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The Pilgrim of Hate
Ellis Peters
The Pilgrim of Hate
Ellis Peters
The Tenth Chronicle of Brother Cadfael
EBook Design Group [EDG] digital edition v1 HTML
v2 HTML – January 10,2003
Copyright © 1984 by Ellis Peters
First published in 1984 by Macmillan London Limited, Great
Britain
All rights reserved.
Contents
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Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter One
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They were together in Brother Cadfael’s
hut in the herbarium, in the afternoon of the twenty-fifth day of
May, and the talk was of high matters of state, of kings and
empresses, and the unbalanced fortunes that plagued the
irreconcilable contenders for thrones.
“Well, the lady is not crowned yet!” said Hugh
Beringar, almost as firmly as if he saw a way of preventing it.
“She is not even in London yet,” agreed Cadfael,
stirring carefully round the pot embedded in the coals of his
brazier, to keep the brew from boiling up against the sides and
burning. “She cannot well be crowned until they let her in to
Westminster. Which it seems, from all I gather, they are in no
hurry to do.”
“Where the sun shines,” said Hugh ruefully,
“there whoever’s felt the cold will gather. My cause,
old friend, is out of the sun. When Henry of Blois shifts, all men
shift with him, like starvelings huddled in one bed. He heaves the
coverlet, and they go with him, clinging by the hems.”
“Not all,” objected Cadfael, briefly smiling as he
stirred. “Not you. Do you think you are the only
one?”
“God forbid!” said Hugh, and suddenly laughed,
shaking off his gloom. He came back from the open doorway, where
the pure light spread a soft golden sheen over the bushes and beds
of the herb-garden and the moist noon air drew up a heady languor
of spiced and drunken odours, and plumped his slender person down
again on the bench against the timber wall, spreading his booted
feet on the earth floor. A small man in one sense only, and even so
trimly made. His modest stature and light weight had deceived many
a man to his undoing. The sunshine from without, fretted by the
breeze that swayed the bushes, was reflected from one of
Cadfael’s great glass flagons to illuminate by flashing
glimpses a lean, tanned face, clean shaven, with a quirky mouth,
and agile black eyebrows that could twist upward sceptically into
cropped black hair. A face at once eloquent and inscrutable.
Brother Cadfael was one of the few who knew how to read it.
Doubtful if even Hugh’s wife Aline understood him better.
Cadfael was in his sixty-second year, and Hugh still a year or two
short of thirty but, meeting thus in easy companionship in
Cadfael’s workshop among the herbs, they felt themselves
contemporaries.
“No,” said Hugh, eyeing circumstances narrowly, and
taking some cautious comfort, “not all. There are a few of us
yet, and not so badly placed to hold on to what we have.
There’s the queen in Kent with her army. Robert of Gloucester
is not going to turn his back to come hunting us here while she
hangs on the southern fringes of London. And with the Welsh of
Gwynedd keeping our backs against the earl of Chester, we can hold
this shire for King Stephen and wait out the time. Luck that turned
once can turn again. And the empress is not queen of England
yet.”
But for all that, thought Cadfael, mutely stirring his brew for
Brother Aylwin’s scouring calves, it began to look as though
she very soon would be. Three years of civil war between cousins
fighting for the sovereignty of England had done nothing to
reconcile the factions, but much to sicken the general populace
with insecurity, rapine and killing. The craftsman in the town, the
cottar in the village, the serf on the demesne, would be only too
glad of any monarch who could guarantee him a quiet and orderly
country in which to carry on his modest business. But to a man like
Hugh it was no such indifferent matter. He was King Stephen’s
liege man, and now King Stephen’s sheriff of Shropshire,
sworn to hold the shire for his cause. And his king was a prisoner
in Bristol castle since the lost battle of Lincoln. A single
February day of this year had seen a total reversal of the fortunes
of the two claimants to the throne. The Empress Maud was up in the
clouds, and Stephen, crowned and anointed though he might be, was
down in the midden, close-bound and close-guarded, and his brother
Henry of Blois, bishop of Winchester and papal legate, far the most
influential of the magnates and hitherto his brother’s
supporter, had found himself in a dilemma. He could either be a
hero, and adhere loudly and firmly to his allegiance, thus
incurring the formidable animosity of a lady who was in the
ascendant and could be dangerous, or trim his sails and accommodate
himself to the reverses of fortune by coming over to her side.
Discreetly, of course, and with well-prepared arguments to render
his about-face respectable. It was just possible, thought Cadfael,
willing to do justice even to bishops, that Henry also had the
cause of order and peace genuinely at heart, and was willing to
back whichever contender could restore them.
“What frets me,” said Hugh restlessly, “is
that I can get no reliable news. Rumours enough and more than
enough, every new one laying the last one dead, but nothing a man
can grasp and put his trust in. I shall be main glad when Abbot
Radulfus comes home.”
“So will every brother in this house,” agreed
Cadfael fervently. “Barring Jerome, perhaps, he’s in
high feather when Prior Robert is left in charge, and a fine time
he’s had of it all these weeks since the abbot was summoned
to Winchester. But Robert’s rule is less favoured by the rest
of us, I can tell you.”
“How long is it he’s been away now?” pondered
Hugh. “Seven or eight weeks! The legate’s keeping his
court well stocked with mitres all this time. Maintaining his own
state no doubt gives him some aid in confronting hers. Not a man to
let his dignity bow to princes, Henry, and he needs all the weight
he can get at his back.”
“He’s letting some of his cloth disperse now,
however,” said Cadfael. “By that token, he may have got
a kind of settlement. Or he may be deceived into thinking he has.
Father Abbot sent word from Reading. In a week he should be here.
You’ll hardly find a better witness.”
Bishop Henry had taken good care to keep the direction of events
in his own hands. Calling all the prelates and mitred abbots to
Winchester early in April, and firmly declaring the gathering a
legatine council, no mere church assembly, had ensured his
supremacy at the subsequent discussions, giving him precedence over
Archbishop Theobald of Canterbury, who in purely English church
matters was his superior. Just as well, perhaps. Cadfael doubted if
Theobald had greatly minded being outflanked. In the circumstances
a quiet, timorous man might be only too glad to lurk peaceably in
the shadows, and let the legate bear the heat of the sun.
“I know it. Once let me hear his account of what’s
gone forward, down there in the south, and I can make my own
dispositions. We’re remote enough here, and the queen, God
keep her, has gathered a very fair array, now she has the Flemings
who escaped from Lincoln to add to her force. She’ll move
heaven and earth to get Stephen out of hold, by whatever means,
fair or foul. She is,” said Hugh with conviction, “a
better soldier than her lord. Not a better fighter in the
field—God knows you’d need to search Europe through to
find such a one, I saw him at Lincoln—a marvel! But a better
general, that she is. She holds to her purpose, where he
tires and goes off after another quarry. They tell me, and I
believe it, she’s drawing her cordon closer and closer to
London, south of the river. The nearer her rival comes to
Westminster, the tighter that noose will be drawn.”
“And is it certain the Londoners have agreed to let the
empress in? We hear they came late to the council, and made a faint
plea for Stephen before they let themselves be tamed. It takes a
very stout heart, I suppose, to stand up to Henry of Winchester
face to face, and deny him,” allowed Cadfael, sighing.
“They’ve agreed to admit her, which is as good as
acknowledging her. But they’re arguing terms for her entry,
as I heard it, and every delay is worth gold to me and to Stephen.
If only,” said Hugh, the dancing light suddenly sharpening
every line of his intent and eloquent face, “if only I could
get a good man into Bristol! There are ways into castles, even into
the dungeons. Two or three good, secret men might do it. A fistful
of gold to a malcontent gaoler… Kings have been fetched off
before now, even out of chains, and he’s not chained. She has
not gone so far, not yet. Cadfael, I dream! My work is here, and I
am but barely equal to it. I have no means of carrying off Bristol,
too.”
“Once loosed,” said Cadfael, “your king is
going to need this shire ready to his hand.”
He turned from the brazier, hoisting aside the pot and laying it
to cool on a slab of stone he kept for the purpose. His back
creaked a little as he straightened it. In small ways he was
feeling his years, but once erect he was spry enough.
“I’m done here for this while,” he said,
brushing his hands together to get rid of the hollow worn by the
ladle. “Come into the daylight, and see the flowers
we’re bringing on for the festival of Saint Winifred. Father
Abbot will be home in good time to preside over her reception from
Saint Giles. And we shall have a houseful of pilgrims to care
for.”
They had brought the reliquary of the Welsh saint
four years previously from Gwytherin, where she lay buried, and
installed it on the altar of the church at the hospital of Saint
Giles, at the very edge of Shrewsbury’s Foregate suburb,
where the sick, the infected, the deformed, the lepers, who might
not venture within the walls, were housed and cared for. And thence
they had borne her casket in splendour to her altar in the abbey
church, to be an ornament and a wonder, a means of healing and
blessing to all who came reverently and in need. This year they had
undertaken to repeat that last journey, to bring her from Saint
Giles in procession, and open her altar to all who came with
prayers and offerings. Every year she had drawn many pilgrims. This
year they would be legion.
“A man might wonder,” said Hugh, standing
spread-footed among the flower beds just beginning to burn from the
soft, shy colours of spring into the blaze of summer,
“whether you were not rather preparing for a
bridal.”
Hedges of hazel and may-blossom shed silver petals and dangled
pale, silver-green catkins round the enclosure where they stood,
cowslips were rearing in the grass of the meadow beyond, and irises
were in tight, thrusting bud. Even the roses showed a harvest of
buds, erect and ready to break and display the first colour. In the
walled shelter of Cadfael’s herb-garden there were fat globes
of peonies, too, just cracking their green sheaths. Cadfael had
medicinal uses for the seeds, and Brother Petrus, the abbot’s
cook, used them as spices in the kitchen.
“A man might not be so far out, at that,” said
Cadfael, viewing the fruits of his labours complacently. “A
perpetual and pure bridal. This Welsh girl was virgin until the day
of her death.”
“And you have married her off since?”
It was idly said, in revulsion from pondering matters of state.
In such a garden a man could believe in peace, fruit-fulness and
amity. But it encountered suddenly so profound and pregnant a
silence that Hugh pricked up his ears, and turned his head almost
stealthily to study his friend, even before the unguarded answer
came. Unguarded either from absence of mind, or of design, there
was no telling.
“Not wedded,” said Cadfael, “but certainly
bedded. With a good man, too, and her honest champion. He deserved
his reward.”
Hugh raised quizzical brows, and cast a glance over his shoulder
towards the long roof of the great abbey church, where reputedly
the lady in question slept in a sealed reliquary on her own altar.
An elegant coffin just long enough to contain a small and holy
Welshwoman, with the neat, compact bones of her race.
“Hardly room within there for two,” he said
mildly.
“Not two of our gross make, no, not there. There was space
enough where we put them.” He knew he was listened to, now,
and heard with sharp intelligence, if not yet understood.
“Are you telling me,” wondered Hugh no less mildly,
“that she is not there in that elaborate shrine of
yours, where everyone else knows she is?”
“Can I tell? Many a time I’ve wished it could be
possible to be in two places at once. A thing too hard for me, but
for a saint, perhaps, possible? Three nights and three days she was
in there, that I do know. She may well have left a morsel of her
holiness within—if only by way of thanks to us who took her
out again, and put her back where I still, and always shall,
believe she wished to be. But for all that,” owned Cadfael,
shaking his head, “there’s a trailing fringe of doubt
that nags at me. How if I read her wrong?”
“Then your only resort is confession and penance,”
said Hugh lightly.
“Not until Brother Mark is full-fledged a priest!”
Young Mark was gone from his mother-house and from his flock at
Saint Giles, gone to the household of the bishop of Lichfield, with
Leoric Aspley’s endowment to see him through his studies, and
the goal of all his longings shining distant and clear before him,
the priesthood for which God had designed him. “I’m
saving for him,” said Cadfael, “all those sins I feel,
perhaps mistakenly, to be no sins. He was my right hand and a piece
of my heart for three years, and knows me better than any man
living. Barring, it may be, yourself?” he added, and slanted
a guileless glance at his friend. “He will know the truth of
me, and by his judgement and for his absolution I’ll embrace
any penance. You might deliver the judgement, Hugh, but you cannot
deliver the absolution.”
“Nor the penance, neither,” said Hugh, and laughed
freely. “So tell it to me, and go free without
penalty.”
The idea of confiding was unexpectedly pleasing and acceptable.
“It’s a long story,” said Cadfeel warningly.
“Then now’s your time, for whatever I can do here is
done, nothing is asked of me but watchfulness and patience, and why
should I wait unentertained if there’s a good story to be
heard? And you are at leisure until Vespers. You may even get
merit,” said Hugh, composing his face into priestly
solemnity, “by unburdening your soul to the secular arm. And
I can be secret,” he said, “as any
confessional.”
“Wait, then,” said Cadfael, “while I fetch a
draught of that maturing wine, and come within to the bench under
the north wall, where the afternoon sun falls. We may as well be at
ease while I talk.”
“It was a year or so before I knew
you,” said Cadfael, bracing his back comfortably against the
warmed, stony roughness of the herb-garden wall. “We were
without a tame saint to our house, and somewhat envious of Wenlock,
where the Cluny community had discovered their Saxon foundress
Milburga, and were making great play with her. And we had certain
signs that sent off an ailing brother of ours into Wales, to bathe
at Holywell, where this girl Winifred died her first death, and
brought forth her healing spring. There was her own patron, Saint
Beuno, ready and able to bring her back to life, but the spring
remained, and did wonders. So it came to Prior Robert that the lady
could be persuaded to leave Gwytherin, where she died her second
death and was buried, and come and bring her glory to us here in
Shrewsbury. I was one of the party he took with him to deal with
the parish there, and bring them to give up the saint’s
bones.”
“All of which,” said Hugh, warmed and attentive
beside him, “I know very well, since all men here know
it.”
“Surely! But you do not know to the end what followed.
There was one Welsh lord in Gwytherin who would not suffer the girl
to be disturbed, and would not be persuaded or bribed or threatened
into letting her go. And he died, Hugh—murdered. By one of
us, a brother who came from high rank, and had his eyes already set
on a mitre. And when we came near to accusing him, it was his life
or a better. There were certain young people of that place put in
peril by him, the dead lord’s daughter and her lover. The boy
lashed out in anger, with good reason, seeing his girl wounded and
bleeding. He was stronger than he knew. The murderer’s neck
was broken.”
“How many knew of this?” asked Hugh, his eyes
narrowed thoughtfully upon the glossy-leaved rose-bushes.
“When it befell, only the lovers, the dead man and I. And
Saint Winifred, who had been raised from her grave and laid in that
casket of which you and all men know. She knew. She was
there. From the moment I raised her,” said Cadfael,
“and by God, it was I who took her from the soil, and I who
restored her—and still that makes me glad—from the
moment I uncovered those slender bones, I felt in mine they wished
only to be left in peace. It was so little and so wild and quiet a
graveyard there, with the small church long out of use, meadow
flowers growing over all, and the mounds so modest and green. And
Welsh soil! The girl was Welsh, like me, her church was of the old
persuasion, what did she know of this alien English shire? And I
had those young things to keep. Who would have taken their word or
mine against all the force of the church? They would have closed
their ranks to bury the scandal, and bury the boy with it, and he
guilty of nothing but defending his dear. So I took
measures.”
Hugh’s mobile lips twitched. “Now indeed you amaze
me! And what measures were those? With a dead brother to account
for, and Prior Robert to keep sweet…”
“Ah, well, Robert is a simpler soul than he supposes, and
then I had a good deal of help from the dead brother himself.
He’d been busy building himself such a reputation for
sanctity, delivering messages from the saint herself—it was
he told us she was offering the grave she’d left to the
murdered man—and going into trance-sleeps, and praying to
leave this world and be taken into bliss living… So we did
him that small favour. He’d been keeping a solitary
night-watch in the old church, and in the morning when it ended,
there were his habit and sandals fallen together at his
prayer-stool, and the body of him lifted clean out of them, in
sweet odours and a shower of may-blossom. That was how he claimed
the saint had already visited him, why should not Robert recall it
and believe? Certainly he was gone. Why look for him? Would a
modest brother of our house be running through the Welsh woods
mother-naked?”
“Are you telling me,” asked Hugh cautiously,
“That what you have there in the reliquary is
not… Then the casket had not yet been
sealed?” His eyebrows were tangling with his black forelock,
but his voice was soft and unsurprised.
“Well…” Cadfael twitched his blunt brown nose
bashfully between finger and thumb. “Sealed it was, but there
are ways of dealing with seals that leave them unblemished.
It’s one of the more dubious of my remembered skills, but for
all that I was glad of it then.”
“And you put the lady back in the place that was hers,
along with her champion?”
“He was a decent, good man, and had spoken up for her
nobly. She would not grudge him house-room. I have always
thought,” confided Cadfael, “that she was not
displeased with us. She has shown her power in Gwytherin since that
time, by many miracles, so I cannot believe she is angry. But what
a little troubles me is that she has not so far chosen to favour us
with any great mark of her patronage here, to keep Robert happy,
and set my mind at rest. Oh, a few little things, but nothing of
unmistakable note. How if I have displeased her, after all? Well
for me, who know what we have within there on the
altar—and mea culpa if I did wrongly! But what of
the innocents who do not know, and come in good faith,
hoping for grace from her? What if I have been the means of their
deprivation and loss?”
“I see,” said Hugh with sympathy, “that
Brother Mark had better make haste through the degrees of
ordination, and come quickly to lift the load from you.
Unless,” he added with a flashing sidelong smile,
“Saint Winifred takes pity on you first, and sends you a
sign.”
“I still do not see,” mused Cadfael, “what
else I could have done. It was an ending that satisfied everyone,
both here and there. The children were free to marry and be happy,
the village still had its saint, and she had her own people round
her. Robert had what he had gone to find—or thought he had,
which is the same thing. And Shrewsbury abbey has its festival,
with every hope of a full guest-hall, and glory and gain in good
measure. If she would but just cast an indulgent look this way, and
wink her eye, to let me know I understood her aright.”
“And you’ve never said word of this to
anyone?”
“Never a word. But the whole village of Gwytherin knows
it,” admitted Cadfael with a remembering grin. “No one
told, no one had to tell, but they knew. There wasn’t a man
missing when we took up the reliquary and set out for home. They
helped to carry it, whipped together a little chariot to bear it.
Robert thought he had them nicely tamed, even those who’d
been most reluctant from the first. It was a great joy to him. A
simple soul at bottom! It would be great pity to undo him now, when
he’s busy writing his book about the saint’s life, and
how he brought her to Shrewsbury.”
“I would not have the heart to put him to such
distress,” said Hugh. “Least said, best for all. Thanks
be to God, I have nothing to do with canon law, the common law of a
land almost without law costs me enough pains..” No need to
say that Cadfael could be sure of his secrecy, that was taken for
granted on both sides. “Well, you speak the lady’s own
tongue, no doubt she understood you well enough, with or without
words. Who knows? When this festival of yours takes place—the
twenty-second day of June, you say?—she may take pity on you,
and send you a great miracle to set your mind at rest.”
And so she might, thought Cadfael an hour later,
on his way to obey the summons of the Vesper bell. Not that he had
deserved so signal an honour, but there surely must be one
somewhere among the unceasing stream of pilgrims who did deserve
it, and could not with justice be rejected. He would be perfectly
and humbly and cheerfully content with that. What if she was eighty
miles or so away, in what was left of her body? It had been a
miraculous body in this life, once brutally dead and raised alive
again, what limits of time or space could be set about such a
being? If it so pleased her she could be both quiet and content in
her grave with Rhisiart, lulled by bird-song in the hawthorn trees,
and here attentive and incorporeal, a little flame of spirit in the
coffin of unworthy Columbanus, who had killed not for her
exaltation but for his own.
Brother Cadfael went to Vespers curiously relieved at having
confided to his friend a secret from before the time when they had
first known each other, in the beginning as potential antagonists
stepping subtly to outwit each other, then discovering how much
they had in common, the old man—alone with himself Cadfael
admitted to being somewhat over the peak of a man’s
prime—and the young one, just setting out, exceedingly
well-equipped in shrewdness and wit, to build his fortune and win
his wife. And both he had done, for he was now undisputed sheriff
of Shropshire, if under a powerless and captive king, and up there
in the town, near St Mary’s church, his wife and his year-old
son made a nest for his private happiness when he shut the door on
his public burdens.
Cadfael thought of his godson, the sturdy imp who already
clutched his way lustily round the rooms of Hugh’s town
house, climbed unaided into a godfather’s lap, and began to
utter human sounds of approval, enquiry, indignation and affection.
Every man asks of heaven a son. Hugh had his, as promising a sprig
as ever budded from the stem. So, by proxy, had Cadfael, a son in
God.
There was, after all, a great deal of human happiness in the
world, even a world so torn and mangled with conflict, cruelty and
greed. So it had always been, and always would be. And so be it,
provided the indomitable spark of joy never went out.
In the refectory, after supper and grace, in the
grateful warmth and lingering light of the end of May, when they
were shuffling their benches to rise from table, Prior Robert
Pennant rose first in his place, levering erect his more than six
feet of lean, austere prelate, silver-tonsured and
ivory-featured.
“Brothers, I have received a further message from Father
Abbot. He has reached Warwick on his way home to us, and hopes to
be with us by the fourth day of June or earlier. He bids us be
diligent in making proper preparation for the celebration of Saint
Winifred’s translation, our most gracious patroness.”
Perhaps the abbot had so instructed, in duty bound, but it was
Robert himself who laid such stress on it, viewing himself, as he
did, as the patron of their patroness. His large patrician eye
swept round the refectory tables, settling upon those heads most
deeply committed. “Brother Anselm, you have the music already
in hand?”
Brother Anselm the precentor, whose mind seldom left its neums
and instruments for many seconds together, looked up vaguely, awoke
to the question, and stared, wide-eyed. “The entire order of
procession and office is ready,” he said, in amiable surprise
that anyone should feel it necessary to ask.
“And Brother Denis, you have made all the preparations
necessary for stocking your halls to feed great numbers? For we
shall surely need every cot and every dish we can
muster.”
Brother Denis the hospitaller, accustomed to outer panics and
secure ruler of his own domain, testified calmly that he had made
the fullest provision he considered needful, and further, that he
had reserves laid by to tap at need.
“There will also be many sick persons to be tended, for
that reason they come.”
Brother Edmund the infirmarer, not waiting to be named, said
crisply that he had taken into account the probable need, and was
prepared for the demands that might be made on his beds and
medicines. He mentioned also, being on his feet, that Brother
Cadfael had already provided stocks of all the remedies most likely
to be wanted, and stood ready to meet any other needs that should
arise.
“That is well,” said Prior Robert. “Now,
Father Abbot has yet a special request to make until he comes. He
asks that prayers be made at every High Mass for the repose of the
soul of a good man, treacherously slain in Winchester as he strove
to keep the peace and reconcile faction with faction, in Christian
duty.”
For a moment it seemed to Brother Cadfael, and perhaps to most
of the others present, that the death of one man, far away in the
south, hardly rated so solemn a mention and so signal a mark of
respect, in a country where deaths had been commonplace for so
long, from the field of Lincoln strewn with bodies to the sack of
Worcester with its streets running blood, from the widespread
baronial slaughters by disaffected earls to the sordid village
banditries where law had broken down. Then he looked at it again,
and with the abbot’s measuring eyes. Here was a good man cut
down in the very city where prelates and barons were parleying over
matters of peace and sovereignty, killed in trying to keep one
faction from the throat of the other. At the very feet, as it were,
of the bishop-legate. As black a sacrilege as if he had been
butchered on the steps of the altar. It was not one man’s
death, it was a bitter symbol of the abandonment of law and the
rejection of hope and reconciliation. So Radulfus had seen it, and
so he recorded it in the offices of his house. There was a solemn
acknowledgement due to the dead man, a memorial lodged in
heaven.
“We are asked,” said Prior Robert, “to offer
thanks for the just endeavour and prayers for the soul of one
Rainald Bossard, a knight in the service of the Empress
Maud.”
“One of the enemy,” said a young
novice doubtfully, talking it over in the cloisters afterwards. So
used were they, in this shire, to thinking of the king’s
cause as their own, since it had been his writ which had run here
now in orderly fashion for four years, and kept off the worst of
the chaos that troubled so much of England elsewhere.
“Not so,” said Brother Paul, the master of the
novices, gently chiding. “No good and honourable man is an
enemy, though he may take the opposing side in this dissension.
“ The fealty of this world is not for us, but we must bear it
ever in mind as a true value, as binding on those who owe it as our
vows are on us. The claims of these two cousins are both in some
sort valid. It is no reproach to have kept faith, whether with king
or empress. And this was surely a worthy man, or Father Abbot would
not thus have recommended him to our prayers.”
Brother Anselm, thoughtfully revolving the syllables of the
name, and tapping the resultant rhythm on the stone of the bench on
which he sat, repeated to himself softly: “Rainald Bossard,
Rainald Bossard…”
The repeated iambic stayed in Brother Cadfael’s ear and
wormed its way into his mind. A name that meant nothing yet to
anyone here, had neither form nor face, no age, no character;
nothing but a name, which is either a soul without a body or a body
without a soul. It went with him into his cell in the dortoir, as
he made his last prayers and shook off his sandals before lying
down to sleep. It may even have kept a rhythm in his sleeping mind,
without the need of a dream to house it, for the first he knew of
the thunderstorm was a silent double-gleam of lightning that
spelled out the same iambic, and caused him to start awake with
eyes still closed, and listen for the answering thunder. It did not
come for so long that he thought he had dreamed it, and then he
heard it, very distant, very quiet, and yet curiously ominous.
Beyond his closed eyelids the quiet lightnings flared and died, and
the echoes answered so late and so softly, from so far
away…
As far, perhaps, as that fabled city of Winchester, where
momentous matters had been decided, a place Cadfael had never seen,
and probably never would see. A threat from a town so distant could
shake no foundations here, and no hearts, any more than such
far-off thunders could bring down the walls of Shrewsbury. Yet the
continuing murmur of disquiet was still in his ears as he fell
asleep.
Chapter Two
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Abbot Radulfus rode back into his abbey of Saint
Peter and Saint Paul on the third day of June, escorted by his
chaplain and secretary, Brother Vitalis, and welcomed home by all
the fifty-three brothers, seven novices and six schoolboys of his
house, as well as all the lay stewards and servants.
The abbot was a long, lean, hard man in his fifties, with a
gaunt, ascetic face and a shrewd, scholar’s eye, so vigorous
and able of body that he dismounted and went straight to preside at
High Mass, before retiring to remove the stains of travel or take
any refreshment after his long ride. Nor did he forget to offer the
prayer he had enjoined upon his flock, for the repose of the soul
of Rainald Bossard, slain in Winchester on the evening of
Wednesday, the ninth day of April of this year of Our Lord 1141.
Eight weeks dead, and half the length of England away, what meaning
could Rainald Bossard have for this indifferent town of Shrewsbury,
or the members of this far-distant Benedictine house?
Not until the next morning’s chapter would the household
hear its abbot’s account of that momentous council held in
the south to determine the future of England; but when Hugh
Beringar waited upon Radulfus about mid-afternoon, and asked for
audience, he was not kept waiting. Affairs demanded the close
co-operation of the secular and the clerical powers, in defence of
such order and law as survived in England.
The abbot’s private parlour in his lodging was as austere
as its presiding father, plainly furnished, but with sunlight
spilled across its flagged floor from two open lattices at this
hour of the sun’s zenith, and a view of gracious greenery and
glowing flowers in the small walled garden without. Quiverings of
radiance flashed and vanished and recoiled and collided over the
dark panelling within, from the new-budded life and fresh breeze
and exuberant light outside. Hugh sat in shadow, and watched the
abbot’s trenchant profile, clear, craggy and dark against a
ground of shifting brightness.
