were the best judge
of your own composition."
Tchicaya pondered this. "So everything ends up on the
same footing as rest mass? It’s as if speeding past an electron fast
enough could make it look like any other particle at all — but in its
own
reference frame, it’s still an electron?"
"That’s right."
Suljan shouted triumphantly, "We have an echo!"
Tchicaya turned to face the screen. It showed a simple
blip, the plot of a returning pulse. Suljan’s method had coarser
resolving power than Yann and Branco’s, but that was what allowed it to
penetrate further: his signal wouldn’t reflect back from the middle of
a vast sea of vendeks repeating the same population mix, so any return
at all meant that it had encountered a larger-scale change.
Hayashi was beside Suljan at the console. "There must be
a layer population, like Umrao predicted," she said. "Some
ten-to-the-forty nodes from the border."
Rasmah leaned toward Tchicaya and whispered, "A hundred
kilometers, in good old reactionary language."
Umrao was pleased. He said, "I wish we could tell exactly
what the border mix changed into, though." He looked around the table.
"Come on, there’s a challenge for you. Range and
resolution. How?"
Rasmah joked, "I’m sure using the Right Hand as well
would do wonders."
Tchicaya said, "They’ll be getting echoes, too, right
now, won’t they?" The two Hands themselves were about a hundred
kilometers apart, so it was plausible that the scatter could reach them.
"Only if they know precisely what to look for." Rasmah
raised her hands defensively. "Don’t say it: I’m the one who believes
in spies."
A sense of anticlimax had descended on the room; the
result was important, but it didn’t compare to their first glimpse of
the Planck-scale structure of the far side. That there was macroscopic
structure, too, was encouraging, but extracting further detail would be
difficult. A hundred kilometers of solid rock would be no barrier to
investigation, but a shift of vendeks was not like a change from crust
to mantle, refracting and scattering seismic waves in a simple,
predictable fashion. It was more like the boundary between two distinct
ecosystems, and the fact that remnants of their expedition had
straggled back intact after crossing a wide savanna didn’t mean the
adjoining jungle would be so easily probed.
Suljan said, "I think it’s moving." Successive pulses
were coming back with slightly different delays. The reflective layer
was more or less keeping pace with the expanding border, but the signal
showed it drifting back and forth. "Vibrating, maybe?"
Rasmah replied, "It’s probably something changing in the
border region, messing with the propagation speed." That explanation
made more sense to Tchicaya; the signal was crossing a vast tract with
potentially variable conditions, so it was more economical to attribute
any delay to the vendeks it encountered along the way.
Suljan gave her a withering look. "More expert commentary
from the peanut gallery. The returns are too clean, and too sharp; that
much variation in propagation speed would broaden them detectably."
"Hmm." Rasmah didn’t argue, but her eyes glazed over; she
was checking something. When she emerged, she said, "Okay, you’re
right. And the changes are too fast and too regular; the source of the
variation would have to be fairly localized, so it must be the
reflector, not the medium."
Tchicaya turned to Umrao. "Any ideas?"
"I didn’t see anything like this in the simulations," he
said. "But then, I just remixed the vendeks from the border region.
This layer might hold completely different ones."
The vibrations stopped.
Yann stared at the plot on the screen. "Just like that?
No decay curve?"
The vibrations resumed.
Tchicaya looked around the room. Several people had left;
apparently, the ringing of the far side’s equivalent of a planetary
ionosphere was of no interest to them. Anything that influenced signal
propagation was of crucial importance, though, and if this layer could
move, it might even break up and reveal something deeper.
The vibrations halted again, only to restart a few
seconds later. "One hundred and thirty-one oscillations," Yann noted.
Rasmah said, "What’s that going to tell us?"
Yann tapped his fingers against the table, one hand in
time with the returning pulses, the other beating out the rhythm of the
reflecting layer itself. Tchicaya resisted an urge to tell his Mediator
to stop rendering Yann’s icon; the constant drumming was annoying, but
he’d never edited anyone from his sensory map before, and he wasn’t
about to start.
"One hundred and thirty-seven," Yann announced.
Tchicaya said, "You think there’s some longer-period
cyclic process, modulating the faster one?"
Yann smiled enigmatically. "I have no idea."
Suddently, Rasmah groaned. "I know what you’re thinking!"
"What?" Tchicaya turned to her, but she wasn’t giving
anything away.
She said, "I’ll bet you anything that you’re wrong."
Yann shook his head firmly. "I never gamble."
"Coward."
"We have no mutually beneficial assets."
"Only because you threw yours away," she retorted.
Umrao said, "I’m completely lost. What are you people
talking about?"
"One hundred and thirty-seven," Yann counted. "One
hundred and thirty-eight. One hundred and thirty-nine."
He fell silent. The vibrations had stopped.
Tchicaya said, "The slower cycle is varying, a little.
Maybe lengthening. What does that tell us?"
Rasmah had turned pale. At the console, Suljan, who’d
been paying no attention to the conversation at their table, suddenly
leaned into a huddle with Hayashi. Tchicaya couldn’t hear what they
were whispering about, but then Suljan let out a long, loud string of
obscenities. He turned to face them, looking shocked but jubilant.
"You know what we’ve got here?" he asked.
Umrao smiled. "I just worked it out. But we shouldn’t
jump to conclusions."
Tchicaya pleaded, "What conclusions?"
"Three consecutive primes," Suljan explained.
The vibrations had resumed, and Yann was calmly tapping
them out again. Tchicaya calculated the next number in the sequence,
and thought about trying to quantify the odds of the first three
occurring by chance, but it would be simpler just to wait for the
pattern to be broken or confirmed.
"One hundred and forty-seven. One hundred and
forty-eight. One hundred and forty-nine."
On cue, the vibrations halted.
Yann said, "I wouldn’t rule out nonsentient processes. We
don’t know enough about the kinds of order that can arise in this
system."
Umrao agreed. "There’s no reason evolution couldn’t have
stumbled on something useful about primes in the far-side environment.
For all we know, this could be nothing more than an exotic equivalent
of cicada calls."
"We can’t rule out anything," Suljan conceded. "But that
has to cut both both ways. It has to include the possibility that
someone is trying to get our attention."
Chapter 12
"It looks as if the Colosseum is about to welcome us in,"
Rasmah said. "You first."
"I don’t think so." Tchicaya held up his hand; it was
shaking. They’d spent almost two hours sitting in the corridor outside
the impromptu amphitheater where the Preservationists were meeting, and
now the blank, soundproof wall in front of them was beginning to form a
door.
"Turn down your adrenaline," she advised him.
"I don’t want to do that," he said. "This is the right
way to be. The right way to feel."
Rasmah snorted. "I’ve heard of traditional, but that’s
ridiculous."
Tchicaya bit back an irritated reply. If he was going to
harness his body’s natural agitation, he could still keep his behavior
civilized. "I don’t want to be calm," he said. "This is too important."
"So I get to be the rational one, and you get to be
impassioned?" Rasmah smiled. "I suppose that’s as good a strategy as
any."
It had taken Tchicaya six days of arguing to push a
motion through the Yielders' convoluted decision-making process,
authorizing disclosure of the recent discoveries to the opposition, and
he had hoped that it would be enough. The Preservationists would repeat
the experiments, see the same results, reach the same conclusions. He’d
set the chain of events in motion, and it would have an unstoppable
life of its own.
Then the Preservationists had announced that two Yielders
would be permitted to address them before they made their decision on a
moratorium, and he’d found himself volunteering. Having worked so hard
to create a situation where they were apprised of the facts and
prepared to listen, it would have been hypocritical to back out and
leave this last stage to someone else.
The door opened, and Tarek emerged, looking worse than
Tchicaya felt. Whatever the body did in times of stress could be
ameliorated at will, but Tarek had the eyes of someone whose conscience
was robbing him of more than sleep.
"We’re ready for you," he said. "Who’s first?"
Rasmah said, "Tchicaya hasn’t smeared himself in goat fat
yet, so it’ll have to be me."
Tchicaya followed her in, then hung back as she
approached the podium. He looked up at the tiers of seats that almost
filled the module; he could see stars through the transparent wall
behind the top row. There were people here that he knew well, but there
were hundreds of complete strangers, too; the ranks of the
Preservationists had been swelled by new arrivals.
The audience was completely silent. There was an
expression of stony resentment on some faces, an unambiguously hostile
gaze, but most people just looked tired and frayed, as if the thing
they hated most was not the presence of Yielders bearing unpalatable
revelations, but the sheer burden of having to make an invidious
choice. Tchicaya could relate to that; part of him longed for nothing
more than a turn of events that would render all further effort
irrelevant, one way or another, so he could curl up and sleep for a
week.
Rasmah began. "You’ve seen the results of our recent
experiments, and I’m going to assume that you’ve replicated them
successfully. Perhaps someone will correct me if that’s wrong, and the
raw data is in dispute."
She paused. Sophus called out, "That’s not in dispute."
Tchicaya felt a small weight lifting; if there’d been a technical
hitch, or some elaborate bluff in which the Preservationists claimed
that they’d seen nothing, the whole discussion would have bogged down
in recriminations immediately.
Rasmah said, "Good. You’ve also seen Umrao’s simulations,
and I hope you’ve performed some of your own. We could sit here for a
week debating whether or not the structures we’ve called vendeks
deserve to be described as living creatures, but it’s plain that a
community of them — or a mixture, if you prefer a more neutral
term — forms
a completely different backdrop than the vacuum we’re familiar with, or
anything else most of us imagined we’d find behind the border when we
made our way here.
"We’ve all pinned states with exotic dynamic laws to the
border. We’ve seen tens of thousands of samples from the whole vast
catalog of vacuum-based physics. But the far
side’s natural state, the closest it can come to emptiness and
homogeneity, has access to all of those possibilities at once.
"I came here expecting to see physics written in a
different alphabet, obeying a different grammar, but conforming to the
same kind of simple rules as our own. It was Sophus who first realized
how myopic that expectation was. Our vacuum isn’t just devoid of
matter; our universe isn’t simply sparse, in a
material sense. What lies behind the border is neither physics in a
different language, nor an amorphous, random Babel of every possibility
jumbled together. It’s a synthesis: a world painted in hues so rich
that everything we’ve previously imagined as a possible universe begins
to seem like a canvas filled from edge to edge with a single primary
color.
"We’ve seen hints, now, that there might be organisms far
more sophisticated than the vendeks, just behind the border. There’s
probably nothing I can say that will influence your interpretation of
the evidence. I’m not certain what it means, myself. It could be
anything: sentient creatures longing for contact; a mating song between
animals; an inanimate system constrained by far-side physics to lie in
a state more ordered than our instincts deem likely. I don’t know the
answer, nor do any of you.
"Maybe there is no far-side life worth speaking of. Maybe
there are just different pools of vendeks, all the way down. We can’t
tell yet. But imagine for a moment that the signal we’re seeing comes
from a creature even as complex as an insect. If life of that
sophistication can arise in just six hundred years, then the far side
must be so amenable to structure, and order, and complexity that it’s
almost inconceivable that we’d be unable either to adapt to it, or to
render parts of it hospitable.
"Suppose we were handed a galaxy’s worth of planets, all
so near to Earthlike that we could either terraform them easily, or
tweak a few genes of our own in order to flourish on them. What’s more,
suppose they came clustered together, so close that the time it took to
travel between them was negligible: days or weeks, instead of decades
or centuries. If we migrated to these worlds, it would mean an end to
our fragmentation, an end to the rule that says: yes, you can see how
other cultures live, but the price you pay will be alienation from your
own.
"On top of this, imagine that interspersed among these
Earthlike worlds was another galaxy’s worth of planets, all dense with
a riotous variety of alien life. On top of that,
imagine that these worlds were immersed in a new kind of physics, so
rich and strange that it would trigger a renaissance in science that
would last ten thousand years, transform technology, reinvigorate art.
"Is that what the far side really is offering us? I don’t
know, and neither do you. Maybe there are some of you for whom it makes
no difference: whatever lies behind the border, it can’t be worth the
price of even one more planet lost, one more people scattered. But I
hope that many of you are willing to pause and say: Mimosa has brought
tragedy and turmoil, and that has to be stopped, but not at any cost.
If there is a world behind the border that could bring new mysteries,
new knowledge, and ultimately a new sense of belonging
to billions of people — a place that could mean as much to our
descendants as our home worlds mean to us — then it can’t be unimaginable
that the balance could ever tip in its favor.
"People left families and nations behind them on Earth.
They’d swum in rivers and walked on mountains that they would never see
again. Were they all traitors, and fools? They didn’t destroy the Earth
in their wake, they didn’t force the same sacrifice on anyone else, but
they did put an end to the world as it had been, when humanity had been
connected — when the speed of light was a phrase
that meant instant contact, instant collisions of cultures and values,
not a measure of your loss if you tried to achieve those things.
"I don’t know what lies behind the border, but
possibilities that seemed like castles in the air a year ago are now a
thousand times less fanciful. Everything I’ve talked about might yet
turn out to be a mirage, but if so, it’s a mirage that we’ve all seen
with our own two eyes now, hovering uncertainly in the heat haze. A few
more steps toward it will tell us, once and for all, whether or not
it’s real.
"That’s why I’m asking for this moratorium. Whether you
recoil from the vision I’ve painted, or merely doubt its solidity,
don’t make a decision in ignorance. Give us one more year, work beside
us, help us find the answers — and then make your choice. Thank you."
Rasmah took half a step back from the podium. Someone in
the audience coughed. There was no polite applause, but no jeering
either. Tchicaya didn’t know how to read the indifferent silence, but
Rasmah had been fishing for converts rather than searching for a
compromise, and if anyone had been swayed by her message that would
probably not be a response they’d wish to broadcast.
Tarek said, "We’ll take questions when Tchicaya has
spoken."
Rasmah nodded and walked away from the podium. As she
passed Tchicaya, she smiled encouragingly and touched his arm. He was
beginning to wish he’d gone first, and not just because she was a hard
act to follow. Before a gathering of Yielders, a speech like the one
she’d just delivered would have fired him up, filling him with
confidence. Watching it received with no visible effect by the people
who counted was a sobering experience.
Tchicaya reached the podium and looked up at the crowd,
without fixing his eyes on any one face. Mariama would be here,
somewhere, but he counted himself lucky that he hadn’t spotted her,
that her certain presence remained an abstraction.
"There is a chance," he said, "that there is sentient
life behind the border. We have no proof of this. We lack the depth of
understanding we’d need even to begin to quantify the odds. But we do
know that complex processes that would have been inconceivable in a
vacuum — or in the kind of hot plasma present in our own universe, six
hundred years after its birth — are taking place right now on the far
side. Whether or not you count the vendeks as living creatures, they
reveal that the basic structure of this region is nothing at all like
empty space.
"None of us arrived here armed with that knowledge. For
centuries, we’d all pictured the novo-vacuum as the fireball from
some terrible explosion. I came here myself in the hope that we might
gain something from the challenge of learning to survive inside that
fireball, but I never dreamed that the far side could harbor life of
its own.
"Life does not arise easily in a universe of vacuum.
Apart from the Earth, there are just four quarantined planets strewn
with single-celled organisms, out of almost a million that have been
explored. For twenty thousand years, we’ve clung to a faint hope that
the Earth would not be unique as the cradle of sentience, and I don’t
believe that we should abandon that hope. But we’re now standing at the
border, not between a desert with rare oases on one side, and a lake of
molten lava on the other, but between that familiar desert and a very
strange ocean.
"This ocean might be a desert, itself. It might be
turbulent, it might be poisonous. All we know for certain is that it’s
not like the universe we know. But now we’ve seen something fluttering
beneath the surface. To me, it looks like a beacon, a declaration of
intelligence. I concede that this interpretation might be completely
wrong. But if we’d ever spotted something a tenth as promising on a
planet, wouldn’t we be shouting with joy, and rushing to investigate?
"The homes and communities of billions of people are at
stake here. One full year’s delay would mean the certain loss of one
more world." Tchicaya had agonized over the best way to phrase this;
apart from starkly requesting an entire planet as a sacrifice, he had
to tiptoe around the issue of exactly how close the Preservationists
were to producing Planck worms. "But whole worlds have been evacuated
before, to leave the rare life we’ve found with a chance to develop
undisturbed. We can create far more sophisticated organisms in
vitro, but we’ve still recognized in the simplest alien
microbes both a chance to understand better the science of our origins,
and a distant kinship with whatever these creatures might become. I’m
willing to write off the vendeks as little more than Planck-scale
chemistry, but even a slim possibility of sentient life on the far
side, just beyond our grasp, has to count for at least as much as the
possibility that the microbes we’ve left to their own devices will
flourish into anything as rich as life on Earth.
"I’m not asking anyone in this room to abandon the values
that brought them here. But no one came here with the goal, or even the
thought, of wiping out another civilization. If you believe there can
be no sentient life on the far side, take the opportunity to prove
yourself right. If you harbor even the slightest doubt, take the
opportunity to gather more information.
"We’re not asking you to wait for certainty. The far side
is too large; however advanced our techniques became, there’d always be
a chance that a part of it remained hidden. But after six centuries in
which the border has been completely opaque, and a few weeks in which
we’ve managed to see through it a very short distance, we’re asking for
one more year of exploration. We might never find out what’s at stake
here, but now that we have our first real chance to do more than guess,
I don’t believe we have the right to shut our eyes and refuse to look
any closer.
"Thank you."
Tchicaya backed away from the podium. He hadn’t felt too
bad while he was speaking, but the discouraging silence that followed
turned his stomach to water. Maybe the Yielders had merely decided to
present the enemy with their best poker face, but the effect was still
one of indifference verging on hostility. He instructed his Exoself to
calm his body; whatever sense of urgency he’d managed to convey by
allowing his stress hormones free reign, the effect had either
succeeded or failed by now.
Tarek said, "Questions and comments."
Birago rose to his feet and addressed his former
colleague. "The vendeks appear genuine to me, and I doubt that you
could have engineered them into existence without us noticing. I’m much
less confident about this so-called signaling layer. How do we know you
didn’t create it?"
Rasmah replied, "I’m not sure what you expect me to say.
I suppose you could move the Right Hand away across the border and look
for an edge to the layer, then see if the whole thing lies centered
around the Left Hand. But if you seriously believe that we were skilled
enough to create the layer at all, maybe you believe we could have
disguised its point of origin." She spread her arms. "Look more
closely, gather more evidence. That’s exactly what we’re asking for,
and if you have doubts, that’s the only cure for them."
Birago laughed curtly, unimpressed, but he resumed his
seat.
Tchicaya had come prepared for accusations of fake data,
but the idea that anything indisputably present behind the border could
be taken as counterfeit had never crossed his mind. If the
Preservationists did have spies, surely they’d know how ludicrous this
was? But then, spies would probably only share that knowledge with
people who would not be swayed by it.
Sophus stood. "I’ve studied this question, and I don’t
believe the layer could have been built from the Left Hand without us
noticing, any more than the vendeks could. This thing is genuine, and
it needs to be investigated. I came here to preserve civilizations, not
to destroy them. The chance that we’re seeing intelligence here is
extremely slim, but this is a matter of the utmost seriousness.
"I support the idea of a moratorium. This need not be
lost time for us; we don’t have to stop thinking, we don’t have to stop
planning. A year in which we were forced to consider our next step very
carefully — in combination with all the information about the deeper
structure of the far side that might be gained as part of this
investigation — could easily save more worlds than it costs. The border
is expanding at half the speed of light; the success of any attempt to
halt or reverse it will be extremely sensitive to
the propagation speed of the agent we finally deploy. Rushing to adopt
the very first solution we think we’ve found, when we could be refining
it into something vastly more effective, would be a shallow victory. If
we can clear our conscience of any lingering doubt that we might be
committing an atrocity, while continuing to hone our weapons against
this threat, we will be steering an honorable course between arrogance
and timidity — between laying waste to whatever lies before us, and
jumping at shadows."
Sophus took his seat. Tchicaya exchanged glances with
Rasmah; they could not have hoped for a better ally. Tchicaya was glad,
now, that he hadn’t raised the same benefits for the Preservationist
cause himself; they sounded far more credible coming from Sophus, and
hearing them first from the opposition would only have put people off.
One of the recent arrivals spoke next. Tchicaya had never
been introduced to her, but her signature named her Murasaki.
"There might be sentient life here, there might not," she
said. "What difference should that make to our actions? Responsibility
on our part can only arise through the hope of reciprocity — and many
great thinkers have argued that sentient beings that bear no
resemblance to us cannot be expected to conform to our own moral codes.
Even on the level of pure emotion, these creatures will have arisen in
a world we would find incomprehensible. What empathy could we have for
them? What goals could we possibly share?"
Tchicaya felt a chill of horror. Murasaki spoke in a tone
of mild puzzlement, as if she honestly couldn’t understand how anyone
could attach the slightest value to an alien life.
"Evolution works through competion," she continued. "If
we don’t win back our territory and render it secure, then as soon as
these far-siders learn of our existence, they will surely find a way to
push the growth of the border all the way up to lightspeed. While we
still possess the advantage of surprise, we must use it. If there is
life here, if there are creatures for whom the far side is a
comfortable home, the only thing that changes is that we should
redouble our efforts, in order to wipe them out before they do the same
to us."
As she sat, a faint murmur rose up in the audience. If
the Preservationists had resolved to give nothing away in response to
the petitioners, their own members could still get a reaction. In all
his time on the Rindler, in all his travels
between worlds, Tchicaya had never heard anyone express a position as
repugnant as this. Many cultures proselytized, and many treated their
opponents' choices with open derision, but no champion of embodiment or
acorporeality, no advocate for planetary tradition or the freedom of
travel, had ever claimed that life in other modes was such a travesty
that it could be annihilated without compunction.
These words could not be left unchallenged. The idea of
genocide might have shrunk to little more than a surreal figure of
speech, but in modern times there had never before been a situation in
which the effort required to commit mass murder would not have been
vastly disproportionate to even the most deranged notion of the
benefits. If anything could still awaken horrors from the Age of
Barbarism, six hundred years of dislocation, and the opportunity to
eradicate something truly alien, might just be enough to end the
nineteen-thousand-year era in which no sentient being had died at the
hand of another.
As Tchicaya struggled to frame his response, Tarek said, "I’d like
to answer that, if I may."
Tchicaya turned to him, surprised. "Yes, of course."
Tarek walked to the podium and rested his hands on the
lectern. He looked up and addressed Murasaki directly.
"You’re right: if there’s sentient life behind the
border, it probably won’t share my goals. Unlike the people in this
room, who all want exactly the same things in life as I do, and have
precisely the same tastes in food, art, music, and sex. Unlike the
people of Schur, and Cartan, and Zapata — who I came here in the hope of
protecting, after losing my own home — who doubtless celebrate all the
same festivals, delight in the same songs and stories, and gather every
fortieth night to watch actors perform the same plays, in the same
language, from the same undisputed canon, as the people I left behind.
"If there’s sentient life behind the border, of course we
couldn’t empathize with it. These creatures are
unlikely to possess cute mammalian neonate faces, or anything else we
might mistake for human features. None of us could have the imagination
to get over such insurmountable barriers, or the wit to apply such
difficult abstractions as the General Intelligence theorem — though
since
every twelve-year-old on my home world was required to master that
result, it must be universally known on this side of the border.
"You’re right: we should give up responsibility for
making any difficult moral judgments, and surrender to the dictates of
natural selection. Evolution cares so much about
our happiness that no one who’s obeyed an inherited urge has ever
suffered a moment’s regret for it. History is full of joyful case
studies of people who followed their natural instincts at every
opportunity — fucking whoever they could, stealing whatever they could,
destroying anything that stood in their way — and the verdict is
unanimous: any behavior that ever helped someone disseminate their
genes is a recipe for unalloyed contentment, both for the
practitioners, and for everyone around them."
Tarek gripped the lectern tightly, but continued in the
same calm voice. "You’re so gloriously, indisputably right: if there is
sentient life behind the border, we should wipe these creatures out of
existence, on the mere chance that they might do the same to us. Then
we can learn to predicate everything else we do on the same
assumptions: there is no other purpose to life than an eternity of grim
persistence, and the systematic extinguishment of everything — outside
ourselves, or within us — that stands in the way of that goal."
He stood in place for several seconds. The room had
fallen silent again. Tchicaya was both heartened and ashamed; he had
never imagined Tarek taking a stand like this, though in retrospect he
could see that it was an act of constancy, not betrayal. Perhaps Tarek
had left his own family and friends behind solely in order to fight for
the security of their future home, but in the very act of coming here,
he’d been transformed from a member of that culture into an advocate
for something universal. Maybe he was a zealot, but if so, he was an
idealist, not a hypocrite. If there were sentient creatures behind the
border, however foreign to him, the same principles applied to them as
to anyone else.
Tarek stepped back from the podium. Santos, another of
the newcomers, stood and delivered an impassioned defense of Murasaki’s
position, in similarly chilling language. When he’d finished, half a
dozen people rose to their feet simultaneously and tried to shout each
other down.
Tarek managed to restore order. "Do we have more
questions for Rasmah and Tchicaya, or is this the time to proceed with
our own debate?"
There were no more questions. Tarek turned to them. "I’ll
have to ask you to leave now."
Tchicaya said, "Good luck."
Tarek gave him a reluctant smile, as if to concede that
the two of them finally could mean the same thing by those words. He
said, "I don’t know how much longer this will take, but we’ll keep
going until we have a decision."
Out in the corridor, Rasmah turned to Tchicaya. "Where
are those people from? Murasaki and Santos?"
"I don’t know. It’s not in their signatures." He checked
with the ship. "They both came via Pfaff, but they haven’t made their
origins public."
"Wherever it is, remind me not to visit." She shuddered
and wrapped her arms around herself. "Do we have to wait here for the
verdict? It could be a while. And they will make it public."
"What did you have in mind? I don’t think I could face
the Blue Room."
"How about my cabin?"
Tchicaya laughed. "You have no idea how tempting that
sounds, right now."
"That’s how it was meant to sound." Rasmah took his hand;
she hadn’t been joking. "These bodies are very fast learners,
especially when they have memories of a prior attraction."
Tchicaya said, "I thought we’d put an end to all that."
"This is what’s known as persistence." She faced him
squarely. "Whoever it is you’re still hung up about, I promise you I’ll
make an impression that will erase all memories of the competition."
She smiled at her own hyperbole. "Or I can try, if you’re willing to
make the same effort."
Tchicaya was tongue-tied. He liked everything about her,
but some deeply ingrained part of him still felt as if it was a matter
of principle to back away.
He said, "I’m seven times your age. I’ve had thirty-one
children. I have sixth-generation descendants older than you."
"Yeah, yeah. You’re a battered old creature, on the verge
of slipping out of sentience into senility. But I think I can drag you
back from the brink." She leaned closer; the scent of her body was
beginning to regain significance for him. "If you have scars, I’ll kiss
them away."
"I want to keep my scars."
"That’s all right. I can’t actually erase them."
"You really are sweet, but you hardly know me."
Rasmah groaned. "Stop dividing everything by four
thousand years. Your age is not the natural unit of time, by which all
else must be measured." She leaned forward and kissed him on the mouth;
Tchicaya did not pull away.
She said, "How was that?"
Tchicaya gave her his best Quinean wine-judge frown. "You’re better
than Yann. I think you’ve done this before."
"I should hope so. I suppose you waited a millennium to
lose your virginity?"
"No, it just felt that way."
Rasmah stepped back, then reached out and took both his
hands. "Come and wait with me for the vote. We can’t do anything you
don’t want to do; it’s biologically impossible."
"That’s what they tell you as a child. But it’s more
complicated than that."
"Only if you make it complicated." She tugged on his
arms. "I do have some pride. I’m not going to beg you. I’m not even
going to threaten you, and say this is your last chance. But I don’t
believe we’re wrong for each other, and I don’t believe you’re sure
that we are."
"I’m not," he conceded.
"And didn’t you just deliver a speech about the folly of
making decisions without sufficient information?"
"Yes."
She smiled triumphantly. He wasn’t going to argue his way
out of this. Logic had nothing to do with it; he simply had to make up
his mind what he wanted. One instinct told him that he should turn her
down, because it was a decision he’d made so many times before that it
seemed like a betrayal of himself to do otherwise. And another told him
that if he didn’t change, there was no point living even one more
century.
Tchicaya said, "You’re right. Let’s put an end to our
ignorance."
They went to Rasmah’s cabin and lay on the bed together,
still dressed, talking, occasionally kissing. Tchicaya knew his
Mediator would make the vote known to him instantly, but he couldn’t
help but remain distracted. He’d done everything in his power to see
that the Preservationists heard the whole case for the far side, but he
couldn’t rest until he knew whether or not they’d been persuaded.
Almost two hours after they’d spoken to the gathering,
the news came through: the moratorium had been approved. No percentages
had been released, but the Preservationists had agreed unanimously
before beginning their debate that the majority decision would be
binding.
Tchicaya watched Rasmah’s face as the information
registered. "We did it," she said.
He nodded. "And Tarek. And Sophus."
"Yeah. More them than us. But we can still celebrate."
She kissed him.
"Can we?" Tchicaya wasn’t being coy; he couldn’t tell by
mere introspection.
"I’m positive."
As they undressed each other, Tchicaya felt a rush of
happiness, beyond sex, beyond his affection for her. Whatever hold he’d
imagined Mariama had over him, it was finally dissolving. Their
conspiracy over the power plant might have ended any chance that he
could be truly at ease with her, but that hadn’t poisoned everything
he’d admired in her. He hadn’t forfeited the right to be with someone
who had the same strength, the same ideals as she’d once had.
Rasmah stroked the scar on his leg. "Do you want to tell
me about this?"
"Not yet. It’s too long a story."
She smiled. "Good. I didn’t really want to hear it right
now." She moved her hand higher. "Oh, look what we made! I knew it
would be beautiful. And I think I have something that would fit here,
almost perfectly. And here. And maybe even…here."
Tchicaya gritted his teeth, but he didn’t stop her moving
her fingers over him, inside him. There was no more vulnerable feeling
than being touched in a place that had not existed before, a place
you’d never seen or touched yourself. He lay still, and allowed her to
make him aware of the shape, the sensitivity, the response of each
surface.
He took her by the shoulders and kissed her, then did the
same for her, mapping the other half of the geometry their bodies had
invented. He was four thousand years old, but he was never tired of
this, never jaded. Nature had never had much imagination, but people
had always found new ways to connect.
Chapter 13
Tchicaya’s Mediator woke him. It had just received a
messenger from Branco, and judged it urgent enough to break him out of
sleep.
He let the messenger run. He didn’t want to close his
eyes and risk drifting off again as he watched, so he hallucinated
Branco standing in the darkened cabin beside the bed.
"This had better be important," Tchicaya said.
"I’m very sorry to disturb you," the messenger whispered.
It was much more polite than Branco himself. "But this is something
you’ll want to hear. I’m only telling a handful of people. People I
trust."
"I’m flattered."
The messenger gave him a look that suggested it was not
immune to irony. "Someone has been trying to take control of the ship.
I don’t know who. The proximate, physical source of the attack was a
spare communications link for external instruments, sitting in a
storage area that hundreds of people have had access to.
"There was no chance of the attack succeeding. Whoever
did this must be awfully naive about some of the technology they’re
dealing with." Tchicaya felt a frisson of recognition; hadn’t Tarek
imagined that Yann could "corrupt" the ship’s network, just by running
on one of its Qusps? "But it suggests a combination of foolishness and
desperation that might not stop with this. So I’m telling a few
reasonably level-headed members of both factions: you’d better find out
who these idiots are, and keep them from going any further. Set your
own houses in order, or you might all find yourselves walking the
airlock."
The messenger bowed, and vanished. Tchicaya blinked into
the darkness. "Walking the airlock" was a quaint way of putting it, but
he didn’t think Branco was bluffing. If factional squabbling reached
the point where the Rindler itself was at risk,
Tchicaya didn’t doubt that the ship’s builders would evict the
squatters, one way or another.
He woke Rasmah, and shared the news.
"Why didn’t Branco tell me?" she complained. "Why am I
not trustworthy?"
"Don’t take it personally. He probably just thought it
would give the message more gravitas if it trickled through, instead of
going straight to everyone."
She leaned over and kissed him. "I was joking, actually,
but thanks for the reassurance." She groaned. "Oh, here we go."
"What?"
"Yann wants to talk to us." She hesitated. "And Suljan.
And Umrao."
"We need to get together. We need to organize a meeting."
Tchicaya picked up his pillow and put it over his face. "I can’t
believe I just said that."
Rasmah laughed and patted his arm. "We do have to discuss
this. But you won’t need to get out of bed."
Rasmah had her Mediator arrange the protocols, then she
invited Tchicaya into a virtual Blue Room. His viewpoint drifted across
the floor, toward a table where Rasmah, Yann, Suljan, Hayashi, and
Umrao were seated. He knew he was visible to the others as an icon, and
he could alter his gaze and make gestures at will, but he had no real
sense of being embodied in the scape; he still felt himself lying
motionless on the bed.
Suljan said, "Any ideas, Tchicaya?"
"Who could be so foolish as to try this? I thought of
Tarek, but that doesn’t add up. Unless he’s involved in some elaborate
bluff."
Hayashi shook her head. "Not Tarek. I heard that the
Preservationists split down the line on the vote, but he was definitely
on the side of the moratorium."
"You’re saying it was close?"
"Closer than I’d expected," she replied. "Almost forty
percent against. Mostly new arrivals."
"Forty percent." Tchicaya had being fervently hoping that
Murasaki and Santos were rare extremists. And it was still possible
that they were; you didn’t have to be sanguine about genocide to have
voted against the moratorium, merely skeptical that destroying the far
side would entail anything of the kind. Perhaps some of the newcomers
had found the unfamiliar physics so bewildering that they’d decided
they simply couldn’t trust the evidence for the signaling layer, even
with their own experts confirming it.
Yann said, "We shouldn’t rule out some hothead in our own
camp. Just because we’ve achieved the moratorium, that doesn’t
guarantee that we’ll get everything else people want."
Suljan sighed. "That’s very even-handed of you, but given
the timing, it doesn’t seem likely to me."
"It could have been a setup, though," Umrao suggested. "Someone who
hoped their tampering would be detected, and get us all
thrown off the Rindler — which would put back any
prospect of the Preservationists unleashing their Planck worms by
several centuries."
Rasmah said, "At the cost of every last trace of goodwill
and cooperation between the factions. At the cost of everything we’d
learn in the year of the moratorium."
"The neutrals would continue to do research," Umrao
replied.
Tchicaya said, "Getting thrown off the ship is no good
for either side. It must have been someone who really did think they
could succeed."
"Succeed at what, exactly?" Hayashi asked. "They wanted
control of the ship, in order to do what?"
Bhandari appeared suddenly, standing beside the table. "I
hate to interrupt, but if any of you here are interested in reality…"
He held up a framed image showing a view of one of the Rindler's
tethers. Six people were clinging to the cable near the top of one of
the modules, slowly ascending toward the hub. Strapped to the backs of
two of the climbers were bulky, box-shaped objects that looked as if
they might have been built from the same modules as the instrumentation
packages for the border experiments. Tchicaya didn’t recognize the
silver-suited figures, but he asked the ship to match their facial
geometry with its manifest of occupants. The six were Murasaki, Santos,
and four other newcomers, all of whom had arrived more or less together
from Pfaff.
Rasmah vanished from the scape, and Tchicaya felt her
shaking him by the shoulders. "Get up!"
He complied, momentarily disoriented.
"What?" he asked. "What do you think they’re doing?"
"I don’t know, but we have to be prepared for the worst."
Rasmah grabbed her can of suit spray and hurriedly coated him. "Now
spray me. Quickly!"
Tchicaya did as she’d asked. "The worst? What are you
expecting?"
"They’re headed for the engines, aren’t they? Can you
think of a benign explanation for that? I want you to go straight to
the shuttle."
"Why? You’re not turning protective
on me, are you? I’ve backed up last night. Even if we die here, I’m not
going to forget you."
Rasmah smiled, and shook her head. "Sorry to be
unromantic, but I’m thinking about more than us. If these people manage
to remove the Rindler, someone has to be around to
protect the far side. No one else I trust is any closer to the shuttle."
Tchicaya started pulling on his clothes. "Then come with
me."
"No. Until we know what’s happening, it’s better we split
up. They might have done something to the shuttle, it might be a lost
cause. Better that only one of us goes there, while the other tries to
stop them doing anything at the hub."
Tchicaya felt a surge of resentment, but this argument
made sense, and she wasn’t ordering him around for the sake of it. They
had to move quickly, and it was pointless quibbling over who did what.
He asked the ship for a view of the shuttle. It was still
docked in the usual place, and it appeared to be intact, though that
hardly ruled out sabotage.
"You’re going up after them?" he said.
"If the builders trust me enough to let me out there."
"How did those six get outside? Assuming Branco didn’t
toss them out."
Rasmah finished dressing. "They’re on the tether that
holds the module with the instrumentation workshop. They must have been
pretending to be working on some sensor that needed to operate in
vacuum." She glanced around the cabin with an air of finality, as if
she was putting her memories of the place in order.
Tchicaya ached to hold her, but he didn’t want to make it
harder for them to part. As they stepped out into the corridor, he
said, "If this all goes wrong, where will we meet?"
"My closest backup is on Pfaff. If it stops getting
reassurance signals from here, that’s the one that will wake."
"Mine too."
"That’s where we’ll meet, then." She smiled. "But let’s
see if we can achieve a swifter reunion."
They’d reached the stairs. Tchicaya said, "Be careful."
"Of all the things I came here to be, that was never on
the list." She took his face in her hands, and touched her forehead to
his. Tchicaya listened to her breathing. She was excited, and afraid,
and she hadn’t followed her own advice about adrenaline. She didn’t
want to be calm, for this.
Then she released him, turned, and bolted up the stairs
without another word.
As Tchicaya took the stairs down toward the walkway, he
asked the ship to show him the instrumentation workshop. There was some
kind of half-assembled sensor sitting on the main platform, open to
space, but he could see no obvious clues as to what Murasaki and the
others intended. What did they think they were going to do at the hub?
Hot-wire the engines and drive the Rindler away?
That was never going to happen. It would be a simpler task than taking
control of the whole ship, but not by much. Assuming they were being
wildly optimistic, though, what good would it do their cause if they
succeeded? Whisking everyone away from the border would only delay the
work of both sides.
As Tchicaya panned around the workshop, he saw a dark,
powdery stain on the floor, by the airlock.
"What’s that?" he asked the ship.
"Blood."
The whole workshop was always in vacuum, and it would
take much more than a minor act of carelessness to cut yourself through
a suit.
"Can you show me when it was spilt?"
The ship showed him recorded vision from fifteen minutes
before. As Santos stepped through the airlock, blood dripped from his
fingers to the floor. His suit was only just beginning to silver
against the cold; Tchicaya could still see his face. One nostril was
full of red and black clots, only contained by the membrance of the
suit, and the lid of one half-closed eye was encrusted with blood. He
looked as if he’d been smacked in the face with an iron bar. Had he
been in some kind of struggle with the others? It was bizarre.
On the walkway, Tchicaya saw Kadir coming toward him.
They approached each other warily. Kadir spread his arms in a
protestation of innocence. "I’m not with these lunatics! We disown
them!"
"Do you know what this is all about?"
"I know that they opposed the moratorium, but I don’t
have a clue what they think this will get them. Birago’s joined them
now, but he’s the only one I really knew. The others were never very
communicative. They claimed they were travelers like you, but they were
never at ease with anyone but each other. Whatever the faults of
travelers, if you express an opinion they find unusual, they tend not
to stop in midconversation and stare at you as if you’d sprouted wings."
"Where’s Birago?" Tchicaya asked.
"Last I heard, he was standing guard at the entrance to
the workshop, trying to stop anyone getting through and going after
them."
"But he won’t say what they want? There’s no threat, no
conditions they’re trying to bargain for?"
Kadir said, "I think this has gone beyond bargaining."
"Is the Right Hand secure? Could they have used it, done
something with it, without the rest of you knowing?"
Kadir shrugged. "The records say it’s done nothing for
days. But Birago helped build it. I don’t know what he was capable of
doing."
They parted. As Tchicaya reached the end of the walkway,
Rasmah spoke in his head. "The builders let me out. I’m up on the
cable." Even through an unvocalized radio channel, her Mediator made
her voice as expressive as ever; she sounded both nervous and
exhilarated, as if she almost welcomed the chase. "I’m a fair way
behind our mutineers, but I think I’m gaining on them."
"You’re outnumbered, and they’re completely deranged."
Tchicaya told her about Santos’s appearance.
"Suljan and Hayashi are heading for another tether. They
begged Branco to let them out before, but he fobbed them off, he said
there was no need. I guess the builders changed their mind."
Tchicaya jogged through the bottom level of his own
accommodation module. He was still three modules away from the shuttle.
"So they thought they could deal with it, but then they realized they
couldn’t?" He struggled to make sense of this. The tethers clearly
weren’t made of anything smart enough to impede the rebels, or dispose
of them directly; the insides of the modules were endlessly
reconfigurable, but it probably never occurred to the builders that
these cables would require any property but tensile strength. "What
were they pinning their hopes on?" he mused. "Picking them off with
debris-clearance laser? You’d think that would either be technically
feasible, or not."
"Maybe they had some last-minute moral qualms."
"These people are either trying to hijack the ship, or to
destroy it, and they’re free to send backups wherever they like. Their
memories are in their own hands. I doubt Branco would have had any
scruples about vaporizing them, if it were possible."
Rasmah said, "He might have been outvoted."
Tchicaya asked the ship to show him an image of her. The
lone figure was only about five or six meters up the kilometer-long
cable, but she was ascending rapidly: gripping the slender braid of
monofilaments with her knees, reaching up, dragging her body another
arm’s-length higher. At least at the hub she’d have a negligible
velocity; if she ended up floating, he’d have plenty of time to reach
her in the shuttle.
Tchicaya said, "Let me see through your eyes."
"Why?"
"Just for a moment. Please."
Rasmah hesitated, then sent him the vision. She looked
down at the shiny globe of the module beneath her, then up across the
spoked wheel of the ship, toward the faint glint of her quarry on the
tether a quarter of a turn away. On her right, the dazzling plain of
the border was as serene and immutable as ever.
"I’m not afraid of heights," she said dryly. "Stop
fretting about me." She cut off the image.
"I’m not," Tchicaya lied.
"I just spotted Suljan emerging. Look, I’m not on my own
here. Just get to the shuttle! If there’s anything to tell you, I’ll
call back."
"All right."
As his sense of her presence faded, Tchicaya broke into a
run. He’d been wasting time trying to piece everything together; he
didn’t need to know exactly what the rebels were planning. Rasmah’s
logic was sound. He hated not being beside her, but she’d trusted him
with another task, and he had to dedicate himself to it, unswervingly.
He raced past people in the corridors and on the
walkways, without stopping to shout questions or exchange hypotheses.
If there was solid information being passed around, it would reach him
eventually, wherever he was. Within minutes, he was dripping with
sweat; the ship’s bodies stayed reasonably fit by sheer biochemical
fiat, but his own had been neither designed nor trained for speed.
Refusing to be swayed by discomfort was easy, but there were limits
that had nothing to do with pain.
Yann appeared suddenly, sprinting beside him. "Rasmah
said you’re heading for the shuttle. How much free storage do you have
in your Qusp?"
"Not enough for a passenger. I’m sorry."
Yann shook his head, amused. "I don’t need a ride. I’m
entirely used to not having my Qusp on legs, and I’m not worried about
getting my memories elsewhere. But if you’re stranded, you might need
some assistance."
Tchicaya replied purely by radio, to save his breath. "That’s a good
idea. But like I said, I don’t have storage for a second
person."
"I didn’t expect you would," Yann said. "I’ve prepared a
toolkit; it’s only a few exabytes, but it encompasses everything I know
about the far side. Everything I’ve learned from Suljan, Umrao, and the
others, and everything I’ve worked out for myself. Of course, all of
this is useless if you don’t have access to the border, so I’m
organizing a vote on ceding control of the Left Hand to you."
Tchicaya didn’t reply. Yann said, "You probably don’t
want all this riding on your shoulders, but believe me, we’re doing our
best to avoid that."
Tchicaya said, "What can they do up there?"
"Don’t worry about that. Just get to the shuttle, and
move away as fast as you can. We’ll call you back once it’s safe."
"Assuming the rebels don’t steal the shuttle first." He
checked the view; it was still in place.
Yann said, "They can’t steal it; the builders have
disabled it. Branco has agreed to release it once you’re onboard. Now
stop arguing, and take the toolkit."
Tchicaya instructed his Mediator to accept the package.
Yann added cheerfully, "Let’s hope you don’t need it."
As Yann’s icon vanished, Tchicaya swerved to avoid a
startled pedestrian, who stared at him as if he’d gone mad. No one he’d
encountered since leaving Rasmah had been in much of a hurry, and the
closer he came to the shuttle, the more people seemed to be heading in
the opposite direction: away from the Rindler's
sole lifeboat. Some planet-bound part of him found this surreal; there
were few inhabited worlds where it would have been entirely pointless
to abandon a burning ship in the middle of the ocean. Even in cultures
where the loss of flesh was taken lightly, there were usually
volunteers willing to make the effort to rescue endangered people who
felt differently. Perhaps there were some crowded circumplanetary
orbits where the shipwrecked could expect to be plucked bodily from the
vacuum, but fleeing the Rindler as anything but a
signal would have been raising optimism to new heights.
As he crossed the final walkway, Tchicaya asked the ship
for a view of the entrance to the shuttle. There was no one visible, no
one standing guard. He was on the verge of asking for a sequence of
images covering the entire remainder of his journey when he spotted a
group of people with his own eyes, ahead of him on the walkway. Four of
them hung back, while a fifth approached, carrying a long metal bar.
Tchicaya slowed, then halted. The rebel kept walking
toward him, briskly and purposefully. Tchicaya’s Mediator could detect
no signature, but the ship put a name to the face: Selman.
Tchicaya caught his breath, then called out amiably, "Talk to me.
Tell me what you want." Selman continued toward him in
silence. His face was even more damaged than Santos’s; there was a
ridge of scarlet running along the side of his nose, and a massive
edema around the eye socket. His four companions were similarly marked.
If this was a sign of internal disputation, the whole group should have
torn itself to shreds weeks ago.
Suddenly, Tchicaya understood. Selman wasn’t withholding
his signature as a gesture of hostility, or in an attempt to conceal
his identity. He had no signature, and no Mediator to send it. He had
no Exoself. He had no Qusp. The rebels had improvised some kind of
crude surgical tool, and plucked each other’s digital brains out.
Tchicaya said, "Talk to me, and I’ll find the right
translator! We still have all the old languages." He wasn’t expecting
to be understood, but he could still provoke a response. Assuming
Selman hadn’t lost the power of speech entirely. Tchicaya didn’t know
how much neural tissue a Homo sapiens needed in
order to be fully functional. Bodies like the Rindler's
had plenty of neurons in reserve, since the precise delegation of tasks
between the digital components and the central nervous system varied
widely from culture to culture. He suspected that even this reserve was
less than the size of a complete ancestral brain, but a careful
redesign might still have packed everything in.
With ten or twelve meters remaining between them, Selman
stopped and spoke. Tchicaya couldn’t even parse the speech into
separate words; to his untrained ear it sounded like a continuous flow.
This was the first time in his life that he’d begun a conversation with
a stranger without the ground being prepared in advance, without two
Mediators conspiring to bridge the gap. A moment after the utterance
was complete, though, he recalled the sounds and understood them.
"Turn around and go back, or I’ll beat you to a pulp."
Tchicaya replied in the same tongue, or what he hoped was
near enough to be comprehensible. His Mediator had traced Selman’s
words back to a language from twenty-third century Earth, but it was
compensating on the fly for the kind of variations that could arise
over millennia in an isolated population of the original speakers.
"As opposed to what? Turn around and go back, and fry
with the ship?"
Selman said, "If the builders are willing to take the
ship away from the border, no one has to fry."
Tchicaya shrugged. "Flee or fry, it’s all the same to us.
The only thing at stake is access to the border, so every choice that
would put an end to that is equivalent. You can fly us all the way to
Earth, or you can crack our heads open one by one, but don’t expect to
get any more cooperation for one alternative than another."
Selman said, "Spare yourself the pain, then. Or the mess,
if pain is beneath you." He stepped forward, swinging the bar. Tchicaya
had no knowledge of martial arts; he delegated the problem to his
Exoself, and watched the interaction as a detached observer until he
was standing with one foot on the back of Selman’s neck, and holding
the bar himself.
"That wasn’t even you, you bloodless worm!" Selman hissed.
"Oh, you noticed?" The other four were approaching; two
of them were hefting large potted plants, a choice of weapon more
alarming for its strangeness than its bulk. "None of this was
necessary," Tchicaya said. "Whatever grievance you had, we would have
given you a hearing."
"We gave our arguments peacefully," Selman replied. "Hours ago."
"What arguments? Evolutionary imperatives, and winning
back territory? We’re the ones who’ve lost two thousand systems. You
haven’t lost a single ship."
"So you expected us to sit back and do nothing? While you
betrayed your own species, and wiped out the last vestiges of humanity?"