“My allegiance is well known to you, Father,” said
Hugh, admiring the stillness of the noble mask thus framed,
“as yours is to me. But there is much that we share. Whatever
you can tell me of what passed in Winchester, I do greatly need to
know.”
“And I to understand,” said Radulfus, with a tight
and rueful smile. “I went as summoned, by him who has a right
to summon me, and I went knowing how matters then stood, the king a
prisoner, the empress mistress of much of the south, and in due
position to claim sovereignty by right of conquest. We knew, you
and I both, what would be in debate down there. I can only give you
my own account as I saw it. The first day that we gathered there, a
Monday it was, the seventh of April, there was nothing done by way
of business but the ceremonial of welcoming us all, and reading
out—there were many of these!—the letters sent by way
of excuse from those who remained absent. The empress had a lodging
in the town then, though she made several moves about the region,
to Reading and other places, while we debated. She did not attend.
She has a measure of discretion.” His tone was dry. It was
not clear whether he considered her measure of that commodity to be
adequate or somewhat lacking. The second day…” He fell
silent, remembering what he had witnessed. Hugh waited attentively,
not stirring.
“The second day, the eighth of April, the legate made his
great speech…”
It was no effort to imagine him. Henry of Blois, bishop of
Winchester, papal legate, younger brother and hitherto partisan of
King Stephen, impregnably ensconced in the chapter house of his own
cathedral, secure master of the political pulse of England, the
cleverest manipulator in the kingdom, and on his own chosen
ground—and yet hounded on to the defensive, in so far as that
could ever happen to so expert a practitioner. Hugh had never seen
the man, never been near the region where he ruled, had only heard
him described, and yet could see him now, presiding with imperious
composure over his half-unwilling assembly. A difficult part he had
to play, to extricate himself from his known allegiance to his
brother, and yet preserve his face and his status and influence
with those who had shared it. And with a tough, experienced woman
narrowly observing his every word, and holding in reserve her own
new powers to destroy or preserve, according to how he managed his
ill-disciplined team in this heavy furrow.
“He spoke a tedious while,” said the abbot candidly,
“but he is a very able speaker. He put us in mind that we
were met together to try to salvage England from chaos and ruin. He
spoke of the late King Henry’s time, when order and peace was
kept throughout the land. And he reminded us how the old king, left
without a son, commanded his barons to swear an oath of allegiance
to his only remaining child, his daughter Maud the empress, now
widowed, and wed again to the count of Anjou.”
And so those barons had done, almost all, not least this same
Henry of Winchester. Hugh Beringar, who had never come to such a
test until he was ready to choose for himself, curled a
half-disdainful and half-commiserating lip, and nodded
understanding. “His lordship had somewhat to explain
away.”
The abbot refrained from indicating, by word or look, agreement
with the implied criticism of his brother cleric. “He said
that the long delay which might then have arisen from the
empress’s being in Normandy had given rise to natural concern
for the well-being of the state. An interim of uncertainty was
dangerous. And thus, he said, his brother Count Stephen was
accepted when he offered himself, and became king by consent. His
own part in this acceptance he admitted. For he it was who pledged
his word to God and men that King Stephen would honour and revere
the Holy Church, and maintain the good and just laws of the land.
In which undertaking, said Henry, the king has shamefully failed.
To his great chagrin and grief he declared it, having been his
brother’s guarantor to God.”
So that was the way round the humiliating change of course,
thought Hugh. All was to be laid upon Stephen, who had so deceived
his reverend brother and defaulted upon all his promises, that a
man of God might well be driven to the end of his patience, and be
brought to welcome a change of monarch with relief tempering his
sorrow.
“In particular,” said Radulfus, “he recalled
how the king had hounded certain of his bishops to their ruin and
death.”
There was more than a grain of truth in that, though the only
death in question, of Robert of Salisbury, had resulted naturally
from old age, bitterness and despair, because his power was
gone.
“Therefore, he said,” continued the abbot
with chill deliberation, “the judgement of God had been
manifested against the king, in delivering him up prisoner to his
enemies. And he, devout in the service of the Holy Church, must
choose between his devotion to his mortal brother and to his
immortal father, and could not but bow to the edict of heaven.
Therefore he had called us together, to ensure that a kingdom
lopped of its head should not founder in utter ruin. And this very
matter, he told the assembly, had been discussed most gravely on
the day previous among the greater part of the clergy of England,
who—he said!—had a prerogative surmounting
others in the election and consecration of a king.”
There was something in the dry, measured voice that made Hugh
prick up his ears. For this was a large and unprecedented claim,
and by all the signs Abbot Radulfus found it more than suspect. The
legate had his own face to save, and a well-oiled tongue with which
to wind the protective mesh of words before it.
“Was there such a meeting? Were you present at such,
Father?”
“There was a meeting,” said Radulfus, “not
prolonged, and by no means very clear in its course. The greater
part of the talking was done by the legate. The empress had her
partisans there.” He said it sedately and tolerantly, but
clearly he had not been one. “I do not recall that he then
claimed this prerogative for us. Nor that there was ever a count
taken.”
“Nor, as I guess, declared. It would not come to a
numbering of heads or hands.” Too easy, then, to start a
counter-count of one’s own, and confound the reckoning.
“He continued,” said Radulfus coolly and drily,
“by saying that we had chosen as Lady of England the late
king’s daughter, the inheritor of his nobility and his will
to peace. As the sire was unequalled in merit in our times, so
might his daughter flourish and bring peace, as he did, to this
troubled country, where we now offer her—he
said!—our whole-hearted fealty.”
So the legate had extricated himself as adroitly as possible
from his predicament. But for all that, so resolute, courageous and
vindictive a lady as the empress was going to look somewhat
sidewise at a whole-hearted fealty which had already once been
pledged to her, and turned its back nimbly under pressure, and
might as nimbly do so again. If she was wise she would curb her
resentment and take care to keep on the right side of the legate,
as he was cautiously feeling his way to the right side of her; but
she would not forget or forgive.
“And there was no man raised a word against it?”
asked Hugh mildly.
“None. There was small opportunity, and even less
inducement. And with that the bishop announced that he had invited
a deputation from the city of London, and expected them to arrive
that day, so that it was expedient we should adjourn our discussion
until the morrow. Even so, the Londoners did not come until next
day, and we met again somewhat later than on the days previous.
Howbeit, they did come. With somewhat dour faces and stiff necks.
They said that they represented the whole commune of London, into
which many barons had also entered as members after Lincoln, and
that they all, with no wish to challenge the legitimacy of our
assembly, yet desired to put forward with one voice the request
that the lord king should be set at liberty.”
“That was bold,” said Hugh with raised brows.
“How did his lordship counter it? Was he put out of
countenance?”
“I think he was shaken, but not disastrously, not then. He
made a long speech—it is a way of keeping others silent, at
least for a time—reproving the city for taking into its
membership men who had abandoned their king in war, after leading
him astray by their evil advice, so grossly that he forsook God and
right, and was brought to the judgement of defeat and captivity,
from which the prayers of those same false friends could not now
reprieve him. These men do but flatter and favour you now, he said,
for their own advantage.”
“If he meant the Flemings who ran from Lincoln,”
Hugh allowed, “he told no more than truth there. But for what
other end is the city ever flattered and wooed? What then? Had they
the hardihood to stand their ground against him?”
“They were in some disarray as to what they should reply,
and went apart to confer. And while there was quiet, a man suddenly
stepped forward from among the clerks, and held out a parchment to
Bishop Henry, asking him to read it aloud, so confidently that I
wonder still he did not at once comply. Instead, he opened and
began to read it in silence, and in a moment more he was thundering
in a great rage that the thing was an insult to the reverend
company present, its matter disgraceful, its witnesses attainted
enemies of Holy Church, and not a word of it would he read aloud to
us in so sacred a place as his chapter house.
“Whereupon,” said the abbot grimly, “the clerk
snatched it back from him, and himself read it aloud in a great
voice, riding above the bishop when he tried to silence him. It was
a plea from Stephen’s queen to all present, and to the legate
in especial, own brother to the king, to return to fealty and
restore the king to his own again from the base captivity into
which traitors had betrayed him. And I, said the brave man who
read, am a clerk in the service of Queen Matilda, and if any ask my
name, it is Christian, and true Christian I am as any here, and
true to my salt.”
“Brave, indeed!” said Hugh, and whistled softly.
“But I doubt it did him little good.”
“The legate replied to him in a tirade, much as he had
spoken already to us the day before, but in a great passion, and so
intimidated the men from London that they drew in their horns, and
grudgingly agreed to report the council’s election to their
citizens, and support it as best they could. As for the man
Christian, who had so angered Bishop Henry, he was attacked that
same evening in the street, as he set out to return to the queen
empty-handed. Four or five ruffians set on him in the dark, no one
knows who, for they fled when one of the empress’s knights
and his men came to the rescue and beat them off, crying shame to
use murder as argument in any cause, and against an honest man who
had done his part fearlessly in the open. The clerk got no worse
than a few bruises. It was the knight who got the knife between his
ribs from behind and into the heart. He died in the gutter of a
Winchester street. A shame to us all, who claim to be making peace
and bringing enemies into amity.”
By the shadowed anger of his face it had gone deep with him, the
single wanton act that denied all pretences of good will and
justice and conciliation. To strike at a man for being honestly of
the opposite persuasion, and then to strike again at the
fair-minded and chivalrous who sought to prevent the
outrage—very ill omens, these, for the future of the
legate’s peace.
“And no man taken for the killing?” demanded Hugh,
frowning.
“No. They fled in the dark. If any creature knows name or
hiding-place, he has spoken no word. Death is so common a matter
now, even by stealth and treachery in the darkness, this will be
forgotten with the rest. And the next day our council closed with
sentence of excommunication against a great number of
Stephen’s men, and the legate pronounced all men blessed who
would bless the empress, and accursed those who cursed her. And so
dismissed us,” said Radulfus. “But that we monastics
were not dismissed, but kept to attend on him some weeks
longer.”
“And the empress?”
“Withdrew to Oxford, while these long negotiations with
the city of London went on, how and when she should be admitted
within the gates, on what terms, what numbers she might bring in
with her to Westminster. On all which points they have wrangled
every step of the way. But in nine or ten days now she will be
installed there, and soon thereafter crowned.” He lifted a
long, muscular hand, and again let it fall into the lap of his
habit. “So, at least, it seems. What more can I tell you of
her?”
“I meant, rather,” said Hugh, “how is she
bearing this slow recognition? How is she dealing with her newly
converted barons? And how do they rub, one with another? It’s
no easy matter to hold together the old and the new liegemen, and
keep them from each other’s throats. A manor in dispute here
and there, a few fields taken from one and given to another…
I think you know the way of it, Father, as well as I.”
“I would not say she is a wise woman,” said Radulfus
carefully. “She is all too well aware how many swore
allegiance to her at her father’s order, and then swung to
King Stephen, and now as nimbly skip back to her because she is in
the ascendant. I can well understand she might take pleasure in
pricking into the quick where she can, among these. It is not wise,
but it is human. But that she should become lofty and cold to those
who never wavered—for there are some,” said the abbot
with respectful wonder, “who have been faithful throughout at
their own great loss, and will not waver even now, whatever she may
do. Great folly and great injustice to use them so highhandedly,
who have been her right hand and her left all this
while.”
You comfort me, thought Hugh, watching the lean, quiet face
intently. The woman is out of her wits if she flouts even the like
of Robert of Gloucester, now she feels herself so near the
throne.
“She has greatly offended the bishop-legate,” said
the abbot, “by refusing to allow Stephen’s son to
receive the rights and titles of his father’s honours of
Boulogne and Mortain, now that his father is a prisoner. It would
have been only justice. But no, she would not suffer it. Bishop
Henry quit her court for some while, it took her considerable pains
to lure him back again.”
Better and better, thought Hugh, assessing his position with
care. If she is stubborn enough to drive away even Henry, she can
undo everything he and others do for her. Put the crown in her
hands and she may, not so much drop it, as hurl it at someone
against whom she has a score to settle. He set himself to extract
every detail of her subsequent behaviour, and was cautiously
encouraged. She had taken land from some who held it and given it
to others. She had received her naturally bashful new adherents
with arrogance, and reminded them ominously of their past
hostility. Some she had even repulsed with anger, recalling old
injuries. Candidates for a disputed crown should be more
accommodatingly forgetful. Let her alone, and pray! She, if anyone,
could bring about her own ruin.
At the end of a long hour he rose to take his leave, with a very
fair picture in his mind of the possibilities he had to face. Even
empresses may learn, and she might yet inveigle herself safely into
Westminster and assume the crown. It would not do to underestimate
William of Normandy’s grand-daughter and Henry the
First’s daughter. Yet that very stock might come to wreck on
its own unforgiving strength.
He was never afterwards sure why he turned back at the last
moment to ask: “Father Abbot, this man Rainald Bossard, who
died… A knight of the empress, you said. In whose
following?”
All that he had learned he confided to Brother
Cadfael in the hut in the herb-garden, trying out upon his
friend’s unexcitable solidity his own impressions and doubts,
like a man sharpening a scythe on a good memorial stone. Cadfael
was fussing over a too-exuberant wine, and seemed not to be
listening, but Hugh remained undeceived. His friend had a sharp ear
cocked for every intonation, even turned a swift glance
occasionally to confirm what his ear heard, and reckon up the
double account.
“You’d best lean back, then,” said Cadfael
finally, “and watch what will follow. You might also, I
suppose, have a good man take a look at Bristol? He is the only
hostage she has. With the king loosed, or Robert, or Brian
Fitz-Count, or some other of sufficient note made prisoner to match
him, you’d be on secure ground. God forgive me, why am I
advising you, who have no prince in this world!” But he was
none too sure about the truth of that, having had brief, remembered
dealings with Stephen himself, and liked the man, even at his
ill-advised worst, when he had slaughtered the garrison of
Shrewsbury castle, to regret it as long as his ebullient memory
kept nudging him with the outrage. By now, in his dungeon in
Bristol, he might well have forgotten the uncharacteristic
savagery.
“And do you know,” asked Hugh with deliberation,
“whose man was this knight Rainald Bossard, left bleeding to
death in the lanes of Winchester? He for whom your prayers have
been demanded?”
Cadfael turned from his boisterously bubbling jar to narrow his
eyes on his friend’s face. “The empress’s man is
all we’ve been told. But I see you’re about to tell me
more.”
“He was in the following of Laurence
d’Angers.”
Cadfael straightened up with incautious haste, and grunted at
the jolt to his ageing back. It was the name of a man neither of
them had ever set eyes on, yet it started vivid memories for them
both.
“Yes, that Laurence! A baron of Gloucestershire,
and liegeman to the empress. One of the few who has not once turned
his coat yet in this to-ing and fro-ing, and uncle to those two
children you helped away from Bromfield to join him, when they went
astray after the sack of Worcester. Do you still remember the cold
of that winter? And the wind that scoured away hills of snow
overnight and laid them down in fresh places before morning? I
still feel it, clean through flesh and bone…”
There was nothing about that winter journey that Cadfael would
ever forget. It was hardly a year and a half past, the attack on
the city of Worcester, the flight of brother and sister northwards
towards Shrewsbury, through the worst weather for many a year.
Laurence d’Angers had been but a name in the business, as he
was now in this. An adherent of the Empress Maud, he had been
denied leave to enter King Stephen’s territory to search for
his young kin, but he had sent a squire in secret to find and fetch
them away. To have borne a hand in the escape of those three was
something to remember lifelong. All three arose living before
Cadfael’s mind’s eye, the boy Yves, thirteen years old
then, ingenuous and gallant and endearing, jutting a stubborn
Norman chin at danger, his elder sister Ermina, newly shaken into
womanhood and resolutely shouldering the consequences of her own
follies. And the third…
“I have often wondered,” said Hugh thoughtfully,
“how they fared afterwards. I knew you would get them off
safely, if I left it to you, but it was still a perilous road
before them. I wonder if we shall ever get word. Some day the world
will surely hear of Yves Hugonin.” At the thought of the boy
he smiled with affectionate amusement. “And that dark lad who
fetched them away, he who dressed like a woodsman and fought like a
paladin… I fancy you knew more of him than ever I got to
know.”
Cadfael smiled into the glow of the brazier and did not deny it.
“So his lord is there in the empress’s train, is he?
And this knight who was killed was in d’Angers’
service? That was a very ill thing, Hugh.”
“So Abbot Radulfus thinks,” said Hugh sombrely.
“In the dusk and in confusion—and all got clean
away, even the one who used the knife. A foul thing, for surely
that was no chance blow. The clerk Christian escaped out of their
hands, yet one among them turned on the rescuer before he fled. It
argues a deal of hate at being thwarted, to have ventured that last
moment before running. And is it left so? And Winchester full of
those who should most firmly stand for justice?”
“Why, some among them would surely have been well enough
pleased if that bold clerk had spilled his blood in the gutter, as
well as the knight. Some may well have set the hunt on
him.”
“Well for the empress’s good name,” said
Cadfael, “that there was one at least of her men stout enough
to respect an honest opponent, and stand by him to the death. And
shame if that death goes unpaid for.”
“Old friend,” said Hugh ruefully, rising to take his
leave, “England has had to swallow many such a shame these
last years. It grows customary to sigh and shrug and forget. At
which, as I know, you are a very poor hand. And I have seen you
overturn custom more than once, and been glad of it. But not even
you can do much now for Rainald Bossard, bar praying for his soul.
It is a very long way from here to Winchester.”
“It is not so far,” said Cadfael, as much to himself
as to his friend, “not by many a mile, as it was an hour
since.”
He went to Vespers, and to supper in the
refectory, and thereafter to Collations and Compline, and all with
one remembered face before his mind’s eye, so that he paid
but fractured attention to the readings, and had difficulty in
concentrating his thoughts on prayer. Though it might have been a
kind of prayer he was offering throughout, in gratitude and praise
and humility.
So suave, so young, so dark and vital a face, startling in its
beauty when he had first seen it over the girl’s shoulder,
the face of the young squire sent to bring away the Hugonin
children to their uncle and guardian. A long, spare, wide-browed
face, with a fine scimitar of a nose and a supple bow of a mouth,
and the fierce, fearless, golden eyes of a hawk. A head capped
closely with curving, blue-black hair, coiling crisply at his
temples and clasping his cheeks like folded wings. So young and yet
so formed a face, east and west at home in it, shaven clean like a
Norman, olive-skinned like a Syrian, all his memories of the Holy
Land in one human countenance. The favourite squire of Laurence
d’Angers, come home with him from the Crusade. Olivier de
Bretagne.
If his lord was there in the south with his following, in the
empress’s retinue, where else would Olivier be? The abbot
might even have rubbed shoulders with him, unbeknown, or seen him
ride past at his lord’s elbow, and for one absent moment
admired his beauty. Few such faces blaze out of the humble mass of
our ordinariness, thought Cadfael, the finger of God cannot choose
but mark them out for notice, and his officers here will be the
first to recognise and own them.
And this Rainald Bossard who is dead, an honourable man doing
right by an honourable opponent, was Olivier’s comrade,
owning the same lord and pledged to the same service. His death
will be grief to Olivier. Grief to Olivier is grief to me, a wrong
done to Olivier is a wrong done to me. As far away as Winchester
may be, here am I left mourning in that dark street where a man
died for a generous act, in which, by the same token, he did not
fail, for the clerk Christian lived on to return to his lady, the
queen, with his errand faithfully done.
The gentle rustlings and stirrings of the dortoir sighed into
silence outside the frail partitions of Cadfael’s cell long
before he rose from his knees, and shook off his san dais. The
little lamp by the night stairs cast only the faintest gleam across
the beams of the roof, a ceiling of pearly grey above the darkness
of his cell, his home now for—was it eighteen years or
nineteen?—he had difficulty in recalling. It was as if a part
of him, heart, mind, soul, whatever that essence might be, had not
so much retired as come home to take seisin of a heritage here, his
from his birth. And yet he remembered and acknowledged with
gratitude and joy the years of his sojourning in the world, the
lusty childhood and venturous youth, the taking of the Cross and
the passion of the Crusade, the women he had known and loved, the
years of his sea-faring off the coast of the Holy Kingdom of
Jerusalem, all that pilgrimage that had led him here at last to his
chosen retreat. None of it wasted, however foolish and amiss,
nothing lost, nothing vain, all of it somehow fitting him to the
narrow niche where now he served and rested. God had given him a
sign, he had no need to regret anything, only to lay all open and
own it his. For God’s viewing, not for man’s.
He lay quiet in the darkness, straight and still like a man
coffined, but easy, with his arms lax at his sides, and his
half-closed eyes dreaming on the vault above him, where the faint
light played among the beams.
There was no lightning that night, only a consort of steady
rolls of thunder both before and after Matins and Lauds, so
unalarming that many among the brothers failed to notice them.
Cadfael heard them as he rose, and as he returned to his rest. They
seemed to him a reminder and a reassurance that Winchester had
indeed moved nearer to Shrewsbury, and consoled him that his
grievance was not overlooked, but noted in heaven, and he might
look to have his part yet in collecting the debt due to Rainald
Bossard. Upon which warranty, he fell asleep.
Chapter Three
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On the seventeenth day of June Saint
Winifred’s elaborate oak coffin, silver-ornamented and lined
with lead behind all its immaculate seals, was removed from its
place of honour and carried with grave and subdued ceremony back to
its temporary resting-place in the chapel of the hospital of Saint
Giles, there to wait, as once before, for the auspicious day, the
twenty-second of June. The weather was fair, sunny and still,
barely a cloud in the sky, and yet cool enough for travelling, the
best of weather for pilgrims. And by the eighteenth day the
pilgrims began to arrive, a scattering of fore-runners before the
full tide began to flow.
Brother Cadfael had watched the reliquary depart on its memorial
journey with a slightly guilty mind, for all his honest declaration
that he could hardly have done otherwise than he had done, there in
the summer night in Gwytherin. So strongly had he felt, above all,
her Welshness, the feeling she must have for the familiar tongue
about her, and the tranquil flow of the seasons in her solitude,
where she had slept so long and so well in her beatitude, and
worked so many small, sweet miracles for her own people. No, he
could not believe he had made a wrong choice there. If only she
would glance his way, and smile, and say, well done!
The very first of the pilgrims came probing into the walled
herb-garden, with Brother Denis’s directions to guide him, in
search of a colleague in his own mystery.
Cadfael was busy weeding the close-planted beds of mint and
thyme and sage late in the afternoon, a tedious, meticulous labour
in the ripeness of a favourable June, after spring sun and shower
had been nicely balanced, and growth was a green battlefield. He
backed out of a cleansed bed, and backed into a solid form, rising
startled from his knees to turn and face a rusty black brother
shaped very much like himself, though probably fifteen years
younger. They stood at gaze, two solid, squarely built brethren of
the Order, eyeing each other in instant recognition and
acknowledgement.
“You must be Brother Cadfael,” said the
stranger-brother in a broad, melodious bass voice. “Brother
Hospitaller told me where to find you. My name is Adam, a brother
of Reading. I have the very charge there that you bear here, and I
have heard tell of you, even as far south as my house.”
His eye was roving, as he spoke, towards some of Cadfael’s
rarer treasures, the eastern poppies he had brought from the Holy
Land and reared here with anxious care, the delicate fig that still
contrived to thrive against the sheltering north wall, where the
sun nursed it. Cadfael warmed to him for the quickening of his eye,
and the mild greed that flushed the round, shaven face. A sturdy,
stalwart man, who moved as if confident of his body, one who might
prove a man of his hands if challenged. Well-weathered, too, a
genuine outdoor man.
“You’re more than welcome, brother,” said
Cadfael heartily. “You’ll be here for the saint’s
feast? And have they found you a place in the dortoir? There are a
few cells vacant, for any of our own who come, like you.”
“My abbot sent me from Reading with a mission to our
daughter house ofLeominster,” said Brother Adam, probing with
an experimental toe into the rich, well-fed loam of Brother
Cadfael’s bed of mint, and raising an eyebrow respectfully at
the quality he found. “I asked if I might prolong the errand
to attend on the translation of Saint Winifred, and I was given the
needful permission. It’s seldom I could hope to be sent so
far north, and it would be pity to miss such an
opportunity.”
“And they’ve found you a brother’s bed?”
Such a man, Benedictine, gardener and herbalist, could not be
wasted on a bed in the guest-hall. Cadfael coveted him, marking the
bright eye with which the newcomer singled out his best
endeavours.
“Brother Hospitaller was so gracious. I am placed in a
cell close to the novices.”
“We shall be near neighbours,” said Cadfael
contentedly. “Now come, I’ll show you whatever we have
here to show, for the main garden is on the far side of the
Foregate, along the bank of the river. But here I keep my own
herber. And if there should be anything here that can be safely
carried to Reading, you may take cuttings most gladly before you
leave us.”
They fell into a very pleasant and voluble discussion,
perambulating all the walks of the closed garden, and comparing
experiences in cultivation and use. Brother Adam of Reading had a
sharp eye for rarities, and was likely to go home laden with
spoils. He admired the neatness and order of Cadfael’s
workshop, the collection of rustling bunches of dried herbs hung
from the roof-beams and under the eaves, and the array of bottles,
jars and flagons along the shelves. He had hints and tips of his
own to propound, too, and the amiable contest kept them happy all
the afternoon. When they returned together to the great court
before Vespers it was to a scene notably animated, as if the bustle
of celebration was already beginning. There were horses being led
down into the stableyard, and bundles being carried in at the
guest-hall. A stout elderly man, well equipped for riding, paced
across towards the church to pay his first respects on arrival,
with a servant trotting at his heels.
Brother Paul’s youngest charges, all eyes and curiosity,
ringed the gatehouse to watch the early arrivals, and were shooed
aside by Brother Jerome, very busy as usual with all the
prior’s errands. Though the boys did not go very far, and
formed their ring again as soon as Jerome was out of sight. A few
of the citizens of the Foregate had gathered in the street to
watch, excited dogs running among their legs.
“Tomorrow,” said Cadfael, eyeing the scene,
“there will be many more. This is but the beginning. Now if
the weather stays fair we shall have a very fine festival for our
saint.”
And she will understand that all is in her honour, he thought
privately, even if she does lie very far from here. And who knows
whether she may not pay us a visit, out of the kindness of her
heart? What is distance to a saint, who can be where she wills in
the twinkling of an eye?
The guest-hall filled steadily on the morrow. All
day long they came, some singly, some in groups as they had met and
made comfortable acquaintance on the road, some afoot, some on
ponies, some whole and hearty and on holiday, some who had
travelled only a few miles, some who came from far away, and among
them a number who went on crutches, or were led along by
better-sighted friends, or had grievous deformities or skin
diseases, or debilitating illnesses; and all these hoping for
relief.
Cadfael went about the regular duties of his day, divided
between church and herbarium, but with an interested eye open for
all there was to see whenever he crossed the great court, boiling
now with activity. Every arriving figure, every face, engaged his
notice, but as yet distantly, none being provided with a name, to
make him individual. Such of them as needed his services for relief
would be directed to him, such as came his way by chance would be
entitled to his whole attention, freely offered.
It was the woman he noticed first, bustling across the court
from the gatehouse to the guest-hall with a basket on her arm,
fresh from the Foregate market with new-baked bread and little
cakes, soon after Prime. A careful housewife, to be off marketing
so early even on holiday, decided about what she wanted, and not
content to rely on the abbey bakehouse to provide it. A sturdy,
confident figure of a woman, perhaps fifty years of age but in full
rosy bloom. Her dress was sober and plain, but of good material and
proudly kept, her wimple snow-white beneath her head-cloth of brown
linen. She was not tall, but so erect that she could pass for tall,
and her face was round, wide-eyed and broad-cheeked, with a
determined chin to it.