Tchicaya was still struggling to come to terms with the
rebels' origins. To pass as ordinary travelers at all, they must have
translated themselves into versions that ran on their Qusps, as well as
their Trojan-horse brains. Lying in wait, impotently watching their
other halves act, must have been a deeply unpleasant experience. The
neural versions would not have been able to follow much, if any, of
what was spoken around them — even when the words passed through their
own lips — so the Qusp versions would have had to brief them later,
whispering in private in their native tongue. Coming prepared to
survive their own preemptive digital lobotomies had been prescient,
though. Tchicaya was almost certain now that the builders possessed
halt switches for all the ship’s Qusps; that would have been the method
they’d hoped to use against the rebels heading for the hub, before
changing their mind and sending Rasmah and the others in pursuit.
The other four anachronauts stood before Tchicaya. One of
them, Christa, said, "Let him go, and back away."
"Or what? You’ll beat me to death with your
rhododendron?" Tchicaya asked the ship, "What is that? Is it one of
yours?"
"Originally, but it’s been tweaked."
"Into something dangerous?"
"There’s nothing obviously harmful being expressed in the
leaves or stalk."
"And the roots?"
"I have no way of knowing about the roots."
Christa repeated, "Let him go, and back away. This is
your last chance."
Tchicaya asked his Exoself if it could relieve both
rebels of their pots without spilling the contents. It could make no
promises.
He said, "I have nothing to gain by retreating."
Christa glanced down at Selman, her mask of grim resolve
melting for an instant. She was stranded in a deranged, alien world,
and she believed she was about to die.
Tchicaya said, "We can — "
She raised the pot to her shoulder, and started to shake
the plant free. Tchicaya told his Exoself to keep as much as it could
from falling; he sprang forward, grabbed the stalk, and forced the
plant back into its container. As Christa toppled backward, his Exoself
had him reach out with his other hand and secure the pot around the
roots.
As he did this, in the corner of his eye he saw another
anachronaut swinging the second plant by its stalk. The roots were
already free of the pot, and the soil around them was falling away.
Between the gnarled gray fingers of the roots were dozens of swollen
white nodules. Tchicaya told his Exoself to prevent the nodules from
coming into contact with anything solid. It knew how fast he was
capable of moving, and how fast he needed to be. The task, it declared,
was impossible.
The anachronaut slammed the roots of the plant down on
the floor.
Tchicaya lost everything but his sense of motion. He was
deaf and blind, falling, waiting for an impact. He’d been thrown into
the air, so he had to come back down to the ground eventually. That
made sense, didn’t it?
The impact never came, but his vision was restored in an
instant. His suit had turned fully opaque to protect his eyes; now it
had decided that it was safe for him to see again. He was outside the Rindler,
falling away from it. He could see the damaged walkway narrowing into
two hourglass waists on either side of the ruptured section, pinching
it off, stopping the flow of air. A skein of filaments was already
beginning to crisscross the wound.
He looked around for the anachronauts. He spotted one in
the distance, silhouetted against the borderlight, sharing the velocity
he’d acquired from the Rindler's spin but
separated from him by the force of the blast. The limbs were fixed at
unnatural angles; he was looking at a corpse. All the ships' bodies
could switch modes and cope without oxygen, but between the explosion
and the exposure to vacuum there’d been no prospect of anyone surviving
unprotected. The rebels had had more time than anyone else to think
about putting on suits before endangering themselves, but they’d
apparently decided not to bother. That was either willful martyrdom, or
the expectation that, whatever happened, no one was going to be left
alive to come and rescue them.
Branco spoke. "Are you all right?"
"I think so." If his suit had been damaged at all by the
blast, it had since repaired itself, and his Exoself reported nothing
more than bruising to his body.
"I’ll send the shuttle after you."
Tchicaya said, "Thanks." He waited, watching numbly as
the necklace of the ship continued to recede. He was tumbling slowly
around an axis that almost coincided with the direction of his motion;
the Rindler never vanished from sight, but the
horizon between the border and the stars wheeled in front of him.
Branco said, "Plan A might not be possible. They’ve glued
the shuttle’s release bolts in place."
Tchicaya pondered this, dreamily amused for a moment. The
sheer strangeness of his situation had induced a sense of detachment;
it was a struggle to think his way back into events on the ship.
"What’s happening at the hub?"
"We reviewed what the climbers were doing earlier, in the
instrumentation bay," Branco replied. "They were building a particle
detector, with some powerful superconducting magnets. Which are now
part of the devices they have with them."
"The fuel must be shielded, though? Against stray
magnetic fields?" The antimatter portion was kept in a purely magnetic
container; that had to be robust.
"Do you have any idea how many orders of magnitude
difference there is between stray interstellar fields and the strongest
artificial ones?"
Tchicaya took this question to be rhetorical. "How close
are Rasmah and the others?" He didn’t want to look for himself; he just
wanted Branco to give him the good news.
"They’re close. But the rebels are already at the hub,
setting things up."
"And you believe they might be capable of spilling the
fuel?"
"We can’t rule that out. It will depend how good their
device is. If they’re smart, and if they have time, they could pump
energy into two different flows that the containment fields couldn’t
restrain simultaneously."
Tchicaya said nothing. He closed his eyes. He’d screwed
up, he’d let his guard down with the anachronauts, but Rasmah was
unshakable. She’d stop them, if she got the chance.
Branco said, "We’re now seeing flows developing in the
fuel." His voice betrayed no hint of panic. After the loss of the
Scribe, he’d told Tchicaya that he’d been through local death seven
hundred and ninety-six times, but even if he was immune to existential
qualms, the prospect of losing contact with the border had to be
painful. "Listen to me carefully. There’s no way we’re going to get the
shuttle free in the next few minutes, but we could use the
debris-clearance laser to burn through the tether that’s holding the
module to which the shuttle is docked."
"What good would that do? The whole module is swarming
with rebels."
"There are five known rebels — who we’ve managed to contain
by reconfiguring some walls — but there are also three other people. All
three are declared Preservationists, but they might still be your
allies. If I throw the module clear of the Rindler,
and everyone else is lost, they might get the shuttle free. And if the Rindler
survives, at least they’ll have a chance of getting back to us."
Tchicaya said, "Who are the three?"
"Alejandro, Wael, and Mariama," Branco replied. "I don’t
know any of them well. But you’re the one who’d be left here with them,
so you’d better decide whether that would be to your advantage or not."
The retreating ship was vanishing into the borderlight.
Tchicaya didn’t want the power to gamble with anyone’s fate, but the
rebels had left the builders with no choice but to juggle odious
alternatives, and now Branco had dragged him into the same quagmire.
If the rebels were trying to destroy the Rindler,
it was because they believed they had nothing more to do here, which
meant that the Right Hand was already primed to scribe Planck worms
without further intervention. Sparing everyone in the module wouldn’t
put the far side in any greater danger, so he should err on the side of
saving those people, in the hope that they’d help him fight the Planck
worms. If he was left here alone, drifting off into the distance, he
might be able to control the Left Hand remotely for a while, but
without the shuttle he’d eventually lose radio contact.
The rebels could still be mistaken, though. The first
attempt to create the Planck worms could fail. If anyone aligned with
the rebels remained, they could work to rectify those early mistakes;
they’d have decades to achieve their goal, virtually guaranteeing that
the far side would be obliterated. So maybe it would be safer to be
left alone, to do whatever he could in the time he had.
It all came down to whether or not one or more of those
three people had been swayed by the rebels, as Birago had been swayed.
Birago, who’d always seemed passionate but reasonable, and nowhere near
as fanatical as Tarek.
Alejandro, Wael, and Mariama.
Branco said, "We’ve worked out the strategy the rebels
are using. It’s not the best, but it is effective. If they’re not
stopped, they’ll definitely spill the fuel."
Tchicaya said, "Cut it loose."
He stared at the horizon, watching for some glint from
the laser in action, but that was futile. He couldn’t see any part of
the ship anymore, and the portion of the tether that was glowing white
hot would only be centimeters long.
"Branco?"
"Nearly there. It will take a few more seconds. Rasmah’s
just reached the hub. She’s fighting with two of the rebels." Branco
chuckled "Make that one."
Tchicaya’s spirits soared. He asked the ship to show him
the struggle.
There was no response. He asked again.
On the horizon, a dazzling bead of violet light appeared,
outsining the border. Then his suit shut off his vision.
Chapter 14
When the first, paralyzing wave of despair had left him,
Tchicaya tried to contact Mariama. Without success, but he’d steeled
himself for that further small blow. He didn’t know which way the
module had been flung, but with every minute that passed both of them
were six kilometers further from the point where the
Rindler
had been, and it was possible that they were already too far apart for
direct Mediator-to-Mediator contact. The module would have its own
longer-range transceivers, but it was possible that they’d been damaged
by the radiation from the
Rindler's fireball.
He had to be patient. If Mariama had survived, she would
find a way to contact him.
Belatedly, it occurred to him to try the Left Hand. It
responded. The vote Yann had spoken of had gone through in time: the
Left Hand not only acknowledged his signal, it was willing to take
instructions from him.
He had his Mediator construct a virtual replica of the
familiar Blue Room console, and he placed himself before it. He merged
Yann’s toolkit with the interface, and summoned the first simple menu
of possibilities. For several seconds, he was too afraid to do anything
but stare at the screen. Then he scribed a probe that would enter the
far side and return as quickly as possible.
Minutes later, the echo came back to him. The surface
layer of the far side, at least, was unchanged, populated by exactly
the same mix of vendeks as they’d seen with the first experiment.
He tried a deeper probe. The result was the same: nothing
had changed.
Tchicaya left the scape. He watched the horizon
hopefully, sifting through the possibilities. The rebels had chosen not
to scribe the Planck worms before mounting their attack on the ship.
Perhaps they’d feared that they’d encounter more determined resistance
from their opponents, if the annihilation of the far side was already
playing out right before their eyes. A premature assault on the border
would also have weakened the position of the remaining
Preservationists, if the mutiny had been crushed. In any case, the fact
that they’d felt a need to destroy the
Rindler
implied that the rebels were not confident that the process would be
unstoppable once it had begun.
If the rebels hadn’t arranged for the loss of the ship to
trigger the event immediately, there had to be some kind of timer
counting down. If Mariama had got the shuttle free, she might have
headed straight for the Right Hand, to pluck it out of the equation
completely. If Birago had successfully corrupted it, the Right Hand
would not take orders from her, and it was certainly more able to look
after itself than the Scribe had been, dodging far larger shifts in the
border. But Tchicaya doubted that it was equipped to defend itself from
a determined assailant. The shuttle had more powerful engines; if it
came down to brute force, she could probably bulldoze the Right Hand
straight into the border.
If she reached it in time.
And if she was willing.
Three and a half hours after the loss of the
Rindler,
the border was transformed. Tchicaya didn’t perceive anything
approaching; he merely saw the expanse of white light replaced in an
instant by an opalescent gray. He turned just in time to catch sight of
the edge of the change as it vanished behind him.
The sphere of the border was so vast that the true
geometrical horizon was a billion kilometers away, but to his unaided
vision everything beyond about a million kilometers occupied a single
line, too narrow to resolve. After replaying the event, his
calculations could not rule out the possibility that the change had
swept by at lightspeed. That would have made it literally impossible to
see coming, and then the delayed evidence of the fleeing edge would
have given the impression that it was traveling at half its true speed,
crossing the million kilometers he could distinguish in about six
seconds.
He checked with the Left Hand. Being closer to the
border, its field of view was smaller than Tchicaya’s, but its
instruments left his senses for dead. It had tracked the change he’d
witnessed, and judged it to be moving at the speed of light.
Not roughly, not nearly, but, to the limits of
measurement, precisely the speed of light. Which meant that the Planck
worms could not be pursued, let alone stopped.
The battle was over. The far side was lost.
Tchicaya caught himself angrily. The ability to move
across the border at lightspeed didn’t guarantee the power to penetrate
the far side at the same rate. For all he knew, he’d just seen nothing
more than a variation on Branco’s surface-pinning effect.
He told the Left Hand to scribe another probe.
It couldn’t. The border had retreated.
Retreated how far? The Left Hand
couldn’t tell him. How do you measure the distance to a featureless,
immaterial plane of light? Once the border had slipped out of range of
the particle beam of the stylus, the Left Hand had lost the ability to
summon forth any kind of echo. It had scattered a small cloud of
electronic fireflies, moving at about ten meters a second, to see when
they were extinguished. So far, they all remained intact. It was no use
tracking the brightness of the borderlight; each square meter of the
border would seem dimmer as it retreated, but that effect was canceled
out precisely by the fact that any particular instrument you aimed at
it, with some fixed angle of view, would be taking in light from a
larger portion of the border the further away it was. And there was no
Doppler shift to reveal the velocity of retreat: the far side was being
pared away, not pushed away, and the new, gray borderlight was being
emitted from a succession of different surfaces, not a single moving
source that could act as a clock.
The Left Hand had detected a microscopic lowering of the
horizon against the backdrop of stars, which did prove that the Planck
worms had corroded the far side into vacuum hundreds of thousands of
kilometers away. But the line of sight from the Left Hand to the new
horizon still only penetrated twenty or so meters below the surface
where the border would normally have been; the growing crater could be
as shallow as that limit, or it could be a million times deeper.
Tchicaya waited. The fireflies could still wink out at
any moment. The Left Hand’s engines weren’t powerful, and it carried
only a small reserve of fuel, but it could adapt to a shift in the
border’s velocity of a few meters per second.
After ten minutes, nothing had changed. The fireflies
were still visible. The border was outracing them.
That did not mean that there was no hope left. But to
move the Left Hand faster than the fireflies, to have any chance at all
of catching the border, he would need the shuttle.
He was useless on his own, now. It all came down to three
Preservationists, and whether or not the hint of life in the far side
had been enough to change their minds.
Tchicaya woke his father with a tug of the hand.
"What is it?" His father squinted at him blearily, but
then he smiled and put a finger to his lips. He climbed out of bed and
scooped Tchicaya into his arms, then carried him back to his own room.
He put Tchicaya down on the bed and sat beside him.
"You can’t sleep?"
Tchicaya shook his head.
"Why? What’s wrong?"
Tchicaya didn’t need to have the truth coaxed out of him. "I don’t
want to get older," he said. "I don’t want to change."
His father laughed. "Nine isn’t old. And nothing’s going
to change tomorrow." It was his birthday in a few hour’s time.
"I know."
"Nothing’s going to change for you, for years."
Tchicaya felt a flicker of impatience. "I don’t mean my
body. I’m not worried about that."
"What, then?"
"I’m going to live for a long time, aren’t I? Thousands
of years?"
"Yes." His father reached down and stroked Tchicaya’s
forehead. "You’re not worried about death? You know what it would take
to kill a person. You’ll outlive the stars, if you want to."
Tchicaya said, "I know. But if I do…
how will I
know that I’m still me?"
He struggled to explain. He still felt he was the same
person as he’d been when he was seven or eight, but he knew that the
creature of his earliest momeries, of three or four, had been
transformed inside his skin. That was all right, because an infant was
a kind of half-made person who needed to be absorbed into something
larger. He could even accept that in ten year’s time, some of his own
feelings and attitudes would be different. "But it won’t stop, will it?
It won’t ever stop."
"No," his father agreed.
"Then how will I know I’m changing in the right way? How
will I know I haven’t turned into someone else?" Tchicaya shuddered. He
felt less dread now that he wasn’t alone, but his father’s mere
presence couldn’t banish this fear entirely, the way it had banished
the terrors of his childhood. If a stranger could displace him, step by
step over ten thousand years, the same thing would be happening to
everyone. No one around him would be able to help, because they’d all
be usurped in exactly the same way.
His father conjured up a globe of the planet and held it
toward him, a luminous apparition painted over the gray shadows of the
room. "Where are you, right now?"
Tchicaya turned the globe slightly with a gesture, then
pointed to their town, Baake.
"Here’s puzzle for you," his father said. "Suppose I draw
an arrow here, on the ground in front of you, and tell you it’s the
most important thing there is." He marked the globe as he spoke.
"Wherever you go, wherever you travel, you’ll need to find a way to
take this arrow with you."
This was too easy. "I’d use a compass," Tchicaya said. "And if I
didn’t have a compass, I’d use the stars. Wherever I went, I
could always find the same bearing."
"You think that’s the best way to carry a direction with
you? Reproducing its compass bearing?"
"Yes."
His father drew a small arrow on the globe, close to the
north pole, pointing due north. Then he drew another on the opposite
side of the pole, also pointing due north. The two arrows shared the
same compass bearing, but anyone could see that they were pointing in
opposite directions.
Tchicaya scowled. He wanted to claim that this was just a
perverse exception to an otherwise reasonable rule, but he wasn’t sure
that was the case.
"Forget about north and south," his father said. "Forget
about the stars. This arrow is your only compass; there is nothing else
to steer by. You must take it with you. Now tell me how."
Tchicaya stared at the globe. He drew a path leading away
from Baake. How could he duplicate the arrow as he moved? "I’d draw
another arrow, each time I took a step. The same as the one before."
His father smiled. "Good. But how would you make each new
one the same?"
"I’d make it the same length. And I’d make it parallel."
"How would you do that?" his father persisted. "How would
you know that the new arrow was parallel to the old one?"
Tchicaya was unsure. The globe was curved, its geometry
was complicated. Maybe it would be simpler to start with a flat
surface, and then work his way up to the harder case. He summoned a
translucent plane and drew an arrow in black. On command, his Mediator
could duplicate the object faithfully, anywhere else on the plane, but
it was up to him to understand the rules.
He drew a second arrow and contemplated its relationship
with the first. "They’re parallel. So if you join the two bases and the
two tips, they make a parallelogram."
"Yes. But how do you
know that they
make a parallelogram?" His father reached over and skewed the second
arrow. "You can tell that I’ve ruined it, just by looking, but what is
it that you’re looking for when you see that?"
"The distances aren’t the same anymore." Tchicaya traced
them with his finger. "From base to base and tip to tip, it’s different
now. So to make the second arrow a copy of the first, I have to make
sure that it’s the same length, and that its tip is as far away from
the first one’s tip as the bases are from each other."
"All right, that’s true," his father agreed. "Now suppose
I make things more difficult. Suppose I say you have no ruler, no tape
measure. You can’t measure a distance along one line and duplicate it
on another one."
Tchicaya laughed. "That’s too hard! It’s impossible,
then!"
"Wait. You can do this: you can compare distances along
the same line. If you go straight from A to B to C, you
can
know if B is exactly half the journey."
Tchicaya gazed at the arrows. There was no half journey
here, there was no bisected line in a parallelogram.
"Keep looking," his father urged him. "Look at the things
you haven’t even drawn yet."
That clue gave it away. "The diagonals?"
"Yes."
The diagonals of the parallelogram ran from the base of
the first arrow to the tip of the second, and
vice versa.
And the diagonals divided each other in two.
They worked through the construction together, pinning
down the details, making them precise. You could duplicate an arrow by
drawing a line from its tip to the base you’d chosen for the second
arrow, bisecting that line, then drawing a line from the base of the
first arrow, passing through the midpoint and continuing on as far
again. The far end of that second diagonal told you where the tip of
the duplicate arrow would be.

Tchicaya regarded their handiwork with pleasure.
His father said, "Now, how do you do the same thing on a
sphere?" He passed the globe over to Tchicaya.
"You just do the same thing. You draw the same lines."
"Straight lines? Curved lines?"
"Straight." Tchicaya caught himself. Straight lines, on a
globe? "Great circles. Arcs of great circles." Given any two points on
a sphere, you could find a plane that passed through both of them, and
also through the center of the sphere. The arc of the equatorsized
circle formed where the plane cut through the surface of the sphere
gave the shortest distance between the two points.
"Yes." His father gestured at the path Tchicaya had
drawn, snaking away from their town. "Go ahead and try it. See how it
looks."
Tchicaya copied the arrow once, a small distance along
the path, using the parallelogram construction with arcs of great
circles for the diagonals. Then he had his Mediator repeat the process
automatically, all the way to the end of the path.

"That’s it," Tchicaya marveled. "We’ve done it." A
lattice of diagonals ran along the path, marking the way, carrying the
arrow forward. No compass, no stars to steer by, but they’d found a way
to copy the arrow faithfully from start to finish.
"It’s beautiful, isn’t it?" his father said. "This is
called Schild’s ladder. All throughout geometry, all throughout
physics, the same idea shows up in a thousand different guises. How do
you carry something from here to there, and keep it the same? You move
it step by step, keeping it parallel in the only way that makes sense.
You climb Schild’s ladder."
Tchicaya didn’t ask if the prescription could be extended
beyond physics; as an answer to his fears, it was only a metaphor. But
it was a metaphor filled with hope. Even as he changed, he could watch
himself closely, and judge whether he was skewing the arrow of his self.
"There’s one more thing you should see," his father said.
He drew a second path on the globe, joining the same two points but
following a different route. "Try it again."
"It will be the same," Tchicaya predicted confidently. "If you climb
Schild’s ladder twice, it will copy the arrow the best
way, both times." It was like being asked to add up a dozen numbers
twice, grouping them in different ways. The answer had to be the same
in the end.
"So try it again," his father insisted.
Tchicaya complied.

"I’ve made a mistake," he said. He erased the second
ladder, and repeated the construction. Again, the second copy of the
arrow at the end of the path failed to match the first.
"I don’t understand," Tchicaya complained. "What am I
doing wrong?"
"Nothing," his father assured him. "This is what you
should expect. There’s always a way to carry the arrow forward, but it
depends on the path you take."
Tchicaya didn’t reply. He’d thought he’d been shown the
way to safety, to persistence. Now it was dissolving into
contradictions before his eyes.
His father said, "You’ll never stop changing, but that
doesn’t mean you have to drift in the wind. Every day, you can take the
person you’ve been, and the new things you’ve witnessed, and make your
own, honest choice as to who you should become.
"Whatever happens, you can always be true to yourself.
But don’t expect to end up with the same inner compass as anyone else.
Not unless they started beside you, and climbed beside you every step
of the way."
Tchicaya made the globe vanish. He said, "It’s late. I’d
better go to sleep now."
"All right." His father stood as if to leave, but then he
reached down and squeezed Tchicaya’s shoulder. "There’s nothing to be
afraid of. You’ll never be a stranger, if you stay here with your
family and friends. As long as we climb side by side, we’ll all change
together."
"Tchicaya? Can you hear me?"
It was Mariama.
"Loud and clear," he said. "Are you all right?"
"That depends what you mean by
me.
My Qusp is fine. Parts of my Mediator got fried; I only have a
short-range IR link left. My body’s not a pretty sight, but it’s
recovering."
The signal was coming to him via the Left Hand; she’d
freed the shuttle and gone there in person. The long-range transceivers
in both the module and the shuttle must have suffered irreparable
radiation damage, which said something about the likely state of her
body.
"What about the others?"
"Wael and Alejandro received similar exposure. They
helped me get the shuttle unglued, but they weren’t interested in
sticking around, with no mod cons and such poor company. Birago’s body
seemed to be in better shape than mine, but the builders halted his
Qusp, so he’s as good as departed. When I left, the other rebels were
all in a bad way; some of their bodies had reverted to undifferentiated
goo, and even in the ones that were still intact and breathing, I’d be
surprised if their minds have survived the repair process."
She was probably right; the bodies would make liberal use
of apoptosis to kill off radiation-damaged cells, and there was no
reason for them to treat neural tissue any differently.
Mariama said, "I went to the Right Hand first, but it had
already scribed the Planck worms. It wasn’t pursuing the border down,
but I gave it a nudge in the opposite direction, too fast for it to
reverse. If we find some use for it, I could go and drag it back, but
I’m hoping the Left Hand will be enough."
"It will have to be." Nothing they did to the Right Hand
would render it trustworthy.
"Branco told me about the toolkit Yann gave you, while he
was cutting us loose, but I didn’t have time to get a copy myself. The
simplest thing might be if you send it to me now, before I go chasing
the border."
"What?" Tchicaya stared at the red-shifted stars above
the horizon, checking the view for any sign that he’d departed from
reality and was hallucinating this entire encounter. "Why would that be
simplest? You’re coming to get me, aren’t you?"
"That would be an awful waste of fuel. You don’t need to
be here, physically."
Tchicaya was silent for a moment. She was right about the
fuel, but he couldn’t accept what she was proposing.
"That’s not true," he said. "If I stay out here, I’m
going to lose radio contact, eventually. From sheer distance in the
long run, but if the border has taken on a complicated shape, I might
lose my line of sight much sooner."
"Then give me the key to the Left Hand. With that, and
the toolkit, I can manage everything." She sighed. "Don’t be precious
about this. I don’t like the idea of leaving you to drift away, but
there are more important things at stake here. The time and the fuel I
used fetching you could make all the difference to the far side."
Tchicaya felt a flicker of temptation. He could wash his
hands of everthing, and wake beside Rasmah on Pfaff. Mariama was being
perfectly logical; time was against them, and apart from the secondhand
skills that he could easily sign over to her, he was superfluous.
He wanted to trust her. Hadn’t she earned that? They’d
had no end of differences, but she had always been honest with him. It
seemed petty and mean-spirited to keep on doubting her.
The trouble was, he didn’t trust his own motives.
Thinking the best of her would be the perfect excuse to absolve himself
of all responsibility.
He said, "I’m not handing you anything. If you care so
much about the far side, you’d better come and get me."
Mariama remained seated at the front of the shuttle as
Tchicaya clambered out of the airlock. He nodded a greeting, and tried
to smile. Her Exoself would be discouraging her from doing anything to
interfere with her body’s healing, by means both gentler and more
precise than a blanket of agony; extrapolating from the raw pain of the
minor burns he’d willingly experienced as a child was absurd. Still,
the sight of her weeping, blistered skin made his guts tighten.
He said, "Hitchhiking in space isn’t so bad. I’ve waited
longer for a ride, on land."
Mariama replied through the IR link. "Try showing more
flesh. That always works wonders."
On their way back to the Left Hand, Tchicaya received the
first good news he’d heard since the moratorium vote. The horizon had
stopped falling. The Left Hand was no longer seeing new stars creeping
into view.
That in itself didn’t fix the depth of the lost region
everywhere, but the particular geometry was suggestive. The new horizon
was exactly where it would have been if the Planck worms had failed to
penetrate the signaling layer, where the vendek population changed
abruptly, a hundred kilometers into the far side.
As they approached the Left Hand, the news became even
better. The fireflies had finally begun to vanish, and the timing of
their deaths confirmed the best possible scenario: the border had
retreated to the signaling layer, and no further.
Tchicaya was elated, but Mariama said, "Don’t assume this
is the new
status quo. Birago wasn’t exactly
confiding in me toward the end, but if what he’s done here bears any
resemblance to the work I was involved in with Tarek, the Planck worms
won’t have given up at the first obstacle."
"Meaning what?"
"They’ll mutate. They’ll experiment. They’ll keep on
varying themselves, until they find a way to break through."
"You knew how to do that? You had it all worked out?"
"No," she admitted. "But as soon as you showed us the
vendeks themselves, they provided an awful lot of inspiration. Tarek
and I didn’t pursue that, but don’t expect Birago to have passed up the
opportunity."
They docked with the Left Hand, and carried it down to
the point where the fireflies were disappearing.
Regaining alignment with the border took almost an hour,
as a cycle of increasingly delicate adjustments brought the stylus into
range. Once that was achieved, Tchicaya scribed a series of probes that
would spread out laterally as well as moving straight in, improving
their chances of gaining a comprehensive picture of the Planck worms.
Unsurprisingly, now that the signaling layer was infected with Planck
worms and exposed to vacuum, it was no longer vibrating, no longer
tapping out primes. Tchicaya longed to discover the mechanism that had
driven it, but he had to stay focused; trying to dissect the
far-siders' ruined SETI equipment — if that was what it was — had to take
second place to dealing with the plague the beacon had been unable to
deter on its own.
As he launched the last probe, he turned to Mariama. "If
you gave me all the details of the work you did with Tarek, there’d be
no need for you to hang around."
She emitted a disgusted wheezing noise, the first real
sound he’d heard her make. "Is that some kind of childish comeback,
because I didn’t want to waste fuel on making you cozy?"
"No. But I’m the one who came to the
Rindler
to protect the far side. There’s no reason for you to keep crawling
over broken glass for the sake of someone else’s agenda."
Mariama searched his face. "You really don’t trust me, do
you?"
"To do what? To betray your own ideals? You always wanted
to wipe this thing out."
"I never thought that would involve genocide."
"We’re still not certain that it would."
She sighed, bodily. "So you’re afraid that if we find a
natural explanation for the signaling layer, my presence might suddenly
become embarrassing?"
"Wouldn’t it?"
"I voted for the moratorium," she said. "I voted to do
nothing but look for signs of life, for a full year. Whatever happens,
I’ll honor that commitment."
Tchicaya experienced a twinge of shame, but he didn’t
back off. He said, "Make up your mind. Are you here to protect the far
side? Or are you here to relaunch the Planck worms in a year’s time, if
the far side proves to be sterile?"
Mariama shook her head. "Why do I have to choose? If
there are sentient creatures in there, they deserve our protection. If
there’s nothing but an exotic ocean full of different kinds of
Planck-scale algae, then the sooner it’s rendered safely back into
vacuum, the better. Is that distinction really so hard to grasp? What
did I ever do to get lumped in with the rebels, in your head? When’s
the last time I displayed nineteenth-century morality?"
"Twenty-third."
"That just shows how little history you know. Most people
who left Earth in that era did so precisely because they were out of
step with contemporary mores. In this case, I’d say they were about
four centuries behind the times."
Tchicaya looked away. Was she protesting too much? But
she was just as entitled as he was to be contemptuous of the
anachronauts' views. Being wise after the fact about the complexity of
the far side, and the unwitting genocide the Preservationists might
have committed, was like blaming the Mimosans for failing to anticipate
the failure of the Sarumpaet rules.
The probes began returning. The Planck worms they
revealed were dauntingly complex structures, at least as elaborate as
the vendeks themselves. And Mariama had been right: they’d begun to
mutate, to try out variations. The software counted thousands of
strains.
Even if they were capable of adaptation, though, they
were too simple to achieve it through anything but trial and error.
Their designer had left them to fend for themselves, and in the end
that would leave them as vulnerable as any other dumb pathogen.
Tchicaya addressed the toolkit, allowing Mariama to
listen in. "Find a graph we can scribe that will wipe these things
out — without moving deeper and damaging the native vendeks." As he
spoke
the words, this sounded like a breathtakingly optimistic request, but
the Planck worms themselves had been seeded from a single point, so
there was no reason why the antidote couldn’t be introduced the same
way.
There was a perceptible delay while the toolkit explored
the problem. "I don’t believe that’s possible," it declared. "The
Planck worms are exploiting the ordinary vacuum behind them: they set
up correlations across the border that cause the vendeks to decohere.
I’m unable to find a method of attacking the Planck worms that wouldn’t
also destroy the whole vendek population in which they’re immersed."
Mariama said, "What if the vendek population changes,
deeper in?"
"Anything might be possible then, but until I know the
details, there are no guarantees."
Tchicaya scribed probes to look deeper.
The second change swept the border as swiftly as the
first. Through the windows of the shuttle, they saw the smooth gray
plain transformed into a complex, striated pattern of dozens of bright
hues. Tchicaya’s heart raced; it was like watching a pool of acid eat
its way down through featureless rock, exposing thousands of delicately
layered sediments.
Mariama said, "The border must be motionless again, or
we’d see the pattern changing. So the Planck worms have hit more
obstacles. We might have killed them off, if we’d burnt away this whole
layer first."
"Including whatever it contained," Tchicaya countered. "We have no
idea what might have been there."
Mariama replied flatly, "Whatever was there, it’s gone
now anyway."
Tchicaya said nothing, but she was right. If he’d acted
more swiftly, they might have cauterized the wound. If he was going to
refuse to make decisions with imperfect knowledge, he might as well
give up intervening and simply leave the far-siders to protect
themselves.
The Left Hand had launched fresh fireflies immediately,
but he wasn’t going to wait for them. He told the shuttle to follow
them down, keeping just enough distance to be sure it could decelerate
in time.
The new border lay some sixty kilometers down, but its
altitude was no longer constant; the shuttle came to a halt in the
middle of a sinuous valley. The borderlight around them revealed the
striations they’d seen from afar to be just one level of structure: the
bands were crossed with networks of fine, dark lines, super-imposed
over shifting waves of increased luminosity. And this was just the
naked-eye view of a ravaged landscape, exposed to the vacuum and thick
with alien marauders. What the pristine depths contained on a
xennometer scale, Tchicaya couldn’t begin to imagine, but between these
macroscopic structures and the vendeks themselves, the opportunities
for complex life were greater than ever.
While they waited for the stylus to realign itself,
Mariama said, "Can I ask the toolkit something?"
Tchicaya nodded warily.
"How complex an algorithm could you inject into the far
side?" she said.
The toolkit replied, "On what time scale? If you give me
long enough, there are no limits."
"How long would it take to inject yourself?"
"Scribing all the data directly with the Left Hand? About
a hundred thousand years."
Mariama laughed in infrared. "What about other ways of
doing it? What’s the most efficient method that would be achievable
with the hardware at our disposal?"
The toolkit fell silent, conducting an exhaustive search.
Tchicaya said, "What’s this about?"
"We’re blind up here," she replied. "All our time and
effort is going into shuttling information back and forth across the
border. Yann and the others have given you a lot of valuable knowledge,
but the place where it needs to be applied is the far side."
The toolkit said, "I could scribe a series of graphs that
would give rise to a far-side structure that would let me send data
through the border as modulated light. That would take seventeen
minutes. The total bandwidth would then be about one zettabyte per
second. I could send myself through in a millisecond."
"In a form that could then travel deeper, away from the
border?"
"Possibly. I could wrap the basic quantum processor in a
shell of motile vendeks. It still might not be able to survive in every
environment it encountered, but it could send out probes to explore its
surroundings, and it could tweak the vendek populations in the
protective shell as it moved."
"What about communications with the near side?" Mariama
asked.
"I could try to maintain a shielded data cable back to
the border, but the prospects for that look much poorer. The Planck
worms are going to attack the border interface, and anything else that
isn’t moving faster than they are."
"Okay. But you could operate autonomously, once you were
in there?"
"Sure."
Tchicaya said, "You want to just drop it through and tell
it to improvise from there?"
"Why not? What’s it up against? It’s a lot smarter than
the Planck worms. It would know exactly what it was doing."
"On one level." Tchicaya asked the toolkit, "How would
you go about recognizing sentient life?"
"I have no idea," it admitted. "I have no information
about that concept, beyond the rudimentary epistemological sketch
that’s stored in the conversational interface you’re now addressing."
Tchicaya said, "I’ve spoken to cribs with more sense than
that. We can’t unleash it on the far side as a free agent."
Mariama closed her eyes. Clear fluid was spilling from
fissures in her scalp and running down her face. She said, "My Exoself
now tells me that this body’s packing up. It thought it could repair
itself, but there’s too much damage. I’m afraid you’re about to be
stuck with a corpse."
Tchicaya reached over and took her hand, gently. "I’m
sorry."
"It’s all right," she said. "I’ve never gone acorporeal
before, but I’m not a fanatic. A few days without flesh won’t kill me."
She smiled, splitting the skin on her face. "If you live long enough,
you get to compromise on everything."
As Tchicaya watched, she let go of her body. Her
breathing halted, and she slumped sideways. The flesh of her hand
became rigid beneath his fingers; the individual cells had given up
trying to maintain the integrity of the tissues they comprised, and had
started to encyst, protecting themselves as best they could in case
they were of any use for recycling.
Tchicaya felt tears spilling down his face. "Fuck."
Mariama could no longer hear him; the IR link to her Mediator had
worked via nerve and skin cells, and that was the only functioning
route into her Qusp. She was deaf, dumb, and blind now, until he dug
her out.
He made his way to the shuttle’s tool bin, and selected
something long and sharp. Then he strapped himself into the seat beside
her, to keep himself from being pushed away by the force he applied.
Tchicaya knew that she was beyond harm, but he couldn’t
stop weeping as he cut into her flesh. He was not an acorporeal. He had
never found a way to love her that entirely surrendered the notion that
her body was the thing to cherish and protect.
He got the three devices out: three small, dark spheres
chained together with optical cables. The Mediator and the Exoself both
bore a fuzz of fine gray wires that had tapped into the body’s nervous
system.
Tchicaya consulted his own Mediator; it wasn’t a great
resource compared to the
Rindler's library, but it
knew all about its own design. Given a disembodied version of the same
hardware, with the radio transceiver fried, how could he reestablish
contact?
His Mediator described the specialized hardware that
could do this. The shuttle was carrying nothing even remotely similar.
Tchicaya contemplated the bloodied parts in his hand.
He’d asked her once to leave him, so he could complete this task alone.
Now he appeared to have had his request granted.
"There are no other ways to make contact?" he asked his
Mediator.
"Not if the device remains disembodied."
He couldn’t grow her a new body from scratch; there was
no time. And the cells of the old one had already done their best; they
would not be coaxed back into operation.
Tchicaya said, "What if it was inside someone else’s
flesh? Inside a body with another Mediator?"
"Where, exactly?"
"Where would it have to be?"
"Inside the skull. Or very close to the spinal cord."
That was the solution, then. Tchicaya steeled himself. He
still wasn’t certain where her loyalties finally lay, but he was even
less certain that he could go on without her.
He stripped of his bloodied clothes, and peeled away his
suit. Then he asked his Exoself to guide him. It knew the position of
every nerve and blood vessel in his body, and it could move his hands
with great precision.
The stylus came into alignment with the border. Tchicaya
launched a swarm of probes, then instructed the toolkit to start work
automatically as soon as the echoes began returning: designing a
replicator that would burn away all the current strains of Planck
worms, whatever the cost to the vendeks around them.
Mariama spoke. "What’s happening?"
Tchicaya said, "You’re behind my right kidney. My nervous
system’s just managed to link up with your Mediator."
This revelation only fazed her for a moment. "I didn’t
even think about communication. That body failed so suddenly, I didn’t
have time to make plans."
"Are you okay?"
"Absolutely."
"What are you simulating?"
"Nothing, yet. I’ve just been thinking in the dark."
"Do you want to share my senses?" It was what he would
have asked for, himself, if their roles had been reversed: anything to
anchor his mind to reality, even if it was secondhand.
Mariama hesitated. "I’d like access, thanks, but I’ll
make myself an icon with a viewpoint in a scape, and put your vision up
on a screen. I don’t want to start pretending that I’m inhabiting your
body. Since I can’t actually control it, that would just make me feel
trapped."
"Right." Tchicaya felt a frisson of anxiety, but the
notion that he’d invited in a guest who could mount a coup was pure
fantasy. Every connection between his nerve cells and her Mediator was
entirely under the control of his Exoself; right down to the molecular
level, this body would only take instructions from the matching
hardware.
"Keep talking while I do that," she said. "What’s the
situation with the border?"
Tchicaya brought her up to date.
Mariama was puzzled. "You’re not scribing the interface?"
"What’s the use?" he replied. "That would only tie up the
stylus. We’re better off trying to kill the Planck worms from the
outside. That way, we can use their own trick against them: we can
correlate them with the vacuum, make them decohere. It’s a simpler
problem. All we have to do is scribe something aggressive enough to
take them on, but with a dead-end design that will fail completely at
the next change of vendeks."
"You might be right," she conceded. "I hope it is that
simple."
Tchicaya looked out across the rainbow-hued landscape.
Everything that happened here — all the destruction wrought by the
Planck
worms, and by their putative remedy — would spread out at the speed of
light across the entire border. The vendeks' diversity seemed to have
acted as an effective barrier so far, but there could be gaps in that
defense, threads or channels of identical populations running deep into
the far side. He was gambling on a dizzying scale, like some dilettante
ecologist in Earth’s colonial era, trying to balance one introduced
predator against another.
The toolkit spoke. "I’m afraid the Planck worms have been
sneakier than I expected. The need to attack a new mix of vendeks
hasn’t filtered out any of the old mutations; they’ve all hitched a
ride down with their successful cousins. So there are more than ten
million different variants now. I can scribe seeds for individual
replicators that would wipe out all of them, but that’s going to take
more than nine hours."
"Start doing that immediately," Tchicaya said, "but also
start thinking about a single seed that could do the same job."
The toolkit pondered his second request. "I can’t see a
way to do that without scribing something every bit as virulent as the
Planck worms. It would have to mutate, itself, in order to deal with
all the variants, and there’s no guarantee that it wouldn’t either burn
out prematurely, or not at all."
Mariama said, "We can’t count on nine hours at the
border. And if it falls again before we’ve finished the job, the next
time can only be harder."
"So what do you suggest?"
"I’ve told you what I think we have to do," she said.
"Drop something through that can work from the inside?
And I’ve told you what’s wrong with that. There are no magic bullets so
smart that you can fire them into an uncharted world and expect them to
repel an invader without destroying everything they’re meant to be
saving." He laughed bitterly. "It’s hard enough believing that I can
make those judgments myself."
"I know. Which is why you need to start making them from
the other side of the border."
Tchicaya had suspected that this was where she was
heading, when death interrupted her train of thought. He’d hoped to
render the whole idea superfluous before she got around to putting it
into words.
"You think I should send myself in?"
"The data rate would be fast enough. Seventeen minutes to
build the interface, then about an hour to get you through."
"And then what? All our strategies for dealing with the
Planck worms rely on correlating them with the vacuum. You can’t do
that from the inside."
"So you look for other strategies," Mariama insisted, "once you’ve
gone deep enough to have a better idea of what’s safe and
what isn’t. I’m not saying we should give up working from this side,
but there are advantages to both. A two-pronged attack can only improve
our chances."
Tchicaya had run out of arguments. He looked up at his
reflection in the window, knowing she could see it. "I can’t do this
alone," he said. "I can’t go in there without you."
He waited for some scathing rebuke. This was even more
self-indulgent than demanding that she pluck him from the vacuum, when
he should have been willing to drift stoically into oblivion. The worst
of it was, he still harbored doubts about her. How many chances to rid
himself of her presence was he going to turn down?
Mariama said, "Joined at the hip, after four thousand
years?"
"Joined at the kidney."
"I take it you won’t let me go in by myself?"
"No. Think of this as extending the old protocols for the
Scribe. There always had to be an observer from the other faction, to
keep everyone honest."
Tchicaya tried to keep his voice lighthearted, but this
felt like the final recognition of the way it was between them. He had
always followed her, every step of the way. Out of Slowdown, away from
Turaev. Even in the centuries they’d spent apart, his own travels, his
own adventures, had only seemed possible once she’d blazed the trail.
He was not ashamed of this, but he wished he’d faced it squarely much
sooner. He wished he’d told Rasmah, when the rebels first showed their
hand:
I am not the one to leave behind here. You head for the
shuttle, I’ll head for the hub. Anyone can toss saboteurs from the
scaffolding. But not everyone could walk into the far side alone.
Mariama said, "All right, I’ll go with you. We can keep
each other honest. But the process has to be set up so it doesn’t
jeopardize everything. If the border starts falling while only one of
us is through, the vehicle will have to be programmed to interrupt the
transfer, and dive without the second passenger."
"That makes sense," Tchicaya conceded.
"Which only leaves one thing to be decided."
"What’s that?"
"Who goes first."
Chapter 15
Tchicaya looked out from the Sarumpaet
into a lime-green sea. In the distance, glistening partitions,
reminiscent of the algal membranes that formed the cages in some
aquatic zoos, swayed back and forth gently, as if in time to mysterious
currents. Behind each barrier the sea changed color abruptly, the green
giving way to other bright hues, like a fastidiously segregated display
of bioluminescent plankton.
The far side here was a honeycomb of different vendek
populations, occupying cells about a micron wide. The boundaries
between adjoining cells all vibrated like self-playing drums; none were
counting out prime numbers, but some of the more complex rhythms made
it seem almost plausible that the signaling layer had been nothing but
a natural fluke. Even if that were true, though, Tchicaya doubted that
it warranted relief at the diminished prospect that sentient life was
at stake. The signaling layer might have brought him this far, but with
millions of unexplored cubic light-years beneath him, judging the whole
far side on that basis would be like writing off any possibility of
extraterrestrial life because the constellations weren’t actually
animals in the sky.
The view he was looking at was a construct, albeit an
honest one. The Sarumpaet was constantly
"illuminating" its surroundings with probes, but they were more like
spy insects than photons, and they had to return in person with the
details of everything they’d encountered, rather than radioing back
images from afar. His body, the vehicle itself — a transparent bubble
like a scaled-down version of the Rindler's
observation module, with an added checkerboard of windows in the
floor — and the gravity he felt, were all pure fiction.
He turned to Mariama’s icon-in-waiting, complete up to
the shoulders now. Her body was rendered as a transparent container,
slowly filling with color and solidity from a trickle of light flowing
down through a glassy pipe that ran all the way to the border. Tchicaya
looked up along the pipe to the roiling layer of Planck worms, inky
violets and blacks against the cheerful false pastels of the vendeks.
Every few seconds, a dark thread would snake down toward him, like a
tentacle of malignant tar invading a universe of fruit juice. So far,
the vendeks had always responded by pinching off the thread and
extinguishing the intruders. The Sarumpaet avoided
sharing this fate by wrapping itself in a coat that mimicked the stable
layers it saw around it, but though the Planck worms could only hope to
achieve the same kind of immunity by stumbling on it blindly, once they
did, they’d put it to a far less benign use.
Tchicaya was running his own private Slowdown, to keep
the wait from being unbearable; the Planck-scale quantum gates of the Sarumpaet
could have made the hour stretch out into an eternity. The toolkit was
using its enhanced speed to broaden its search for new strategies,
though as yet this had yielded nothing promising. The ten million
individual Planck-worm-killers it had designed on the near side could
have been scribed here in a fraction of a microsecond instead of the
original nine hours, but most of them would have consumed the Sarumpaet
itself in an instant. Tchicaya would not have minded mimicking the
anachronauts and going out in his own blaze of glory, but only if he
was unleashing a fire that was certain to be both effective and
self-limiting.
Mariama was beginning to develop a chin. Tchicaya asked
the icon if it was representing the proportion of data received through
volume, or height.
"Volume."
The crisp image of her body began to soften, but it was
the scape’s lighting that was changing, not the icon itself. Tchicaya
looked up to see a dark, fist-shaped protuberance pushing its way
through the vendeks. An instinct from another era tensed every muscle
in his simulated body, but he wouldn’t need to make a split-second
decision, let alone act on it physically; the Sarumpaet
itself would determine when it had to flee. Dropping out of Slowdown to
monitor events at a glacial pace would only be masochistic; he would
speed up automatically as soon as the flight began.
The infestation of Planck worms spread out like a
thundercloud. As the dark layer brushed the tube that represented the
link across the border, the Sarumpaet launched
itself down into the far side.
The single, brooding cloud exploded into a storm of
obsidian, rushing toward the ship like a pyroclastic flow. Tchicaya had
sprinted down the slopes of a volcano on Peldan, racing hot gas and
ash, but the effortless speed of the Sarumpaet
made this dash for safety even more nerve-wracking. The risk of being
overtaken on foot was only to be expected, but the ship’s pattern of
data was propagating at close to the maximum rate the environment
permitted. There was no such thing as lightspeed here, but he was
nudging a barrier that was just as insurmountable.
As he glanced down, he saw that the visibility had
diminished; the probes were traveling as far ahead as ever, but the Sarumpaet
was racing forward to meet them. The toolkit would still have the
crucial information it needed to adapt the ship’s harnessed vendeks to
changes in the environment, but the faster they fled, the less time it
would have to cope with any surprises.
The first boundary was almost upon them, but they’d
probed this one thoroughly in advance. As the ship crossed through the
glistening membrane — an act portrayed as a simple mechanical feat, but
which amounted to redesigning and rebuilding the entire hull — a motion
within the scape caught Tchicaya’s eye.
Mariama turned to him with a triumphant smile. "That’s
what I call an amphibious vehicle: glides smoothly from microverse to
microverse, whatever their dynamic spectra."
He stared at her. "You weren’t — "
"Complete? Ninety-three percent should be good enough. I
packaged myself very carefully; don’t take that decapitated progress
icon literally." She looked up. "Oh, shit. That wasn’t meant to happen."
Tchicaya followed her gaze. The Planck worms had already
crossed the boundary. Some freeloading mutation, useless against the
earlier obstacles, must have finally proven its worth. Their adversary
was not dispersing, weakening as it spread; it was like an avalanche,
constantly building in strength. If the Planck worms retained every
tool they tried out, whether or not it was immediately successful,
their range of options would be growing at an exponential rate.
"You have to hand it to Birago," Mariama observed
begrudgingly. "The killer twist was his, not Tarek’s or mine. We were
too hung up on the notion of mimicking natural replicators — as if
nature
ever made plagues that were optimized for destroying anything."
"Humans did. He might have had some tips from the
anchronauts."
They crossed into another cell of the honeycomb, as
smoothly as before. Tchicaya wasn’t entirely sure what would happen if
the Sarumpaet failed to negotiate a population
transition, but whether it was the Planck worms or some hostile strain
of vendeks that rushed in and consumed them, they wouldn’t have much
time to dwell on their fate before they blinked out of existence. As
local deaths went, he’d had worse.