She vanished briskly into the guest-hall, and he caught but a
glimpse of her, but she was positive enough to stay with him
through the offices and duties of the morning, and as the
worshippers left the church after Mass he caught sight of her
again, arms spread like a hen-wife driving her birds, marshalling
two chicks, it seemed, before her, both largely concealed beyond
her ample width and bountiful skirts. Indeed she had a general
largeness about her, her head-dress surely taller and broader than
need, her hips bolstered by petticoats, the aura of bustle and
command she bore about with her equally generous and ebullient. He
felt a wave of warmth go out to her for her energy and vigour,
while he spared a morsel of sympathy for the chicks she mothered,
stowed thus away beneath such ample, smothering wings.
In the afternoon, busy about his small kingdom and putting
together the medicaments he must take along the Foregate to Saint
Giles in the morning, to be sure they had provision enough over the
feast, he was not thinking of her, nor of any of the inhabitants of
the guest-hall, since none had as yet had occasion to call for his
aid. He was packing lozenges into a small box, soothing tablets for
scoured, dry throats, when a bulky shadow blocked the open door of
his workshop, and a brisk, light voice said, “Pray your
pardon, brother, but Brother Denis advised me to come to you, and
sent me here.”
And there she stood, filling the doorway, shoulders squared,
hands folded at her waist, head braced and face full forward. Her
eyes, wide and wide-set, were bright blue but meagrely supplied
with pale lashes, yet very firm and fixed in their regard.
“It’s my young nephew, you see, brother,” she
went on confidently, “my sister’s son, that was fool
enough to go off and marry a roving Welshman from Builth, and now
her man’s gone, and so is she, poor lass, and left her two
children orphan, and nobody to care for them but me. And me with my
own husband dead, and all his craft fallen to me to manage, and
never a chick of my own to be my comfort. Not but what I can do
very well with the work and the journeymen, for I’ve learned
these twenty years what was what in the weaving trade, but still I
could have done with a son of my own. But it was not to be, and a
sister’s son is dearly welcome, so he is, whether he has his
health or no, for he’s the dearest lad ever you saw. And
it’s the pain, you see, brother. I don’t like to see
him in pain, though he doesn’t complain. So I’m come to
you.”
Cadfael made haste to wedge a toe into this first chink in her
volubility, and insert a few words of his own into the gap.
“Come within, mistress, and welcome. Tell me what’s
the nature of your lad’s pain, and what I can do for you and
him I’ll do. But best I should see him and speak with him,
for he best knows where he hurts. Sit down and be easy, and tell me
about him.”
She came in confidently enough, and settled herself with a
determined spreading of ample skirts on the bench against the wall.
Her gaze went round the laden shelves, the stored herbs dangling,
the brazier and the pots and flasks, interested and curious, but in
no way awed by Cadfael or his mysteries.
“I’m from the cloth country down by Campden,
brother, Weaver by name and by trade was my man, and his father and
grandfather before him, and Alice Weaver is my name, and I keep up
the work just as he did. But this young sister of mine, she went
off with a Welshman, and the pair of them are dead now, and the
children I sent for to live with me. The girl is eighteen years old
now, a good, hard-working maid, and I daresay we shall contrive to
find a decent match for her in the end, though I shall miss her
help, for she’s grown very handy, and is strong and healthy,
not like the lad. Named for some outlandish Welsh saint, she is,
Melangell, if ever you heard the like!”
“I’m Welsh myself,” said Cadfael cheerfully.
“Our Welsh names do come hard on your English tongues, I
know.”
“Ah well, the boy brought a name with him that’s
short and simple enough. Rhun, they named him. Sixteen he is now,
two years younger than his sister, but wants her heartiness, poor
soul. He’s well-grown enough, and very comely, but from a
child something went wrong with his right leg, it’s twisted
and feebled so he can put but the very toe of it to the ground at
all, and even that turned on one side, and can lay no weight on it,
but barely touch. He goes on two crutches. And I’ve brought
him here in the hope good Saint Winifred will do something for him.
But it’s cost him dear to make the walk, even though we
started out three weeks ago, and have taken it by easy
shifts.”
“He’s walked the whole way?” asked Cadfael,
dismayed.
“I’m not so prosperous I can afford a horse, more
than the one they need for the business at home. Twice on the way a
kind carter did give him a ride as far as he was bound, but the
rest he’s hobbled on his crutches. Many another at this
feast, brother, will have done as much, in as bad case or worse.
But he’s here now, safe in the guest-hall, and if my prayers
can do anything for him, he’ll walk home again on two sound
legs as ever held up a hale and hearty man. But now for these few
days he suffers as bad as before.”
“You should have brought him here with you,” said
Cadfael. “What’s the nature of his pain? Is it in
moving, or when he lies still? Is it the bones of the leg that
ache?”
“It’s worst in his bed at night. At home I’ve
often heard him weeping for pain in the night, though he tries to
keep it so silent we need not be disturbed. Often he gets little or
no sleep. His bones do ache, that’s truth, but also the
sinews of his calf knot into such cramps it makes him
groan.”
“There can be something done about that,” said
Cadfael, considering. “At least we may try. And there are
draughts can dull the pain and help him to a night’s sleep,
at any rate.”
“It isn’t that I don’t trust to the
saint,” explained Mistress Weaver anxiously. “But while
he waits for her, let him be at rest if he can, that’s what I
say. Why should not a suffering lad seek help from ordinary decent
mortals, too, good men like you who have faith and knowledge
both?”
“Why not, indeed!” agreed Cadfael. “The least
of us may be an instrument of grace, though not by his own
deserving. Better let the boy come to me here, where we can be
private together. The guest-hall will be busy and noisy, here we
shall have quiet.”
She rose, satisfied, to take her leave, but she had plenty yet
to say even in departing of the long, slow journey, the small
kindnesses they had met with on the way, and the fellow pilgrims,
some of whom had passed them and arrived here before them.
“There’s more than one in there,” said she,
wagging her head towards the lofty rear wall of the guest-hall,
“will be needing your help, besides my Rhun. There were two
young fellows we came along with the last days, we could keep pace
with them, for they were slowed much as we were. Oh, the one of
them was hale and lusty enough, but would not stir a step ahead of
his friend, and that poor soul had come barefoot more miles even
than Rhun had come crippled, and his feet a sight for pity, but
would he so much as bind them with rags? Not he! He said he was
under vow to go unshod to his journey’s end. And a great
heavy cross on a string round his neck, too, and he rubbed raw with
the chafing of it, but that was part of his vow, too. I see no
reason why a fine young fellow should choose such a torment of his
own will, but there, folk do strange things, I daresay he hopes to
win some great mercy for himself with his austerities. Still, I
should think he might at least get some balm for his feet, while
he’s here at rest? Shall I bid him come to you? I’d
gladly do a small service for that pair. The other one, Matthew,
the sturdy one, he hefted my girl safe out of the way of harm when
some mad horsemen in a hurry all but rode us down into the ditch,
and he carried our bundles for her after, for she was well loaded,
I being busy helping Rhun along. Truth to tell, I think the young
man was taken with our Melangell, for he was very attentive to her
once we joined company. More than to his friend, though indeed he
never stirred a step away from him. A vow is a vow, I suppose, and
if a man’s taken all that suffering on himself of his own
will, what can another do to prevent it? No more than bear him
company, and that the lad is doing, faithfully, for he never leaves
him.”
She was out of the door and spreading appreciative nostrils for
the scent of the sunlit herbs, when she looked back to add:
“There’s others among them may call themselves pilgrims
as loud and often as they will, but I wouldn’t trust one or
two of them as far as I could throw them. I suppose rogues will
make their way everywhere, even among the saints.”
“As long as the saints have money in their purses, or
anything about them worth stealing,” agreed Cadfael wryly,
“rogues will never be far away.”
Whether Mistress Weaver did speak to her strange
travelling companion or not, it was he who arrived at
Cadfael’s workshop within half an hour, before ever the boy
Rhun showed his face. Cadfael was back at his weeding when he heard
them come, or heard, rather, the slow, patient footsteps of the
sturdy one stirring the gravel of his pathways. The other made no
sound in walking, for he stepped tenderly and carefully in the
grass border, which was cool and kind to his misused feet. If there
was any sound to betray his coming it was the long, effortful
sighing of his breath, the faint, indrawn hiss of pain. As soon as
Cadfael straightened his back and turned his head, he knew who
came.
They were much of an age, and even somewhat alike in build and
colouring, above middle height but that the one stooped in his
laboured progress, brown-haired and dark of eye, and perhaps
twenty-five or twenty-six years old. Yet not so like that they
could have been brothers or close kin. The hale one had the darker
complexion, as though he had been more in the air and the sun, and
broader bones of cheek and jaw, a stubborn, proud, secret face,
disconcertingly still, confiding nothing. The sufferer’s face
was long, mobile and passionate, with high cheekbones and hollow
cheeks beneath them, and a mouth tight-drawn, either with present
pain or constant passion. Anger might be one of his customary
companions, burning ardour another. The young man Matthew stalked
at his heels mute and jealously watchful in attendance on him.
Mindful of Mistress Weaver’s loquacious confidences,
Cadfael looked from the scarred and swollen feet to the chafed
neck. Within the collar of his plain dark coat the votary had wound
a length of linen cloth, to alleviate the rubbing of the thin cord
from which a heavy cross of iron, chaced in a leaf pattern with
what looked like gold, hung down upon his breast. By the look of
the seam of red that marked the linen, either this padding was new,
or else it had not been effective. The cord was mercilessly thin,
the cross certainly heavy. To what desperate end could a young man
choose so to torture himself? And what pleasure did he think it
could give to God or Saint Winifred to contemplate his
discomfort?
Eyes feverishly bright scanned him. A low voice asked:
“You are Brother Cadfael? That is the name Brother
Hospitaller gave me. He said you would have ointments and salves
that could be of help to me. So far,” he added, eyeing
Cadfael with glittering fixity, “as there is any help
anywhere for me.”
Cadfael gave him a considering look for that, but asked nothing
until he had marshalled the pair of them into his workshop and sat
the sufferer down to be inspected with due care. The young man
Matthew took up his stand beside the open door, careful to avoid
blocking the light, but would not come further within.
“You’ve come a fairish step unshod,” said
Cadfael, on his knees to examine the damage. “Was such
cruelty needful?”
“It was. I do not hate myself so much as to bear this to
no purpose.” The silent youth by the door stirred slightly,
but said no word. “I am under vow,” said his companion,
“and will not break it.” It seemed that he felt a need
to account for himself, forestalling questioning. “My name is
Ciaran, I am of a Welsh mother, and I am going back to where I was
born, there to end my life as I began it. You see the wounds on my
feet, brother, but what most ails me does not show anywhere upon
me. I have a fell disease, no threat to any other, but it must
shortly end me.”
And it could be true, thought Cadfael, busy with a cleansing oil
on the swollen soles, and the toes cut by gravel and stones. The
feverish fire of the deep-set eyes might well mean an even fiercer
fire within. True, the young body, now eased in repose, was
well-made and had not lost flesh, but that was no sure proof of
health. Ciaran’s voice remained low, level and firm. If he
knew he had his death, he had come to terms with it.
“So I am returning in penitential pilgrimage, for my
soul’s health, which is of greater import. Barefoot and
burdened I shall walk to the house of canons at Aberdaron, so that
after my death I may be buried on the holy isle of Ynys Enlli,
where the soil is made up of the bones and dust of thousands upon
thousands of saints.”
“I should have thought,” said Cadfael mildly,
“that such a privilege could be earned by going there shod
and tranquil and humble, like any other man.” But for all
that, it was an understandable ambition for a devout man of Welsh
extraction, knowing his end near. Aberdaron, at the tip of the
Lleyn peninsula, fronting the wild sea and the holiest island of
the Welsh church, had been the last resting place of many, and the
hospitality of the canons of the house was never refused to any
man. “I would not cast doubt on your sacrifice, but
self-imposed suffering seems to me a kind of arrogance, and not
humility.”
“It may be so,” said Ciaran remotely. “No help
for it now, I am bound.”
“That is true,” said Matthew from his corner by the
door. A measured and yet an abrupt voice, deeper than his
companion’s. “Fast bound! So are we both, I no less
than he.”
“Hardly by the same vows,” said Cadfael drily. For
Matthew wore good, solid shoes, a little down at heel, but proof
against the stones of the road.
“No, not the same. But no less binding. And I do not
forget mine, any more than he forgets his.”
Cadfael laid down the foot he had anointed, setting a folded
cloth under it, and lifted its fellow into his lap. “God
forbid I should tempt any man to break his oath. You will both do
as you must do. But at least you may rest your feet here until
after the feast, which will give you three days for healing, and
here within the pale the ground is not so harsh. And once healed, I
have a rough spirit that will help to harden your soles for when
you take to the road again. Why not, unless you have forsworn all
help from men? And since you came to me, I take it you have not yet
gone so far. There, sit a while longer, and let that
dry.”
He rose from his knees, surveying his work critically, and
turned his attention next to the linen wrapping about
Ciaran’s neck. He laid both hands gently on the cord by which
the cross depended, and made to lift it over the young man’s
head.
“No, no, let be!” It was a soft, wild cry of alarm,
and Ciaran clutched at cross and cord, one with either hand, and
hugged his burden to him fiercely. “Don’t touch it! Let
it be!”
“Surely,” said Cadfael, startled, “you may
lift it off while I dress the wound it’s cost you? Hardly a
moment’s work, why not?”
“No!” Ciaran fastened both hands upon the
cross and hugged it to his breast. “No, never for a moment,
night or day! No! Let it alone!”
“Lift it, then,” said Cadfael resignedly, “and
hold it while I dress this cut. No, never fear, I’ll not
cheat you. Only let me unwind this cloth, and see what damage you
have there, hidden.”
“Yet he should doff it, and so I have prayed him
constantly,” said Matthew softly. “How else can he be
truly rid of his pains?”
Cadfael unwound the linen, viewed the scored line of half-dried
blood, still oozing, and went to work on it with a stinging lotion
first to clean it of dust and fragments of frayed skin, and then
with a healing ointment of cleavers. He refolded the cloth, and
wound it carefully under the cord. “There, you have not
broken faith. Settle your load again. If you hold up the weight in
your hands as you go, and loosen it in your bed, you’ll be
rid of your gash before you depart.”
It seemed to him that they were both of them in haste to leave
him, for the one set his feet tenderly to ground as soon as he was
released, holding up the weight of his cross obediently with both
hands, and the other stepped out through the doorway into the
sunlit garden, and waited on guard for his friend to emerge. The
one owed no special thanks, the other offered only the merest
acknowledgement.
“But I would remind you both,” said Cadfael, and
with a thoughtful eye on both, “that you are now present at
the feast of a saint who has worked many miracles, even to the
defiance of death. One who may have life itself within her
gift,” he said strongly, “even for a man already
condemned to death. Bear it in mind, for she may be listening
now!”
They said never a word, neither did they look at each other.
They stared back at him from the scented brightness of the garden
with startled, wary eyes, and then they turned abruptly as one man,
and limped and strode away.
Chapter Four
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There was so short an interval, and so little
weeding done, before the second pair appeared, that Cadfael could
not choose but reason that the two couples must have met at the
corner of his herber, and perhaps exchanged at least a friendly
word or two, since they had travelled side by side the last miles
of their road here.
The girl walked solicitously beside her brother, giving him the
smoothest part of the path, and keeping a hand supportingly under
his left elbow, ready to prop him at need, but barely touching. Her
face was turned constantly towards him, eager and loving. If he was
the tended darling, and she the healthy beast of burden, certainly
she had no quarrel with the division. Though just once she did look
back over her shoulder, with a different, a more tentative smile.
She was neat and plain in her homespun country dress, her hair
austerely braided, but her face was vivid and glowing as a rose,
and her movements, even at her brother’s pace, had a spring
and grace to them that spoke of a high and ardent spirit. She was
fair for a Welsh girl, her hair a coppery gold, her brows darker,
arched hopefully above wide blue eyes. Mistress Weaver could not be
far out in supposing that a young man who had hefted this neat
little woman out of harm’s way in his arms might well
remember the experience with pleasure, and not be averse to
repeating it. If he could take his eyes from his fellow-pilgrim
long enough to attempt it!
The boy came leaning heavily on his crutches, his right leg
dangling inertly, turned with the toe twisted inward, and barely
brushing the ground. If he could have stood erect he would have
been a hand’s-breadth taller than his sister, but thus
hunched he looked even shorter. Yet the young body was beautifully
proportioned, Cadfael judged, watching his approach with a
thoughtful eye, wide-shouldered, slim-flanked, the one good leg
long, vigorous and shapely. He carried little flesh, indeed he
could have done with more, but if he spent his days habitually in
pain it was unlikely he had much appetite.
Cadfael’s study of him had begun at the twisted foot, and
travelling upward, came last to the boy’s face. He was fairer
than the girl, wheat-gold of hair and brows, his thin, smooth face
like ivory, and the eyes that met Cadfael’s were a light,
brilliant grey-blue, clear as crystal between long, dark lashes. It
was a very still and tranquil face, one that had learned patient
endurance, and expected to have need of it lifelong. It was clear
to Cadfael, in that first exchange of glances, that Rhun did not
look for any miraculous deliverance, whatever Mistress
Weaver’s hopes might be.
“If you please,” said the girl shyly, “I have
brought my brother, as my aunt said I should. And his name is Rhun,
and mine is Melangell.”
“She has told me about you,” said Cadfael, beckoning
them with him towards his workshop. “A long journey
you’ve had of it. Come within, and let’s make you as
easy as we may, while I take a look at this leg of yours. Was there
ever an injury brought this on? A fall, or a kick from a horse? Or
a bout of the bone-fever?” He settled the boy on the long
bench, took the crutches from him and laid them aside, and turned
him so that he could stretch out his legs at rest.
The boy, with grave eyes steady on Cadfael’s face, slowly
shook his head. “No such accident,” he said in a
man’s low, clear voice. “It came. I think, slowly, but
I don’t remember a time before it. They say I began to falter
and fall when I was three or four years old.”
Melangell, hesitant in the doorway—strangely like
Ciaran’s attendant shadow, thought Cadfael—had her chin
on her shoulder now, and turned almost hastily to say: “Rhun
will tell you all his case. He’ll be better private with you.
I’ll come back later, and wait on the seat outside there
until you need me.”
Rhun’s light, bright eyes, transparent as sunlit ice,
smiled at her warmly over Cadfael’s shoulder. “Do
go,” he said. “So fine and sunny a day, you should make
good use of it, without me dangling about you.”
She gave him a long, anxious glance, but half her mind was
already away; and satisfied that he was in good hands, she made her
hasty reverence, and fled. They were left looking at each other,
strangers still, and yet in tentative touch.
“She goes to find Matthew,” said Rhun simply,
confident of being understood. “He was good to her. And to
me, also—once he carried me the last piece of the way to our
night’s lodging on his back. She likes him, and he would like
her, if he could truly see her, but he seldom sees anyone but
Ciaran.”
This blunt simplicity might well get him the reputation of an
innocent, though that would be the world’s mistake. What he
saw, he said—provided, Cadfael hoped, he had already taken
the measure of the person to whom he spoke—and he saw more
than most, having so much more need to observe and record, to fill
up the hours of his day.
“They were here?” asked Rhun, shifting obediently to
allow Cadfael to strip down the long hose from his hips and his
maimed leg.
“They were here. Yes, I know.”
“I would like her to be happy.”
“She has it in her to be very happy,” said Cadfael,
answering in kind, almost without his will. The boy had a quality
of dazzle about him that made unstudied answers natural,
almost inevitable. There had been, he thought, the slightest of
stresses on ‘her’. Rhun had little enough expectation
that he could ever be happy, but he wanted happiness for his
sister. “Now pay heed,” said Cadfael, bending to his
own duties, “for this is important. Close your eyes, and be
at ease as far as you can, and tell me where I find a spot that
gives pain. First, thus at rest, is there any pain now?”
Docilely Rhun closed his eyes and waited, breathing softly.
“No, I am quite easy now.”
Good, for all his sinews lay loose and trustful, and at least in
that state he felt no pain. Cadfael began to finger his way, at
first very gently and soothingly, all down the thigh and calf of
the helpless leg, probing and manipulating. Thus stretched out at
rest, the twisted limb partially regained its proper alignment, and
showed fairly formed, though much wasted by comparison with the
left, and marred by the intumed toe and certain tight, bunched
knots of sinew in the calf. He sought out these, and let his
fingers dig deep there, wrestling with hard tissue.
“There I feel it,” said Rhun, breathing deep.
“It doesn’t feel like pain—yes, it hurts, but not
for crying. A good hurt…”
Brother Cadfael oiled his hands, smoothed a palm over the
shrunken calf, and went to work with firm fingertips, working
tendons unexercised for years, beyond that tensed touch of toe upon
ground. He was gentle and slow, feeling for the hard cores of
resistance. There were unnatural tensions there, that would not
melt to him yet. He let his fingers work softly, and his mind probe
elsewhere.
“You were orphaned early. How long have you been with your
Aunt Weaver?”
“Seven years now,” said Rhun almost drowsily,
soothed by the circling fingers. “I know we are a burden to
her, but she never says it, nor she would never let any other say
it. She has a good business, but small, it provides her needs and
keeps two men at work, but she is not rich. Melangell works hard
keeping the house and the kitchen, and earns her keep. I have
learned to weave, but I am slow at it. I can neither stand for long
nor sit for long, I am no profit to her. But she never speaks of
it, for all she has an edge to her tongue when she
pleases.”
“She would,” agreed Cadfael peacefully. “A
woman with many cares is liable to be short in her speech now and
again, and no ill meant. She has brought you here for a miracle.
You know that? Why else would you all three have walked all this
way, measuring out the stages day by day at your pace? And yet I
think you have no expectation of grace. Do you not believe Saint
Winifred can do wonders?”
“I?” The boy was startled, he opened great eyes
clearer than the clear waters Cadfael had navigated long ago, in
the eastern fringes of the Midland Sea, over pale and glittering
sand. “Oh, you mistake me, I do believe. But why for
me? In case like mine we come by our thousands, in worse case by
the hundred. How dare I ask to be among the first? Besides, what I
have I can bear. There are some who cannot bear what they have. The
saint will know where to choose. There is no reason her choice
should fall on me.”
“Then why did you consent to come?” Cadfael
asked.
Rhun turned his head aside, and eyelids blue-veined like the
petals of anemones veiled his eyes. “They wished it, I did
what they wanted. And there was Melangell…”
Yes, Melangell who was altogether comely and bright and a charm
to the eye, thought Cadfael. Her brother knew her dowryless, and
wished her a little of joy and a decent marriage, and there at
home, working hard in house and kitchen, and known for a penniless
niece, suitors there were none. A venture so far upon the roads, to
mingle with so various a company, might bring forth who could tell
what chances?
In moving Rhun had plucked at a nerve that gripped and twisted
him, he eased himself back against the timber wall with aching
care. Cadfael drew up the homespun hose over the boy’s
nakedness, knotted him decent, and gently drew down his feet, the
sound and the crippled, to the beaten earth floor.
“Come again to me tomorrow, after High Mass, for I think I
can help you, if only a little. Now sit until I see if that sister
of yours is waiting, and if not, you may rest easy until she comes.
And I’ll give you a single draught to take this night when
you go to your bed. It will ease your pain and help you to
sleep.”
The girl was there, still and solitary against the sun-warmed
wall, the brightness of her face clouded over, as though some eager
expectation had turned into a grey disappointment; but at the sight
of Rhun emerging she rose with a resolute smile for him, and her
voice was as gay and heartening as ever as they moved slowly
away.
He had an opportunity to study all of them next
day at High Mass, when doubtless his mind should have been on
higher things, but obstinately would not rise above the quivering
crest of Mistress Weaver’s head-cloth, and the curly dark
crown of Matthew’s thick crop of hair. Almost all the
inhabitants of the guest-halls, the gentles who had separate
apartments as well as the male and female pilgrims who shared the
two common dortoirs, came in their best to this one office of the
day, whatever they did with the rest of it. Mistress Weaver paid
devout attention to every word of the office, and several times
nudged Melangell sharply in the ribs to recall her to duty, for as
often as not her head was turned sidewise, and her gaze directed
rather at Matthew than at the altar. No question but her fancy, if
not her whole heart, was deeply engaged there. As for Matthew, he
stood at Ciaran’s shoulder, always within touch. But twice at
least he looked round, and his brooding eyes rested, with no change
of countenance, upon Melangell. Yet on the one occasion when their
glances met, it was Matthew who turned abruptly away.
That young man, thought Cadfael, aware of the broken encounter
of eyes, has a thing to do which no girl must be allowed to hinder
or spoil: to get his fellow safely to his journey’s end at
Aberdaron.
He was already a celebrated figure in the enclave, this Ciaran.
There was nothing secret about him, he spoke freely and humbly of
himself. He had been intended for ordination, but had not yet gone
beyond the first step as sub-deacon, and had not reached, and now
never would reach, the tonsure. Brother Jerome, always a man to
insinuate himself as close as might be to any sign of superlative
virtue and holiness, had cultivated and questioned him, and freely
retailed what he had learned to any of the brothers who would
listen. The story of Ciaran’s mortal sickness and penitential
pilgrimage home to Aberdaron was known to all. The austerities he
practised upon himself made a great impression. Brother Jerome held
that the house was honoured in receiving such a man. And indeed
that lean, passionate face, burning-eyed beneath the uncropped
brown hair, had a vehement force and fervour.
Rhun could not kneel, but stood steady and stoical on his
crutches throughout the office, his eyes fixed, wide and bright,
upon the altar. In this soft, dim light within, already reflecting
from every stone surface the muted brightness of a cloudless day
outside, Cadfael saw that the boy was beautiful, the planes of his
face as suave and graceful as any girl’s, the curving of his
fair hair round ears and cheeks angelically pure and chaste. If the
woman with no son of her own doted on him, and was willing to
forsake her living for a matter of weeks on the off-chance of a
miracle that would heal him, who could wonder at her?
Since both his attention and his eyes were straying, Cadfael
gave up the struggle and let them stray at large over all those
devout heads, gathered in a close assembly and filling the nave of
the church. An important pilgrimage has much of the atmosphere of a
public fair about it, and brings along with it all the hangers-on
who frequent such occasions, the pickpockets, the plausible
salesmen of relics, sweetmeats, remedies, the fortune-tellers, the
gamblers, the swindlers and cheats of all kinds. And some of these
cultivate the most respectable of appearances, and prefer to work
from within the pale rather than set up in the Foregate as at a
market. It was always worth running an eye over the ranks within,
as Hugh’s sergeants were certainly doing along the ranks
without, to mark down probable sources of trouble before ever the
trouble began.
This congregation certainly looked precisely what it purported
to be. Nevertheless, there were a few there worth a second glance.
Three modest, unobtrusive tradesmen who had arrived closely one
after another and rapidly and openly made acquaintance, to all
appearances until then strangers: Walter Bagot, glover; John Shure,
tailor; William Hales, farrier. Small craftsmen making this their
summer holiday, and modestly out to enjoy it. And why not? Except
that Cadfael had noted the tailor’s hands devoutly folded,
and observed that he cultivated the long, well-tended nails of a
fairground sharper, hardly suitable for a tailor’s work. He
made a mental note of their faces, the glover rounded and glossy,
as if oiled with the same dressing he used on his leathers, the
tailor lean-jowled and sedate, with lank hair curtaining a
lugubrious face, the farrier square, brown and twinkling of eye,
the picture of honest good-humour.