He watched the Planck worms as they reached the
partition; this time, they appeared to be trapped. However many
mutations were part of the throng, they couldn’t include an exhaustive
catalog of all the possibilities. The toolkit was X-raying each gate
and designing the perfect key as they approached; that strategy had to
win out some of the time.
If not always by a wide margin. Tchicaya was just
beginning to picture the Sarumpaet streaking ahead
triumphantly, when the second barrier fell to the Planck worms.
He addressed the toolkit. "Is there anything we can throw
in their way? Anything we can scribe that would act as an obstacle?"
"I could trigger the formation of a novel layer
population. But that would take time, and it would only stretch across
a single vendek cell." However long the artificial barrier held, the
Planck worms would still percolate down along other routes.
They glided through a dozen more cells, maintaining a
tenuous lead. Even when they appeared to be widening the gap, there was
no guarantee that they wouldn’t plunge into a cell to find that the
Planck worms had reached the same point more quickly by a different
route.
The honeycomb stretched on relentlessly; the Sarumpaet
gained and lost ground. After eight hours of nominal ship time, they’d
crossed a thousand cells. In near-side terms, they were a millimeter
beneath the point where the border had last rested, and the chase had
gone on for mere picoseconds. The Planck worms had spent more than two
hours diversifying before they’d learned to penetrate these catacombs,
but having found the basic trick they appeared to be unstoppable. So
much for the strategy of burning away one vendek population and the
predators trapped within it; that would have been like trying to cure a
victim of bubonic plague by sterilizing a single pustule.
Tchicaya said, "If this goes on for a hundred kilometers,
I’m going to lose my mind."
"We could go into Slowdown," Mariama suggested. "We
wouldn’t risk missing anything; the ship could bring us up to speed in
an instant."
"I know. I’d rather not, though. It just feels wrong."
"Like sleeping on watch?"
"Yeah."
Three days later, Tchicaya gave in. The honeycomb could
prove to be a centimeter thick, or a light-year; the probes could
barely see half a micron ahead. They had no decisions to make; until
something changed, all they were doing was waiting.
"Just don’t go dropping out on your own," he warned
Mariama.
"To do what?" She gestured at the spartan scape. "This
makes Turaev in winter look exciting."
Tchicaya gave the command, and the honeycomb blurred
around them, the palette of false colors assigned to the
vendeks — already recycled a dozen times to take on new
meanings — merging
into a uniform amber glow. It was like riding a glass bullet through
treacle. Above them, the Planck worms retreated, crept forward, slipped
back again. The Sarumpaet inched ahead, but in
fast motion the race looked even closer than before, their advantage
even more tenuous.
As the Slowdown deepened, their progress grew smoother.
After a full nanosecond of near-side time, they appeared to be leaving
the Planck worms behind. After a microsecond, the worms slipped back
out of range of the probes, and there was nothing to be seem but the Sarumpaet
itself, and the honeyed esophagus down which it was gliding.
At sixty microseconds, the toolkit signaled an alarm and
the ship dragged them back to full speed.
The Sarumpaet had stopped moving, in
the middle of a cell of pale blue vendeks. "The probes can’t go any
deeper," the toolkit explained. "We’ve reached a new kind of boundary:
whatever’s behind it is qualitatively different from all the vendek
mixes we’ve encountered so far."
Tchicaya glanced down into the darkness, as if his eyes
could reveal something that the probes, responsible for the entire
scene, had missed.
Mariama frowned. "Different how?"
"I have no idea. The probes don’t even scatter back from
the boundary. I’ve tried redesigning them, but nothing works. Anything
I send down simply vanishes." For all its knowledge and speed, the
toolkit had never been intended to act as much more than a repository
of facts. It couldn’t begin to cope with novelty in the manner of the
people who’d contributed to it.
They sat and discussed the possibilities. Tchicaya had
learned quite a bit from his faction’s experts, and Mariama even more,
but they needed a bigger group; on the Rindler,
everyone’s ideas had sparked off someone else’s.
For weeks, they argued and experimented. They took turns
sleeping for an hour each; even without any fixed, bodily need to
recuperate, their minds were still structured to function best that
way. The toolkit diligently analyzed vast lists of possibilities,
sorting through the quantum states that might be swallowing all their
probes without a trace, hunting for a new design that would avoid that
fate and return with solid information.
Nothing worked. The darkness beneath them remained
inscrutable.
They had no way of knowing how long it would be until the
Planck worms came flooding down after them. On bad days, Tchicaya
consoled himself with the thought that when they died, the Planck worms
might be buried with them. On worse days, he faced the possibility that
brute mutation would find a way through, where all their passion and
borrowed ingenuity had failed.
On the thirty-seventh day, Tchicaya woke and looked
around the scape. They’d tried all manner of distractions for the sake
of inspiration, but no stroll through a forest, no mountain hike, no
swim across a sunlit lake had led them to the answer. So they’d stopped
ransacking their memories for places to camp, and returned to the
unpalatable truth. They were stranded in an ugly, barren cave in the
pockmarked rind of an alien universe, waiting to be corroded into noise
by a billion species of ravenous sludge.
Mariama smiled encouragingly. "Any revelatory dreams?"
"I’m afraid not." He’d dreamed he was a half-trained
Sapper from the legend, suddenly confronted by a new kind of bomb,
falling beside it toward a landscape of shadows that might have been
anything from a desert to a vast metropolis.
"My turn, then. Come on, get up."
"I will. Soon." She could just as easily conjure up a bed
of her own, but taking turns with one imposed a kind of discipline.
Tchicaya closed his eyes again. Sleep had lost all power
to assuage his weariness, but it was still an escape while it lasted.
He’d understood from the start that their struggle was quixotic, but
he’d never imagined such a dispiriting end. They’d spend their last
days writing equations on paper planes, and tossing them into an abyss.
As he drifted back toward sleep, he pictured himself
gathering up a mountain of crumpled paper and heaving it out of the Sarumpaet
into the darkness below. If by chance some scrap went wafting through
into another world, he’d never even know that he’d succeeded.
He opened his eyes. "We launch all our paper planes at
once. Then we throw a message back, and use it to clear away all the
garbage."
Mariama sighed. "What are you ranting about?"
Tchicaya beamed at her. "We have a list of the kind of
states the region below us might be in, and we have strategies for
dealing with them all. But we still haven’t found a probe that will
cross through and return — giving us a definite answer, letting us know
which strategy to use. Fine. We put the Sarumpaet
into a superposition of states, in which it tries them all
simultaneously."
Mariama was speechless. It took Tchicaya several seconds
to interpret this response; he had rarely surprised her, and he had
certainly never shocked her before.
She said, "Who cares about quantum divergence, if one
world out of every quadrillion is the best of all possible worlds? That
sounds like some desperate fatalist nonsense from the last days before
the Qusp."
Tchicaya shook his head, laughing. "I know! But
it’s not! Answer me this: a quantum computer does a search
for the solution to an equation, testing a few trillion candidates
simultaneously. In how many worlds does it fail?"
Mariama scowled. "None, if there’s a solution at all. But
that’s different. The divergence is all internal and contained; it
doesn’t split the environment into branches halfway through the
calculation." A flicker of uncertainty crossed her face. "You don’t
think we could — "
Tchicaya said, "We’re not in the near side anymore.
Coherence is nowhere near as fragile here. Whatever this gulf is that
we’re facing, there’s no fundamental reason why we shouldn’t be able to
stretch a single quantum computer all the way across it. And if we
handle all the strategies with sufficient care, we ought to be able to
manipulate the whole coherent system so that the failures cancel out."
She nodded slowly, then broke into an astonished grin. "We reach out
and swallow the problem; we internalize it completely.
Then we can bludgeon our way through by trial and error, without the
world ever seeing a single mistake."
They spent three days refining the idea, thrashing out
the details with the toolkit and the ship. It was a complex maneuver,
and it would require precise control over the ship’s environment, both
before and after it crossed through the boundary. The toolkit had had
plenty of time to study the surrounding vendeks, and it understood the
physics of this obscure cul-de-sac as thoroughly
as that of the near-side vacuum itself. The second half of the problem
could not be dealt with by direct observation, but that didn’t mean
they’d be taking a leap into the dark. Each strategy for making the
crossing relied on a set of assumptions about the other side. Once they
put the ship into a superposition of strategies, each component would
know the kind of place it would end up in, if it ended up anywhere at
all.
Tchicaya snapped awake, knowing the reason instantly.
He’d been summoned to alertness by the tug of a trip wire that he’d
installed, back on the near side, when he’d worked with the toolkit to
construct a software container to sit between their minds and the raw
quantum gates of the ship’s processor.
Mariama was seated a short distance away, gazing out into
the vendek cell. Tchicaya said, "Do you want to tell me what you’re
doing?"
She turned to him, frowning slightly. "Just rearranging a
few things internally. I didn’t realize I had so little privacy."
"I own this whole setup," he said. "You knew that when
you came into it."
Mariama spread her arms. "Fine. Rummage through my
memories; see if I care."
Tchicaya sat up on the edge of the bed. "What were you
trying to expel into the environment?" At the border of the simulated
Qusp in which her mind was cocooned, he’d replaced some of the more
arcane facilities of the standard hardware — things she’d have no good
reason to want to use, under the circumstances — with fakes that merely
rang alarm bells. It had been a last-minute decision; the toolkit would
have happily simulated the Qusp in its entirety, as the simplest means
of guaranteeing that everything worked smoothly when it was piped
through.
"Nothing," she said. "It was a mistake. I didn’t even
realize you’d put me in a cage, so I brshed against the bars by
accident." She waved a hand at him irritably. "Go back to sleep."
He rose to his feet. "Are you going to tell me, or am I
going to have to look for myself?" In an ordinary Qusp, the owner of
the hardware could freeze the whole program and inspect its state at
leisure. But the quantum gates here were implemented at too low a
level; there was no room for that approach. All he could do was send in
a swarm of utility algorithms to search for anything suspicious, while
shuffling her working mind aside. That would do no lasting damage, but
he had no idea how she would experience it. It could be extremely
unpleasant.
Mariama regarded him calmly. "You do whatever you think
you have to. I’ve already been flayed once."
Tchicaya hesitated. He did not want to hurt her, and if
he was wrong, he’d never be able to look her in the eye again. There
had to be another way to call her bluff.
"There’s no need," he said. "I know exactly what you were
trying to do." He wasn’t certain of anything, but of all the
possibilities he could imagine, one stood out sharply.
"Really? Do you want to enlighten me?"
"You brought in a stock of qubits entangled with the near
side. You had to get rid of them now, or they would have shown up
tomorrow when we prepared the ship." Anything that interacted with an
entangled qubit would have its phase irretrievably scrambled. To a pure
quantum system they’d be poison. They’d have to be carefully isolated,
locked away somewhere inside her mind.
"You’re right," she admitted. The expression on her face
barely changed, as if this amounted to a minor clarification of her
original story. "But I wasn’t trying to use them. I was trying to get
rid of them."
"Why don’t you use them right now? Kill us both, right
now?" However many she was carrying, she could not have imagined they’d
be enough to do real harm to the far side. So the poison could only
have had one target.
"I don’t want to do that, Tchicaya. I want to go with
you. Deeper in. As far as we can."
"Why?" Why had she dragged him down
here at all? To give his version at the border an excuse to give up?
Once he was also deep in the far side, battling the Planck worms like a
valiant Lilliputian, it would be far easier to feel that he’d done all
he could.
"To see what’s there," she said. "To help protect it, if
it’s worth it."
"And help destroy it, if it isn’t?"
"I never lied about that," she insisted. "I never told
you that I’d fight for some exotic wasteland, over the lives of real
people."
That was true. She’d told him exactly what she believed,
and he’d still wanted her beside him.
Tchicaya sagged to his knees. He had the means to kill
her, or to leave her behind for the Planck worms. The ship’s processor
would do whatever he asked. But nothing she had done was unforgivable.
In her place, fighting for the same stakes, he would have lied, too,
armed himself, too. How could he accuse her of betraying anything? For
all he knew, if they’d taken different turns the last time they’d
parted, they might have ended up in each other’s shoes.
She walked up to him and cradled his head in her arms. "I’ll get rid
of them now," she said. "Will you let me do that?"
Tchicaya nodded. She took him by the hands and lifted him
up. He constucted a safe route through the processor, and she ejected
the tainted qubits, forming a tiny bubble of classical physics in the
vendeks' quantum sea.
The toolkit completed its preparations for the Sarumpaet's
second launch. In principle, this was just another quantum computation,
no different from the commonplace operation of turning a string of
zeros into a superposition of every possible binary number of the same
length. Treating the entire ship as an operand, though, meant expanding
the infrastructure that performed the computation far beyond the
original hull, wrapping the Sarumpaet in a second
computer. This processor would rotate the part of the ship’s state
vector that described the propulsion system, giving it a small
component in each of more than a quadrillion orthogonal directions.
Then it would release the resulting superposition into the depths of
the far side, and wait for the reply that would enable it to erase all
its failures.
The scape made no attempt to portray the actual machinery
in which they were embedded; an opaque shield moved into place around
the hull, representing the fact that they’d ceased to exchange
information with their surroundings.
The toolkit began a countdown from twenty.
"Give me liberty, and/or death," Mariama quipped.
Tchicaya said, "I’ll be happier when we can drop the and." He was
more afraid of the possibility of a single success,
diluted a quadrillion-fold, than he was of universal failure. "I don’t
know if I should wish you a peaceful local death. Does this count, or
doesn’t it?"
"Only if none of the strategies work."
"Then I won’t say anything."
The toolkit said, "Zero."
Chapter 16
Tchicaya looked down through the panes in the floor into
a borderless expanse of pale brightness, stretching out beneath the Sarumpaet
like an inverted sky.
He turned to Mariama, relieved but confused. "That’s it?
It’s over already?" The ship would not have sent out probes to explore
their surroundings until the handshake across the boundary was
completed.
The toolkit said, "No. The light represents
information-bearing vendeks with which we’ve interacted, inadvertently.
I’m afraid the shielding we emerged with was a bad choice; I’ve found
something that works now, but they managed to crawl all over us first."
Tchicaya was horrified. "Catch them!"
"I’m trying. I’m weaving a net."
"Trying? You useless fucking machine!"
Mariama reached over and took him by the shoulders. "Calm
down! We programmed a response to something like this, and it’s all
happening, as fast as it can. There’s nothing more to be done."
When they signaled back through the boundary to
consolidate their success, the Sarumpaet needed to
be a complete quantum system, not part of something larger that
included vendeks fleeing through the far side. The entire maneuver
depended on it. If they could not catch the vendeks, their presence
would become an insignificant statistical fluke: for every branch in
which they’d succeeded, there’d be a quadrillion in which they’d
vanished from the picture entirely.
"We should have covered this," he said. "We should have
covered every eventuality."
"Covered it how?" Mariama retorted. "A superposition that
included different shielding on emergence would still have emerged with
the wrong shielding, some of the time. We were never going to banish
every conceivable problem in advance."
She was right. They’d done as much as they could to
prepare, and now they had no choice but to wait and see if the
situation could be salvaged.
The light began to fade, slowly. The toolkit had netted a
portion of the vendeks, trapping them in the structure it had woven and
erasing their correlations with the ship. The light was only a
metaphor; the task was not as hopeless as it would have been if they’d
exposed a quantum processor to a random bombardment with photons. It
was more like having a billion-piece jigsaw puzzle stolen by a swarm of
flying insects: difficult to reverse, but not impossible.
The sky beneath them turned gray, then pitch black.
The toolkit said, "That’s all of them."
"How can you be sure?" Tchicaya asked.
"I can’t be, absolutely, but all the subsystems that were
most likely to have been affected are displaying interference patterns
as sharp as they’ve ever produced in isolation. Unless the vendeks that
happened to escape also happened to interact with us in a way that
could mimic that result, we’re in a pure quantum state."
Tchicaya could live with that much doubt.
The toolkit understood the physics on both sides of the
boundary, now. As it exchanged information with the machinery that had
launched them, the state vector for the ship was rotated into an
eigenstate for a single strategy: the one that had succeeded. Give that
they’d launched themselves toward the boundary at all, the probability
that they’d failed to come through was zero.
Mariama exhaled heavily. "I think that’s the strangest
thing I’ve ever been a part of." She held up her hands and inspected
them. "You know, I half-expected to feel the amplitude come flooding
into me. Moving from spine to fingertips, of course."
Tchicaya laughed, grateful that she’d found a way to
break the tension. "We should have programmed in an oscillating factor,
for that extra existential thrill." Not long after the Qusp had been
developed, people had played around with all manner of quantum
novelties, putting themselves into intentionally prolonged
superpositions inside their skulls. But there was nothing even mildly
strange to report about this: from the inside, each part of the state
vector that described your mind experiencing something definite simply had
that one, definite experience. Shuffling amplitude back and forth
between two alternatives before finally letting one of them interact
with the world could not be "sensed" as some kind of ontological ebb
and flow.
As the shielding was removed from the hull, the bright
expanse of vendeks reappeared beneath them. The inner workings of the
ship still needed to be protected, just like the interior of any Qusp,
but they could now live with the equivalent of sunlight on their faces.
Sunlight, or a swarm of gnats. The Sarumpaet would
keep sending out probes, but in this region some information would come
to them for free.
"What now?" Mariama asked.
Tchicaya looked up at the bottom of the honeycomb; it
appeared as black and fathomless here as it had from the other side. It
would hold back the Planck worms for a while, but it would be hoping
for too much to assume that they’d all dash lemminglike into oblivion.
"We need to find out how deep this region goes, and exactly what it
contains. Maybe we can build some kind of firebreak here, something
that will stop the Planck worms once and for all."
They descended through the Bright as fast as they could,
but their progress was erratic. The number of different vendeks here
was thousands of times greater than in any cell of the honeycomb, and
though there were no abrupt transitions, the environment was constantly
changing. Currents of different physics flowed around them as the
vendeks intermingled in new proportions and combinations. Umrao had
largely anticipated the structures in the honeycomb, but these strange
tides would probably have been too complex to show up in his
simulations. Tchicaya could not decide if this place would be more
hostile or more amenable to higher forms of life: the vastly greater
diversity of the vendeks made it seem richer, but the honeycomb cells
had offered a kind of stability that was entirely absent here.
The scape showed nothing beneath the ship but a distant
haze, constantly retreating. The information-bearing vendeks — which
Mariama dubbed sprites — seemed to pass intact through all the changing
conditions, but they were refracted and scattered to varying degrees,
so the visibility they provided was limited. The Sarumpaet's
artificial probes became lost in the currents even sooner; beyond about
half a micron, only a tiny fraction managed to return.
It was impossible to guess how deep this region might be.
Though the border was advancing through the near side relentlessly at
half the speed of light, the precise meaning of this for the far side
remained unclear. Viewed from either side, the border itself had to be
expanding in a consistent fashion, but that left open the question of
whether all, or most, structures in the far side sat motionless while
the edge of their universe rocketed away from them, or whether the
relationship was more like that of the cosmic expansion of the near
side, where relative velocities grew slowly with distance. The
honeycomb was certainly clinging to the border, but that was not a good
enough reason to believe that everything else in the far side would be
following close behind. Sweeping principles of homogeneity were wishful
thining here.
There was something deeply restful about moving through
the Bright. With the scape’s fake gravity insulating them from the
ship’s actual, bumpy passage, the Sarumpaet might
have been a glass gondola hanging from an invisible hot air balloon,
drifting through a planetary atmosphere after a volcanic eruption had
shrouded the world in dust. Although there was nothing to see but the
shimmering of the sprites, Tchicaya resisted the lure of Slowdown, and
instead of retreating into virtual landscapes from their memories, they
sat and talked about their travels. Mariama described the renaissance
on Har’El, the excitement of the changes that had percolated up from
nowhere. Tchicaya told her more about Pachner, and the similar vitality
he’d seen at the approach of the border.
They were beyond arguing, beyond accusing, beyond holding
up each other’s earlier ideals as some standard against which they’d
fallen. They had seen different things, lived different lives, and they
had allowed it to change them. All they could do now was keep on
climbing Schild’s ladder.
Five tranquil days into the Bright, just as Tchicaya was
beginning to fear that they risked being lulled into an irreversible
torpor, they spotted a small, translucent structure drifting by at a
leisurely pace. The sprites that the object modified and deflected
reached them long before the ship’s probes could journey out to form
their own impression, and for nearly an hour it was not at all clear
that this was anything more than an unusually stable and localized
feature of the shifting currents. The sprite-image looked like an eddy
of some kind, and if no circulating winds could be detected brushing
across the Sarumpaet as it approached, the rules
governing vendek flows didn’t bear much resemblance to fluid dynamics.
Once they were close enough, the probes gave a more
detailed picture. There were veins and pockets of vendeks inside the
eddy that were like nothing they’d seen floating free here. Some of the
mixes were similar to honeycomb populations; others were different
again.
They tracked the thing for hours, and watched it
negotiate the currents. As the free vendeks flowed over it and through
it, the interior structures deformed wildly; these were not the kind of
breezes that could stir a few leaves, they were shifts in the
fundamental dynamic laws. Some species of interior vendeks died before
their eyes; others seemed to be leached out, carried off into the wind.
It was like witnessing an animal being sandblasted with bacteria and
assorted foreign cells, fighting off some, incorporating others,
surrendering whole lineages of its own. Twisting and reeling beneath
the onslaught, but all the while continuing to function.
After eight hours of watching these feats of persistence,
with neither of them willing to put it into words, Mariama finally
declared, "This has to be alive. This is our first xennobe."
Tchicaya agreed. "What do you want to call it?"
"I named the sprites," she said. "It’s your turn."
The internal structures that the probe revealed looked
like knots of offal caught in a tornado, but not many creatures were
beautiful to behold once you dug that deep. The sprites' gentler
scrutiny gave an impression of something woven from the winds.
"An airflower."
Mariama was amused, but she didn’t object. If the Bright
was not actually much like air, nor did anything here lie within reach
of one-word descriptions in near-side language.
They continued to follow the airflower, though it was
drifting upward, back toward the honeycomb. The toolkit ventured no
opinion on the question of whether or not this system was alive, but
its observations had already yielded dozens of new methods for easing
the Sarumpaet's way through the currents of the
Bright.
"Could it be sentient?" Mariama wondered. The airflower
had shown no obvious reaction to their presence, but it wasn’t actively
probing its environment, and the ship was a fraction of its size. The
tiny distortion in the sprite flow around the Sarumpaet's
hull would barely be distinguishable from the background shimmer.
Before crossing the border, they’d planned to initiate
contact with the builders of the signaling layer by a simple act of
mimicry: scribing a layer of vendeks of their own which beat out the
same sequence of primes. Back in the honeycomb, that would have been
straightforward; here, it would have been like trying to communicate by
waving a white silk banner in a blizzard.
They consulted with the toolkit, and eventually settled
on a reasonable compromise. They unfurled a sturdier kind of banner,
flexible enough to cope with the vendek flows. Its precise geometry
remained prey to the weather, but instead of encoding anything in its
position, its degree of transparency to the sprites flickered between
two states, flashing out the primes like a shutter held up to the light.
The airflower drifted on, apparently indifferent to the
signal. They could only guess as to how it might pursue a conversation
with its own kind, but if this creature had constructed the signaling
layer in the alien environment of the far side’s shallows — with the
intention that it be noticed by beings from an even stranger realm — why
would it remain oblivious to a version of the same message suddenly
appearing in front of it?
It was possible that it was completely blind to the
sprites. They seemed like the obvious basis for perception here, but
the airflowers might have evolved before them. If that was the case, it
could take months of painstaking work to discover the creature’s actual
sensory modalities.
Tchicaya had asked the toolkit to run simulations of the
known species of Planck worms interacting with the bottom of the
honeycomb, and as he pondered his next move, the verdict arrived. By
sheer force of numbers, the worms would almost certainly stumble upon
the necessary mutations to find their way through. Once they managed
that, they’d bring the near-side vacuum into play against the Bright,
unraveling the intricate tapestry of vendeks into isolated deserts of
homogeneous physics.
The toolkit had found no certain way to prevent this, but
it was studying one possibility. It looked as if it might be feasible
to transform the whole region into a kind of tar pit, deep enough to
trap and drown every last species of Planck worm. The worms acted as
conduits for correlations with the vacuum, but not every interaction
with them induced decoherence. The honeycomb vendeks had made short
work of some of the earlier would-be invaders, and a sufficiently
diverse mixture of vendeks, tailor-made for the purpose, would have a
chance of dealing with the entire current wave in the same fashion.
Along with every native inhabitant of the Bright.
"Would you sacrifice all of this," he asked Mariama, "to
save whatever lies beneath it?"
She said, "Ask me that again when we know ten times more."