They might be what they claimed. They might not. Hugh would be
on the watch, so would the careful tavern-keepers of the Foregate
and the town, by no means eager to hold their doors open to the
fleecers and skinners of their own neighbours and customers.
Cadfael went out from Mass with his brethren, very thoughtful,
and found Rhun already waiting for him in the herbarium.
The boy sat passive and submitted himself to
Cadfael’s handling, saying no word beyond his respectful
greeting. The rhythm of the questing fingers, patiently coaxing
apart the rigid tissues that lamed him, had a soothing effect, even
when they probed deeply enough to cause pain. He let his head lean
back against the timbers of the wall, and his eyes gradually
closed. The tension of his cheeks and lips showed that he was not
sleeping, but Cadfael was able to study the boy’s face
closely as he worked on him, and note his pallor, and the dark
rings round his eyes.
“Well, did you take the dose I gave you for the
night?” asked Cadfael, guessing at the answer.
“No.” Rhun opened his eyes apprehensively, to see if
he was to be reproved for it, but Cadfael’s face showed
neither surprise nor reproach.
“Why not?”
“I don’t know. Suddenly I felt there was no need. I
was happy,” said Rhun, his eyes again closed, the better to
examine his own actions and motives. “I had prayed.
It’s not that I doubt the saint’s power. Suddenly it
seemed to me that I need not even wish to be healed… that I
ought to offer up my lameness and pain freely, not as a price for
favour. People bring offerings, and I have nothing else to offer.
Do you think it might be acceptable? I meant it humbly.”
There could hardly be, thought Cadfael, among all her devotees,
a more costly oblation. He has gone far along a difficult road who
has come to the point of seeing that deprivation, pain and
disability are of no consequence at all, beside the inward
conviction of grace, and the secret peace of the soul. An
acceptance which can only be made for a man’s own self, never
for any other. Another’s grief is not to be tolerated, if
there can be anything done to alleviate it.
“And did you sleep well?”
“No. But it didn’t matter. I lay quiet all night
long. I tried to bear it gladly. And I was not the only one there
wakeful.” He slept in the common dormitory for the men, and
there must be several among his fellows there afflicted in one way
or another, besides the sick and possibly contagious whom Brother
Edmund had isolated in the infirmary. “Ciaran was restless,
too,” said Rhun reflectively, “When it was all silent,
after Lauds, he got up very quietly from his cot, trying not to
disturb anyone, and started wards the door. I thought then how
strange it was that he took his belt and scrip with
him…”
Cadfael was listening intently enough by this time. Why, indeed,
if a man merely needed relief for his body during the night, should
he burden himself with carrying his possessions about with him?
Though the habit of being wary of theft, in such shared
accommodation, might persist even when half-asleep, and in monastic
care into the bargain.
“Did he so, indeed? And what followed?”
“Matthew has his own pallet drawn close beside
Ciaran’s, even in the night he lies with a hand stretched out
to touch. Besides, you know, he seems to know by instinct whatever
ails Ciaran. He rose up in an instant, and reached out and took
Ciaran by the arm. And Ciaran started and gasped, and blinked round
at him, like a man startled awake suddenly, and whispered that
he’d been asleep and dreaming, and had dreamed it was time to
start out on the road again. So then Matthew took the scrip from
him and laid it aside, and they both lay down in their beds again,
and all was quiet as before. But I don’t think Ciaran slept
well, even after that, his dream had disturbed his mind too much, I
heard him twisting and turning for a long time.”
“Did they know,” asked Cadfael, “that you were
also awake, and had heard what passed?”
“I can’t tell. I made no pretence, and the pain was
bad, I think they must have heard me shifting… I
couldn’t help it. But of course I made no sign, it would have
been discourteous.”
So it passed as a dream, perhaps for the benefit of Rhun, or any
other who might be wakeful as he was. True enough, a sick man
troubled by night might very well rise by stealth to leave his
friend in peace, out of consideration. But then, if he needed ease,
he would have been forced to explain himself and go, when his
friend nevertheless started awake to restrain him. Instead, he had
pleaded a deluding dream, and lain down again. And men rousing in
dreams do move silently, almost as if by stealth. It could be, it
must be, simply what it seemed.
“You travelled some miles of the way with those two, Rhun.
How did you all fare together on the road? You must have got to
know them as well as any here.”
“It was their being slow, like us, that kept us all
together, after my sister was nearly ridden down, and Matthew ran
and caught her up and leaped the ditch with her. They were just
slowly overtaking us then, after that we went on all together for
company. But I wouldn’t say we got to know them—they
are so rapt in each other. And then, Ciaran was in pain, and that
kept him silent, though he did tell us where he was bound, and why.
It’s true Melangell and Matthew took to walking last, behind
us, and he carried our few goods for her, having so little of his
own to carry. I never wondered at Ciaran being so silent,”
said Rhun simply, “seeing what he had to bear. And my Aunt
Alice can talk for two,” he ended guilelessly.
So she could, and no doubt did, all the rest of the way into
Shrewsbury.
“That pair, Ciaran and Matthew,” said Cadfael, still
delicately probing, “they never told you how they came
together? Whether they were kin, or friends, or had simply met and
kept company on the road? For they’re much of an age, even of
a kind, young men of some schooling, I fancy, bred to clerking or
squiring, and yet not kin, or don’t acknowledge it, and after
their fashion very differently made. A man wonders how they ever
came to be embarked together on this journey. It was south of
Warwick when you met them? I wonder from how far south they
came.”
“They never spoke of such things,” owned Rhun,
himself considering them for the first time. “It was good to
have company on the way, one stout young man at least. The roads
can be perilous for two women, with only a cripple like me. But now
you speak of it, no, we did not learn much of where they came from,
or what bound them together. Unless my sister knows more. There
were days,” said Rhun, shifting to assist Brother
Cadfael’s probings into the sinews of his thigh, “when
she and Matthew grew quite easy and talkative behind us.”
Cadfael doubted whether the subject of their conversation then
had been anything but their two selves, brushing sleeves
pleasurably along the summer highways, she in constant recall of
the moment when she was snatched up bodily and swung across the
ditch against Matthew’s heart, he in constant contemplation
of the delectable creature dancing at his elbow, and recollection
of the feel of her slight, warm, frightened weight on his
breast.
“But he’ll hardly look at her now,” said Rhun
regretfully. “He’s too intent on Ciaran, and Melangell
will come between. But it costs him a dear effort to turn away from
her, all the same.”
Cadfael stroked down the misshapen leg, and rose to scrub his
oily hands. “There, that’s enough for today. But sit
quiet a while and rest before you go. And will you take the draught
tonight? At least keep it by you, and do what you feel to be right
and best. But remember it’s a kindness sometimes to accept
help, a kindness to the giver. Would you wilfully inflict torment
on yourself as Ciaran does? No, not you, you are too modest by far
to set yourself up for braver and more to be worshipped than other
men. So never think you do wrong by sparing yourself discomfort.
Yet it’s your choice, make it as you see fit.”
When the boy took up his crutches again and tapped his way out
along the path towards the great court, Cadfael followed him at a
distance, to watch his progress without embarrassing him. He could
mark no change as yet. The stretched toe still barely dared touch
ground, and still turned inward. And yet the sinews, cramped as
they were, had some small force in them, instead of being withered
and atrophied as he would have expected. If I had him here long
enough, he thought, I could bring back some ease and use into that
leg. But he’ll go as he came. In three days now all will be
over, the festival ended for this year, the guest-hall emptying.
Ciaran and his guardian shadow will pass on northwards and
westwards into Wales, and Dame Weaver will take her chicks back
home to Campden. And those two, who might very well have made a
fair match if things had been otherwise, will go their separate
ways, and never see each other again. It’s in the nature of
things that those who gather in great numbers for the feasts of the
church should also disperse again to their various duties
afterwards. Still, they need not all go away unchanged.
Chapter Five
« ^ »
Brother Adam of Reading, being lodged in the
dortoir with the monks of the house, had had leisure to observe his
fellow pilgrims of the guest-hall only at the offices of the
church, and in their casual comings and goings about the precinct;
and it happened that he came from the garden towards midafternoon,
with Cadfael beside him, just as Ciaran and Matthew were crossing
the court towards the cloister garth, there to sit in the sun for
an hour or two before Vespers. There were plenty of others, monks,
lay servants and guests, busy on their various occasions, but
Ciaran’s striking figure and painfully slow and careful gait
marked him out for notice.
“Those two,” said Brother Adam, halting, “I
have seen before. At Abington, where I spent the first night after
leaving Reading. They were lodged there the same night.”
“At Abingdon!” Cadfael echoed thoughtfully.
“So they came from far south. You did not cross them again
after Abingdon, on the way here?”
“It was not likely. I was mounted. And then, I had my
abbot’s mission to Leominster, which took me out of the
direct way. No, I saw no more of them, never until now. But they
can hardly be mistaken, once seen.”
“In what sort of case were they at Abingdon?” asked
Cadfael, his eyes following the two inseparable figures until they
vanished into the cloister. “Would you say they had been long
on the road before that night’s halt? The man is pledged to
go barefoot to Aberdaron, it would not take many miles to leave the
mark on him.”
“He was going somewhat lamely, even then. They had both
the dust of the roads on them. It might have been their first
day’s walking that ended there, but I doubt it.”
“He came to me to have his feet tended, yesterday,”
said Cadfael, “and I must see him again before evening. Two
or three days of rest will set him up for the next stage of his
walk. From more than a day’s going south of Abingdon to the
remotest tip of Wales, a long, long walk. A strange, even a
mistaken, piety it seems to me, to take upon oneself ostentatious
pains, when there are poor fellows enough in the world who are born
to pain they have not chosen, and carry it with
humility.”
“The simple believe it brings merit,” said Brother
Adam tolerantly. “It may be he has no other claim upon
outstanding virtue, and clutches at this.”
“But he’s no simple soul,” said Cadfael with
conviction, “whatever he may be. He has, he tells me, a
mortal disease, and is going to end his days in blessedness and
peace at Aberdaron, and have his bones laid in Ynys Enlli, which is
a noble ambition in a man of Welsh blood. The voluntary assumption
of pain beyond his doom may even be a pennon of defiance, a wag of
the hand against death. That I could understand. But I would not
approve it.”
“It’s very natural you should frown on it,”
agreed Adam, smiling indulgence upon his companion and himself
alike, “seeing you are schooled to the alleviation of pain,
and feel it to be a violator and an enemy. By the very virtue of
these plants we have learned to use.” He patted the leather
scrip at his girdle, and the soft rustle of seeds within answered
him. They had been sorting over Cadfael’s clay saucers of new
seed from this freshly ripening year, and he had helped himself to
two or three not native in his own herbarium. “It is as good
a dragon to fight as any in this world, pain.”
They had gone some yards more towards the stone steps that led
up to the main door of the guest-hall, in no hurry, and taking
pleasure in the contemplation of so much bustle and motion, when
Brother Adam checked abruptly and stood at gaze.
“Well, well, I think you may have got some of our southern
sinners, as well as our would-be saints!”
Cadfael, surprised, followed where Adam was gazing, and stood to
hear what further he would have to say, for the individual in
question was the least remarkable of men at first glance. He stood
close to the gatehouse, one of a small group constantly on hand
there to watch the new arrivals and the general commerce of the
day. A big man, but so neatly and squarely built that his size was
not wholly apparent, he stood with his thumbs in the belt of his
plain but ample gown, which was nicely cut and fashioned to show
him no nobleman, and no commoner, either, but a solid, respectable,
comfortably provided fellow of the middle kind, merchant or
tradesman. One of those who form the backbone of many a township in
England, and can afford the occasional pilgrimage by way of a
well-earned holiday. He gazed benignly upon the activity around him
from a plump, shrewd, well-shaven face, favouring the whole
creation with a broad, contented smile.
“That,” said Cadfael, eyeing his companion with
bright enquiry, “is, or so I am informed, one Simeon Poer, a
merchant of Guildford, come on pilgrimage for his soul’s
sake, and because the summer chances to be very fine and inviting.
And why not? Do you know of a reason?”
“Simeon Poer may well be his name,” said Brother
Adam, “or he may have half a dozen more ready to trot forward
at need. I never knew a name for him, but his face and form I do
know. Father Abbot uses me a good deal on his business outside the
cloister and I have occasion to know most of the fairs and markets
in our shire and beyond. I’ve seen that fellow—not
gowned like a provost, as he is now, I grant you, but by the look
of him he’s been doing well lately—round every
fairground, cultivating the company of those young, green
roisterers who frequent every such gathering. For the contents of
their pockets, surely. Most likely, dice. Even more likely, loaded
dice. Though I wouldn’t say he might not pick a pocket here
and there, if business was bad. A quicker means to the same end, if
a riskier.”
So knowing and practical a brother Cadfael had not encountered
for some years among the innocents. Plainly Brother Adam’s
frequent sallies out of the cloister on the abbot’s business
had broadened his horizons. Cadfael regarded him with respect and
warmth, and turned to study the smiling, benevolent merchant more
closely.
“You’re sure of him?”
“Sure that he’s the same man, yes. Sure enough of
his practices to challenge him openly, no, hardly, since he has
never yet been taken up but once, and then he proved so slippery he
slithered through the bailiffs fingers. But keep a weather eye on
him, and this may be where he’ll make the slip every rogue
makes in the end, and get his comeuppance.”
“If you’re right,” said Cadfael, “has he
not strayed rather far from his own haunts? In my experience, from
years back I own, his kind seldom left the region where they knew
their way about better than the bailiffs. Has he made the south
country so hot for him that he must run for a fresh territory? That
argues something worse than cheating at dice.”
Brother Adam hoisted dubious shoulders. “It could be. Some
of our scum have found the disorders of faction very profitable, in
their own way, just as their lords and masters have in theirs.
Battles are not for them—far too dangerous to their own
skins. But the brawls that blow up in towns where uneasy factions
come together are meat and drink to them. Pockets to be picked,
riots to be started—discreetly from the
rear—unoffending elders who look prosperous to be knocked on
the head or knifed from behind or have their purse-strings cut in
the confusion… Safer and easier than taking to the woods and
living wild for prey, as their kind do in the country.”
Just such gatherings, thought Cadfael, as that at Winchester,
where at least one man was knifed in the back and left dying. Might
not the law in the south be searching for this man, to drive him so
far from his usual hunting-grounds? For some worse offence than
cheating silly young men of their money at dice? Something as black
as murder itself?
“There are two or three others in the common
guest-hall,” he said, “about whom I have my doubts, but
this man has had no truck with them so far as I’ve seen. But
I’ll bear it in mind, and keep a watchful eye open, and have
Brother Denis do the same. And I’ll mention what you say to
Hugh Beringar, too, before this evening’s out. Both he and
the town provost will be glad to have fair warning.”
Since Ciaran was sitting quietly in the cloister
garth, it seemed a pity he should be made to walk through the
gardens to the herbarium, when Cadfael’s broad brown feet
were in excellent condition, and sensibly equipped with stout
sandals. So Cadfael fetched the salve he had used on Ciaran’s
wounds and bruises, and the spirit that would brace and toughen his
tender soles, and brought them to the cloister. It was pleasant
there in the afternoon sun, and the turf was thick and springy and
cool to bare feet. The roses were coming into full bloom, and their
scent hung in the warm air like a benediction. But two such closed
and sunless faces! Was the one truly condemned to an early death,
and the other to lose and mourn so close a friend?
Ciaran was speaking as Cadfael approached, and did not at first
notice him, but even when he was aware of the visitor bearing down
on them he continued steadily to the end, “… you do
but waste your time, for it will not happen. Nothing will be
changed, don’t look for it. Never! You might far better leave
me and go home.”
Did the one of them believe in Saint Winifred’s power, and
pray and hope for a miracle? And was the other, the sick man, all
too passionately of Rhun’s mind, and set on offering his
early death as an acceptable and willing sacrifice, rather than ask
for healing?
Matthew had not yet noticed Cadfael’s approach. His deep
voice, measured and resolute, said just audibly, “Save your
breath! For I will go with you, step for step, to the very
end.”
Then Cadfael was close, and they were both aware of him, and
stirred defensively out of their private anguish, heaving in breath
and schooling their faces to confront the outer world decently.
They drew a little apart on the stone bench, welcoming Cadfael with
somewhat strained smiles.
“I saw no need to make you come to me,” said
Cadfael, dropping to his knees and opening his scrip in the bright
green turf, “when I am better able to come to you. So sit and
be easy, and let me see how much work is yet to be done before you
can go forth in good heart.”
“This is kind, brother,” said Ciaran, rousing
himself with a sigh. “Be assured that I do go in good heart,
for my pilgrimage is short and my arrival assured.”
At the other end of the bench Matthew’s voice said softly,
“Amen!”
After that it was all silence as Cadfael anointed the swollen
soles, kneading spirit vigorously into the misused skin, surely
heretofore accustomed always to going well shod, and soothed the
ointment of cleavers into the healing grazes.
“There! Keep off your feet through tomorrow, but for such
offices as you feel you must attend. Here there’s no need to
go far. And I’ll come to you tomorrow and have you fit to
stand somewhat longer the next day, when the saint is brought
home.” When he spoke of her now, he hardly knew whether he
was truly speaking of the mortal substance of Saint Winifred, which
was generally believed to be in that silver-chaced reliquary, or of
some hopeful distillation of her spirit which could fill with
sanctity even an empty coffin, even a casket containing pitiful,
faulty human bones, unworthy of her charity, but subject, like all
mortality, to the capricious, smiling mercies of those above and
beyond question. If you could reason by pure logic for the
occurrence of miracles, they would not be miracles, would they?
He scrubbed his hands on a handful of wool, and rose from his
knees. In some twenty minutes or so it would be time for
Vespers.
He had taken his leave, and almost reached the archway into the
great court, when he heard rapid steps at his heels, a hand reached
deprecatingly for his sleeve, and Matthew’s voice said in his
ear, “Brother Cadfael, you left this lying.”
It was his jar of ointment, of rough, greenish pottery, almost
invisible in the grass. The young man held it out in the palm of a
broad, strong, workmanlike hand, long-fingered and elegant. Dark
eyes, reserved but earnestly curious, searched Cadfael’s
face.
Cadfael took the jar with thanks, and put it away in his scrip.
Ciaran sat where Matthew had left him, his face and burning gaze
turned towards them; they stood at a distance, between him and the
outer day, and he had, for one moment, the look of a soul abandoned
to absolute solitude in a populous world.
Cadfael and Matthew stood gazing in speculation and uncertainty
into each other’s eyes. This was that able, ready young man
who had leaped into action at need, upon whom Melangell had fixed
her young, unpractised heart, and to whom Rhun had surely looked
for a hopeful way out for his sister, whatever might become of
himself. Good, cultivated stock, surely, bred of some small gentry
and taught a little Latin as well as his schooling in arms. How,
except by the compulsion of inordinate love, did this one come to
be ranging the country like a penniless vagabond, without root or
attachment but to a dying man?
“Tell me truth,” said Cadfael. “Is it indeed
true—is it certain—that Ciaran goes this way
towards his death?”
There was a brief moment of silence, as Matthew’s wide-set
eyes grew larger and darker. Then he said very softly and
deliberately, “It is truth. He is already marked for death.
Unless your saint has a miracle for us, there is nothing can save
him. Or me!” he ended abruptly, and wrenched himself away to
return to his devoted watch.
Cadfael turned his back on supper in the
refectory, and set off instead along the Foregate towards the town.
Over the bridge that spanned the Severn, in through the gate, and
up the curving slope of the Wyle to Hugh Beringar’s town
house. There he sat and nursed his godson Giles, a large, comely,
self-willed child, fair like his mother, and long of limb, some day
to dwarf his small, dark, sardonic father. Aline brought food and
wine for her husband and his friend, and then sat down to her
needlework, favouring her menfolk from time to time with a smiling
glance of serene contentment. When her son fell asleep in
Cadfael’s lap she rose and lifted the boy away gently. He was
heavy for her, but she had learned how to carry him lightly
balanced on arm and shoulder. Cadfael watched her fondly as she
bore the child away into the next room to his bed, and closed the
door between.
“How is it possible that that girl can grow every day more
radiant and lovely? I’ve known marriage rub the fine bloom
off many a handsome maid. Yet it suits her as a halo does a
saint.”
“Oh, there’s something to be said for
marriage,” said Hugh idly. “Do I look so poorly on it?
Though it’s an odd study for a man of your habit, after all
these years of celibacy… And all the stravagings about the
world before that! You can’t have thought too highly of the
wedded state, or you’d have ventured on it yourself. You took
no vows until past forty, and you a well-set-up young fellow
crusading all about the east with the best of them. How do I know
you have not an Aline of your own locked away somewhere, somewhere
in your remembrance, as dear as mine is to me? Perhaps even a Giles
of your own,” he added, whimsically smiling, “a Giles
God knows where, grown a man now…”
Cadfael’s silence and stillness, though perfectly easy and
complacent, nevertheless sounded a mute warning in Hugh’s
perceptive senses. On the edge of drowsiness among his cushions
after a long day out of doors, he opened a black, considering eye
to train upon his friend’s musing face, and withdrew
delicately into practical business.
“Well, so this Simeon Poer is known in the south.
I’m grateful to you and to Brother Adam for the nudge, though
so far the man has set no foot wrong here. But these others
you’ve pictured for me… At Wat’s tavern in the
Foregate they’ve had practice in marking down strangers who
come with a fair or a feast, and spread themselves large about the
town. Wat tells my people he has a group moving in, very merry,
some of them strangers. They could well be these you name. Some of
them, of course, the usual young fellows of the town and the
Foregate with more pence than sense. They’ve been drinking a
great deal, and throwing dice. Wat does not like the way the dice
fall.”
“It’s as I supposed,” said Cadfael, nodding.
“For every Mass of ours they’ll be celebrating the
Gamblers’ Mass elsewhere. And by all means let the fools
throw their money after their sense, so the odds be fair. But Wat
knows a loaded throw when he sees one.”
“He knows how to rid his house of the plague, too. He has
hissed in the ears of one of the strangers that his tavern is
watched, and they’d be wise to take their school out of
there. And for tonight he has a lad on the watch, to find out where
they’ll meet. Tomorrow night we’ll have at them, and
rid you of them in good time for the feast day, if all goes
well.”
Which would be a very welcome cleansing, thought
Cadfael, making his way back across the bridge in the first limpid
dusk, with the river swirling its coiled currents beneath him in
gleams of reflected light, low summer water leaving the islands
outlined in swathes of drowned, browning weed. But as yet there was
nothing to shed light, even by reflected, phantom gleams, upon that
death so far away in the south country, whence the merchant Simeon
Poer had set out. On pilgrimage for his respectable soul? Or in
flight from a law aroused too fiercely for his safety, by something
graver than the cozening of fools? Though Cadfael felt too close to
folly himself to be loftily complacent even about that, however
much it might be argued that gamblers deserved all they got.
The great gate of the abbey was closed, but the wicket in it
stood open, shedding sunset light through from the west. In the
mild dazzle Cadfael brushed shoulders and sleeves with another
entering, and was a little surprised to be hoisted deferentially
through the wicket by a firm hand at his elbow.
“Give you goodnight, brother!” sang a mellow voice
in his ear, as the returning guest stepped within on his heels. And
the solid, powerful, woollen-gowned form of Simeon Poer,
self-styled merchant of Guildford, rolled vigorously past him, and
crossed the great court to the stone steps of the guest-hall.
Chapter Six
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They were emerging from High Mass on the morning
of the twenty-first day of June, the eve of Saint Winifred’s
translation, stepping out into a radiant morning, when the
abbot’s sedate progress towards his lodging was rudely
disrupted by a sudden howl of dismay among the dispersing multitude
of worshippers, a wild ripple of movement cleaving a path through
their ranks, and the emergence of a frantic figure lurching forth
on clumsy, naked feet to clutch at the abbot’s robe, and
appeal in a loud, indignant cry, “Father Abbot, stand my
friend and give me justice, for I am robbed! A thief, there is a
thief among us!”
The abbot looked down in astonishment and concern into the face
of Ciaran, convulsed and ablaze with resentment and distress.
“Father, I beg you, see justice done! I am helpless unless
you help me!”
He awoke, somewhat late, to the unwarranted violence of his
behaviour, and fell on his knees at the abbot’s feet.
“Pardon, pardon! I am too loud and troublous, I hardly know
what I say!”
The press of gossiping, festive worshippers just loosed from
Mass had fallen quiet all in a moment, and instead of dispersing
drew in about them to listen and stare, avidly curious. The monks
of the house, hindered in their orderly departure, hovered in quiet
deprecation. Cadfael looked beyond the kneeling, imploring figure
of Ciaran for its inseparable twin, and found Matthew just
shouldering his way forward out of the crowd, open-mouthed and
wide-eyed in patent bewilderment, to stand at gaze a few paces
apart, and frown helplessly from the abbot to Ciaran and back
again, in search of the cause of this abrupt turmoil. Was it
possible that something had happened to the one that the other of
the matched pair did not know?
“Get up!” said Radulfus, erect and calm. “No
need to kneel. Speak out whatever you have to say, and you shall
have right.”
The pervasive silence spread, grew, filled even the most distant
reaches of the great court. Those who had already scattered to the
far corners turned and crept unobtrusively back again, large-eyed
and prick-eared, to hang upon the fringes of the crowd already
assembled.
Ciaran clambered to his feet, voluble before he was erect.
“Father, I had a ring, the copy of one the lord bishop of
Winchester keeps for his occasions, bearing his device and
inscription. Such copies he uses to afford safe-conduct to those he
sends forth on his business or with his blessing, to open doors to
them and provide protection on the road. Father, the ring is
gone!”
“This ring was given to you by Henry of Blois
himself?” asked Radulfus.
“No, Father, not in person. I was in the service of the
prior of Hyde Abbey, a lay clerk, when this mortal sickness came on
me, and I took this vow of mine to spend my remaining days in the
canonry of Aberdaron. My prior—you know that Hyde is without
an abbot, and has been for some years—my prior asked the lord
bishop, of his goodness, to give me what protection he could for my
journey…”
So that had been the starting point of this barefoot journey,
thought Cadfael, enlightened. Winchester itself, or as near as made
no matter, for the New Minster of that city, always a jealous rival
of the Old, where Bishop Henry presided, had been forced to abandon
its old home in the city thirty years ago, and banished to Hyde
Mead, on the north-western outskirts. There was no love lost
between Henry and the community at Hyde, for it was the bishop who
had been instrumental in keeping them deprived of an abbot for so
long, in pursuit of his own ambition of turning them into an
episcopal monastery. The struggle had been going on for some time,
the bishop deploying various schemes to get the house into his own
hands, and the prior using every means to resist these
manipulations. It seemed Henry had still the grace to show
compassion even on a servant of the hostile house, when he fell
under the threat of disease and death. The traveller over whom the
bishop-legate spread his protecting hand would pass unmolested
wherever law retained its validity. Only those irreclaimably outlaw
already would dare interfere with him.
“Father, the ring is gone, stolen from me this very
morning. See here, the slashed threads that held it!” Ciaran
heaved forward the drab linen scrip that rode at his belt, and
showed two dangling ends of cord, very cleanly severed. “A
sharp knife—someone here has such a dagger. And my ring is
gone!”
Prior Robert was at the abbot’s elbow by then, agitated
out of his silvery composure. “Father, what this man says is
true. He showed me the ring. Given to ensure him aid and
hospitality on his journey, which is of most sad and solemn import.
If now it is lost, should not the gate be closed while we
enquire?”
“Let it be so,” said Radulfus, and stood silent to
see Brother Jerome, ever ready and assiduous on the prior’s
heels, run to see the order carried out. “Now, take breath
and thought, for your loss cannot be lost far. You did not wear the
ring, then, but carried it knotted securely by this cord, within
your scrip?”
“Yes, Father. It was beyond words precious to
me.”