Tchicaya shook his head. "That’s always going to be the
right answer. Until it’s too late for anything we do to make a
difference." The toolkit’s simulation was riddled with uncertainties,
but to the extent that the risk could be quantified at all, within a
few ship days it would cease to be insignificant.
"Don’t be so pessimistic," she countered. "Don’t assume
that we’re going to have to choose between utter recklessness and some
paralyzing quest for perfect knowledge."
"Perfect knowledge? There could be a billion times as
many sentient beings beneath us as the rest of the galaxy has ever
contained, or we might already be looking at the pinnacle of far-side
life — which might be a miracle of xennobiology but dumb as a cactus, or
might be conscious in ways we’re too stupid and parochial to fathom.
How do you cope with that kind of ignorance?" Dwelling on it was enough
to make his faithfully simulated body sick to the stomach. Part of him
screamed that the only thing to do in the face of such barely
comprehensible stakes was to bow out, to withdraw from any possibility
of intervention — as if showing the appropriate humility was more
important than the outcome.
But Mariama refused to be cowed by the gravity of the
situation. "We keep exploring," she insisted. "We keep narrowing the
gap between what we know and what we need to know."
"What I need to know is when we have no choice but to
stop gathering information and make a stand."
Tchicaya gazed into the strange machinery of the
airflower. This creature was a thousand times more sophisticated than
anything that had been found away from Earth before, but if the
signaling layer was an artifact at all, he did not believe that he was
looking at its maker.
He said, "We need to go deeper."
With the refinements to its hull, the Sarumpaet
traveled faster. For half a day they were alone in the Bright again,
but then they began to spot more of the airflowers. The sightings
became more frequent as they descended; at first they were seeing one
or two an hour, but it soon reached the point where half a dozen were
always in view.
Mariama suggested that they try to follow the path of the
migration back to its source. "That could lead nowhere, but it’s the
only clue we’ve got as to where other life might be concentrated."
This made sense to Tchicaya. They moved the ship closer
to the airflowers, and descended along the sparse trail.
Within an hour, the creatures were crowded around the Sarumpaet
like coral spawn. When the toolkit probed the Bright itself, it
appeared that the airflowers had latched on to a particularly stable
current of vendeks; if this broke apart higher up, the specimens they’d
encountered earlier might have pursued it as far as it went, and then
scattered. The current was useless for transportation — you couldn’t
ride
it like a thermal updraft, in a world without conservation of
momentum — but whether the airflowers were using it as a navigation aid,
as a feature to congregate around for breeding purposes, or merely as
something to graze upon was impossible to say. The vendeks certainly
diffused into the airflowers' bodies, but they still might have been
anything from valuable symbionts, sought out by their hosts, to
burdensome parasites that came with the territory.
"Can vendeks ever really be prey?" Tchicaya wondered. "They’re the
smallest stable objects, so there’s no point seeking them
out just to break them down into their constituent parts."
Mariama said, "There are no subunits that you can extract
from them and treat as nutrients — nothing analogous to vitamins or
amino
acids — so when you eat for the sake of eating, you’re infecting
yourself. All food works like yogurt. But that doesn’t mean that the
only reason to seek out a particular kind of vendek would be to give it
a new home. Nothing that crosses your path is going to move aside for
you automatically here, so you have no choice but to convert whatever
you encounter into a part of yourself. Sometimes the vendeks around you
can be incorporated unchanged, but other times you need to have your
own tame vendeks invade the graph ahead of you, chewing up whatever’s
there as they propagate through — in which case, you want them to be
taking on adversaries that they can conquer easily, even if you’re not
planning to pillage the corpses for specific spare parts. Whether you
call that predation or not is a moot point." She smiled. "Assuming that
all this talk about larger organisms makes sense at all, and we’re not
just watching a few vendeks traveling in packs, lording it over the
rest."
"I wish you hadn’t said that." Tchicaya already found it
eerie enough contemplating the identity of these xennobes. Humans had
been nothing but a colony of specialized cells, but at least those
cells had all been related to each other, and subdued to the point
where they could pursue a common genetic goal. In the airflowers, there
seemed to be as many vendeks plucked into service from the surroundings
as there were specialized ones that appeared only in the creatures'
tissues.
"What’s that?" Mariama had spotted something through the
floor. She gestured impatiently to the scape, transforming the
checkerboard beneath their feet into a completely transparent surface.
A dark shape was spiraling up around the column of
airflowers, a sprite-shadow that the probes were yet to fill in.
Seconds later, it began to take on details, the colors shifting wildly
as the scape improvised palettes to encode the information, then judged
them inadequate and started again from scratch.
The probe image showed a dense, branched network of tubes
filled with specialized vendeks, cloaked in a more complex version of
the eddies that wrapped the airflowers. The tube walls were layer
populations, but they extended fine tendrils out into the trapped
currents of the Bright. Controlling them? Feeding off them? The scape
was unable to track all the dynamics; too much was happening for the
probes to capture it all, and many of them were being captured
themselves, lost among the vendeks they’d been sent to map.
The new xennobe was ten or twelve times larger than a
typical airflower. As it soared past the Sarumpaet,
Tchicaya instructed the ship to follow it. Going into reverse was
disturbingly easy; the only thing resembling inertia that the ship
possessed was the precise distribution of the hull vendeks that chewed
their way through the Bright.
When they caught up with the xennobe, it was circling the
airflowers closely, moving in on one target. As it struck, the probes
showed the two cloaks of entrained Bright vendeks merging; it was
impossible to tell if the airflower’s covering had been stripped away
or whether the creature pursuing it had deliberately exposed its own
inner organs. As the process continued, though, neither party remained
shielded from the other. Veins became entangled, endogenous vendeks
flowed between the two. The airflower had made no attempt to flee, so
it was either insensate, too slow, or a willing participant in the
exchange.
Tchicaya said, "I don’t know if I’m watching a wolf
tearing open a lamb’s throat, or a hummingbird drinking nectar."
"It might even be sex," Mariama suggested.
"Urk. I’ve heard of dimorphism, but that would be
ridiculous. Besides, what are the gametes they’re meant to be
exchanging?"
"Who said anything about gametes? The mix of specialized
vendeks inside the xennobes must control all their morphology. Animals
share beneficial symbionts with each other, and pass them on to their
young — but in this case, there’s nothing else to pass on. Instead of
having a genome, your heritable traits are defined by a unique blend of
gut flora."
When the larger xennobe moved away from the airflower to
which it had attached itself, and the remnant disintegrated into random
currents in the Bright, Tchicaya said, "Wolf and lamb it is — or maybe
rabbit and lettuce. And don’t start reminding me about male spiders
that die after mating; if there’s no genome and no gametes, why call
one creature a sexual partner of another, when at most it’s really just
a specialized dietary supplement?"
Mariama conceded the point, begrudgingly. "So do we
follow the rabbit?" It had moved up along the column, outpacing the
airflowers, apparently finicky about its next choice of meal.
Tchicaya glanced after it, then he looked down along the
plume of airflowers vanishing into the haze. As much as anything, he
wanted to know where the Bright ended. "Follow the food chain to the
top of the pyramid? Or is that just naive?"
"There’s no energy here," Mariama mused, "but there might
be a hierarchy of concentrations of the most useful vendeks. Maybe
airflowers strain some valuable species from the winds, or make them
for themselves, and everyone else steals them from each other."
"Or goes straight to the airflowers. The Signalers could
be herbivores, not rabbit hunters."
"That’s true."
Tchicaya sent the ship in pursuit of the rabbit. When
they finally caught it between meals, he unfurled the signaling device.
The rabbit froze in midflight. When the sequence was
completed, it remained motionless.
Tchicaya waited hopefully for some kind of response. "Do
you think we’ve frightened it?"
"It might just be wondering how to reply," Mariama
suggested. "Some encounters must put you on the spot, even when you’re
half-expecting them. Like your father, cornered by anachronauts."
"I hope it’s not trying to decide how to Mead us. But why
would it need to lie, when it knows nothing about our expectations?"
"Maybe the airflowers are sentient, too," she joked, "and
we caught it doing something that it senses we might not entirely
approve of."
After fifteen minutes with no change, Mariama suggested
repeating the sequence. Tchicaya started the banner flickering again.
The probes showed a series of topological changes
spreading rapidly through the rabbit’s plumbing. The process was too
fast to follow in detail, but it culminated in the release of a rich
brew of vendeks from deep within the rabbit’s body. Most of the
discharge flowed over the banner, but the portion that reached the Sarumpaet's
hull worked its way all around the ship, blocking out probes and
sprites alike. The last thing the scape portrayed was the rabbit
fleeing into the Bright.
Tchicaya addressed the toolkit. "What’s happening? Is the
hull intact?"
"It hasn’t been breached, but it’s not going to take us
anywhere for a while. The foreign mixture has invaded a short distance,
but it’s not aggressively replicating or advancing."
"Can’t you tweak the hull vendeks to break through?"
"I’m looking for ways to do that, but this mixture seems
to have been optimized to make the problem as difficult as possible."
Mariama started laughing. "This is what you get for
flashing your Rosetta stone at randomly chosen strangers. They glue you
to the spot and run away."
"Do you really think that was more than a frightened
animal?"
She shrugged. "Wouldn’t it be wonderful if it was a shy
cousin of the Signalers, out plucking fruit, who’ll run home and tell
the rest of the clan to come and take a look? But you’re right; it was
probably just a squid spraying ink in our faces."
They waited for the toolkit to find a way out. If the
situation became desperate they could always try the superposition
trick again, but the fact that they were hemmed in on all sides would
complicate the maneuver: they’d have to leave part of the ship behind
to clean up the failures of the part that escaped.
After almost two hours, the toolkit spoke. "We should be
free soon."
Tchicaya was relieved. "You found vendeks for the hull
that could invade through the glue?"
"No, but the weather is doing the job for us, from the
outside. The glue is moderately stable, but it’s not taking any kind of
action to remain impervious to changing conditions in the Bright."
Mariama made a sound that was equal parts delight at this
revelation, and disgust at her own slowness. "Of course! Anything
static is doomed here. Stable mixtures of vendeks can endure for a
while, but in the long run you need all the flexibility and
organizational powers of a higher organism, just to keep up with the
Bright. An entire xennobe might have managed to cling on to us
indefinitely, but it would be a bit much to have to give birth to a
dedicated assassin every time someone frightens you."
Tchicaya nodded appreciatively. "That must make
technology difficult to get started. Vendeks are the material from
which everything is made, so all engineering is bioengineering, but you
probably couldn’t expect any artifact less sophisticated than the most
primitive xennobe to survive for long."
A crack of sprite-light appeared through the glue.
Mariama sighed wistfully and leaned against him, wrapping an arm around
his neck. It was the kind of unself-conscious physicality she’d often
displayed when they were very young, before they’d even heard of sex.
She said, "Don’t you wish we could have come here with
nothing to do but understand this place?"
"Yes." Tchicaya felt no desire whatsoever to add a retort
about her old allegiances. The factions belonged to another universe.
"For a thousand years."
"Yes." He put his arm across her shoulders.
Mariama turned to him. "Can I ask you something?"
"Sure."
"Do you think you would have traveled to the Rindler
at all, if it wasn’t for the power station?"
"I don’t know. I can’t answer that."
"But you still feel bad about it?"
Tchicaya laughed curtly. "It’s not relentless crushing
guilt, if that’s what you mean. But I knew it was wrong, even when I
did it, and I haven’t changed my mind about that."
She said, "You know, I actually expected you to be
grateful, because you got what you wanted. That’s the last time I made
that mistake with anyone."
"I bet it was. Ouch!" She’d punched him on the arm.
"But you just blamed me for everything, because I didn’t
fight hard enough against you."
"I didn’t blame you," he protested.
Mariama gazed back at him neutrally.
Tchicaya said, "All right, I did. That was unfair."
"You made me feel like a murderer," she said. "I was just
a child, the same as you."
"I’m sorry." Tchicaya searched her face. "I didn’t know
it still — "
She cut him off. "It doesn’t. It doesn’t still hurt me.
It hadn’t even crossed my mind for centuries. And it had nothing to do
with me coming to the Rindler. I would have done
that anyway."
"Right."
They stood for a while without speaking.
Tchicaya said, "Is that it? Are we at peace now?"
Mariama smiled. "Not histrionic enough for you?"
"The less catharsis I can get these days, the better."
She’d smuggled in a weapon, she’d been prepared to kill him, and they’d
still found a way to go on. But it had taken them until now to speak a
few words and untangle the oldest, simplest knot.
"I think we’re at peace," she said.
They continued down along the airflowers' crowded
highway. Eventually the creatures began to thin out; presumably the Sarumpaet
was approaching the bottom of the vendek current that had attracted
them in the first place — or at least the end of the weather conditions
that rendered the current detectable from afar.
After the last airflower had disappeared into the haze
above them, they tracked the current itself for another hour. When it
finally came to an end, there was nothing. Just the Bright itself,
empty and shimmering.
Mariama said, "I don’t believe it! A river like that
can’t appear out of nowhere."
"We haven’t seen any other currents as long," Tchicaya
said cautiously. "But what does that prove? We don’t know the limits of
ordinary weather."
"I suppose some vendek mixes are just stable because
they’re stable," she conceded. "But xennobes have particular uses for
stable combinations. I was expecting at least a pile of decaying
xennobe corpses."
They circled around, examining the region with the
probes. There was another persistent current, feeding into the first;
it hadn’t been obvious immediately, because the transition zone between
them was far less orderly than the currents themselves. The vendek mix
in the deeper current appeared to be decaying into the mix that had
attracted the airflowers, catalyzed by a shift in the ambient weather;
as they watched the probe image, they could see the transition zone
drifting back and forth.
Tchicaya said, "Well, it’s coming from deeper in. And I’m
not going back up to try chasing rabbits."
They followed the river back toward its source. Within an
hour, they’d hit a second transition zone — this time forking into two
different upward flows.
A third transition.
A fourth.
Mariama said, "At least we’re learning a lot of
vendekobiology. Can you imagine the kind of diagrams it would take to
describe the Bright? I used to think the fusion reactions in a star
were complicated."
"Students will curse our names. What more can anyone hope
for?"
A fifth transition.
A sixth. Here, the current was flowing down to them,
making a U-turn. If they were going to trace it to its origin, they
would have to travel an unknown distance back toward the honeycomb.
Tchicaya was torn. They didn’t know if this was an
offshoot of a mighty river, the backbone to an entire xennobe ecology,
or just a meaningless cobweb drifting through the Bright. They could
end up chasing it back and forth, like a cat stalking a feather, until
the Planck worms came raining down.
"If we don’t spot another xennobe before the next
transition, that will be the last," he declared.
Mariama concurred, reluctantly.
They stood together, staring into the haze. Tchicaya
could think of no other strategy, once they abandoned this thread, than
plunging straight down, hoping at least to hit bottom soon, yielding a
purely physical measure of how much territory they’d be sacrificing if
they built the tar pit for the Planck worms.
And if they never hit bottom, if the Bright went on
forever? Then there’d be nothing they could do, nothing they could save.
Mariama said, "That’s a sprite-shadow, isn’t it? It’s not
just haze."
"Where?"
She pointed. Tchicaya could see a tiny gray distortion in
the light. "If it’s another airflower, that doesn’t count."
The shadow grew, but the probes were still not reaching
it. The object was much further away than they’d realized, and it was
definitely not an airflower.
Tchicaya would have abandoned the vendek current to go
after this new find, but the current itself was leading them straight
to it. This, ultimately, was the source of the
vendeks on which the airflowers had been feeding. And its sprite-shadow
kept looming larger, while the probes remained oblivious to it.
Mariama said, "If this is a single organism, we’ve just
gone from rabbits to whales. I thought the current must have come from
necrotic decay, but this is so huge it wouldn’t need to be mortally
wounded; it could urinate a river."
The flickering outline of the shadow was roughly
circular. "I don’t think it’s one creature," Tchicaya said. "I think
we’ve found an oasis in the desert."
The shadow now dominated the view completely, a sight as
overwhelming as the border from Pachner, but its exact form remained
elusive. "We have to get those probes to go faster," Mariama complained.
A tiny patch of color and detail appeared suddenly at the
center of the object, spreading slowly through the grayness. The
framing effect was confusing; Tchicaya found it harder than ever to
interpret the probe image. Things that might have been xennobes were
moving around on a roughly spherical surface; the scape labeled them as
being hundreds of times larger than the rabbits, but they looked like
mites crawling over an elephant. The scale of the structure was
extraordinary; if an airflower was the size of a daisy, this was a
floating mountain, an asteroid.
The window of detail grew, revealing thousands of
xennobes streaming about below them — the alignment of the Sarumpaet's
deck still made "down" point to the center of the far side, but it was
impossible not to grant this minor planet precedence — and that was just
the surface. Some xennobes were coming and going from the mouths of
tunnels leading into hidden depths. As yet, the probes were spread too
thinly to report on the new xennobes' anatomy in any detail, and like
the others, their forms swayed wildly in the winds that wrapped around
them, merging with their bodies. Yet some system at the core of each
xennobe retained its integrity through all the changes sweeping over
it, and the same organizational information was endlessly reencoded,
endlessly preserved.
As the probe image spread out to encompass the entire
colony, Tchicaya’s heart leaped. He struggled to temper his excitement.
His intuition didn’t count for much here, and everything he was
witnessing was constantly deforming, as if the whole vision was a
reflection in liquid metal. He couldn’t even pin down the source of his
conviction, the one regularity in all the busyness beneath them that
struck him as the signature of artifice over nature. But all technology
would be built from nature, here. Nothing entirely lifeless could
endure.
He turned to Mariama. "This is not an oasis. It’s not a
jungle. We’ve found the Signalers. This is their city."
Chapter 17
The Sarumpaet circumnavigated the
xennobe colony, reconnoitering, apparently unnoticed. Tchicaya kept the
density of the probes low, lest the rain of inquisitive devices cross
the threshold of perception — or some more sensitive, artificial means
of
detection — and alarm the denizens. He had no urgent need to study these
creatures' internal anatomy, and the details of the colony itself were
overwhelming enough.
Veins and bladders and sheets composed of thousands of
different vendek populations defined the structure, separated by an
intricate warren of tunnels through which the free vendeks of the
Bright continued to pass. The probes identified changes in the winds as
they flowed through the colony; specialized vendeks were diffusing out
of a multitude of reservoirs and modifying the raw weather, killing off
some species, supplanting them directly, or interacting with them to
create new variants. To Tchicaya, this looked exactly like
air-conditioning for physics: the Colonists could probably cope with
all but the most extreme natural changes in their environment, but it
made sense that they’d find it less stressful to delegate some of their
homeostatic efforts to their technology.
Hundreds of vendek currents snaked out of the colony,
presumably waste products from both the thing itself and its
inhabitants. A few were so stable that they completely resisted the
passage of both probes and sprites, and they appeared in the scape as
gnarled black roots twisting away into the distance.
Tchicaya saw nothing to dissuade him from his earlier
conclusion, though everything was open to alternative interpretations.
Termite mounds had air-conditioning, ants had mastered agriculture, and
the Colonists might not have needed to expend even as much effort as
social insects to bring their home into existence; it was possible that
they were mere symbionts, mindlessly tending some giant natural
organism. Mariama remained cautious, but she did not choose to play
devil’s advocate. They both had the same hopes now, and they both knew
how easily they could be dashed.
They spent half a day debating the level of caution they
needed to exercise. Whether these xennobes were the Signalers or not,
they were likely to have far more potent defenses than the rabbit. It
would be difficult to supervise any kind of complex interaction from
too great a distance, though; if they hung back in their present orbit
and sent down a drone, it would need to be largely autonomous.
The plan they finally settled upon was to send in a
mobile form of their signaling banner, as large and obvious as they
could make it, while following behind at a prudent distance. If the
reception was violent, the tiny sprite-shadow of the Sarumpaet
would be the less likely target.
If their mimicry of the signaling layer produced a
promising reaction, they would move on to more complex exchanges,
playing it by ear, hoping that the banner itself would prompt their
hosts to respond in kind. Nothing the probes had revealed had offered
any clues about the Colonists' preferred mode of interpersonal
communication; sprites and other potential information-carriers flooded
the colony, but plucking messages in an unknown language from all the
influences modulating these carriers was beyond the standard Mediator
software they’d brought through the border. Given time, Tchicaya would
have happily observed the Colonists from a distance until everything
about them, right down to the subtlest cultural nuance, was absolutely
clear. He and Mariama could have descended from the sky expecting
compliments on their perfect local accents and unprecedented good
manners, like a pair of conscientious travelers.
It was not going to happen that way. The coming of the
Planck worms would be unheralded, but the five percent error bars of
the toolkit’s best statistical guess had already been crossed. If the
sky rained poison right now, as they rushed through their rudimentary
preparations, they would not even have the bitter consolation of
knowing that they’d been ambushed by unforeseeable events.
They’d reached the end game, ready or not. They’d have to
walk a knife edge between recklessness and caution, but they could not
afford to take a single step back.
The signaling banner spiraled down toward the colony,
twisting and fluttering like an airborne tent in a hurricane, but
pulsing steadily from translucent to opaque. The Sarumpaet
followed, close enough to maintain a probe image of the banner that was
only a fraction of a ship-second out of date. The probes could also
ferry instructions from the ship to the banner, enabling the signal to
be modified on a similar time scale as soon as the need arose.
From the deck of the Sarumpaet,
Tchicaya formed a rapid series of impressions of the crowded world
below, none of which he believed was worth trusting. The density and
animation of the creatures made him think of the bustle of markets of
festivals, of riots. Of the crew of some ancient, oceangoing vessel
battling a storm. In fact, all this violent swaying in the wind was
probably about as exciting for the Colonists as a terrestrial animal’s
endlessly beating heart. For all he knew, this was what they looked
like at their most indolent.
He searched for any hint of a flickering shadow from the
banner on the surface below, but between the shimmering of the sprites
and the erratic geometry of all the objects involved, that was too much
to expect. Perhaps it was fortunate that the nearsiders would not
arrive with anything like the drama of an artificial eclipse; even if
these xennobes did belong to the same species as the Signalers,
different cultures could still have varying degrees of sophistication,
and an overblown spectacle might have terrified a group for whom the
search for life beyond the border was a barely comprehensible endeavor,
something that only an obscure, deranged minority would even
contemplate.
On the other hand, since the banner had no significant
effect on the ground, it was possible that no one would even notice it.
It wasn’t clear that any of the Bright’s inhabitants focused the
sprites to form an image; the rabbit had been close enough to the
banner it attacked to sense its presence through a drop in overall
irradiation, like a chill on the skin. It made evolutionary sense to
expect all mobile xennobes to possess a detailed knowledge of their
surroundings, but a sufficiently unnatural object might still be as
invisible to them as a burst of neutrinos to a human.
The banner came to a halt at a predetermined altitude:
some twenty times the Colonists' typical body size. Tchicaya gazed down
at the crowd, wondering how he was going to distinguish panic from
indifference. The Colonists weren’t as shapeless as the airflowers;
their network of vendek tubes bifurcated twice to give four distinct
clusters of branches, and their geometry at any moment tended to
reflect this. They looked like medical scans of the circulatory system
of some headless quadruped, dog-paddling ineffectually in extremely
rough seas. But if that intrusive probe image was unlikely to reflect
the way they saw each other, by sprites alone they resembled tortured,
mutilated ghosts, trying to break through into the world of the living.
Mariama said, "I think it’s been noticed."
"Where?"
She pointed; a group of six Colonists had left the
surface. As Tchicaya watched, they ascended rapidly, but as they grew
nearer to the banner they slowed considerably. This cautious interest
was not proof of anything, but it was an encouraging sign.
The Colonists surrounded the device, then began spraying
it with a delicate mist of vendeks. "That’s cooperative sensing!"
Mariama exclaimed. "One of them illuminates the object, the other looks
at the transmitted pattern."
"I think you’re right." The group was arranged in pairs
on either side of the banner, and the members of each pair took turns
emitting the vendeks. The probes hadn’t encountered this species of
vendek before; perhaps nothing inside the colony warranted the same
kind of scrutiny as this alien object.
The Colonists retreated and formed a loose huddle away
from the banner. "What now?" Tchicaya wondered. "How do you react to a
mutated version of your own stratospheric beacon suddenly appearing on
your doorstep?"
Mariama said, "I just hope they realize they don’t need
to launch a new signaling layer in order to reply."
"Maybe we should try to make a more obvious proxy," he
suggested. "Something that resembles one of their bodies."
"How would we decide which features to include, and which
to leave out? We don’t even know the difference between their
communications signals and their waste products. We’d probably come up
with the equivalent of a glove puppet of a monkey that smelled exactly
like human excrement."
She had a point; even the six Colonists high above the
din — and/or stench — of the colony were now bathed in a confusing fog of
vendeks, and it was beyond the Sarumpaet's
resources to untangle their functions and meaning.