“And when did you last ascertain that it was still there,
and safe?”
“Father, this very morning I know I had it. Such few
things as I possess, here they lie before you. Could I fail to see
if this cord had been cut in the night while I slept? It is not so.
This morning all was as I left it last night. I have been bidden to
rest, by reason of my barefoot vow. Today I ventured out only for
Mass. Here in the very church, in this great press of worshippers,
some malevolent has broken every ban, and slashed loose my ring
from me.”
And indeed, thought Cadfael, running a considering eye round all
the curious, watching faces, it would not be difficult, in such a
press, to find the strings that anchored the hidden ring, flick it
out from its hiding-place, cut the strings and make away with it,
discreetly between crowding bodies, and never be seen by a soul or
felt by the victim. A neat thing, done so privately and expertly
that even Matthew, who missed nothing that touched his friend, had
missed this impudent assault. For Matthew stood there staring,
obviously taken by surprise, and unsure as yet how to take this
turn of events. His face was unreadable, closed and still, his eyes
narrowed and bright, darting from face to face as Ciaran or abbot
or prior spoke. Cadfael noted that Melangell had stolen forward
close to him, and taken him hesitantly by the sleeve. He did not
shake her off. By the slight lift of his head and widening of his
eyes he knew who had touched him, and he let his hand feel for hers
and clasp it, while his whole attention seemed to be fixed on
Ciaran. Somewhere not far behind them Rhun leaned on his crutches,
his fair face frowning in anxious dismay, Aunt Alice attendant at
his shoulder, bright with curiosity. Here are we all, thought
Cadfael, and not one of us knows what is in any other mind, or who
has done what has been done, or what will come of it for any of
those who look on and marvel.
“You cannot tell,” suggested Prior Robert, agitated
and grieved, “who stood close to you during the service? If
indeed some ill-conditioned person has so misused the holy office
as to commit theft in the very sacredness of the
Mass…”
“Father, I was intent only upon the altar.” Ciaran
shook with fervour, holding the ravished scrip open before him with
his sparse possessions bared to be seen. “We were close
pressed, so many people… as is only seemly, in such a
shrine… Matthew was close at my back, but so he ever is. Who
else there may have been by me, how can I say? There was no man nor
woman among us who was not hemmed in every way.”
“It is truth,” said Prior Robert, who had been much
gratified at the large attendance. “Father, the gate is now
closed, we are all here who were present at Mass. And surely we all
have a desire to see this wrong righted.”
“All, as I suppose,” said Radulfus drily, “but
one. One, who brought in here a knife or dagger sharp enough to
slice through these tough cords cleanly. What other intents he
brought in with him, I bid him consider and tremble for his soul.
Robert, this ring must be found. All men of goodwill here will
offer their aid, and show freely what they have. So will every
guest who has not theft and sacrilege to hide. And see to it also
that enquiry be made, whether other articles of value have not been
missed. For one theft means one thief, here within.”
“It shall be seen to, Father,” said Robert
fervently. “No honest, devout pilgrim will grudge to offer
his aid. How could he wish to share his lodging here with a
thief?”
There was a stir of agreement and support, perhaps slightly
delayed, as every man and woman eyed a neighbour, and then in haste
elected to speak first. They came from every direction, hitherto
unknown to one another, mingling and forming friendships now with
the abandon of holiday. But how did they know who was immaculate
and who was suspect, now the world had probed a merciless finger
within the fold?
“Father,” pleaded Ciaran, still sweating and shaking
with distress, “here I offer in this scrip all that I brought
into this enclave. Examine it, show that I have indeed been robbed.
Here I came without even shoes to my feet, my all is here in your
hands. And my fellow Matthew will open to you his own scrip as
freely, an example to all these others that they may deliver
themselves pure of blame. What we offer, they will not
refuse.”
Matthew had withdrawn his hand from Melangell’s sharply at
this word. He shifted the unbleached cloth scrip, very like
Ciaran’s, round upon his hip. Ciaran’s meagre
travelling equipment lay open in the prior’s hands. Robert
slid them back into the pouch from which they had come, and looked
where Ciaran’s distressed gaze guided him.
“Into your hands, Father, and willingly,” said
Matthew, and stripped the bag from its buckles and held it
forth.
Robert acknowledged the offering with a grave bow, and opened
and probed it with delicate consideration. Most of what was there
within he did not display, though he handled it. A spare shirt and
linen drawers, crumpled from being carried so, and laundered on the
way, probably more than once. The means of a gentleman’s
sparse toilet, razor, morsel of lye soap, a leather-bound breviary,
a lean purse, a folded trophy of embroidered ribbon. Robert drew
forth the only item he felt he must show, a sheathed dagger, such
as any gentleman might carry at his right hip, barely longer than a
man’s hand.
“Yes, that is mine,” said Matthew, looking Abbot
Radulfus straightly in the eyes. “It has not slashed through
those cords. Nor has it left my scrip since I entered your enclave,
Father Abbot.”
Radulfus looked from the dagger to its owner, and briefly
nodded. “I well understand that no young man would set forth
on these highroads today without the means of defending himself.
All the more if he had another to defend, who carried no weapons.
As I understand is your condition, my son. Yet within these walls
you should not bear arms.”
“What, then, should I have done?” demanded Matthew,
with a stiffening neck, and a note in his voice that just fell
short of defiance.
“What you must do now,” said Radulfus firmly.
“Give it into the care of Brother Porter at the gatehouse, as
others have done with their weapons. When you leave here you may
reclaim it freely.”
There was nothing to be done but bow the head and give way
gracefully, and Matthew managed it decently enough, but not gladly.
“I will do so, Father, and pray your pardon that I did not
ask advice before.”
“But, Father,” Ciaran pleaded anxiously, “my
ring… How shall I survive the way if I have not that
safe-conduct to show?”
“Your ring shall be sought throughout this enclave, and
every man who bears no guilt for its loss,” said the abbot,
raising his voice to carry to the distant fringes of the silent
crowd, “will freely offer his own possessions for inspection.
See to it, Robert!”
With that he proceeded on his way, and the crowd, after some
moments of stillness as they watched him out of sight, dispersed in
a sudden murmur of excited speculation. Prior Robert took Ciaran
under his wing, and swept away with him towards the guest-hall, to
recruit help from Brother Denis in his enquiries after the
bishop’s ring; and Matthew, not without one hesitant glance
at Melangell, turned on his heel and went hastily after them.
A more innocent and co-operative company than the
guests at Shrewsbury abbey that day it would have been impossible
to find. Every man opened his bundle or box almost eagerly, in
haste to demonstrate his immaculate virtue. The quest, conducted as
delicately as possible, went on all the afternoon, but they found
no trace of the ring. Moreover, one or two of the better-off
inhabitants of the common dormitory, who had had no occasion to
penetrate to the bottom of their baggage so far, made grievous
discoveries when they were obliged to do so. A yeoman from
Lichfield found his reserve purse lighter by half than when he had
tucked it away. Master Simeon Poer, one of the first to fling open
his possessions, and the loudest in condemning so blasphemous a
crime, claimed to have been robbed of a silver chain he had
intended to present at the altar next day. A poor parish priest,
making this pilgrimage the one fulfilled dream of his life, was
left lamenting the loss of a small casket, made by his own hands
over more than a year, and decorated with inlays of silver and
glass, in which he had hoped to carry back with him some memento of
his visit, a dried flower from the garden, even a thread or two
drawn from the fringe of the altar-cloth under Saint
Winifred’s reliquary. A merchant from Worcester could not
find his good leather belt to his best coat, saved up for the
morrow. One or two others had a suspicion that their belongings had
been fingered and scorned, which was worst of all.
It was all over, and fruitless, when Cadfael at last repaired to
his workshop in time to await the coming of Rhun. The boy came
prompt to his hour, great-eyed and thoughtful, and lay submissive
and mute under Cadfael’s ministrations, which probed every
day a little deeper into his knotted and stubborn tissues.
“Brother,” he said at length, looking up, “you
did not find a dagger in any other man’s pouch, did
you?”
“No, no such thing.” Though there had been,
understandably, a number of small, homely knives, the kind a man
needs to hack his bread and meat in lodgings along the way, or
meals under a hedge. Many of them were sharp enough for most
everyday purposes, but not sharp enough to leave stout cords
sheared through without a twitch to betray the assault. “But
men who go shaven carry razors, too, and a blunt razor would be an
abomination. Once a thief comes into the pale, child, it’s
hard for honest men to be a match for him. He who has no scruple
has always the advantage of those who keep to rule. But you need
not trouble your heart, you’ve done no wrong to any man.
Never let this ill thing spoil tomorrow for you.”
“No,” agreed the boy, still preoccupied. “But,
brother, there is another dagger—one, at least.
Sheath and all, a good length—I know, I was pressed close
against him yesterday at Mass. You know I have to hold fast by my
crutches to stand for long, and he had a big linen scrip on his
belt, hard against my hand and arm, where we were crowded together.
I felt the shape of it, cross-hilt and all. I know! But you did not
find it.”
“And who was it,” asked Cadfael, still carefully
working the tissues that resisted his fingers, “who had this
armoury about him at Mass?”
“It was that big merchant with the good gown—made
from valley wool. I’ve learned to know cloth. They call him
Simeon Poer. But you didn’t find it. Perhaps he’s
handed it to Brother Porter, just as Matthew has had to do
now.”
“Perhaps,” said Cadfael. “When was it you
discovered this? Yesterday? And what of today? Was he again close
to you?”
“No, not today.”
No, today he had stood stolidly to watch the play, eyes and ears
alert, ready to open his pouch there before all if need be, smiling
complacently as the abbot directed the disarming of another man. He
had certainly had no dagger on him then, however he had disposed of
it in the meantime. There were hiding-places enough here within the
walls, for a dagger and any amount of small, stolen valuables. To
search was itself only a pretence, unless authority was prepared to
keep the gates closed and the guests prisoned within until every
yard of the gardens had been dug up, and every bed and bench in
dortoir and hall pulled to pieces. The sinners have always the
start of the honest men.
“It was not fair that Matthew should be made to surrender
his dagger,” said Rhun, “when another man had one still
about him. And Ciaran already so terribly afraid to stir, not
having his ring. He won’t even come out of the dortoir until
tomorrow. He is sick for loss of it.”
Yes, that seemed to be true. And how strange, thought Cadfael,
pricked into realisation, to see a man sweating for fear, who has
already calmly declared himself as one condemned to death? Then why
fear? Fear should be dead.
Yet men are strange, he thought in revulsion. And a blessed and
quiet death in Aberdaron, well-prepared, and surrounded by the
prayers and compassion of like-minded votaries, may well seem a
very different matter from crude slaughter by strangers and
footpads somewhere in the wilder stretches of the road.
But this Simeon Poer—say he had such a dagger yesterday,
and therefore may well have had it on him today, in the crowded
array of the Mass. Then what did he do with it so quickly, before
Ciaran discovered his loss? And how did he know he must perforce
dispose of it quickly? Who had such fair warning of the need, if
not the thief?
“Trouble your head no more,” said Cadfael, looking
down at the boy’s beautiful, vulnerable face, “for
Matthew nor for Ciaran, but think only of the morrow, when you
approach the saint. Both she and God see you all, and have no need
to be told of what your needs are. All you have to do is wait in
quiet for whatever will be. For whatever it may be, it will not be
wanton. Did you take your dose last night?”
Rhun’s pale, brilliant eyes were startled wide open,
sunlight and ice, blindingly clear. “No. It was a good day, I
wanted to give thanks. It isn’t that I don’t value what
you can do for me. Only I wished also to give something. And I did
sleep, truly I slept well…”
“So do tonight also,” said Cadfael gently, and slid
an arm round the boy’s body to hoist him steadily upright.
“Say your prayers, think quietly what you should do, do it,
and sleep. There is no man living, neither king nor emperor, can do
more or better, or trust in a better harvest.”
Ciaran did not stir from within the guest-hall
again that day. Matthew did, against all precedent emerging from
the arched doorway without his companion, and standing at the head
of the stone staircase to the great court with hands spread to
touch the courses of the deep doorway, and head drawn back to heave
in great breaths of evening air. Supper was eaten, the milder
evening stir of movement threaded the court, in the cool, grateful
lull before Compline.
Brother Cadfael had left the chapter-house before the end of the
readings, having a few things to attend to in the herbarium, and
was crossing towards the garden when he caught sight of the young
man standing there at the top of the steps, breathing in deeply and
with evident pleasure. For some reason Matthew looked taller for
being alone, and younger, his face closed but tranquil in the soft
evening light. When he moved forward and began to descend to the
court, Cadfael looked instinctively for the other figure that
should have been close behind him, if not in its usual place a step
before him, but no Ciaran emerged. Well, he had been urged to rest,
and presumably was glad to comply, but never before had Matthew
left his side, by night or day, resting or stirring. Not even to
follow Melangell, except broodingly with his eyes and against his
will.
People, thought Cadfael, going on his way without haste, people
are endlessly mysterious, and I am endlessly curious. A sin to be
confessed, no doubt, and well worth a penance. As long as man is
curious about his fellowman, that appetite alone will keep him
alive. Why do folk do the things they do? Why, if you know you are
diseased and dying, and wish to reach a desired haven before the
end, why do you condemn yourself to do the long journey barefoot,
and burden yourself with a weight about your neck? How are you thus
rendered more acceptable to God, when you might have lent a hand to
someone on the road crippled not by perversity but from birth, like
the boy Rhun? And why do you dedicate your youth and strength to
following another man step by step the length of the land, and why
does he suffer you to be his shadow, when he should be composing
his mind to peace, and taking a decent leave of his friends, not
laying his own load upon them?
There he checked, rounding the corner of the yew hedge into the
rose garden. It was not his fellow-man he beheld, sitting in the
turf on the far side of the flower beds, gazing across the slope of
the pease fields beyond and the low, stony, silvery summer waters
of the Meole brook, but his fellow-woman, solitary and still, her
knees drawn up under her chin and encircled closely by her folded
arms. Aunt Alice Weaver, no doubt, was deep in talk with half a
dozen worthy matrons of her own generation, and Rhun, surely,
already in his bed. Melangell had stolen away alone to be quiet
here in the garden and nurse her lame dreams and indomitable hopes.
She was a small, dark shape, gold-haloed against the bright west.
By the look of that sky, tomorrow, Saint Winifred’s day,
would again be cloudless and beautiful.
The whole width of the rose garden was between them, and she did
not hear him come and pass by on the grassy path to his final
duties of the day in his workshop, seeing everything put away
tidily, checking the stoppers of all his flagons and flasks, and
making sure the brazier, which had been in service earlier, was
safely quenched and cooled. Brother Oswin, young, enthusiastic and
devoted, was nonetheless liable to overlook details, though he had
now outlived his tendency to break things. Cadfael ran an eye over
everything, and found it good. There was no hurry now, he had time
before Compline to sit down here in the wood-scented dimness and
think. Time for others to lose and find one another, and use or
waste these closing moments of the day. For those three blameless
tradesmen, Walter Bagot, glover; John Shure, tailor; William Hales,
farrier; to betake themselves to wherever their dice school was to
meet this night, and run their necks into Hugh’s trap. Time
for that more ambiguous character, Simeon Poer, to evade or trip
into the same snare, or go the other way about some other nocturnal
business of his own. Cadfael had seen two of the former three go
out from the gatehouse, and the third follow some minutes later,
and was sure in his own mind that the self-styled merchant of
Guildford would not be long after them. Time, too, for that
unaccountably solitary young man, somehow loosed off his chain, to
range this whole territory suddenly opened to him, and happen upon
the solitary girl.
Cadfael put up his feet on the wooden bench, and closed his eyes
for a brief respite.
Matthew was there at her back before she knew it.
The sudden rustle as he stepped into sun-dried long grass at the
edge of the field startled her, and she swung round in alarm,
scrambling to her knees and staring up into his face with dilated
eyes, half-blinded by the blaze of the sunset into which she had
been steadily staring. Her face was utterly open, vulnerable and
childlike. She looked as she had looked when he had swept her up in
his arms and leaped the ditch with her, clear of the galloping
horses. Just so she had opened her eyes and looked up at him, still
dazed and frightened, and just so had her fear melted away into
wonder and pleasure, finding in him nothing but reassurance,
kindness and admiration.
That pure, paired encounter of eyes did not last long. She
blinked, and shook her head a little to clear her dazzled vision,
and looked beyond him, searching, not believing he could be here
alone.
“Ciaran…? Is there something you need for
him?”
“No,” said Matthew shortly, and for a moment turned
his head away. “He’s in his bed.”
“But you never leave his bed!” It was said in
innocence, even in anxiety. Whatever she grudged to Ciaran, she
still pitied and understood him.
“You see I have left it,” said Matthew harshly.
“I have needs, too… a breath of air. And he is very
well where he is, and won’t stir.”
“I was well sure,” she said with resigned
bitterness, “that you had not come out to look for me.”
She made to rise, swiftly and gracefully enough, but he put out a
hand, almost against his will, as it seemed, to take her under the
wrist and lift her. It was withdrawn as abruptly when she evaded
his touch, and rose to her feet unaided. “But at
least,” she said deliberately, “you did not turn and
run from me when you found me. I should be grateful even for
that.”
“I am not free,” he protested, stung. “You
know it better than any.”
“Then neither were you free when we kept pace along the
road,” said Melangell fiercely, “when you carried my
burden, and walked beside me, and let Ciaran hobble along before,
where he could not see how you smiled on me then and were gallant
and cherished me when the road was rough and spoke softly, as if
you took delight in being beside me. Why did you not give me
warning then that you were not free? Or better, take him some other
way, and leave us alone? Then I might have taken good heed in time,
and in time forgotten you. As now I never shall! Never, to my
life’s end!”
All the flesh of his lips and cheeks shrank and tightened before
her eyes, in a contortion of either rage or pain, she could not
tell which. She was staring too close and too passionately to see
very clearly. He turned his head sharply away, to evade her
eyes.
“You charge me justly,” he said in a harsh whisper,
“I was at fault. I never should have believed there could be
so clean and sweet a happiness for me. I should have left you, but
I could not… Oh, God! You think I could have turned him? He
clung to you, to your good aunt… Yet I should have been
strong enough to hold off from you and let you alone…”
As rapidly as he had swung away from her he swung back again,
reaching a hand to take her by the chin and hold her face to face
with him, so ungently that she felt the pressure of his fingers
bruising her flesh. “Do you know how hard a thing you are
asking? No! This countenance you never saw, did you, never but
through someone else’s eyes. Who would provide you a mirror
to see yourself? Some pool, perhaps, if ever you had the leisure to
lean over and look. How should you know what this face can do to a
man already lost? And you marvel I took what I could get for water
in a drought, when it walked beside me? I should rather have died
than stay beside you, to trouble your peace. God forgive
me!”
She was five years nearer childhood than he, even taking into
account the two years or more a girl child has advantage over the
boys of her own age. She stood entranced, a little frightened by
his intensity, and inexpressibly moved by the anguish she felt
emanating from him like a raw, drowning odour. The long-fingered
hand that held her shook terribly, his whole body quivered. She put
up her own hand gently and closed it over his, uplifted out of her
own wretchedness by his greater and more inexplicable distress.
“I dare not speak for God,” she said steadily,
“but whatever there may be for me to forgive, that I dare. It
is not your fault that I love you. All you ever did was be kinder
to me than ever man was since I left Wales. And I did know, love,
you did tell me, if I had heeded then, you did tell me you were a
man under vow. What it was you never told me, but never grieve, oh,
my own soul, never grieve so…”
While they stood rapt, the sunset light had deepened, blazed and
burned silently into glowing ash, and the first feathery shade of
twilight, like the passing of a swift’s wings, fled across
their faces and melted into sudden pearly, radiant light. Her wide
eyes were brimming with tears, almost the match of his. When he
stooped to her, there was no way of knowing which of them had begun
the kiss.
The little bell for Compline sounded clearly
through the gardens on so limpid an evening, and stirred Brother
Cadfael out of his half-doze at once. He was accustomed, in this
refuge of his maturity as surely as in the warfaring of his youth,
to awake fresh and alert, as he fell asleep, making the most of the
twin worlds of night and day. He rose and went out into the
earliest glowing image of evening, and closed the door after
him.
It was but a few moments back to church through the herbarium
and the rose garden. He went briskly, happy with the beauty of the
evening and the promise for the morrow, and never knew why he
should look aside to westward in passing, unless it was that the
whole expanse of the sky on that side was delicate, pure and
warming, like a girl’s blush. And there they were, two clear
shadows clasped together in silhouette against the fire of the
west, outlined on the crest above the slope to the invisible brook.
Matthew and Melangell, unmistakable, constrained still but in each
other’s arms, linked in a kiss that lasted while Brother
Cadfael came, passed and slipped away to his different devotions,
but with that image printed indelibly on his eyes, even in his
prayers.
Chapter Seven
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The outrider of the bishop-legate’s
envoy—or should he rather be considered the empress’s
envoy?—arrived within the town and was directed through to
the gatehouse of the castle in mid-evening of that same
twenty-first day of June, to be presented to Hugh Beringar just as
he was marshalling a half-dozen men to go down to the bridge and
take an unpredicted part in the plans of Master Simeon Poer and his
associates. Who would almost certainly be armed, being so far from
home and in hitherto unexplored territory. Hugh found the visitor
an unwelcome hindrance, but was too well aware of the many perils
hemming the king’s party on every side to dismiss the herald
without ceremony. Whatever this embassage might be, he needed to
know it, and make due preparation to deal with it.
In the gatehouse guard-room he found himself facing a stolid
middle-aged squire, who delivered his errand word perfect.
“My lord sheriff, the Lady of the English and the lord
bishop of Winchester entreat you to receive in peace their envoy,
who comes to you with offerings of peace and good order in their
name, and in their name asks your aid in resolving the griefs of
the kingdom. I come before to announce him.”
So the empress had assumed the traditional title of a
queen-elect before her coronation! The matter began to look
final.
“The lord bishop’s envoy will be welcome,”
said Hugh, “and shall be received with all honour here in
Shrewsbury. I will lend an attentive ear to whatever he may have to
say to me. As at this moment I have an affair in hand which will
not wait. How far ahead of your lord do you ride?”
“A matter of two hours, perhaps,” said the squire,
considering.
“Good, then I can set forward all necessary preparations
for his reception, and still have time to clear up a small thing I
have in hand. With how many attendants does he come?”
“Two men-at-arms only, my lord, and myself.”
“Then I will leave you in the hands of my deputy, who will
have lodgings made ready for you and your two men here in the
castle. As for your lord, he shall come to my own house, and my
wife shall make him welcome. Hold me excused if I make small
ceremony now, for this business is a twilight matter, and will not
wait. Later I will see amends made.”
The messenger was well content to have his horse stabled and
tended, and be led away by Alan Herbard to a comfortable lodging
where he could shed his boots and leather coat, and be at his ease,
and take his time and his pleasure over the meat and wine that was
presently set before him. Hugh’s young deputy would play the
host very graciously. He was still new in office, and did
everything committed to him with a flourish. Hugh left them to it,
and took his half-dozen men briskly out through the town.
It was past Compline then, neither light nor dark, but hesitant
between. By the time they reached the High Cross and turned down
the steep curve of the Wyle they had their twilight eyes. In full
darkness their quarry might have a better chance of eluding them,
by daylight they would themselves have been too easily observed
from afar. If these gamesters were experts they would have a
lookout posted to give fair warning.
The Wyle, uncoiling eastward, brought them down to the town wall
and the English gate, and there a thin, leggy child, shaggy-haired
and bright-eyed, started out of the shadows under the gate to catch
at Hugh’s sleeve. Wat’s boy, a sharp urchin of the
Foregate, bursting with the importance of his errand and his own
wit in managing it, had pinned down his quarry, and waited to
inform and advise.
“My lord, they’re met—all the four from the
abbey, and a dozen or more from these parts, mostly from the
town.” His note of scorn implied that they were sharper in
the Foregate. “You’d best leave the horses and go
afoot. Riders out at this hour—they’d break and run as
soon as you set hooves on the bridge. The sound carries.”
Good sense, that, if the meeting-place was close by.
“Where are they, then?” asked Hugh, dismounting.
“Under the far arch of the bridge, my lord—dry as a
bone it is, and snug.” So it would be, with this low summer
water. Only in full spate did the river prevent passage beneath
that arch. In this fine season it would be a nest of dried-out
grasses.
“They have a light, then?”
“A dark lantern. There’s not a glimmer you’ll
see from either side unless you go down to the water, it sheds
light only on the flat stone where they’re
throwing.”
Easily quenched, then, at the first alarm, and they would
scatter like startled birds, every way. The fleecers would be the
first and fleetest. The fleeced might well be netted in some
numbers, but their offence was no more than being foolish at their
own expense, not theft nor malpractice on any other.
“We leave the horses here,” said Hugh, making up his
mind. “You heard the boy. They’re under the bridge,
they’ll have used the path that goes down to the Gaye, along
the riverside. The other side of the arch is thick bushes, but
that’s the way they’ll break. Three men to either
slope, and I’ll bear with the western three. And let our own
young fools by, if you can pick them out, but hold fast the
strangers.”
In this fashion they went to their raiding. They crossed the
bridge by ones and twos, above the Severn water green with weedy
shallows and shimmering with reflected light, and took their places
on either side, spaced among the fringing bushes of the bank. By
the time they were in place the afterglow had dissolved and faded
into the western horizon, and the night came down like a velvet
hand. Hugh drew off to westward along the by-road until at length
he caught the faint glimmer of light beneath the stone arch. They
were there. If in such numbers, perhaps he should have held them in
better respect and brought more men. But he did not want the
townsmen. By all means let them sneak away to their beds and think
better of their dreams of milking cows likely to prove drier than
sand. It was the cheats he wanted. Let the provost of the town deal
with his civic idiots.
He let the sky darken somewhat before he took them in. The
summer night settled, soft wings folding, and no moon. Then, at his
whistle, they moved down from either flank.
It was the close-set bushes on the bank, rustling stealthily in
a windless night, that betrayed their coming a moment too soon.
Whoever was on watch, below there, had a sharp ear. There was a
shrill whistle, suddenly muted. The lantern went out instantly,
there was black dark under the solid stonework of the bridge. Down
went Hugh and his men, abandoning stealth for speed. Bodies parted,
collided, heaved and fled, with no sound but the panting and
gasping of scared breath. Hugh’s officers waded through
bushes, closing down to seal the archway. Some of those thus penned
beneath the bridge broke to left, some to right, not venturing to
climb into waiting arms, but wading through the shallows and
floundering even into deeper water. A few struck out for the
opposite shore, local lads well acquainted with their river and its
reaches, and water-borne, like its fish, almost from birth. Let
them go, they were Shrewsbury born and bred. If they had lost
money, more fools they, but let them get to their beds and repent
in peace. If their wives would let them!
But there were those beneath the arch of the bridge who had not
Severn water in their blood, and were less ready to wet more than
their feet in even low water. And suddenly these had steel in their
hands, and were weaving and slashing and stabbing their way through
into the open as best they could, and without scruple. It did not
last long. In the quaking dark, sprawled among the trampled grasses
up the riverside, Hugh’s six clung to such captives as they
could grapple, and shook off trickles of blood from their own
scratches and gashes. And diminishing in the darkness, the thresh
and toss of bushes marked the flight of those who had got away.
Unseen beneath the bridge, the deserted lantern and scattered dice,
grave loss to a trickster who must now prepare a new set, lay
waiting to be retrieved.
Hugh shook off a few drops of blood from a grazed arm, and went
scrambling through the rough grass to the path leading up from the
Gaye to the highroad and the bridge. Before him a shadowy body
fled, cursing. Hugh launched a shout to reach the road ahead of
them: “Hold him! The law wants him!” Foregate and town
might be on their way to bed, but there were always late strays,
both lawful and unlawful, and some on both sides would joyfully
take up such an invitation to mischief or justice, whichever way
the mind happened to bend.
Above him, in the deep, soft summer night that now bore only a
saffron thread along the west, an answering hail shrilled, startled
and merry, and there were confused sounds of brief, breathless
struggle. Hugh loped up to the highroad to see three shadowy
horsemen halted at the approach to the bridge, two of them closed
in to flank the first, and that first leaning slightly from his
saddle to grip in one hand the collar of a panting figure that
leaned against his mount heaving in breath, and with small energy
to attempt anything besides.
“I think, sir,” said the captor, eyeing Hugh’s
approach, “this may be what you wanted. It seemed to me that
the law cried out for him? Am I then addressing the law in these
parts?”
It was a fine, ringing voice, unaccustomed to subduing its tone.
The soft dark did not disclose his face clearly, but showed a body
erect in the saddle, supple, shapely, unquestionably young. He
shifted his grip on the prisoner, as though to surrender him to a
better claim. Thus all but released, the fugitive did not break
free and run for it, but spread his feet and stood his ground,
half-defiant, eyeing Hugh dubiously.
“I’m in your debt for a minnow, it seems,”
said Hugh, grinning as he recognised the man he had been chasing.
“But I doubt I’ve let all the salmon get clear away
up-river. We were about breaking up a parcel of cheating rogues
come here looking for prey, but this young gentleman you have by
the coat turns out to be merely one of the simpletons, our worthy
goldsmith out of the town. Master Daniel, I doubt there’s
more gold and silver to be lost than gained, in the company
you’ve been keeping.”
“It’s no crime to make a match at dice,”
muttered the young man, shuffling his feet sullenly in the dust of
the road. “My luck would have turned…”
“Not with the dice they brought with them. But true
it’s no crime to waste your evening and go home with empty
pockets, and I’ve no charge to make against you, provided you
go back now, and hand yourself over with the rest to my sergeant.
Behave yourself prettily, and you’ll be home by
midnight.”
Master Daniel Aurifaber took his dismissal thankfully, and
slouched back towards the bridge, to be gathered in among the
captives. The sound of hooves crossing the bridge at a trot
indicated that someone had run for the horses, and intended a hunt
to westward, in the direction the birds of prey had taken. In less
than a mile they would be safe in woodland, and it would take
hounds to run them to earth. Small chance of hunting them down by
night. On the morrow something might be attempted.
“This is hardly the welcome I intended for you,”
said Hugh, peering up into the shadowy face above him. “For
you, I think, must be the envoy sent from the Empress Maud and the
bishop of Winchester. Your herald arrived little more than an hour
ago, I did not expect you quite so soon. I had thought I should be
done with this matter by the time you came. My name is Hugh
Beringar, I stand here as sheriff for King Stephen. Your men are
provided for at the castle, I’ll send a guide with them. You,
sir, are my own guest, if you will do my house that
honour.”
“You’re very gracious,” said the
empress’s messenger blithely, “and with all my heart I
will. But had you not better first make up your accounts with these
townsmen of yours, and let them creep away to their beds? My
business can well wait a little longer.”
“Not the most successful action ever I
planned,” Hugh owned later to Cadfael. “I
under-estimated both their hardihood and the amount of cold steel
they’d have about them.”
There were four guests missing from Brother Denis’s halls
that night: Master Simeon Poer, merchant of Guildford; Walter
Bagot, glover; John Shure, tailor; William Hales, farrier. Of
these, William Hales lay that night in a stone cell in Shrewsbury
castle, along with a travelling pedlar who had touted for them in
the town, but the other three had all broken safely away, bar a few
scratches and bruises, into the woods to westward, the most
northerly outlying spinneys of the Long Forest, there to bed down
in the warm night and count their injuries and their gains, which
were considerable. They could not now return to the abbey or the
town; the traffic would in any case have stood only one more night
at a profit. Three nights are the most to be reckoned on, after
that some aggrieved wretch is sure to grow suspicious. Nor could
they yet venture south again. But the man who lives on his wits
must keep them well honed and adaptable, and there are more ways
than one of making a dishonest living.
As for the young rufflers and simple tradesmen who had come out
with visions of rattling their winnings on the way home to their
wives, they were herded into the gatehouse to be chided, warned,
and sent home chapfallen, with very little in their pockets.
And there the night’s work would have ended, if the flare
of the torch under the gateway had not caught the metal gleam of a
ring on Daniel Aurifaber’s right hand, flat silver with an
oval bezel, for one instant sharply defined. Hugh saw it, and laid
a hand on the goldsmith’s arm to detain him.
“That ring—let me see it closer!”
Daniel handed it over with a hint of reluctance, though it
seemed to stem rather from bewilderment than from any feeling of
guilt. It fitted closely, and passed over his knuckle with slight
difficulty, but the finger bore no sign of having worn it
regularly.
“Where did you get this?” asked Hugh, holding it
under the flickering light to examine the device and
inscription.
“I bought it honestly,” said Daniel defensively.
“That I need not doubt. But from whom? From one of those
gamesters? Which one?”
“The merchant—Simeon Poer he called himself. He
offered it, and it was a good piece of work. I paid well for
it.”
“You have paid double for it, my friend,” said Hugh,
“for you bid fair to lose ring and money and all. Did it
never enter your mind that it might be stolen?”
By the single nervous flutter of the goldsmith’s eyelids
the thought had certainly occurred to him, however hurriedly he had
put it out of his mind again. “No! Why should I think so? He
seemed a stout, prosperous person, all he claimed to
be…”
“This very morning,” said Hugh, “just such a
ring was taken during Mass from a pilgrim at the abbey. Abbot
Radulfus sent word up to the provost, after they had searched
thoroughly within the pale, in case it should be offered for sale
in the market. I had the description of it in turn from the
provost. This is the device and inscription of the bishop of
Winchester, and it was given to the bearer to secure him
safe-conduct on the road.”
“But I bought it in good faith,” protested Daniel,
dismayed. “I paid the man what he asked, the ring is mine,
honestly come by.”
“From a thief. Your misfortune, lad, and it may teach you
to be more wary of sudden kind acquaintances in the future who
offer you rings to buy—wasn’t it so?—at somewhat
less than you know to be their value? Travelling men rattling dice
give nothing for nothing, but take whatever they can get. If
they’ve emptied your purse for you, take warning for the next
time. This must go back to the lord abbot in the morning. Let him
deal with the owner.” He saw the goldsmith draw angry breath
to complain of his deprivation, and shook his head to ward off the
effort, not unkindly. “You have no remedy. Bite your tongue,
Daniel, and go make your peace with your wife.”
The empress’s envoy rode gently up the Wyle
in the deepening dark, keeping pace with Hugh’s smaller
mount. His own was a fine, tall beast, and the young man in the
saddle was long of body and limb. Afoot, thought Hugh, studying him
sidelong, he will top me by a head. Very much of an age with me, I
might give him a year or two, hardly more.
“Were you ever in Shrewbury before?”
“Never. Once, perhaps, I was just within the shire, I am
not sure how the border runs. I was near Ludlow once. This abbey of
yours, I marked it as I came by, a very fine, large enclosure. They
keep the Benedictine Rule?”
“They do.” Hugh expected further questions, but they
did not come. “You have kinsmen in the Order?”
Even in the dark he was aware of his companion’s grave,
musing smile. “In a manner of speaking, yes, I have. I think
he would give me leave to call him so, though there is no
blood-kinship. One who used me like a son. I keep a kindness for
the habit, for his sake. And did I hear you say there are pilgrims
here now? For some particular feast?”
“For the translation of Saint Winifred, who was brought
here four years ago from Wales. Tomorrow is the day of her
arrival.” Hugh had spoken by custom, quite forgetting what
Cadfael had told him of that arrival, but the mention of it brought
his friend’s story back sharply to mind. “I was not in
Shrewsbury then,” he said, withholding judgement. “I
brought my manors to King Stephen’s support the following
year. My own country is the north of the shire.”
They had reached the top of the hill, and were turning towards
Saint Mary’s church. The great gate of Hugh’s courtyard
stood wide, with torches at the gateposts, waiting for them. His
message had been faithfully delivered to Aline, and she was waiting
for them with all due ceremony, the bedchamber prepared, the meal
ready to come to table. All rules, all times, bow to the coming of
a guest, the duty and privilege of hospitality.
She met them at the door, opening it wide to welcome them in.
They stepped into the hall, and into a flood of light from torches
at the walls and candles on the table, and instinctively they
turned to face each other, taking the first long look. It grew ever
longer as their intent eyes grew wider. It was a question which of
them groped towards recognition first. Memory pricked and
realisation awoke almost stealthily. Aline stood smiling and
wondering, but mute, eyeing first one, then the other, until they
should stir and shed a clearer light.
“But I know you!” said Hugh. “Now I see you, I
do know you.”
“I have seen you before,” agreed the guest. “I
was never in this shire but the once, and yet…”
“It needed light to see you by,” said Hugh,
“for I never heard your voice but the once, and then no more
than a few words. I doubt if you even remember them, but I do. Six
words only. “Now have ado with a man!” you said. And
your name, your name I never heard but in a manner I take as it was
meant. You are Robert, the forester’s son who fetched Yves
Hugonin out of that robber fortress up on Titterstone Clee. And
took him home with you, I think, and his sister with
him.”
“And you are that officer who laid the siege that gave me
the cover I needed,” cried the guest, gleaming.
“Forgive me that I hid from you then, but I had no warranty
there in your territory. How glad I am to meet you honestly now,
with no need to take to flight.”
“And no need now to be Robert, the forester’s
son,” said Hugh, elated and smiling. “My name I have
given you, and the freedom of this house I offer with it. Now may I
know yours?”
“In Antioch, where I was born,” said the guest,
“I was called Daoud. But my father was an Englishman of
Robert of Normandy’s force, and among his comrades in arms I
was baptised a Christian, and took the name of the priest who stood
my godfather. Now I bear the name of Olivier de
Bretagne.”
They sat late into the night together, savouring
each other now face to face, after a year and a half of remembering
and wondering. But first, as was due, they made short work of
Olivier’s errand here.
“I am sent,” he said seriously, “to urge all
sheriffs of shires to consider, whatever their previous fealty,
whether they should not now accept the proffered peace under the
Empress Maud, and take the oath of loyalty to her. This is the
message of the bishop and the council: This land has all too long
been torn between two factions, and suffered great damage and loss
through their mutual enmity. And here, say that I lay no blame on
that party which is not my own, for there are valid claims on both
sides, and equally the blame falls on both for failing to come to
some agreement to end these distresses. The fortune at Lincoln
might just as well have fallen the opposing way, but it fell as it
did, and England is left with a king made captive, and a
queen-elect free and in the ascendant. Is it not time to call a
halt? For the sake of order and peace and the sound regulation of
the realm, and to have a government in command which can and must
put down the many injustices and tyrannies which you know, as well
as I, have set themselves up outside all law. Surely any strong
rule is better than no rule at all. For the sake of peace and
order, will you not accept the empress, and hold your county in
allegiance to her? She is already in Westminster now, the
preparations for her coronation go forward. There is a far better
prospect of success if all sheriffs come in to strengthen her
rule.”
“You are asking me,” said Hugh gently, “to go
back on my sworn fealty to King Stephen.”
“Yes,” agreed Olivier honestly, “I am. For
weighty reasons, and in no treasonous mind. You need not love, only
forbear from hating. Think of it rather as keeping your fealty to
the people of this county of yours, and this land.”
“That I can do as well or better on the side where I
began,” said Hugh, smiling. “It is what I am doing now,
as best I can. It is what I will continue to do while I have
breath. I am King Stephen’s man, and I will not desert
him.”
“Ah, well!” said Olivier, smiling and sighing in the
same breath. “To tell you truth, now I’ve met you, I
expected nothing less. I would not go from my oath, either. My lord
is the empress’s man, and I am my lord’s man, and if
our positions were changed round, my answer would be the same as
yours. Yet there is truth in what I have pleaded. How much can a
people bear? Your labourer in the fields, your little townsman with
a bare living to be looted from him, these would be glad to settle
for Stephen or for Maud, only to be rid of the other. And I do what
I am sent out to do, as well as I can.”
“I have no fault to find with the matter or the
manner,” said Hugh. “Where next do you go? Though I
hope you will not go for a day or two, I would know you better, and
we have a great deal to talk over, you and I.”
“From here north-east to Stafford, Derby, Nottingham, and
back by the eastern parts. Some will come to terms, as some lords
have done already. Some will hold to their own king, like you. And
some will do as they have done before, go back and forth like a
weather-cock with the wind, and put up their price at every change.
No matter, we have done with that now.”
He leaned forward over the table, setting his wine-cup aside.
“I had—I have—another errand of my own, and I
should be glad to stay with you a few days, until I have found what
I’m seeking, or made certain it is not here to be found. Your
mention of this flood of pilgrims for the feast gives me a morsel
of hope. A man who wills to be lost could find cover among so many,
all strangers to one another. I am looking for a young man called
Luc Meverel. He has not, to your knowledge, made his way
here?”
“Not by that name,” said Hugh, interested and
curious. “But a man who willed to be lost might choose to
doff his own name. What’s your need of him?”
“Not mine. It’s a lady who wants him back. You may
not have got word, this far north,” said Oliver, “of
everything that happened in Winchester during the council. There
was a death there that came all too near to me. Did you hear of it?
King Stephen’s queen sent her clerk there with a bold
challenge to the legate’s authority, and the man was attacked
for his audacity in the street by night, and got off with his life
only at the cost of another life.”
“We have indeed heard of it,” said Hugh with
kindling interest. “Abbot Radulfus was there at the council,
and brought back a full report. A knight by the name of Rainald
Bossard, who came to the clerk’s aid when he was set upon.
One of those in the service of Laurence d’Angers, so we
heard.”
“Who is my lord, also.”
“By your good service to his kin at Bromfield that was
plain enough. I thought of you when the abbot spoke of
d’Angers, though I had no name for you then. Then this man
Bossard was well known to you?”
“Through a year of service in Palestine, and the voyage
home together. A good man he was, and a good friend to me, and
struck down in defending his honest opponent. I was not with him
that night, I wish I had been, he might yet be alive. But he had
only one or two of his own people, not in arms. There were five or
six set on the clerk, it was a wretched business, confused and in
the dark. The murderer got clean away, and has never been traced.
Rainald’s wife… Juliana… I did not know her
until we came with our lord to Winchester, Rainald’s chief
manor is nearby. I have learned,” said Olivier very gravely,
“to hold her in the highest regard. She was her lord’s
true match, and no one could say more or better of any
lady.”
“There is an heir?” asked Hugh. “A man grown,
or still a child?”
“No, they never had children. Rainald was nearly fifty,
she cannot be many years younger. And very beautiful,” said
Olivier with solemn consideration, as one attempting not to praise,
but to explain. “Now she’s widowed she’ll have a
hard fight on her hands to evade being married off again—for
she’ll want no other after Rainald. She has manors of her own
to bestow. They had thought of the inheritance, the two of them
together, that’s why they took into their household this
young man Luc Meverel, only a year ago. He is a distant cousin of
Dame Juliana, twenty-four or twenty-five years old, I suppose, and
landless. They meant to make him their heir.”
He fell silent for some minutes, frowning past the guttering
candles, his chin in his palm. Hugh studied him, and waited. It was
a face worth studying, clean-boned, olive-skinned, fiercely
beautiful, even with the golden, falcon’s eyes thus hooded.
The blue-black hair that clustered thickly about his head, clasping
like folded wings, shot sullen bluish lights back from the
candle’s waverings. Daoud, born in Antioch, son of an English
crusading soldier in Robert of Normandy’s following, somehow
blown across the world in the service of an Angevin baron, to fetch
up here almost more Norman than the Normans… The world,
thought Hugh, is not so great, after all, but a man born to venture
may bestride it.
“I have been three times in that household,” said
Olivier, “but I never knowingly set eyes on this Luc Meverel.
All I know of him is what others have said, but among the others I
take my choice which voice to believe. There is no one, man or
woman, in that manor but agrees he was utterly devoted to Dame
Juliana. But as to the manner of his devotion… There are
many who say he loved her far too well, by no means after the
fashion of a son. Again, some say he was equally loyal to Rainald,
but their voices are growing fainter now. Luc was one of those with
his lord when Rainald was stabbed to death in the street. And two
days later he vanished from his place, and has not been seen
since.”
“Now I begin to see,” said Hugh, drawing in cautious
breath. “Have they gone so far as to say this man slew his
lord in order to gain his lady?”
“It is being said now, since his flight. Who began the
whisper there’s no telling, but by this time it’s grown
into a bellow.”
“Then why should he run from the prize for which he had
played? It makes poor sense. If he had stayed there need have been
no such whispers.”
“Ah, but I think there would have been, whether he went or
stayed. There were those who grudged him his fortune, and would
have welcomed any means of damaging him. They are finding two good
reasons, now, why he should break and run. The first, pure guilt
and remorse, too late to save any one of the three of them. The
second, fear—fear that someone had got wind of his act, and
meant to fetch out the truth at all costs. Either way, a man might
break and take to his heels. What you kill for may seem even less
attainable,” said Olivier with rueful shrewdness, “once
you have killed.”
“But you have not yet told me,” said Hugh,
“what the lady says of him. Hers is surely a voice that
should be heeded.”
“She says that such a vile suspicion is impossible. She
did, she does, value her young cousin, but not in the way of love,
nor will she have it that he has ever entertained such thoughts of
her. She says he would have died for his lord, and that it is his
lord’s death which has driven him away, sick with grief, a
little mad—who knows how deluded and haunted? For he was
there that night, he saw Rainald die. She is sure of him. She wants
him found and brought back to her. She looks upon him as a son, and
now more than ever she needs him.”
“And it’s for her sake you’re seeking him. But
why look for him here, northwards? He may have gone south, west,
across the sea by the Kentish ports. Why to the north?”
“Because we have just one word of him since he was lost
from his place, and that was going north on the road to Newbury. I
came by that same way, by Abingdon and Oxford, and I have enquired
for him everywhere, a young man travelling alone. But I can only
seek him by his own name, for I know no other for him. As you say,
who knows what he may be calling himself now!”
“And you don’t even know what he looks
like—nothing but merely his age? You’re hunting for a
spectre!”
“What is lost can always be found, it needs only enough
patience.” Olivier’s hawk’s face, beaked and
passionate, did not suggest patience, but the set of his lips was
stubborn and pure in absolute resolution.
“Well, at least,” said Hugh, considering, “we
may go down to see Saint Winifred brought home to her altar,
tomorrow, and Brother Denis can run through the roster of his
pilgrims for us, and point out any who are of the right age and
kind, solitary or not. As for strangers here in the town, I fancy
Provost Corviser should be able to put his finger on most of them.
Every man knows every man in Shrewsbury. But the abbey is the more
likely refuge, if he’s here at all.” He pondered,
gnawing a thoughtful lip. “I must send the ring down to the
abbot at first light, and let him know what’s happened to his
truant guests, but before I may go down to the feast myself I must
send out a dozen men and have them beat the near reaches of the
woods to westward for our game birds. If they’re over the
border, so much the worse for Wales, and I can do no more, but I
doubt if they intend to live wild any longer than they need. They
may not go far. How if I should leave you with the provost, to pick
his brains for your quarry here within the town, while I go hunting
for mine? Then we’ll go down together to see the brothers
bring their saint home, and talk to Brother Denis concerning the
list of his guests.”
“That would suit me well,” said Olivier gladly.
“I should like to pay my respects to the lord abbot, I do
recall seeing him in Winchester, though he would not notice me. And
there was a brother of that house, if you recall,” he said,
his golden eyes veiled within long black lashes that swept his fine
cheekbones, “who was with you at Bromfield and up on Clee,
that time… You must know him well. He is still here at the
abbey?”
“He is. He’ll be back in his bed now after Lauds.
And you and I had better be thinking of seeking ours, if
we’re to be busy tomorrow.”
“He was good to my lord’s young kinsfolk,”
said Olivier. “I should like to see him again.”
No need to ask for a name, thought Hugh, eyeing him with a
musing smile. And indeed, should he know the name? He had not
mentioned any, when he spoke of one who was no blood-kin, but who
had used him like a son, one for whose sake he kept a kindness for
the Benedictine habit.
“You shall!” said Hugh, and rose in high content to
marshal his guest to the bedchamber prepared for him.
Chapter Eight
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Abbot Radulfus was up long before Prime on the
festal morning, and so were his obedientiaries, all of whom had
their important tasks in preparation for the procession. When
Hugh’s messenger presented himself at the abbot’s
lodging the dawn was still fresh, dewy and cool, the light lying
brightly across the roofs while the great court lay in lilac-tinted
shadow. In the gardens every tree and bush cast a long band of
shade, striping the flower beds like giant brush-strokes in some
gilded illumination.
The abbot received the ring with astonished pleasure, relieved
of one flaw that might have marred the splendour of the day.
“And you say these malefactors were guests in our halls, all
four? We are well rid of them, but if they are armed, as you say,
and have taken to the woods close by, we shall need to warn our
travellers, when they leave us.”
“My lord Beringar has a company out beating the edges of
the forest for them this moment,” said the messenger.
“There was nothing to gain by following them in the dark,
once they were in cover. But by daylight we’ll hope to trace
them. One we have safe in hold, he may tell us more about them,
where they’re from, and what they have to answer for
elsewhere. But at least now they can’t hinder your
festivities.”
“And for that I’m devoutly thankful. As this man
Ciaran will certainly be for the recovery of his ring.” He
added, with a glance aside at the breviary that lay on his desk,
and a small frown for the load of ceremonial that lay before him
for the next few hours: “Shall we not see the lord sheriff
here for Mass this morning?”
“Yes, Father, he does intend it, and he brings a guest
also. He had first to set this hunt in motion, but before Mass they
will be here.”
“He has a guest?”
“An envoy from the empress’s court came last night,
Father. A man of Laurence d’Angers’ household, Olivier
de Bretagne.”
The name that had meant nothing to Hugh meant as little to
Radulfus, though he nodded recollection and understanding at
mention of the young man’s overlord. “Then will you say
to Hugh Beringar that I beg he and his guest will remain after
Mass, and dine with me here. I should be glad to make the
acquaintance of Messire de Bretagne, and hear his news.”
“I will so tell him, Father,” said the messenger,
and forthwith took his leave.
Left alone in his parlour, Abbot Radulfus stood for a moment
looking down thoughtfully at the ring in his palm. The sheltering
hand of the bishop-legate would certainly be a powerful protection
to any traveller so signally favoured, wherever there existed any
order or respect for law, whether in England or Wales. Only those
already outside the pale of law, with lives or liberty already
forfeit if taken, would defy so strong a sanction. After this
crowning day many of the guests here would be leaving again for
home. He must not forget to give due warning, before they
dispersed, that malefactors might be lurking at large in the woods
to westward, and that they were armed, and all too handy at using
their daggers. Best that the pilgrims should make sure of leaving
in companies stout enough to discourage assault.
Meantime, there was satisfaction in returning to one pilgrim, at
least, his particular armour.
The abbot rang the little bell that lay upon his desk, and in a
few moments Brother Vitalis came to answer the summons.
“Will you enquire at the guest-hall, brother, for the man
called Ciaran, and bid him here to speak with me?”
Brother Cadfael had also risen well before Prime,
and gone to open his workshop and kindle his brazier into cautious
and restrained life, in case it should be needed later to prepare
tisanes for some ecstatic souls carried away by emotional
excitement, or warm applications for weaker vessels trampled in the
crowd. He was used to the transports of simple souls caught up in
far from simple raptures.
He had a few things to tend to, and was happy to deal with them
alone. Young Oswin was entitled to his fill of sleep until the bell
awoke him. Very soon now he would graduate to the hospital of Saint
Giles, where the reliquary of Saint Winifred now lay, and the
unfortunates who carried their contagion with them, and might not
be admitted into the town, could find rest, care and shelter for as
long as they needed it. Brother Mark, that dearly-missed disciple,
was gone from there now, already ordained deacon, his eyes fixed
ahead upon his steady goal of priesthood. If ever he cast a glance
over his shoulder, he would find nothing but encouragement and
affection, the proper harvest of the seed he had sown. Oswin might
not be such another, but he was a good enough lad, and would do
honestly by the unfortunates who drifted into his care.
Cadfael went down to the banks of the Meole brook, the westward
boundary of the enclave, where the pease fields declined to the
sunken summer water. The rays from the east were just being
launched like lances over the high roofs of the monastic buildings,
and piercing the scattered copses beyond the brook, and the grassy
banks on the further side. This same water, drawn off much higher
in its course, supplied the monastery fish-ponds, the hatchery, and
the mill and millpond beyond, and was fed back into the brook just
before it entered the Severn. It lay low enough now, an archipelago
of shoals, half sand, half grass and weed, spreading smooth islands
across its breadth. After this spell, thought Cadfael, we shall
need plenty of rain. But let that wait a day or two.
He turned back to climb the slope again. The earlier field of
pease had already been gleaned, the second would be about ready for
harvesting after the festival. A couple of days, and all the
excitement would be over, and the horarium of the house and the
cycle of the seasons would resume their imperturbable progress, two
enduring rhythms in the desperately variable fortunes of mankind.
He turned along the path to his workshop, and there was Melangell
hesitating before its closed door.
She heard his step in the gravel behind her, and looked round
with a bright, expectant face. The pearly morning light became her,
softened the coarseness of her linen gown, and smoothed cool lilac
shadows round the childlike curves of her face. She had gone to
great pains to prepare herself fittingly for the day’s
solemnities. Her skirts were spotless, crisped out with care, her
dark-gold hair, burning with coppery lustre, braided and coiled on
her head in a bright crown, its tight plaits drawing up the skin of
her temples and cheeks so strongly that her brows were pulled
aslant, and the dark-lashed blue eyes elongated and made
mysterious. But the radiance that shone from her came not from the
sun’s caresses, but from within. The blue of those eyes
burned as brilliantly as the blue of the gentians Cadfael had seen
long ago in the mountains of southern France, on his way to the
east. The ivory and rose of her cheeks glowed. Melangell was in the
highest state of hope, happiness and expectation.
She made him a very pretty reverence, flushing and smiling, and
held out to him the little vial of poppy-syrup he had given to Rhun
three days ago. Still unopened!
“If you please, Brother Cadfael, I have brought this back
to you. And Rhun prays that it may serve some other who needs it
more, and with the more force because he has endured without
it.”
He took it from her gently and held it in his cupped hand, a
crude little vial stopped with a wooden stopper and a membrane of
very thin parchment tied with a waxed thread to seal it. All
intact. The boy’s third night here, and he had submitted to
handling and been mild and biddable in all, but when the means of
oblivion was put into his hand and left to his private use, he had
preserved it, and with it some core of his own secret integrity, at
his own chosen cost. God forbid, thought Cadfael, that I should
meddle there. Nothing short of a saint should knock on that
door.
“You are not angry with him?” asked Melangell
anxiously, but smiling still, unable to believe that any shadow
should touch the day, now that her love had clasped and kissed her.
“Because he did not drink it? It was not that he ever doubted
you. He said so to me. He said—I never quite
understand him!—he said it was a time for offering, and he
had his offering prepared.”
Cadfael asked: “Did he sleep?” To have deliverance
in hand, even unopened, might well bring peace. “Hush, now,
no, how could I be angry! But did he sleep?”
“He says that he did. I think it must be true, he looks so
fresh and young. I prayed hard for him.” With all the force
of her new happiness, loaded with bliss she felt the need to pour
out upon all those near to her. In the conveyance of blessedness by
affection Cadfael firmly believed.