Tchicaya felt a sudden stab of pessimism. He believed
he’d finally reached the people he’d come to find — but he had days, at
most, not only to describe the Planck worms to them, but to reach a
level of communication and trust that would enable them to work
together to deal with the threat. However many subtleties,
abstractions, and courtesies he omitted along the way, even conveying
the core of the message was beginning to seem hopelessly ambitious.
He said, "Maybe we should change the signal right now,
instead of waiting for them to reply? Just to make it clear that the
banner’s not passive?"
Before Mariama could respond, the Colonists began
regrouping around the banner. In unison, they released a stream of
vendeks, denser than before; in the probe image, it looked as if the
six veined bodies were blowing soap films. The individual sheets met at
the edges and merged, forming a bubble, enclosing the banner.
The Colonists retreated again, then sprayed a new mixture
at the bubble. It began to drift after them, down toward the surface.
Mariama said, "They’ve grabbed it! They’re towing it!"
The wall of the bubble was passing sprites, but it
resisted the Sarumpaet's probes — the only means
they had to get instructions to the banner. They’d lost control of the
device completely, now; they couldn’t even reprogram its message, let
alone command it to try to break out of its cage.
"We could make another one," Tchicaya suggested. "Right
in front of their eyes."
"Why not see what they do with this one?"
"You think we should follow it?"
Mariama nodded. "They might release it from the
container, once they’ve got it where they want it. They might even have
their own signaling device down there."
Tchicaya was not convinced. "If they think it’s just a
message in a bottle, they’re not going to talk back to it. And if we
can’t regain control of it, the last place we want to try scribing a
new one is in the middle of some chamber down there."
"We’ll only find out what they think it is if we go after
it," Mariama replied. "Besides, we initiated contact with
this object. We should stick to that, follow through with
it, or we risk confusing them."
That did make sense. They had to be flexible, or they’d
end up chasing their preconceptions down a cul-de-sac,
but they also had to try to be consistent. Changing tack every time
they feared that they might have been misinterpreted could bury any
message beneath all the distracting shifts in strategy.
Tchicaya said, "All right, we’ll follow it!" He
instructed the Sarumpaet to pursue the purloined
banner.
As they descended, it finally struck him just how
extraordinary a sight they were witnessing. The banner was still
flashing out its programmed sequence from within its container; the
Colonists hadn’t damaged it at all. Towing
anything without destroying it, here, was a feat akin to putting a
tornado on a leash. There were no simple analogs of the notions of
pushing or pulling something, let alone any reason to expect it to
respond by moving as a whole — like a nice near-side object made from
atoms bonded together into a mildly elastic solid. You couldn’t even
rely on the local physics to permit something to
behave, in uniform motion, as it had when it was stationary, however
gently you conveyed it from one state to the other.
He turned to Mariama. "This is proof, isn’t it? They have
to be more than animals, to be able to move it like that."
Mariama hesitated, no doubt pondering the evolutionary
advantages of a delicate touch when kidnapping other species of xennobe
to fill with your parasitic young.
But she said, "I think you’re right. I’ve been giving
them the benefit of the doubt until now, but I think they’ve finally
earned it."
The six Colonists touched down on the surface and
proceeded along a narrow path that opened up in the throng ahead of
them. The bubble appeared to be following a vendek trail laid by its
creators, and the Sarumpaet stayed close enough
behind it to avoid the crowd as it reclaimed the ground in the wake of
the procession. Rather than rendering the flight deck in proportion to
the ship’s actual physical dimensions, the scape was constantly making
choices of scale to keep the view of their surroundings intelligible,
and the Colonists on either side of the ship appeared roughly as large
as giraffes. Absurd as it was, Tchicaya found it difficult to suppress
the feeling that they might look in through the hull and see him
standing on the deck gazing back at them; he kept wanting to avert his
eyes, so as not to risk frightening or provoking them.
Close up, the ship’s probes revealed more of the
Colonists' anatomy. Dwelling on the crude, wind-blown X of their
overall shape was pointless; everything that mattered was in the vendek
mixtures locked in the network of tubes. The toolkit struggled to
annotate the images, hinting at the subtlety of the vendekobiology and
the complexity of the network’s topology. Tchicaya could only take in a
fraction of what the toolkit was managing to glean, but the Colonists
were manipulating their internal physics with as much precision as any
animal controlling its biochemistry, juggling pH or glucose
concentrations.
He caught Mariama’s eye, and the two of them exchanged
giddy, fearful smiles. Like Tchicaya, she was enraptured by the beauty
and strangeness around them, but more painfully aware than ever of the
vast gulf they’d have to bridge in order to protect it. The closer they
came to the possibility of success, the more vertiginous the fall if
they lost their grip. To be overrun by Planck worms in the honeycomb
would have meant nothing but a bleak local death; here, they would be
witnessing a whole world dying.
The procession entered a tunnel, angled steeply down into
the colony’s interior. As the density of sprites dropped, the scape
experimented with the other ambient information-carrying vendeks. No
single species could come close to matching the details of the probe
images, but taken together they provided a fair description of the
surroundings. From the Colonists' point of view, the Bright might well
have been horribly misnamed; the conditions down here stood a far
better chance of providing useful illumination, and the colony could
have been perceived to lie in a somber landscape of permanent twilight.
Out of the full force of the wind, the geometry of both
the Colonists and their architecture became more stable. The walls of
the tunnel were formed from a basic layer population, but hundreds of
other structures adorned them. Apart from the "air-conditioning" and
"light sources," Tchicaya couldn’t guess what purpose most of the
structures served. They looked too complex to be decorations, but mere
endurance required sophistication here; the air-conditioning wasn’t
perfect, and anything incapable of responding to the weather risked
being scoured away by the Bright.
The tunnel branched; the procession veered left. The
air-conditioning was becoming more aggressive about removing
impurities; the ship and the toolkit had to work harder than ever to
keep the hull intact and the probes viable in the presence of all the
new cleaning vendeks. Tchicaya had contemplated a number of unpleasant
fates since the anachronauts had blown him out of the Rindler,
but being scrubbed from the environment like an unwelcome speck of dust
was one of the most insulting.
After a second fork, and a section that zigzagged and
corkscrewed simultaneously, the tunnel opened out into a large cave.
The physics here was more stable than anything they’d seen since the
honeycomb; the weather had not been banished, but the turbulence had
been subdued by an order of magnitude compared to the open Bright.
A stream of vendeks crossed the cave, rendered pitch
black by the scape for most of its length, where the probes found it
impenetrable. Near the center, the stream mingled with the surrounding
free vendeks, expanding and becoming diluted before contracting back to
its original width and continuing on its way. The probes could enter
this region, which they portrayed as a sphere of gray fog; not all of
them were coming back, though, and those that did reported that they’d
almost lost control over their trajectories. Moving through the Bright
had been difficult from the start, but some extreme, systematic
distortion here was interfering with their attempts to navigate.
The toolkit collated all the evidence and reached its own
conclusion. "There’s curvature engineered into the graphs here. You can
invade these vendeks where the current opens out, but in the process
they reorient your time axis."
It took Tchicaya a moment to digest this. Patterns in a
quantum graph persisted by replicating themselves in future versions of
the graph, but "the future" could only be defined by the orientation of
the pattern itself. If you sliced the space-time foam one way to find a
graph with vendek A in it, but needed to take a slice at a different
angle to find vendek B, the two vendeks would see time as lying in
different directions, and mere persistence, on their own terms, would
put them in relative motion.
So "reorient your time axis" was toolkit-speak for "change your
velocity." The vendek current couldn’t sweep anything
along the way a river did, with pressure and momentum, but it could
twist the local definition of being "stationary" progressively further
away from its original orientation. In a sense it was like ordinary
gravity, but on the near side the symmetries of the vacuum imposed a
rigid austerity on the possibilities for space-time curvature. Here,
the curvature had been tailored on the spot, woven directly into the
graphs by the choice of vendeks.
"These people engineer space-time the way we do polymer
design," he marveled. "Choose the right monomers, get their shape and
reactivity right, and you can create whatever properties you desire."
Mariama smiled. "Except that they’re more like microbes
than monomers. Everything comes down to breeding and blending the right
vendeks."
"So what is this? A waste-disposal system?" If they
wanted to toss the banner away, they could have done that from the
surface with their towing bubble, but this accelerated sewer might send
it further, faster.
The Colonists had paused at the entrance to the cave, but
now they began to move along a shallow spiral, inching their way down
toward the velocity gradient. They weren’t discarding the banner in the
black river. They were going with it.
Tchicaya groaned. "I know what this is! We saw the rest
of it, from the outside. It’s a transport system. We’re on the entry
ramp to a highway."
Mariama agreed. "Maybe this whole place is just a tiny
outpost, and the artifact is such a big deal that they’re rushing it
straight to the nearest expert."
The conga line of Colonists was winding its way toward
the axis of the cave, actively fighting the effect of the black vendeks
in order not to get dashed against the wall where the current exited.
The Sarumpaet was still obediently following the
towing bubble; if they wanted to break away from the convoy, they’d
have to do it in the next few seconds.
There was no way of knowing how long the journey would
take. They’d seen this highway disappearing into the haze, into the
depths Xof the far side. This outpost was where the danger would strike
first, where the people needed to be told what was coming so they could
fight it, or evacuate.
But if the banner was being taken to the Signalers
themselves, that could be the expedition’s one opportunity to meet
people with the knowledge and motivation needed to understand the
warning at all.
Mariama said, "You don’t want to back out?" Perhaps she
was afraid that if this turned out to be the wrong choice, he’d hold
her responsible for urging him down here in the first place.
Tchicaya said, "No. We have to trust these people to take
us to someone who’ll work hard to communicate with us. If that’s not
what they’re planning, then we’re screwed — but if we hang back and miss
the chance to meet the experts, we’re screwed anyway." Ahead of them,
the banner was blinking feebly; undamaged still, but it had never been
designed to modulate all the forms of illumination that filled the cave.
The bubble arced smoothly down into the gray fog of the
entry ramp. As they followed it, the fog around them actually seemed to
grow thinner; once the Sarumpaet began to
surrender to the highway’s demands, the probes had an easier task
finding their way back to it — though the rest of the cave rapidly
vanished from sight. Tchicaya felt a pang of frustration that he was
insulated from any sense of the dynamics at play here. What
would it feel like, for a native, to be whisked into motion like this?
Would there be something akin to tidal effects, as different parts of
your body were brought up to speed? It was a trivial thing to ponder,
but he needed to cut through the barriers that separated him from the
Colonists. He needed to imagine himself inside their skins, any way he
could.
The convoy straightened out. They were in the center of
the highway now, portrayed by the probes as a narrow tube of clarity
surrounded by fog. The Colonists themselves had begun emitting some of
the parasprites that had illuminated the tunnels and the cave; the
bubble and its cargo blocked the view ahead, but Tchicaya could still
catch glimpses of them, shy luminescent starfish waving their four legs
lethargically. They were probably relaxing, free from the arduous
demands of the Bright — or if those demands were trivial, perhaps this
trip was so dull for them that they’d entered something close to
suspended animation. The Sarumpaet was doing
absolutely nothing to keep up with them; as far as it was concerned,
everyone was motionless. The highway had them all free-falling
effortlessly toward their destination.
Mariama asked the toolkit, "Can you tell how fast we’re
moving?"
"I have no direct access to the Bright around us, and
interpreting the acceleration process we’ve just been through is
difficult."
"Don’t be such a killjoy; take a wild guess. In the
broadest, most naive, near-side terms."
"We might be doing something comparable to relativistic
speeds."
Mariama looked around the scape, her eyes shining. "Do
you remember what Rasmah said?" She was addressing Tchicaya now. "When
she spoke to the Preservationists before the moratorium vote?"
"Of course." Tchicaya had to make a conscious effort to
summon up the memory, but he’d had a few other things on his mind.
"She was right," Mariama declared. "Her whole vision of
this place was exactly right. Not in the details; she couldn’t
anticipate half the things we’ve seen here. But she understood
precisely what the far side could mean for us."
Tchicaya experienced a twinge of irritation, bordering on
jealousy. What right did she have to share Rasmah’s vision?
He was ashamed of himself immediately; she’d earned it, at least as
much as he had.
"You’ve had a change of heart," he observed mildly.
"I told you I’d never fight for an exotic wasteland," she
said, "but that’s not what this is. And I’ll fight for the Signalers
because they deserve our help, but that’s not the end of it. Not
anymore."
She took Tchicaya’s hands. "Some astronomically rare
event created sentient life on the other side of the border, but that’s
all it was: bad luck, an accident of birth. We’ve found ways to live
with all the hardships: the distance, the loneliness. That’s a great
achievement, an amazing feat, but that’s no reason to sentence
ourselves to repeat it for eternity.
"How can we go on living in that wasteland, when even
space is alive here? This is where we belong, Tchicaya.
I’ll fight for this place because it’s our home."
In the eerie calm of the highway, Tchicaya felt himself
losing his grip on reality. A whole universe was at stake, and here he
was playing stowaway on a road train? Unknown multitudes would die,
because he lacked the nerve to tap the driver on the shoulder and make
his presence known. He could get his message across to anyone, if he
put his mind to it. He’d managed to converse with twenty-third-century
zealots with flesh for brains; how much harder could a glowing starfish
be?
When the highway began to disgorge them after barely two
hours, he almost wept with relief. His gamble might yet fail to pay
off, but at least it hadn’t irrevocably sunk the whole endeavor.
As they spiraled out of the darkness, the Sarumpaet
steeled itself for the worst contingencies the toolkit could imagine.
The Bright had been a challenge, but there was no reason to believe
that it was the most extreme environment the far side could contain.
Probes began returning. Parasprites flooded in. The
convoy slipped out of the ramp into a vast, tranquil space. The toolkit
analyzed the vendeks around them; the mixture was not honeycombstable,
but it was like the Bright tamed, domesticated. The airconditioning in
the colony had gone a short way in the same direction, but it was like
the difference between a mesh cage in the open ocean, keeping the
largest predators at bay, and an aquarium of hand-picked species that
could coexist and thrive with a minimum of drama.
The six Colonists were not alone here; the scape showed
hundreds of similar four-branched xennobes moving around them in a
multitude of neat, loosely defined rows, as if the place was
crisscrossed with invisible escalators. Compared to the crush of the
outpost, though, conditions were far from crowded. Layer walls
undulated gently in the distance, dotted with parasprite lamps, but
there was none of the density of structure they’d seen in the tunnels.
High above Tchicaya — "above" according to the random orientation in
which the Sarumpaet had emerged — other dark
highways were visible.
"I believe we’re in a railway station," he said. "The
question is, where?"
Mariama declared confidently, "This is the big smoke. All
space and comfort."
"Where we came from wasn’t exactly a ghost town."
"No, just a small village with no entertainment, and no
contraception."
Tchicaya scowled, but then he realized that she was being
neither serious nor entirely flippant. Tossing a few anthropomorphic
parodies at the least important of the ten thousand unanswered
questions they faced might at least stop them wasting energy trying to
fill in the same blanks with earnest hypotheses that were just as
likely to be wrong.
As the Colonists crossed the atrium, alien cargo and its
wouldbe puppeteers in tow, Mariama mimed cracking a whip. "Take me to
your linguists," she said. "And don’t spare the vendeks."
If they were in a city, they had no way of judging its
size from within, no way of knowing if they were moving from building
to building through something like open air, or merely navigating
through the rooms of a single, vast, hermetically sealed structure.
They passed through narrow apertures and wide corridors;
they wove through denser crowds; they encountered structures as
baffling and varied as the machinery — or artwork, or gardens — of the
outpost in the Bright. The probes gathered information, and the toolkit
puzzled over it, but even when it made sense it was just another tiny
piece of a vast mosaic. Grabbing hints of how the vendek populations
were interacting inside some gadget — or pet — that they passed was all
grist for the mill, but it was not going to make the whole city and its
people snap into focus in an instant.
Still, Tchicaya clung stubbornly to the notion that it
was better to observe whatever he could, and provisionally entertain
some wildly imperfect guesses, than to close his eyes and surrender to
the verdict that he might as well have been a flea aspiring to
understand the culture of a great metropolis. The scale in that analogy
was right, but nothing else was. Both he and his hosts possessed
general intelligence, and however mutually foreign their needs and
drives, there was nothing — including each other’s lives, customs, and
languages — that could remain incomprehensible to them, given time,
patience, and motivation.
Time, they did not have, but he’d leave it to the Planck
worms to declare when the supply was exhausted.
Mariama drank in the sights like a happily dazed tourist.
She treated their purpose at least as seriously as he did, and she’d
confronted every problem they’d faced with ferocious energy and
clarity, but something in her temperament refused to admit that the
corollary of that dedication could ever be despair at the thought of
failure. They’d accepted a burden that was constantly on the verge of
crushing them both, but he’d rarely seen her so much as tremble beneath
the load.
The procession came to a halt in a huge chamber,
containing a structure resembling a cluster of grapes the size of a
whale. The surface of this object was like nothing the probes had seen
before, and the interior proved even more surprising, killing them off
completely. Other, slightly more familiar techology was arrayed around
this bizarre leviathan.
The Colonists broke rank; three of them fussed around the
towing bubble, while the others went to one wall of the chamber and
returned with some kind of small device, or creature. Whatever they
were fetching didn’t need to be towed; it followed its summoners back
under its own power.
When the Colonists burst the banner’s bubble and lured
their apparatus closer to it, Tchicaya moved the Sarumpaet
away. He didn’t want the ship caught up inadvertently in whatever they
were about to do.
Sprayed by vendeks, the apparatus began to shine. It
emitted sprites, not the related vendeks the Colonists seemed to favor.
Mariama said, "They’re illuminating the banner with the
right kind of lighting. The signal is encoded in its transparency to
sprites; they understood that much."
"I think you’re right." There was always a chance that
they were misreading the action, but Tchicaya felt hopeful.
He surveyed the scene, trying to guess what would happen
next. The banner was positioned between the sprite source and the giant
bunch of grapes. Meaning what? This was their
expert linguist? Another species of xennobe entirely, or some caste of
the Colonists who sat motionless in this chamber like a bloated termite
queen? He dismissed the notion immediately. They’d seen no other
"castes." A few teeming xennobes in a crowded "hive," and he was
starting to invent ridiculous insectile non sequiturs.
The Colonists moved back from the illuminated banner, and
did nothing more. They floated at the edge of the chamber, branches
twitching lazily in the gentle currents.
The toolkit said, "I’ve found a way to get probes into
the unmapped structure now. This is very strange."
Mariama said, "We’ll be the judge of strange. Just tell
us what they’ve found."
"Take a cluster of protons and neutrons, and compress it
by a factor of a hundred million. That’s what this is."
Tchicaya blinked, disbelieving, "We’re looking at a
nugget of squashed near-side matter?"
"Yes. It’s wrapped in some complicated vendek-based
layers that are helping to stabilize it, but basically it’s a pile of
ordinary nucleons with most of the empty space squeezed out of them."
Mariama turned to him. "It could be a kind of meteorite.
With all the matter that’s passed through the border, some microscopic
speck might have encountered conditions that preserved it."
Tchicaya didn’t welcome the conclusion this suggested. "So this room
could be nothing but a museum display? I can’t believe
they’d go to the trouble of building the signaling layer, only to take
the reply — proof of intelligent life behind the border — and stuff it in
a
cabinet for people to gawk at."
"Or study. People will come to study it."
"When?"
Mariama said, "If you want to draw crowds, maybe it’s
time we changed the loop."
Tchicaya sent instructions to the banner. It stopped
counting out primes, and switched to a simple, ascending sequence of
integers.
The Colonists responded with a flurry of activity: moving
around the chamber, summoning new equipment. Tchicaya watched them, his
hopes rising again. They had to realize that the banner was as good as
alive, and ready to talk. Surely they’d reply now.
He was wrong. They aimed no shuttered sprite lamp back
toward the banner, they flashed no answering sequence.
He switched to the Fibonacci series. This stirred the
Colonists' branches a little, as if they welcomed the stimulation, but
whatever the purpose of the equipment they’d gathered after the first
change of message, it continued to be all they required.
They were happy to watch, but they had no intention of
replying. They were politely, respectfully observing the alien
emissary, but too cautious to engage with it and speed up the process
of understanding its message.
"What do we have to do to get through to them?"
Mariama said, "We could push ahead with the mathematics
leading to the GDL."
"Just like that? As a monologue?"
"What choice do we have?"
The toolkit had developed a Graph Description Language, a
precise set of semantic conventions for talking about vendeks, Planck
worms, and what would happen when they met. Given some moderately
sophisticated mathematical concepts — which could be built up from
elementary ideas based on integer exemplars — quantum graphs were far
easier to talk about than anything as abstract and contingent as social
structures.
If the Colonists weren’t going to degin to reply, though,
there’d be no way of knowing if the dictionary of concepts was coming
at them too quickly, or even whether the basic syntax was being
understood. They manipulated vendeks with skills that no QGT
theoretician would dare aspire to, but that didn’t mean they understood
them in the same way. Humans had tamed and modified dozens of species
of plants and animals before they’d had the slightest idea what DNA was.
Tchicaya started the program running. Without feedback
along the lines of "Yes, we understood that, please skip ahead to
something ten times harder," it would take four ship-days to complete.
He could choose sections to omit, himself — but which ones? What
concepts
were obvious to a xennobe?
Mariama smiled tentatively. "They haven’t left the room
yet."
"It is an alien artifact. That in
itself must merit some level of attention."
"They chose the primes," she said. "They picked the
language, and it was exactly what we would have picked ourselves."
Tchicaya scanned the room. "We’re missing something
here." The Colonists had no faces, no eyes, and he had no way of
telling what they were attending to, but they were far better
positioned to observe the nucleon nugget than the banner.
He said, "They’re showing it the
banner. They’re not even trying to make sense of the message
themselves. They expect their meteorite to react."
Mariama was skeptical, but not dismissive. "Why would
they think that way? Some kind of category error? They’re intelligent
enough to figure out that both these things came from the near side,
but they have no concept of inanimacy? Because…everything here is
living?" She grimaced. "Are you going to stop me before I start talking
complete gibberish? Whether vendeks count as living or not, random
collections of them would make very bad translators between xennobe
languages."
Tchicaya said, "So are the Colonists suffering from
animist delusions, or is this not a random
collection of nucleons?" He addressed the toolkit. "Can you make any
sense of its structure? What are the odds that nuclear matter in a star
or a planet could be in a state that could come through the border like
this?"
"Negligible."
"So someone wrapped it? Someone prepared it deliberately?"
The toolkit said, "That’s more likely than it happening
by chance."
Mariama said, "Don’t look at me. Maybe someone was
running their own secret experiments, but this was not
a Preservationist project."
"Then whose was it? And what has it been doing down
here?" Tchicaya asked the toolkit, "Can you model its dynamics? Is
there information processing going on in there?"
The toolkit was silent for a moment. "No. But there could
have been, once. It looks to me like it started out as a femtomachine."
Gooseflesh rose on Tchicaya’s arms. Back on the Rindler,
comparing their varied experiences of local death, Yann had
definitively trumped him with tales of going nuclear.
He said, "It’s the Mimosans. They’re buried in there."
Mariama’s eyes widened. "They can’t be. The Quietener
blew up in their faces, Tchicaya. How much warning would they have had?"
Tchicaya shook his head. "I don’t know how they did it,
but we’ve got to look for them." He asked the toolkit, "Can you map the
whole thing? Can you simulate it?" The crushed femtomachine was vastly
larger than the Sarumpaet, but having started from
merely nuclear densities, it would have made far less efficient use of
its graphs.
The toolkit said, "I’ll try. It will take time to get the
information out; the probes can only move it at a certain rate."
They waited. The mathematics lesson played on through the
banner; the Colonists floated in place, patient as ever,
expecting…what? The femtomachine had talked to them, once.
It must have functioned long enough for its inhabitants to learn their
language. Had it told them to make the signaling layer? Or had it
commenced its own attempts to communicate with a sequence of primes,
which they’d gone on to copy?
After almost an hour, the toolkit declared, "I have a
complete model of the structure inside the Sarumpaet.
Now I’m trying to repair some of the damage." It juggled connections,
looking for gaps in information routes; it searched for redundancies
that would allow it to reconstruct the missing pathways.
"There’s a simulation of something resembling a primate
body. With standard representation hooks into the model."
"Show us," Tchicaya said.
A person appeared on the deck in front of them, standing
motionless, arms raised as if in defense against a blow, or an impact.
The body did not resemble anything Tchicaya had inhabited himself, but
it was a piece of software that made no sense unless the femtomachine
had contained a sentient inhabitant.
"Can you trace back the sensory and motor hooks?"
"I’m trying. Okay. I’ve found it."
"You’ve found the mind?"