“You prayed well,” said Cadfael. “Never doubt
he has gained by it. I’ll keep this for some soul in worse
need, as Rhun says. It will have the virtue of his faith to
strengthen it. I shall see you both during the day.”
She went away from him with a light, springing step and a head
reared to breathe in the very space and light of the sky. And
Cadfael went in to make sure he had everything ready to provide for
a long and exhausting day.
So Rhun had arrived at the last frontier of belief, and fallen,
or emerged, or soared into the region where the soul realises that
pain is of no account, that to be within the secret of God is more
than well being, and past the power of the tongue to utter. To
embrace the decree of pain is to translate it, to shed it like a
rain of blessing on others who have not yet understood.
Who am I, thought Cadfael, alone in the solitude of his
workshop, that I should dare to ask for a sign? If he can endure
and ask nothing, must not I be ashamed of doubting?
Melangell passed with a dancing step along the
path from the herbarium. On her right hand the western sky soared,
in such reflected if muted brightness that she could not forbear
from turning to stare into it. A counter-tide of light flowed in
here from the west, surging up the slope from the brook and
spilling over the crest into the garden. Somewhere on the far side
of the entire monastic enclave the two tides would meet, and the
light of the west falter, pale and die before the onslaught from
the east; but here the bulk of guest-hall and church cut off the
newly-risen sun, and left the field to this hesitant and
soft-treading antidawn.
There was someone labouring along the far border of the
flower-garden, going delicately on still tender feet, watching
where he trod. He was alone. No attendant shadow appeared at his
back, yesterday’s magic still held. She was staring at
Ciaran, Ciaran without Matthew. That in itself was a minor miracle,
to bring in this day made for miracles.
Melangell watched him begin to descend the slope towards the
brook, and when he was no more than a head and shoulders black
against the brightness, she suddenly turned and went after him. The
path down to the water skirted the growing pease, keeping close to
a hedge of thick bushes above the mill-pool. Halfway down the slope
she halted, uncertain whether to intrude on his solitude. Ciaran
had reached the waterside, and stood surveying what looked like a
safe green floor, dappled here and there with the bleached islands
of sand, and studded with a few embedded rocks that stood dry from
three weeks of fine weather. He looked upstream and down, even
stepped into the shallow water that barely covered his naked feet,
and surely soothed and refreshed them. Yet how strange, that he
should be here alone! Never, until yesterday, had she seen either
of these two without the other, yet now they went apart.
She was on the point of stealing away to leave him undisturbed
when she saw what he was doing. He had some tiny thing in his hand,
into which he was threading a thin cord, and knotting the cord to
hold it fast. When he raised both hands to make fast the end of his
cord to the tether that held the cross about his neck, the small
talisman swung free into the light and glimmered for an instant in
silver, before he tucked it away within the neck of his shirt, out
of sight against his breast. Then she knew what it was, and stirred
in pure pleasure for him, and uttered a small, breathless sound.
For Ciaran had his ring again, the safe-conduct that was to ensure
him passage to his journey’s end.
He had heard her, and swung about, startled and wary. She stood
shaken and disconcerted, and then, knowing herself discovered, ran
down the last slope of grass to his side. “They’ve
found it for you!” she said breathlessly, in haste to fill
the silence between them and dispel her own uneasiness at having
seemed to spy upon him. “Oh, I am glad! Is the thief taken,
then?”
“Melangell!” he said. “You’re early
abroad, too? Yes, you see I am blessed, after all,I have it again.
The lord abbot restored it to me only some minutes ago. But no, the
thief is not caught, he and some fellow-rogues are fled into the
woods, it seems. But I can go forth again without fear
now.”
His dark eyes, deep-set under thick brows, opened wide upon her,
smiling, holding her charmed in the abrupt discovery that he was,
despite his disease, a young and comely man, who should have been
in the fulness of his powers. Either she was imagining it, or he
stood a little straighter, a little taller, than she had ever yet
seen him, and the burning intensity of his face had mellowed into a
brighter, more human ardour, as if some foreglow of the day’s
spiritual radiance had given him new hope.
“Melangell,” he said in a soft, vehement rush of
words, “you can’t guess how glad I am of this meeting,
it was God sent you here to me. I’ve long wanted to speak to
you alone. Never think that because I myself am doomed, I
can’t see what’s before my eyes concerning others who
are dear to me. I have something to ask of you, to beg of you, most
earnestly. Don’t tell Matthew that I have my ring
again!”
“Does he not know?” she asked, astray.
“No, he was not by when the abbot sent for me. He must not
know! Keep my secret, if you love him—if you have some pity,
at least for me. I have told no one, and you must not. The lord
abbot is not likely to speak of it to any other, why should he?
That he would leave to me. If you and I keep silent, there’s
no need for anyone else to find out.”
Melangell was lost. She saw him through a rainbow of starting
tears, for very pity of his long face hollowed in shade, his eyes
glowing like the quiet, living heart of a banked fire.
“But why? Why do you want to keep it from him?”
“For his sake and yours—yes, and mine! Do you think
I have not understood long ago that he loves you?—that you
feel as much also for him? Only I stand in the way! It’s
bitter to know it, and I would have it changed. My one wish now is
that you and he should be happy together. If he loves me so
faithfully, may not I also love him? You know him! He will
sacrifice himself, and you, and all things beside, to finish what
he has undertaken, and see me safe into Aberdaron. I don’t
accept his sacrifice, I won’t endure it! Why should you both
be wretched, when my one wish is to go to my rest in peace of mind
and leave my friend happy? Now, while he feels secure that I dare
not set out without the ring, for God’s sake, girl, leave him
in innocence. And I will go, and leave you both my
blessing.”
Melangell stood quivering, like a leaf shaken by the soft,
vehement wind of his words, uncertain even of her own heart.
“Then what must I do? What is it you want of me?”
“Keep my secret,” said Ciaran, “and go with
Matthew in this holy procession. Oh, he’ll go with you, and
be glad. He won’t wonder that I should stay behind and wait
the saint’s coming here within the pale. And while
you’re gone, I’ll go on my way. My feet are almost
healed, I have my ring again, I shall reach my haven. You need not
be afraid for me. Only keep him happy as long as you may, and even
when my going is known, then use your arts, keep him, hold him
fast. That’s all I shall ever ask of you.”
“But he’ll know,” she said, alert to dangers.
“The porter will tell him you’re gone, as soon as he
looks for you and asks.”
“No, for I shall go by this way, across the brook and out
to the west, for Wales. The porter will not see me go. See,
it’s barely ankle-deep in this season. I have kinsmen in
Wales, the first miles are nothing. And among so great a throng, if
he does look for me, he’ll hardly wonder at not finding me.
Not for hours need he so much as think of me, if you do your part.
You take care of Matthew, I will absolve both you and him of all
care of me, for I shall do well enough. All the better for knowing
I leave him safe with you. For you do love him,” said Ciaran
softly.
“Yes,” said Melangell in a long sigh.
“Then take and hold him, and my blessing on you both. You
may tell him—but well afterwards!—that it is what I
designed and intended,” he said, and suddenly and briefly
smiled at some unspoken thought he did not wish to share with
her.
“You will really do this for him and for me? You mean it?
You would go on alone for his sake… Oh, you are good!”
she said passionately, and caught at his hand and pressed it to her
heart for an instant, for he was giving her the whole world at his
own sorrowful cost, and for selfless love of his friend, and there
might never be any time but this one moment even to thank him.
I’ll never forget your goodness. All my life long I shall
pray for you.”
“No,” said Ciaran, the same dark smile plucking at
his lips as she released his hand, “forget me, and help him
to forget me. That is the best gift you can make me. And better you
should not speak to me again. Go and find him. That’s your
part, and I depend on you.”
She drew back from him a few paces, her eyes still fixed on him
in gratitude and worship, made him a strange little reverence with
head and hands, and turned obediently to climb the field into the
garden. By the time she reached level ground and began to thread
the beds of the rose garden she was breaking into a joyous run.
They gathered in the great court as soon as
everyone, monk, lay servant, guest and townsman, had broken his
fast. Seldom had the court seen such a crowd, and outside the walls
the Foregate was loud with voices, as the guildsmen of Shrewsbury,
provost, elders and all, assembled to join the solemn procession
that would set out for Saint Giles. Half of the choir monks, led by
Prior Robert, were to go in procession to fetch home the reliquary,
while the abbot and the remaining brothers waited to greet them
with music and candles and flowers on their return. As for the
devout of town and Foregate, and the pilgrims within the walls,
they might form and follow Prior Robert, such of them as were
able-bodied and eager, while the lame and feeble might wait with
the abbot, and prove their devotion by labouring out at least a
little way to welcome the saint on her return.
“I should so much like to go with them all the way,”
said Melangell, flushed and excited among the chattering, elbowing
crowd in the court. “It is not far. But too far for
Rhun—he could not keep pace.”
He was there beside her, very silent, very white, very fair, as
though even his flaxen hair had turned paler at the immensity of
this experience. He leaned on his crutches between his sister and
Dame Alice, and his crystal eyes were very wide, and looked very
far, as though he was not even aware of their solicitude hemming
him in on either side. Yet he answered simply enough, “I
should like to go a little way, at least, until they leave me
behind. But you need not wait for me.”
“As though I would leave you!” said Mistress Weaver,
comfortably clucking. “You and I will keep together and see
the pilgrimage out to the best we can, and heaven will be content
with that. But the girl has her legs, she may go all the way, and
put up a few prayers for you going and returning, and we’ll
none of us be the worse for it.”
She leaned to twitch the neck of his shirt and the collar of his
coat into immaculate neatness, and to fuss over his extreme pallor,
afraid he was coming down with illness from over-excitement, though
he seemed tranquil as ivory, and serenely absent in spirit, gone
somewhere she could not follow. Her hand, rough-fingered from
weaving, smoothed his well-brushed hair, teasing every tendril back
from his tall forehead.
“Run off, then, child,” she said to Melangell,
without turning from the boy. “But find someone we know.
There’ll be riffraff running alongside, I dare say—no
escaping them. Stay by Mistress Glover, or the apothecary’s
widow…”
“Matthew is going with them,” said Melangell,
flushing and smiling at his very name. “He told me so. I met
him when we came from Prime.”
It was only half-true. She had rather confided boldly to him
that she wished to tread every step of the way, and at every step
remember and intercede for the souls she most loved on earth. No
need to name them. He, no doubt, thought with reflected tenderness
of her brother; but she was thinking no less of this anguished pair
whose fortunes she now carried delicately and fearfully in her
hands. She had even said, greatly venturing, “Ciaran cannot
keep pace, poor soul, he must wait here, like Rhun. But can’t
we make our steps count for them?”
But for all that, Matthew had looked over his shoulder, and
hesitated a sharp instant before he turned his face fully to her,
and said abruptly: “Yes, we’ll go, you and I. Yes,
let’s go that short way together, surely I have the right,
this once… I’ll make my prayers for Rhun every step of
the way.”
“Trot and find him, then, girl,” said Dame Alice,
satisfied. “Matthew will take good care of you. See,
they’re forming up, you’d best hurry. We’ll be
here to watch you come in.”
Melangell fled, elated. Prior Robert had drawn up his choir,
with Brother Anselm the precentor at their head, facing the gate.
The shifting, murmuring, excited column of pilgrims formed up at
his rear, twitching like a dragon’s tail, a long,
brightly-coloured, volatile train, brave with flowers, lighted
tapers, offerings, crosses and banners. Matthew was waiting to
reach out an eager hand to her and draw her in beside him.
“You have leave? She trusts you to me…?”
“You’re not troubled about Ciaran?” she could
not forbear asking anxiously. “He’s right to stay here,
he couldn’t manage the walk.”
The choir monks before them began their processional psalm,
Prior Robert led the way through the open gate, and after him went
the brothers in their ordered pairs, and after them the
notabilities of the town, and after them the long retinue of
pilgrims, crowding forward eagerly, picking up the chant where they
had knowledge of it or a sensitive ear, pouring out past the
gatehouse and turning right towards Saint Giles.
Brother Cadfael went with Prior Robert’s
party, with Brother Adam of Reading walking beside him. Along the
broad road by the enclave wall, past the great triangle of trodden
grass at the horse-fair ground, and again bearing right with the
road, between scattered houses and sun-bleached pastures and fields
to the very edge of the suburb, where the squat tower of the
hospital church, the roof of the hospice, and the long wattle fence
of its garden showed dark against the bright eastern sky, slightly
raised from the road on a gentle green mound. And all the way the
long train of followers grew longer and more gaily-coloured, as the
people of the Foregate in their best holiday clothes came out from
their dwellings and joined the procession. There was no room in the
small, dark church for more than the brothers and the civic
dignitaries of the town. The rest gathered all about the doorway,
craning to get a glimpse of the proceedings within. With his lips
moving almost soundlessly on the psalms and prayers, Cadfael
watched the play of candle-light on the silver tracery that
ornamented Saint Winifred’s elegant oak coffin, elevated
there on the altar as when they had first brought it from
Gwytherin, four years earlier. He wondered whether his motive in
securing for himself a place among the eight brothers who would
bear her back to the abbey had been as pure as he had hoped. Had he
been staking a proprietory claim on her, as one who had been at her
first coming? Or had he meant it as a humble and penitential
gesture? He was, after all, past sixty, and as he recalled, the oak
casket was heavy, its edges sharp on a creaky shoulder, and the way
back long enough to bring out all the potential discomforts. She
might yet find a way of showing him whether she approved his
proceedings or no, by striking him helpless with rheumatic
pains!
The office ended. The eight chosen brothers, matched in height
and pace, lifted the reliquary and settled it upon their shoulders.
The prior stooped his lofty head through the low doorway into the
mid-morning radiance, and the crowd clustered about the church
opened to make way for the saint to ride to her triumph. The
procession reformed, Prior Robert before with the brothers, the
coffin with its bearers, flanked by crosses and banners and
candles, and eager women bringing garlands of flowers. With
measured pace, with music and solemn joy, Saint Winifred—or
whatever represented her there in the sealed and secret
place—was borne back to her own altar in the abbey
church.
Curious, thought Cadfael, carefully keeping the step by numbers,
it seems lighter than I remember. Is that possible? In only four
years? He was familiar with the curious propensities of the body,
dead or alive, he had once been led into a gallery of caverns in
the desert where ancient Christians had lived and died, he knew
what dry air can do to flesh, preserving the light and shrivelled
shell while the juice of life was drawn off into spirit. Whatever
was there in the reliquary, it rode tranquilly upon his shoulder,
like a light hand guiding him. It was not heavy at all!
Chapter Nine
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Something wonderful happened along the way to
Matthew and Melangell, hemmed in among the jostling, singing,
jubilant train. Somewhere along that half-mile of road they were
caught up in the fever and joy of the day, borne along on the tide
of music and devotion, forgetting all others, forgetting even
themselves, drawn into one without any word or motion of theirs.
When they turned their heads to look at each other, they saw only
mated eyes and a halo of sunshine. They did not speak at all, not
once along the way. They had no need of speech. But when they had
turned the corner of the precinct wall by the horse-fair, and drew
near to the gatehouse, and heard and saw the abbot leading his own
party out to meet them, splendidly vested and immensely tall under
his mitre; when the two chants found their measure while yet some
way apart, and met and married in a triumphant, soaring cry of
worship, and all the ardent followers drew gasping breaths of
exultation, Melangell heard beside her a broken breath drawn, like
a soft sob, that turned as suddenly into a peal of laughter, out of
pure, possessed joy. Not a loud sound, muted and short of breath
because the throat that uttered it was clenched by emotion, and the
mind and heart from which it came quite unaware of what it shed
upon the world. It was a beautiful sound, or so Melangell thought,
as she raised her head to stare at him with wide eyes and parted
lips, in dazzled and dazzling delight. Matthew’s wry and rare
smile she had seen sometimes, and wondered and grieved at its
brevity, but never before had she heard him laugh.
The two processions merged. The cross-bearers walked before,
Abbot Radulfus, prior and choir monks came after, and Cadfael and
his peers with their sacred burden followed, hemmed in on both
sides by worshippers who reached and leaned to touch even the
sleeve of a bearer’s habit, or the polished oak of the
reliquary as it passed. Brother Anselm, in secure command of his
choir, raised his own fine voice in the lead as they turned in at
the gatehouse, bringing Saint Winifred home.
Brother Cadfael, by then, was moving like a man in a dual dream,
his body keeping pace and time with his fellows, in one confident
rhythm, while his mind soared in another, carried aloft on the
cushioned cloud of sounds, compounded of the eager footsteps,
exalted murmurs and shrill acclamations of hundreds of people, with
the chant borne above it, and the voice of Brother Anselm soaring
over all. The great court was crowded with people to watch them
enter, the way into the cloister, and so into the church, had to be
cleared by slow, shuffling paces, the ranks pressing back to give
them passage, Cadfael came to himself with some mild annoyance when
the reliquary was halted in the court, to wait for a clear path
ahead. He braced both feet almost aggressively into the familiar
soil, and for the first time looked about him. He saw, beyond the
throng already gathered, the saint’s own retinue melting and
flowing to find a place where eye might see all, and ear hear all.
In this brief halt he saw Melangell and Matthew, hand in hand, hunt
round the fringes of the crowd, and find a place to gaze.
They looked to Cadfael a little tipsy, like unaccustomed
drinkers after strong wine. And why not? After long abstention he
had felt the intoxication possessing his own feet, as they held the
hypnotic rhythm, and his own mind, as it floated on the cadences of
song. Those ecstasies were at once native and alien to him, he
could both embrace and stand clear of them, feet firmly planted,
gripping the homely earth, to keep his balance and stand erect.
They moved forward again into the nave of the church, and then
to the right, towards the bared and waiting altar. The vast,
dreaming, sun-warmed bulk of the church enclosed them, dim, silent
and empty, since no other could enter until they had discharged
their duty, lodged their patroness and retired to their own
insignificant places. Then they came, led by abbot and prior, first
the brothers to fill up their stalls in the choir, then the provost
and guildsmen of the town and the notables of the shire, and then
all that great concourse of people, flooding in from hot
mid-morning sunlight to the cool dimness of stone, and from the
excited clamour of festival to the great silence of worship, until
all the space of the nave was filled with the colour and warmth and
breath of humanity, and all as still as the candle-flames on the
altar. Even the reflected gleams in the silver chacings of the
casket were fixed and motionless as jewels.
Abbot Radulfus stood forth. The sobering solemnity of the Mass
began.
For the very intensity of all that mortal emotion gathered thus
between confining walls and beneath one roof, it was impossible to
withdraw the eyes for an instant from the act of worship on which
it was centred, or the mind from the words of the office. There had
been times, through the years of his vocation, when Cadfael’s
thoughts had strayed during Mass to worrying at other problems, and
working out other intents. It was not so now. Throughout, he was
unaware of a single face in all that throng, only of the presence
of humankind, in whom his own identity was lost; or, perhaps, into
whom his own identity expanded like air, to fill every part of the
whole. He forgot Melangell and Matthew, he forgot Ciaran and Rhun,
he never looked round to see if Hugh had come. If there was a face
before his mind’s eye at all it was one he had never seen,
though he well remembered the slight and fragile bones he had
lifted with such care and awe out of the earth, and with so much
better heart again laid beneath the same soil, there to resume her
hawthorn-scented sleep under the sheltering trees. For some reason,
though she had lived to a good old age, he could not imagine her
older than seventeen or eighteen, as she had been when the
king’s son Cradoc pursued her. The slender little bones had
cried out of youth, and the shadowy face he had imagined for her
was fresh and eager and open, and very beautiful. But he saw it
always half turned away from him. Now, if ever, she might at last
look round, and show him fully that reassuring countenance.
At the end of Mass the abbot withdrew to his own stall, to the
right of the entrance from nave to choir, round the parish altar,
and with lifted voice and open arms bade the pilgrims advance to
the saint’s altar, where everyone who had a petition to make
might make it on his knees, and touch the reliquary with hand and
lip. And in orderly and reverent silence they came. Prior Robert
took his stand at the foot of the three steps that led up to the
altar, ready to offer a hand to those who needed help to mount or
kneel. Those who were in health and had no pressing requirements to
advance came through from the nave on the other side, and found
corners where they might stand and watch, and miss nothing of this
memorable day. They had faces again, they spoke in whispers, they
were as various as an hour since they had been one.
On his knees in his stall, Brother Cadfael looked on, knowing
them one from another now as they came, kneeled and touched. The
long file of petitioners was drawing near its end when he saw Rhun
approaching. Dame Alice had a hand solicitously under his left
elbow, Melangell nursed him along on his right, Matthew followed
close, no less anxious than they. The boy advanced with his usual
laborious gait, his dragging toe just scraping the tiles of the
floor. His face was intensely pale, but with a brilliant pallor
that almost dazzled the watching eyes, and the wide gaze he fixed
steadily upon the reliquary shone translucent, like ice with a
bright bluish light behind it. Dame Alice was whispering low,
encouraging entreaties into one ear, Melangell into the other, but
he was aware of nothing but the altar towards which he moved. When
his turn came, he shook off his supporters, and for a moment seemed
to hesitate before venturing to advance alone.
Prior Robert observed his condition, and held out a hand.
“You need not be abashed, my son, because you cannot kneel.
God and the saint will know your goodwill.”
The softest whisper of a voice, though clearly audible in the
waiting silence, said tremulously: “But, Father, I can! I
will!”
Rhun straightened up, taking his hands from his crutches, which
slid from under his armpits and fell. That on the left crashed with
an unnerving clatter upon the tiles, on the right Melangell started
forward and dropped to her knees, catching the falling prop in her
arms with a faint cry. And there she crouched, embracing the
discarded thing desperately, while Rhun set his twisted foot to the
ground and stood upright. He had but two or three paces to go to
the foot of the altar steps. He took them slowly and steadily, his
eyes fixed upon the reliquary. Once he lurched slightly, and Dame
Alice made a trembling move to run after him, only to halt again in
wonder and fear, while Prior Robert again extended his hand to
offer aid. Rhun paid no attention to them or to anyone else, he did
not seem to see or hear anything but his goal, and whatever voice
it might be that called him forward. For he went with held breath,
as a child learning to walk ventures across perilous distances to
reach its mother’s open arms and coaxing, praising
blandishments that wooed it to the deed.
It was the twisted foot he set first on the lowest step, and now
the twisted foot, though a little awkward and unpractised, was
twisted no longer, and did not fail him, and the wasted leg, as he
put his weight on it, seemed to have smoothed out into shapeliness,
and bore him up bravely.
Only then did Cadfael become aware of the stillness and the
silence, as if every soul present held his breath with the boy,
spellbound, not yet ready, not yet permitted to acknowledge what
they saw before their eyes. Even Prior Robert stood charmed into a
tall, austere statue, frozen at gaze. Even Melangell, crouching
with the crutch hugged to her breast, could not stir a finger to
help or break the spell, but hung upon every deliberate step with
agonised eyes, as though she were laying her heart under his feet
as a voluntary sacrifice to buy off fate.
He had reached the third step, he sank to his knees with only
the gentlest of manipulations, holding by the fringes of the altar
frontal, and the cloth of gold that was draped under the reliquary.
He lifted his joined hands and starry face, white and bright even
with eyes now closed, and though there was hardly any sound they
saw his lips moving upon whatever prayers he had made ready for
her. Certainly they contained no request for his own healing. He
had put himself simply in her hands, submissively and joyfully, and
what had been done to him and for him surely she had done, of her
own perfect will.
He had to hold by her draperies to rise, as babes hold by their
mothers’ skirts. No doubt but she had him under the arms to
raise him. He bent his fair head and kissed the hem of her garment,
rose erect and kissed the silver rim of the reliquary, in which,
whether she lay or not, she alone commanded and had sovereignty.
Then he withdrew from her, feeling his way backward down the three
steps. Twisted foot and shrunken leg carried him securely. At the
foot he made obeisance gravely, and then turned and went briskly,
like any other healthy lad of sixteen, to smile reassurance on his
trembling womenfolk, take up gently the crutches for which he had
no further use, and carry them back to lay them tidily under the
altar.
The spell broke, for the marvellous thing was done, and its
absolute nature made manifest. A great, shuddering sigh went round
nave, choir, transepts and all, wherever there were human creatures
watching and listening. And after the sigh the quivering murmur of
a gathering storm, whether of tears or laughter there was no
telling, but the air shook with its passion. And then the outcry,
the loosing of both tears and laughter, in a gale of wonder and
praise. From stone walls and lofty, arched roof, from rood-loft and
transept arcades, the echoes flew and rebounded, and the candles
that had stood so still and tall shook and guttered in the gale.
Melangell hung weak with weeping and joy in Matthew’s arms,
Dame Alice whirled from friend to friend, spouting tears like a
fountain, and smiling like the most blessed of women. Prior Robert
lifted his hands in vindicated stewardship, and his voice in the
opening of a thanksgiving psalm, and Brother Anselm took up the
chant.
A miracle, a miracle, a miracle…
And in the midst Rhun stood erect and still, even a little
bewildered, braced sturdily on his two long, shapely legs, looking
all about him at the shouting, weeping, exulting faces, letting the
meaningless sounds wash over him in waves, wanting the quiet he had
known when there had been no one here in this holy place but
himself and his saint, who had told him, in how sweet and private
conference, all that he had to do.
Brother Cadfael rose with his brothers, after the
church was cleared of all others, after all that jubilant,
bubbling, boiling throng had gone forth to spill its feverish
excitement in open summer air, to cry the miracle aloud, carry it
out into the Foregate, beyond into the town, buffet it back and
forth across the tables at dinner in the guest-hall, and return to
extol it at Vespers with what breath was left. When they dispersed
the word would go with them wherever they went, sounding Saint
Winifred’s praises, inspiring other souls to take to the
roads and bring their troubles to Shrewsbury. Where healing was
proven, and attested by hundreds of voices.
The brothers went to their modest, accustomed dinner in the
refectory, and observed, whatever their own feelings were, the
discipline of silence. They were very tired, which made silence
welcome. They had risen early, worked hard, been through fire and
flood body and soul, no wonder they ate humbly, thankfully, in
silence.
Chapter Ten
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It was not until dinner was almost over in the
guest-hall that Matthew, seated at Melangell’s side and still
flushed and exalted from the morning’s heady wonders,
suddenly bethought him of sterner matters, and began to look back
with a thoughtful frown which as yet only faintly dimmed the
unaccustomed brightness of his face. Being in attendance on
Mistress Weaver and her young people had made him a part, for a
while, of their unshadowed joy, and caused him to forget everything
else. But it could not last, though Rhun sat there half-lost in
wonder still, with hardly a word to say, and felt no need of food
or drink, and his womenfolk fawned on him unregarded. So far away
had he been that the return took time.
“I haven’t seen Ciaran,” said Matthew quietly
in Melangell’s ear, and he rose a little in his place to look
round the crowded room. “Did you catch ever a glimpse of him
in the church?”
She, too, had forgotten until then, but at sight of his face she
remembered all too sharply, with a sickening lurch of her heart.
But she kept her countenance, and laid a persuasive hand on his arm
to draw him down again beside her. “Among so many? But he
surely would be there. He must have been among the first, he stayed
here, he would find a good place. We didn’t see all those who
went to the altar—we all stayed with Rhun, and his place was
far back.” Such a mingling of truth and lies, but she kept
her voice confident, and clung to her shaken hope.
“But where is he now? I don’t see him within
here.” Though there was so much excitement, so much moving
about from table to table to talk with friends, that one man might
easily avoid detection. “I must find him,” said
Matthew, not yet greatly troubled but wanting reassurance, and
rose.
“No, sit down! You know he must be here somewhere. Let him
alone, and he’ll appear when he chooses. He may be resting on
his bed, if he has to go forth again barefoot tomorrow. Why look
for him now? Can you not do without him even one day? And such a
day?”