"Yes."
"What kind of state is it in?"
"Wait. I’m computing integrity signatures." Sentient
software was always packed with check sums that would allow it to
detect whether it had been corrupted. "Not scrambled, just frozen. Most
of the physics that leaked in seems to have slowed down the strong
force interactions, rather than damaging the quarks and gluons."
Tchicaya said, "Can you run it? Can you wake it?" He was
shaking. He didn’t know if he was digging a tenacious survivor out from
beneath a rock slide, or breathing unwelcome life back into a mutilated
castaway who’d escaped into a merciful local death. Too much was at
stake, though, to let the Mimosan rest in peace until he learned the
answer for himself.
The simulation twitched, looked around the scape, then
dropped to its knees, sobbing wretchedly. "I’m going mad! I’m going
mad!" The body being simulated had been designed to function in vacuum;
it was even pretending to speak in infrared.
Tchicaya understood the words as they were spoken; his Mediator had turned the
data into sounds in his head, and granted him the survivor’s language
immediately.
He knelt beside her and wrapped his arms around her
shoulders. "You’re not going mad, Cass. We’re real. You’re not home
yet, but you’re very close now. And you’re among friends."
Chapter 18
Time was everything, and Tchicaya felt a streak of brutal
pragmatism demanding that he press their only hope of a translator into
service as rapidly as possible. It would be a false compassion that
ended with all of them dead. But though Cass was undoubtedly sane, and
increasingly lucid, she was still in shock. Before she could help them,
she needed to make sense of her own situation.
Tchicaya told her about the signaling layer, and how the Sarumpaet
had been led to this place. He said nothing about the Planck worms; he
and Mariama were explorers from the near side, that was all that
mattered for now. He invited Cass to complete the account, to bridge
the gap between the events at Mimosa and this extraordinary meeting.
Seated on a couch they’d conjured up for her, she told them some of the
history of her voyage.
For the last of their experiments on the novo-vacuum, the
Mimosans had sent clones into a femtomachine, in order to be closer to
the event in real time. They had seen the nascent border expanding, and
struggled to understand their mistake. In one branch of the
femtomachine’s uncontrolled superposition, they had reached Sophus’s
insight: the physics of the ordinary vacuum represented just one
eigenstate for a quantum graph’s dynamic laws.
Working from that starting point, they had devised a plan
to spare the inhabited worlds from destruction. By modifying the border
so as to make the emission of light sufficiently asymmetrical, the
difference in radiation pressure could be used to accelerate the whole
system. While the far side remained small, its mass as an object in the
near side would be tiny (in fact, tiny and negative, since it had
started at zero and lost energy as radiation). If it was left to others
to tackle the problem decades later, the far side would have swallowed
entire star systems — at the very least, Mimosa itself. If they acted
now, they could send it flying out of inhabited space even faster than
it was expanding.
When the border hit the femtomachine, they would have a
chance to interact with it, but no fleeting, localized encounter would
be sufficient to sculpt the borderlight into a propulsion system. They
needed to buy themselves more time. Matching the border’s velocity
would have been ideal, but there was no prospect of achieving that.
Their only hope was to find a way to keep working on the problem after
the far side had swallowed them.
The Mimosans had choreographed a bravura quantum maneuver
that would allow the femtomachine to inject a partial clone of itself
through the border, and rotate all of its amplitude into the successful
branch at the same time. But the passengers couldn’t all pass through.
The bulk of the femtomachine would have to become a device whose sole
purpose was to implement the move, and only the acorporeals were
structured in a way that gave them the power to rewrite their minds
right out of existence, converting themselves into pieces of the
quantum catapult. All seven had been needed, to make it work. Cass had
been left to go in alone.
The first part of the plan had succeeded: the core of the
original femtomachine had been re-created, in miniature, in the far
side. But it had not been as mobile as its designers had hoped, and
Cass had been trapped by changing conditions, hundreds of times. She
had kept struggling to get the Oppenheimer into
position, proceeding in fits and starts, but the vehicle’s hull had
become compromised, vendeks had flooded in.
If this had happened in the ferment of the Bright,
Tchicaya doubted that any trace of the crippled machine would have
remained a picosecond later, but the massed invasion by a single,
tenacious species had effectively fossilized it whole. An unknown time
later — near-side decades, or centuries — a group of intelligent xennobes
had found the wreck. Subject to the same infestation themselves, they
had revived the Oppenheimer with a vendek bred
specifically to reverse the effects of the first.
Awake, but still trapped — nothing could remedy the fact
that her vehicle was too primitive for the constantly evolving
terrain — Cass had begun trying to communicate with her benefactors. Her
own first message had taken the form of a layer population, vibrating,
counting out the primes. From there, it had been a long, arduous
process, but they’d eventually reached a point of limited mutual
understanding.
Then the xennobes had vanished, prey to some shift in
climate or culture; she had never discovered the reason. After decades
had passed, another, related group had appeared, aware of the previous
encounter, but speaking a different language themselves, and too
impatient to learn to communicate properly. They had tried to carry her
toward the border — knowing that this had been her original
goal — without
really understanding her nature. Moving anything through the far side
was a delicate process, and their technology had not been up to the
task. The Oppenheimer had become trapped again,
damaged again. Invaded, frozen, and abandoned.
That was her last experience before waking on the deck of
the Sarumpaet. She had no way of knowing whether
the Oppenheimer had been towed here by the
builders of the city, or whether the city had grown up around it.
Tchicaya was humbled; everything he’d been through was a
stroll in the desert by comparison. He couldn’t even offer her the
comfort of hearing that her own failed mission had been completed from
the outside.
But he had to press on. As gently as he could, he began
explaining what had happened on the near side. Cass had long ago faced
up to the likelihood that her actions had destroyed whole worlds, but
she’d had no way of knowing how much time had passed, and he could see
the wounds reopening as he described the numbers, the scale of the
evacuation.
He compressed the machinations of the factions on the Rindler
to the briefest sketch, but he made one thing clear: the vast majority
of people had never intended to destroy sentient life in the far side.
Most still wanted the incursion to be halted, but not at the cost of
genocide.
For all the bad news that accompanied it, understanding
the Sarumpaet's presence seemed to solidify Cass’s
sense of reality. She could connect herself to the near side again. She
could imagine something other than exile, and madness.
When Tchicaya finished speaking, she stood. "You want
them to evacuate the Bright, so you can trap the Planck worms there?"
"Yes."
"And you’d like me to translate that message?"
"If you can."
"I’ll need to be able to create vendeks," Cass explained.
She had invented her own terminology for everything, but Tchicaya’s
Mediator was smoothing over the differences. "I don’t understand the
perceptual physiology, but there’s a family of short-lived vendeks
related to the parasprites that my first xennobe tribe employed for
communication. Though what their descendants will make of any of this,
I don’t know."
Mariama worked with the toolkit to sort out interfaces
with the software Cass had used back on the Oppenheimer
to create the communications vendeks. While this was happening,
Tchicaya rehearsed scenarios with her, possible responses from the
Colonists. He wasn’t entirely sure why she wanted this, but she
appeared to be afraid of being caught out, unprepared.
"Everything’s ready," Mariama declared. "As much as it
will ever be."
They moved the Sarumpaet right up to
the ruins of the Oppenheimer. The Colonists were
still patiently looking on as the banner flashed out its mathematical
lexicon.
Cass said, "I hope they really are expecting this. If I
waved a papyrus at Tutankhamen and he started speaking to me, I’d
probably run screaming from the room and never come back."
She sent the first vendeks out from the ship.
The scape painted a burst of color spreading out around
them, fading rapidly as it moved. These vendeks did not last long in
the room’s environment; to Tchicaya’s eyes, the signal looked faint by
the time it reached the Colonists.
It was not too faint for them to notice. They sprang into
action, gathering more equipment. If the Bright had made them feign
constant excitement, this was the real thing; Tchicaya hadn’t seen
their bodies convulse so much since they’d descended from the surface
of the outpost.
Reassembled in a huddle, armed with their additional
machinery — recording devices, translators? — they finally found a reason
to talk back.
Tchicaya wasn’t privy to the exchange. Cass didn’t talk
aloud in her own native language, offering up sentences for direct
translation, nor was there any running translation of the replies. She
had never got far enough to integrate the xennobe language into the
usual, Mediator-based scheme of things; she was working from her own
mental dictionary of signals, memories of past conversations,
brute-force software assistance, and guesswork. She made gestures with
her body, frowned to herself, and emitted grunts and sighs, but most of
the action was going on inside her simulated skull.
After almost twenty minutes, she paused to give the two
spectators a brief commentary. "They expected me to speak in an ancient
language, but they weren’t quite sure which one it would be. We’ve
sorted that all out now." She looked ragged, but she smiled.
Tchicaya was about to launch into a stream of lavish
praise, but Mariama replied calmly, "That’s good."
Cass nodded. "I think they trust me, more or less. At
least they’re willing to listen."
She resumed the conversation. Vendeks washed back and
forth between the Colonists and the flea masquerading as a resurrected
mummy.
More than four hours after the exchange had begun, Cass
sat down on the deck and cradled her head in her arms. Three of the
Colonists left the chamber.
Tchicaya waited. There’d be a reason for the hiatus: the
Colonists were fetching another language expert, another translation
device, a better dictionary.
Cass looked up suddenly, as if she’d completely forgotten
that she was no longer alone.
"It’s done," she said. "They understood me."
The Bright itself was of little value to their hosts, she
explained, but it did contain several outposts from which they’d been
attempting to learn more about whatever lay beyond. They hadn’t
constructed the signaling layer; they’d heard stories about the
artifact, which had supposedly been built by an earlier civilization,
but they had never had the means to verify its existence. They couldn’t
quite comprehend the nature of the threat she had described, but they
did believe that she came from the outer reaches, and they had decided
that they had nothing to lose by erring on the side of caution.
They would permit the creation of the tar pit. They would
begin evacuating the Bright immediately.
The Sarumpaet rode the highway loop
back into the Bright, escorted by Tännsjö and
Hintikka — Cass’s
names for two of the Colonists who’d traveled down from the outpost
with the banner. She’d explained to them that she’d moved from the
wreck of her old vehicle into this new, smaller model, brought here by
two colleagues who’d traveled all the way from her home; they found
many aspects of this account baffling, but didn’t expect to make sense
of it until they’d learned much more. The legends about her had been
full of obvious nonsense that they’d hoped to dispel, but they were
patient, and they could wait for a more complete understanding.
"Do they know you’re their creator?" Mariama asked.
Cass snorted. "That would be an overblown claim for me to
make, when I didn’t have the slightest idea what I was creating. But I
haven’t told them anything about Mimosa. All I’ve ever said is that I
came into their world to try to keep it from colliding with my own."
The outposts in the Bright were all located unfavorably
for their purpose, so they left the highway at a brand new ramp that
Tännsjö and Hintikka fashioned from within, with tools they’d
brought along for the purpose. Even more impressively, after forming
the exit, the Colonists sent a signal into the structure that began to
shift its operation into reverse. This expedition would not be able to
get home by completing the loop in the original direction, and
apparently it had never occurred to the highway-makers to have two
opposing lanes running side by side.
The Bright was exactly as Tchicaya remembered it, but he
had never expected to see Planck worms bearing down on him again the
way they had in the honeycomb, unless it was at the moment before his
death. The Bright was some three centimeters deep, but the Colonists
had never mapped its limits in latitude or longitude. Tchicaya could
only hope that if other xennobe civilizations unknown to the Colonists
had sent their own explorers into the region, they’d see the tar pit
coming, and flee.
The Sarumpaet launched the seed; it
disappeared into the haze. For several minutes, there was nothing. Then
an ominous sprite shadow appeared, a gray stain spreading across the
sky.
This was as much as they could afford to witness. The
Colonists would monitor the tar pit from below, but they would not see
anything of the battle, if it was won here.
Tännsjö and Hintikka led the way back.
Once they were in transit, the highway sealed behind
them, Tchicaya asked Cass, "What do they make of the fact that some
near-siders almost wiped them out?"
"I told them that the top of the Bright was encroaching
on our homes," she said, "which alarmed us, and made some of us act in
haste. I think they could empathize with that; shifting weather’s been
known to have the same effect on people here, now and then. But I
gather they’re still a bit skeptical about the notion that the Planck
worms could have killed everything in their path. They’re also puzzled
that the advance of the Bright could be such a big deal to us — given
that we come from somewhere even more hostile."
Mariama said, "Do they understand that the border’s still
encroaching? That we’re still losing territory?"
"Yes," Cass replied. "But they’ve offered to work with
us, to do what they can to find a solution."
Tchicaya was bemused. "Don’t you think that problem is a
bit beyond them?" The toolkit had found no way to freeze the border.
All the evidence suggested that the expansion was unstoppable.
Cass said, "Of course it is, right now. But they’ve come
from nothing, to this" — she gestured at the highway around them — "in
just
six hundred years. Give them another near-side month or two, and
they’ll definitely be the ones leading the way."
They returned to the place Mariama had named Museum City.
The tar pit would take time to stabilize, and until the Planck worms
had either been trapped and killed, or failed to show up entirely, it
would not be safe to try to drill through the mess and make contact
with the border.
It had been less than a millisecond since the Sarumpaet
had begun its flight. Tchicaya enjoyed imagining his own startled
near-side version hearing the news that the Planck worms had been
defeated, before he’d even had time to grow anxious about the fate of
the mission. He’d made no firm plans for reversing his bifurcation,
since he’d never really expected to return, but the less-traveled
Tchicaya would probably be willing to be subsumed. If not, he only
hoped that their continued separation would be justified, and they
didn’t merely dog each other’s footsteps. If they both tried to meet up
with Rasmah it would be awkward, though Tchicaya had little doubt which
one of them she’d choose.
Cass gave Mariama xennobe language lessons. Tchicaya sat
in on them, but he found them heavy going. Mariama made her own copy of
the vendek-based communications software and began converting it into
something a Mediator could work with, but filling in the gaps and
formalizing the structures of the language was a huge task.
Tchicaya had expanded the Sarumpaet's
scape, building rooms beyond the observation deck, giving all three
passengers privacy. He began sleeping more, eight or ten hours in every
ship-day.
Mostly, he dreamed that he was back on the Rindler.
It was strange to feel pangs of nostalgia, not for solid ground and
blue skies, but for stars and borderlight.
The Colonists were intensely curious about the aliens,
and eager to explain their own world to them. They dragged the Sarumpaet
from group to group, place to place; if Cass had let them, they
probably would have taken her on a tour of every city in their realm,
talking to her nonstop all the way. In near-side terms, their history
only stretched back about a year, and they had only explored a few
thousand cubic kilometers of the far side, but by any local measure
their civilization was orders of magnitude vaster than all of inhabited
space. And they were far from alone: they’d had direct contact with
twelve other sentient species, and they had secondhand knowledge of
hundreds more.
Tchicaya listened to Cass’s translations, and marveled at
the things they were learning, but he could see how weary she was
becoming, and he felt both a protective sympathy for her, and a lesser,
parallel exhaustion of his own. He had dived into the far side
unprepared, and whether or not he eventually made it his home, he
needed to come up for air.
On their fifty-third night in the city, Mariama woke him,
standing by his bed, shaking him by the arm. He squinted at her and
willed the scape to grow brighter.
"It’s about Cass."
He nodded. "She has to get out soon. The minute the tar
pit’s safe to traverse, we need to start drilling."
Mariama sat on the bed beside him. "She’s started talking
to me about staying on. Seeing out her original project, in some form
or other: freezing the border, pushing away the far side. Whatever can
be done to stop the evacuations."
Tchicaya was horrified. "That could take centuries!" He
only meant far-side time, though on reflection he wondered if that
wasn’t optimistic.
Mariama said, "I don’t know what she’s thinking. That
they’ll crucify her outside, if she dares to emerge without a solution?
Or maybe it’s more personal. Either way, I don’t think she can hold out
that long. It’s too open-ended, and she’s taking it all too personally.
She’s already been through enough. Will you try to talk some sense into
her?"
"Sure."
"Thanks." Mariama smiled. "It’ll come better from you.
I’d sound too much like someone who’s simply angling for her job."
Tchicaya wondered for a moment if he’d misunderstood her,
but she’d managed to be oblique without the slightest hint of ambiguity.
"Why do you want her job?" he said.
"I’m ready for this," Mariama declared. "It’s exactly
what I came to the Rindler to do."
"You came to the Rindler to work
with Tarek on Planck worms!"
"I came to the Rindler to give
people a choice," she said. "There are limits to the way that can be
achieved, complications that I never anticipated, but working with the
Colonists to find the solution would be an entirely honorable
compromise."
Tchicaya shook his head in mock admiration. "So you get
to live exactly like a Yielder, while retaining your Preservationist
credentials? Very slick." He made it sound like a joke, but he was
angry. He could forgive her the almost tongue-in-cheek self-serving
spin. What he hated was the fact that she’d set her sights so far
beyond his own, again.
He wasn’t ready to stay. He couldn’t live among the
Colonists with her, when the arrival of every other near-sider was an
eternity away. He’d planned to meet Rasmah on the other side of the
border. He needed to see the stars at least one more time.
"You’ll go mad," he said.
Mariama laughed. "That’s what my mother used to say,
about travelers. Wandering from planet to planet, until they could no
longer remember their own names."
"Sounds romantic, doesn’t it? No wonder you couldn’t
resist." Tchicaya’s anger was fading, but the ache beneath it remained.
He reached out and put his arms around her. There would never be an
irrevocable parting, so long as they were both alive, but the gulf she
was planning to create between them was the widest and the strangest
he’d ever faced.
"What will I tell the version of you next to my kidney?
She’ll think I made you walk the plank."
"She’ll understand. I’ll give you a messenger for her."
He pulled away, and held her at arm’s length. "What is it
with you, that you always have to go further than anyone else?"
"What is it with you, that you always have to tag along?"
Mariama ran her hand over his scalp, then she stood and walked to the
doorway.
She stopped and turned back to face him. "Before I go, do
you want to make love?"
Tchicaya was speechless. She had never once spoken of the
possibility, since he’d willed an end to their first chance on Turaev.
"Now that I’m more your type," she said, spreading her
arms wide, as if showing off some enhancement to her appearance.
"More my type?" he replied stupidly. He couldn’t detect
any change in her.
Mariama smiled. "Acorporeal."
Tchicaya threw his pillow at her. She retreated, laughing.
He lay back on the bed, relieved. Nothing could have
lived up to four thousand years of waiting. Except perhaps an original
theorem.
Cass stood on the observation deck, listening patiently
to Tchicaya’s appeal. Mariama had made herself scarce, and even the
Colonists had finally noticed that their living legend began to emit
incomprehensible streams of vendeks if they didn’t give her an
occasional day off.
She’d done enough, he said. No sane person blamed her for
her lack of omniscience. The Mimosans' plan to accelerate the far side
had been ingenious, and she’d struggled valiantly to try to make it
work, but the rules had changed, the prize she’d been reaching for had
retreated into the distance. Other people could carry on in her place;
the end result would be the same. And if she needed personal
redemption, couldn’t that come from passing on her knowledge of the far
side to someone rested, someone fully prepared for a second long haul?
Cass appeared calm, even slightly distracted. Tchicaya
wondered if she’d taken in his words, if he should repeat himself from
the beginning.
"I want to go swimming," she said suddenly.
"Swimming?"
Cass nodded earnestly.
"All right."
Tchicaya began to gesture at the scape, but she grabbed
his arm. "In real water," she insisted fiercely. "Real molecules of
water."
Tchicaya unclenched her grip on him, and held her by the
shoulders. "Okay. As soon as we get out, you can do that."
"I swim in real water; that’s who I am." Her face
contorted, and she emitted a long, anguished moan. "I didn’t
want to be changed this much!"
"I’ll help you," he promised. "I’ll get you out of here."
On her last day in Museum City, Cass steered the Sarumpaet
unescorted through the corridors and tunnels, searching for something.
"I asked Hintikka, and she made some inspired guesses, but we never got
around to investigating all the possibilities. The Colonists don’t
really understand graphs, but they have a system for describing vendeks
that maps quite well on to our picture, if you know how to make
allowances for the parts that don’t match up."
They veered from wall to wall, scrutinizing various
living gadgets: lamps, air conditioners, fragrance dispensers,
parasprite telephones, humor replenishers — Mariama’s name for the sacs
full of endogenous vendeks that the Colonists imbibed to keep
themselves in peak condition.
They probed the gadgets, and the toolkit did its best to
infer the fine structure of the vendeks they contained. Tchicaya had no
idea what Cass was hunting for. She had bidden farewell to the
Colonists earlier, formally handing her diplomatic role on to Mariama.
He didn’t know how well that notion translated, but Mariama had begun
conversing with the xennobes for herself weeks before, and she seemed
satisfied that her newcomer status would not be a handicap. Her own new
ship had been prepared; she’d named it in honor of Tarek, in spite of
the fact that he was still very much alive. But as she’d pointed out,
there were only so many dead people.
"Not quite," Cass muttered. She pulled the ship away from
something whose most polite anthropomorphic equivalent was probably a
spittoon.
Mariama glanced at Tchicaya inquiringly.
He said, "Don’t ask me. We’ll know when we find it."
The tar pit had stabilized, and the toolkit’s models
suggested that the Planck worms would have drowned in its depths.
Other, grimmer scenarios could not be ruled out entirely, but as the Sarumpaet
made its way back to the border it would seal the tar pit behind it;
even if the ship was lost, they would not be opening up an easy channel
for the Planck worms.
The worms would certainly have destroyed the interface
across the border, but he and Cass would build their own, as close as
possible to the old one; it shouldn’t be hard to catch the attention of
the equipment on the Left Hand.
From there, they would transmit themselves to Pfaff. It
was on the route to Earth, and Tchicaya would accompany her at least
that much of the way.
Cass said, "Here it is."
Tchicaya looked up at the toolkit’s display, a schematic
of a graph, drawn node by node and edge by edge, superimposed over the
larger scape portraying their busy surroundings.
It took him a moment to spot what she meant. Between two
vendeks that resembled ornate ironwork, there was a plain, narrow,
highly symmetrical layer.
It was the Diamond Graph. The state from which the whole
near-side universe was believed to have arisen. Stable here, in this
tiny sliver, cushioned between the right two vendeks.
The seed for a universe, lying in the gutter.
Cass gestured at the scape and summoned the image closer,
placing it before them on the observation deck.
"That’s what I went looking for," she said. "A glimpse of
that. Only I never expected I’d come this close.
And I never thought there’d be so much else attached." She smiled
uncertainly, then pushed the graph away.
"I think I’m ready to go home."
Quantum Graph Theory is fictitious, but the spin networks
on which Sarumpaet’s work is based are part of a real theory, known as
loop quantum gravity, discovered by Lee Smolin and Carlo Rovelli. There
is a considerable literature on this subject; two comprehensive review
papers are:
"An Introduction to Spin Foam Models of Quantum Gravity and
BF Theory" by John C. Baez, in Geometry and Quantum Physics,
edited by Helmut Gausterer and Harald Grosse, Springer, Berlin, 2000.
<www.arXiv.org/abs/gr-qc/9905087>
and
"The Future of Spin Networks" by Lee Smolin, in The
Geometric Universe, edited by S. A. Huggett et al.,
Oxford University Press, Oxford, 1998.
<www.arXiv.org/abc/gr-qc/9702030>
I’m indebted to John Baez, who very kindly explained
several points to me directly, as well as posting numerous articles on
the news group sci.physics.research
making these ideas more accessible to nonspecialists. Of course, any
errors I’ve committed in describing the real theory, and any
absurdities in the way I’ve imagined its future, are my fault entirely.
Decoherence is a real phenomenon, and it is widely
accepted as playing a major role in the absence of detectable quantum
effects in macroscopic objects. Its role in relation to the
superselection rules that forbid superpositions of certain kinds of
quantum states is more controversial. These ideas are discussed in:
Decoherence and the Appearance of a Classical
World in Quantum Theory by D. Giulini, E. Joos, C. Kiefer,
J. Kupsch, I.-O. Stamatescu, and H. D. Zeh, Springer, Berlin, 1996.
I learned about the construction known as Schild’s ladder
from:
Gravitation by C. W. Misner, K. S.
Thorne and J. A. Wheeler, W. H. Freemann, New York, 1970.
who cite an unpublished lecture by Alfred Schild on
January 19, 1970, at Princeton University.
Supplementary material for this novel can be found at
<www.netspace.net.au/˜gregegan.>
Greg Egan is the author of several acclaimed SF novels and short stories. A
winner of the Hugo Award and the John W. Campbell Memorial Award, he
was voted the "Most Popular Science Fiction Author of the Decade"
(1990s) by Interzone magazine. Mr. Egan lives in
Australia.
www.netspace.net.au/~gregegan
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