Matthew looked down at her with a face from which all the
openness and joy had faded, and freed his sleeve from her grasp
gently enough, but decidedly. “Still, I must find him. Stay
here with Rhun, I’ll come back. All I want is to see him, to
be sure…”
He was away, slipping quietly out between the festive tables,
looking sharply about him as he went. She was in two minds about
following him, but then she thought better of it, for while he
hunted time would be slipping softly away, and Ciaran would be
dwindling into distance, as later she prayed he could fade even out
of mind, and be forgotten. So she remained with the happy company,
but not of it, and with every passing moment hesitated whether to
grow more reassured or more uneasy. At last she could not bear the
waiting any longer. She rose quietly and slipped away. Dame Alice
was in full spate, torn between tears and smiles, sitting proudly
by her prodigy, and surrounded by neighbours as happy and voluble
as herself, and Rhun, still somehow apart though he was the centre
of the group, sat withdrawn into his revelation, even as he
answered eager questions, lamely enough but as well as he could.
They had no need of Melangell, they would not miss her for a little
while.
When she came out into the great court, into the brilliance of
the noonday sun, it was the quietest hour, the pause after meat.
There never was a time of day when there was no traffic about the
court, no going and coming at the gatehouse, but now it moved at
its gentlest and quietest. She went down almost fearfully into the
cloister, and found no one there but a single copyist busy
reviewing what he had done the previous day, and Brother Anselm in
his workshop going over the music for Vespers; into the
stable-yard, though there was no reason in the world why Matthew
should be there, having no mount, and no expectation that his
companion would or possibly could acquire one; into the gardens,
where a couple of novices were clipping back the too exuberant
shoots of a box hedge; even into the grange court, where the barns
and storehouses were, and a few lay servants were taking their
ease, and harrowing over the morning’s marvel, like everyone
else within the enclave, and most of Shrewsbury and the Foregate
into the bargain. The abbot’s garden was empty, neat, glowing
with carefully-tended roses, his lodging showed an open door, and
some ordered bustle ot guests within.
She turned back towards the garden, now in deep anxiety. She was
not good at lying, she had no practice, even for a good end she
could not but botch the effort. And for all the to and fro of
customary commerce within the pale, never without work to be done,
she had seen nothing of Matthew. But he could not be gone, no, the
porter could tell him nothing, Ciaran had not passed there; and she
would not, never until she must, never until Matthew’s too
fond heart was reconciled to loss, and open and receptive to a
better gain.
She turned back, rounding the box hedge and out of sight of the
busy novices, and walked breast to breast into Matthew.
They met between the thick hedges, in a terrible privacy. She
started back from him in a brief revulsion of guilt, for he looked
more distant and alien than ever before, even as he recognised her,
and acknowledged with a contortion of his troubled face her right
to come out in search of him, and almost in the same instant
frowned her off as irrelevant.
“He’s gone!” he said in a chill and grating
voice, and looked through her and far beyond. “God keep you,
Melangell, you must fend for yourself now, sorry as I am.
He’s gone—fled while my back was turned. I’ve
looked for him everywhere, and never a trace of him. Nor has the
porter seen him pass the gate, I’ve asked there. But
he’s gone! Alone! And I must go after him. God keep you,
girl, as I cannot, and fare you well!”
And he was going so, with so few words and so cold and wild a
face! He had turned on his heel and taken two long steps before she
flung herself after him, caught him by the arms in both hands, and
dragged him to a halt.
“No, no, why? What need has he of you, to match
with my need? He’s gone? Let him go! Do you think your life
belongs to him? He doesn’t want it! He wants you free, he
wants you to live your own life, not die his death with him. He
knows, he knows you love me! Dare you deny it? He knows I love you.
He wants you happy! Why should not a friend want his friend to be
happy? Who are you to deny him his last wish?”
She knew by then that she had said too much, but never knew at
what point the error had become mortal. He had turned fully to her
again, and frozen where he stood, and his face was like chiselled
marble. He tugged his sleeve out of her grasp this time with no
gentleness at all.
“He wants!” hissed a voice she had never
heard before, driven through narrowed lips. “You’ve
spoken with him! You speak for him! You knew! You
knew he meant to go, and leave me here bewitched, damned, false to
my oath. You knew! When? When did you speak with
him?”
He had her by the wrists, he shook her mercilessly, and she
cried out and fell to her knees.
“You knew he meant to go?” persisted Matthew,
stooping over her in a cold frenzy.
“Yes—yes! This morning he told me… he wished
it…”
“He wished it! How dared he wish it? How could he
dare, robbed of his bishop’s ring as he was? He dared not
stir without it, he was terrified to set foot outside the
pale…”
“He has the ring,” she cried, abandoning all deceit.
“The lord abbot gave it back to him this morning, you need
not fret for him, he’s safe enough, he has his
protection… He doesn’t need you!”
Matthew had fallen into a deadly stillness, stooping above her.
“He has the ring? And you knew it, and never said
word! If you know so much, how much more do you know. Speak!
Where is he?”
“Gone,” she said in a trembling whisper, “and
wished you well, wished us both well… wished us to be
happy… Oh, let him go, let him go, he sets you
free!”
Something that was certainly a laugh convulsed Matthew, she
heard it with her ears and felt it shiver through her flesh, but it
was like no other laughter she had ever heard, it chilled her
blood. “He sets me free! And you must be
his confederate! Oh, God! He never passed the gate. If you know
all, then tell all—how did he go?”
She faltered, weeping: “He loved you, he willed you to
live and forget him, and be happy…”
“How did he go?” repeated Matthew, in a
voice so ill-supplied with breath it seemed he might strangle on
the words.
“Across the brook,” she said in a broken whisper,
“making the quickest way for Wales. He said… he has
kin there…”
He drew in hissing breath and took his hands from her, leaving
her drooping forward on her face as he let go of her wrists. He had
turned his back and flung away from her, all they had shared
forgotten, his obsession plucking him away. She did not understand,
there was no way she could come to terms so rapidly with all that
had happened, but she knew she had loosed her hold of her love, and
he was in merciless flight from her in pursuit of some
incomprehensible duty in which she had no part and no right.
She sprang up and ran after him, caught him by the arm, wound
her own arms about him, lifted her imploring face to his stony,
frantic stare, and prayed him passionately: “Let him go! Oh,
let him go! He wants to go alone and leave you to
me…”
Almost silently above her the terrible laughter, so opposed to
that lovely sound as he followed the reliquary with her, boiled
like some thick, choking syrup in his throat. He struggled to shake
off her clinging hands, and when she fell to her knees again and
hung upon him with all her despairing weight he tore loose his
right hand, and struck her heavily in the face, sobbing, and so
wrenched himself loose and fled, leaving her face-down on the
ground.
In the abbot’s lodging Radulfus and his
guests sat long over their meal, for they had much to discuss. The
topic which was on everyone’s lips naturally came first.
“It would seem,” said the abbot, “that we have
been singularly favoured this morning. Certain motions of grace we
have seen before, but never yet one so public and so persuasive,
with so many witnesses. How do you say? I grow old in experience of
wonders, some of which turn out to fall somewhat short of their
promise. I know of human deception, not always deliberate, for
sometimes the deceiver is himself deceived. If saints have power,
so have demons. Yet this boy seems to me as crystal. I cannot think
he either cheats or is cheated.”
“I have heard,” said Hugh, “of cripples who
discarded their crutches and walked without them, only to relapse
when the fervour of the occasion was over. Time will prove whether
this one takes to his crutches again.”
“I shall speak with him later,” said the abbot,
“after the excitement has cooled. I hear from Brother Edmund
that Brother Cadfael has been treating the boy these three days he
has been here. That may have eased his condition, but it can
scarcely have brought about so sudden a cure. No, I must say it, I
truly believe our house has been the happy scene of divine grace. I
will speak also with Cadfael, who must know the boy’s
condition.”
Olivier sat quiet and deferential in the presence of so reverend
a churchman as the abbot, but Hugh observed that his arched lids
lifted and his eyes kindled at Cadfael’s name. So he knew who
it was he sought, and something more than a distant salute in
action had passed between that strangely assorted pair.
“And now I should be glad,” said the abbot,
“to hear what news you bring from the south. Have you been in
Westminster with the empress’s court? For I hear she is now
installed there.”
Olivier gave his account of affairs in London readily, and
answered questions with goodwill. “My lord has remained in
Oxford, it was at his wish I undertook this errand. I was not in
London, I set out from Winchester. But the empress is in the palace
of Westminster, and the plans for her coronation go
forward—admittedly very slowly. The city of London is well
aware of its power, and means to exact due recognition of it, or so
it seems to me.” He would go no nearer than that to voicing
whatever qualms he felt about his liege lady’s wisdom or want
of it, but he jutted a dubious underlip, and momentarily frowned.
“Father, you were there at the council, you know all that
happened. My lord lost a good knight there, and I a valued friend,
struck down in the street.”
“Rainald Bossard,” said Radulfus sombrely. “I
have not forgotten.”
“Father, I have been telling the lord sheriff here what I
should like to tell also to you. For I have a second errand to
pursue, wherever I go on the business of the empress, an errand for
Rainald’s widow. Rainald had a young kinsman in his
household, who was with him when he was killed, and after that
death this young man left the lady’s service without a word,
secretly. She says he had grown closed and silent even before he
vanished, and the only trace of him afterwards was on the road to
Newbury, going north. Since then, nothing. So knowing I was bound
north, she begged me to enquire for him wherever I came, for she
values and trusts him, and needs him at her side. I may not deceive
you, Father, there are those who say he has fled because he is
guilty of Rainald’s death. They claim he was besotted with
Dame Juliana, and may have seized his chance in this brawl to widow
her, and get her for himself, and then taken fright because these
things were so soon being said. But I think they were not being
said at all until after he had vanished. And Juliana, who surely
knows him better than any, and looks upon him as a son, for want of
children of her own, she is quite sure of him. She wants him home
and vindicated, for whatever reason he left her as he did. And I
have been asking at every lodging and monastery along the road for
word of such a young man. May I also ask here? Brother Hospitaller
will know the names of all his guests. Though a name,” he
added ruefully, “is almost all I have, for if ever I saw the
man it was without knowing it was he. And the name he may have left
behind him.”
“It is not much to go on,” said Abbot Radulfus with
a smile, “but certainly you may enquire. If he has done no
wrong, I should be glad to help you to find him and bring him off
without reproach. What is his name?”
“Luc Meverel. Twenty-four years old, they tell me,
middling tall and well made, dark of hair and eye.”
“It could fit many hundreds of young men,” said the
abbot, shaking his head, “and the name I doubt he will have
put off if he has anything to hide, or even if he fears it may be
unfairly besmirched. Yet try. I grant you in such a gathering as we
have here now a young man who wished to be lost might bury himself
very thoroughly. Denis will know which of his guests is of the
right age and quality. For clearly your Luc Meverel is well-born,
and most likely tutored and lettered.”
“Certainly so,” said Olivier.
“Then by all means, and with my blessing, go freely to
Brother Denis, and see what he can do to help you. He has an
excellent memory, he will be able to tell you which, among the men
here, is of suitable years, and gentle. You can but try.”
On leaving the lodging they went first, however,
to look for Brother Cadfael. And Brother Cadfael was not so easily
found. Hugh’s first resort was the workshop in the herbarium,
where they habitually compounded their affairs. But there was no
Cadfael there. Nor was he with Brother Anselm in the cloister,
where he well might have been debating some nice point in the
evening’s music. Nor checking the medicine cupboard in the
infirmary, which must surely have been depleted during these last
few days, but had clearly been restocked in the early hours of this
day of glory. Brother Edmund said mildly: “He was here. I had
a poor soul who bled from the mouth—too gorged, I think, with
devotion. But he’s quiet and sleeping now, the flux has
stopped. Cadfael went away some while since.”
Brother Oswin, vigorously fighting weeds in the kitchen garden,
had not seen his superior since dinner. “But I think,”
he said, blinking thoughtfully into the sun in the zenith,
“he may be in the church.”
Cadfael was on his knees at the foot of Saint
Winifred’s three-tread stairway to grace, his hands not
lifted in prayer but folded in the lap of his habit, his eyes not
closed in entreaty but wide open to absolution. He had been
kneeling there for some time, he who was usually only too glad to
rise from knees now perceptibly stiffening. He felt no pains, no
griefs of any kind, nothing but an immense thankfulness in which he
floated like a fish in an ocean. An ocean as pure and blue and
drowningly deep and clear as that well-remembered eastern sea, the
furthest extreme of the tideless midland sea of legend, at the end
of which lay the holy city of Jerusalem, Our Lord’s
burial-place and hard-won kingdom. The saint who presided here,
whether she lay here or no, had launched him into a shining
infinity of hope. Her mercies might be whimsical, they were
certainly magisterial. She had reached her hand to an innocent,
well deserving her kindness. What had she intended towards this
less innocent but no less needy being?
Behind him, approaching quietly from the nave, a known voice
said softly: “And are you demanding yet a second
miracle?”
He withdrew his eyes reluctantly from the reflected gleams of
silver along the reliquary, and turned to look towards the parish
altar. He saw the expected shape of Hugh Beringar, the thin dark
face smiling at him. But over Hugh’s shoulder he saw a taller
head and shoulders loom, emerging from dimness in suave,
resplendent planes, the bright, jutting cheekbones, the olive
cheeks smoothly hollowed below, the falcon’s amber eyes
beneath high-arched black brows, the long, supple lips tentatively
smiling upon him.
It was not possible. Yet he beheld it. Olivier de Bretagne came
out of the shadows and stepped unmistakable into the light of the
altar candles. And that was the moment when Saint Winifred turned
her head, looked fully into the face of her fallible but faithful
servant, and also smiled.
A second miracle! Why not? When she gave she gave prodigally,
with both hands.
Chapter Eleven
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They went out into the cloister all three
together, and that in itself was memorable and good, for they had
never been together before. Those trusting intimacies which had
once passed between Cadfael and Olivier, on a winter night in
Bromfield priory, were unknown still to Hugh, and there was a
mysterious constraint still that prevented Olivier from openly
recalling them. The greetings they exchanged were warm but brief,
only the reticence behind them was eloquent, and no doubt Hugh
understood that well enough, and was willing to wait for
enlightenment, or courteously to make do without it. For that there
was no haste, but for Luc Meverel there might be.
“Our friend has a quest,” said Hugh, “in which
we mean to enlist Brother Denis’s help, but we shall also be
very glad of yours. He is looking for a young man by the name of
Luc Meverel, strayed from his place and known to be travelling
north. Tell him the way of it, Olivier.”
Olivier told the story over again, and was listened to with
close attention. “Very gladly,” said Cadfael then,
“would I do whatever man can do not only to bring off an
innocent man from such a charge, but also to bring the charge home
to the guilty. We know of this murder, and it sticks in every
gullet that a decent man, protecting his honourable opponent,
should be cut down by one of his own faction…”
“Is that certain?” wondered Hugh sharply.
“As good as certain. Who else would so take exception to
the man standing up for his lady and doing his errand without fear?
All who still held to Stephen in their hearts would approve, even
if they dared not applaud him. And as for a chance attack by
sneak-thieves—why choose to prey on a mere clerk, with
nothing of value on him but the simple needs of his journey, when
the town was full of nobles, clerics and merchants far better worth
robbing? Rainald died only because he came to the clerk’s
aid. No, an adherent of the empress, like Rainald himself but most
unlike, committed that infamy.”
“That’s good sense,” agreed Olivier.
“But my chief concern now is to find Luc, and send him home
again if I can.”
“There must be twenty or more young fellows in that age
here today,” said Cadfael, scrubbing thoughtfully at his
blunt brown nose, “but I dare wager most of them can be
pricked out of the list as well known to some of their companions
by their own right names, or by reason of their calling or
condition. Solitaries may come, but they’re few and far
between. Pilgrims are like starlings, they thrive on company.
We’d best go and talk to Brother Denis. He’ll have
sorted out most of them by now.”
Brother Denis had a retentive memory and an appetite for news
and rumours that usually kept him the best-informed person in the
enclave. The fuller his halls, the more pleasure he took in knowing
everything that went on there, and the name and vocation of every
guest. He also kept meticulous books to record the visitations.
They found him in the narrow cell where he kept his accounts and
estimated his future needs, thoughtfully reckoning up what
provisions he still had, and how rapidly the demands on them were
likely to dwindle from the morrow. He took his mind from his
store-book courteously in order to listen to what Brother Cadfael
and the sheriff required of him, and produced answers with
exemplary promptitude when asked to sieve out from his swollen
household males of about twenty-five years, bred gentle or within
modest reach of gentility, lettered, of dark colouring and medium
tall build, answering to the very bare description of Luc Meverel.
As his forefinger flew down the roster of his guests the numbers
shrank remarkably. It seemed to be true that considerably more than
half of those who went on pilgrimage were women, and that among the
men the greater part were in their forties or fifties, and of those
remaining, many would be in minor orders, either monastics or
secular priests or would-be priests. And Luc Meverel was none of
these.
“Are there any here,” asked Hugh, viewing the final
list, which was short enough, “who came solitary?”
Brother Denis cocked his round, rosy, tonsured head aside and
ran a sharp brown eye, very remiscent of a robin’s, down the
list. “Not one. Young squires of that age seldom go as
pilgrims, unless with an exigent lord—or an equally exigent
lady. In such a summer feast as this we might have young friends
coming together, to take the fill of the time before they settle
down to sterner disciplines. But alone… Where would be the
pastime in that?”
“Here are two, at any rate,” said Cadfael,
“who came together, but surely not for pastime. They have
puzzled me, I own. Both are of the proper age, and such word as we
have of the man we’re looking for would fit either. You know
them, Denis—that youngster who’s on his way to
Aberdaron, and his friend who bears him company. Both lettered,
both bred to the manor. And certainly they came from the south,
beyond Abingdon, according to Brother Adam of Reading, who lodged
there the same night.”
“Ah, the barefoot traveller,” said Denis, and laid a
finger on Ciaran in the shrunken toll of young men, “and his
keeper and worshipper. Yes, I would not put half a year between
them, and they have the build and colouring, but you needed only
one.”
“We could at least look at two,” said Cadfael.
“If neither of them is what we’re seeking, yet coming
from that region they may have encountered such a single traveller
somewhere on the road. If we have not the authority to question
them closely about who they are and whence they come, and how and
why thus linked, then Father Abbot has. And if they have no reason
to court concealment, then they’ll willingly declare to him
what they might not as readily utter to us.”
“We may try it,” said Hugh, kindling. “At
least it’s worth the asking, and if they have nothing to do
with the man we are looking for, neither they nor we have lost more
than half an hour of time, and surely they won’t grudge us
that.”
“Granted what is so far related of these two hardly fits
the case,” Cadfael acknowledged doubtfully, “for the
one is said to be mortally ill and going to Aberdaron to die, and
the other is resolute to keep him company to the end. But a young
man who wishes to disappear may provide himself with a
circumstantial story as easily as with a new name. And at all
events, between Abingdon and Shrewsbury it’s possible they
may have encountered Luc Meverel alone and under his own
name.”
“But if one of these two, either of these two, should
truly be the man I want,” said Olivier doubtfully,
“then who, in the name of God, is the other?”
“We ask each other questions,” said Hugh
practically, “which either of these two could answer in a
moment. Come, let’s leave Abbot Radulfus to call them in, and
see what comes of it.”
It was not difficult to induce the abbot to have
the two young men sent for. It was not so easy to find them and
bring them to speak for themselves. The messenger, sent forth in
expectation of prompt obedience, came back after a much longer time
than had been expected, and reported ruefully that neither of the
pair could be found within the abbey walls. True, the porter had
not actually seen either of them pass the gatehouse. But what had
satisfied him that the two were leaving was that the young man
Matthew had come, no long time after dinner, to reclaim his dagger,
and had left behind him a generous gift of money to the house,
saying that he and his friend were already bound away on their
journey, and desired to offer thanks for their lodging. And had he
seemed—it was Cadfael who asked it, himself hardly knowing
why—had he seemed as he always was, or in any way disturbed
or alarmed or out of countenance and temper, when he came for his
weapon and paid his and his friend’s score?
The messenger shook his head, having asked no such question at
the gate. Brother Porter, when enquiry was made direct by Cadfael
himself, said positively: “He was like a man on fire. Oh, as
soft as ever in voice, and courteous, but pale and alight,
you’d have said his hair stood on end. But what with every
soul within here wandering in a dream, since this wonder, I never
thought but here were some going forth with the news while the
furnace was still white-hot.”
“Gone?” said Olivier, dismayed, when this word was
brought back to the abbot’s parlour. “Now I begin to
see better cause why one of these two, for all they come so
strangely paired, and so strangely account for themselves, may be
the man I’m seeking. For if I do not know Luc Meverel by
sight, I have been two or three times his lord’s guest
recently, and he may well have taken note of me. How if he saw me
come, today, and is gone hence thus in haste because he does not
wish to be found? He could hardly know I am sent to look for him,
but he might, for all that, prefer to put himself clean out of
sight. And an ailing companion on the way would be good cover for a
man wanting a reason for his wanderings. I wish I might yet speak
with these two. How long have they been gone?”
“It cannot have been more than an hour and a half after
noon,” said Cadfael, “according to when Matthew
reclaimed his dagger.”
“And afoot!” Olivier kindled hopefully. “And
even unshod, the one of them! It should be no great labour to
overtake them, if it’s known what road they will have
taken.”
“By far their best way is by the Oswestry road, and so
across the dyke into Wales. According to Brother Denis, that was
Ciaran’s declared intent.”
“Then, Father Abbot,” said Olivier eagerly,
“with your leave I’ll mount and ride after them, for
they cannot have got far. It would be a pity to miss the chance,
and even if they are not what I’m seeking, neither they nor I
will have lost anything. But with or without my man, I shall return
here.”
“I’ll ride through the town with you,” said
Hugh, “and set you on your way, for this will be new country
to you. But then I must be about my own business, and see if
we’ve gathered any harvest from this morning’s hunt. I
doubt they’ve gone deeper into the forest, or I should have
had word by now. We shall look for you back before night, Olivier.
One more night at the least we mean to keep you and longer if we
can.”
Olivier took his leave hastily but gracefully, made a dutiful
reverence to the abbot, and turned upon Brother Cadfael a brief,
radiant smile that shattered his preoccupation for an instant like
a sunburst through clouds. “I will not leave here,” he
said in simple reassurance, “without having quiet conference
with you. But this I must see finished, if I can.”
They were gone away briskly to the stables, where they had left
their horses before Mass. Abbot Radulfus looked after them with a
very thoughtful face.
“Do you find it surprising, Cadfael, that these two young
pilgrims should leave so soon, and so abruptly? Is it possible the
coming of Messire de Bretagne can have driven them away?”
Cadfael considered, and shook his head. “No, I think not.
In the great press this morning, and the excitement, why should one
man among the many be noticed, and one not looked for at all in
these parts? But, yes, their going does greatly surprise me. For
the one, he should surely be only too glad of an extra day or two
of rest before taking barefoot to the roads again. And for the
other—Father, there is a girl he certainly admires and
covets, whether he yet knows it to the full or no, and with her he
spent this morning, following Saint Winifred home, and I am certain
there was then no other thought in his mind but of her and her kin,
and the greatness of this day. For she is sister to the boy Rhun,
who came by so great a mercy and blessing before our eyes. It would
take some very strong compulsion to drag him away suddenly like
this.”
“The boy’s sister, you say?” Abbot Radulfus
recalled an intent which had been shelved in favour of
Olivier’s quest. There is still an hour or more before
Vespers. I should like to talk with this youth. You have been
treating his condition, Cadfael. Do you think your handling has had
anything to do with what we witnessed today? Or could
he—though I would not willingly attribute falsity to one so
young—could he have made more of his distress than it was, in
order to produce a prodigy?”
“No,” said Cadfael very decidedly. “There is
no deceit at all in him. And as for my poor skills, they might in a
long time of perseverance have softened the tight cords that
hampered the use of his limb, and made it possible to set a little
weight on it—but straighten that foot and fill out the sinews
of the leg—never! The greatest doctor in the world could not
have done it. Father, on the day he came I gave him a draught that
should have eased his pain and brought him sleep. After three
nights he sent it back to me untouched. He saw no reason why he
should expect to be singled out for healing, but he said that he
offered his pain freely, who had nothing else to give. Not to buy
grace, but of his goodwill to give and want nothing in return. And
further, it seems that thus having accepted his pain out of love,
his pain left him. After Mass we saw that deliverance
completed.”
“Then it was well deserved,” said Radulfus, pleased
and moved. “I must indeed talk with this boy. Will you find
him for me, Cadfael, and bring him here to me now?”
“Very gladly, Father,” said Cadfael, and departed on
his errand. Dame Alice was sitting in the sunshine of the cloister
garth, the centre of a voluble circle of other matrons, her face so
bright with the joy of the day that it warmed the very air; but
Rhun was not with them. Melangell had withdrawn into the shadow of
the arcade, as though the light was too bright for her eyes, and
kept her face averted over the mending of a frayed seam in a linen
shirt which must belong to her brother. Even when Cadfael addressed
her she looked up only very swiftly and timidly, and again stooped
into shadow, but even in that glimpse he saw that the joy which had
made her shine like a new rose in the morning was dimmed and pale
now in the lengthening afternoon. And was he merely imagining that
her left cheek showed the faint bluish tint of a bruise? But at the
mention of Rhun’s name she smiled, as though at the
recollection of happiness rather than its presence.
“He said he was tired, and went away into the dortoir to
rest. Aunt Weaver thinks he is lying down on his bed, but I think
he wanted only to be left alone, to be quiet and not have to talk.
He is tired by having to answer things he seems not to understand
himself.”
“He speaks another tongue today from the rest of
mankind,” said Cadfael. “It may well be we who
don’t understand, and ask things that have no meaning for
him.” He took her gently by the chin and turned her face up
to the light, but she twisted nervously out of his hold. “You
have hurt yourself?” Certainly it was a bruise beginning
there.
“It’s nothing,” she said. “My own fault.
I was in the garden, I ran too fast and I fell. I know it’s
unsightly, but it doesn’t hurt now.”
Her eyes were very calm, not reddened, only a little swollen as
to the lids. Well, Matthew had gone, abandoned her to go with his
friend, letting her fall only too disastrously after the heady
running together of the morning hours. That could account for tears
now past. But should it account for a bruised cheek? He hesitated
whether to question further, but clearly she did not wish it. She
had gone back doggedly to her work, and would not look up
again.
Cadfael sighed, and went out across the great court to the
guest-hall. Even a glorious day like this one must have its vein of
bitter sadness.
In the men’s dortoir Rhun sat alone on his bed, very still
and content in his blissfully restored body. He was deep in his own
rapt thoughts, but readily aware when Cadfael entered. He looked
round and smiled.
“Brother, I was wishing to see you. You were there, you
know. Perhaps you even heard… See, how I’m
changed!” The leg once maimed stretched out perfect before
him, he bent and stamped the boards of the floor. He flexed ankle
and toes, drew up his knee to his chin, and everything moved as
smoothly and painlessly as his ready tongue. “I am whole! I
never asked it, how dared I? Even then, I was praying not for this,
and yet this was given…” He went away again for a
moment into his tranced dream.
Cadfael sat down beside him, noting the exquisite fluency of
those joints hitherto flawed and intransigent. The boy’s
beauty was perfected now.
“You were praying,” said Cadfael gently, “for
Melangell.”
“Yes. And Matthew too. I truly thought… But you see
he is gone. They are both gone, gone together. Why could I not
bring my sister into bliss? I would have gone on crutches all my
life for that, but I couldn’t prevail.”
“That is not yet determined,” said Cadfael firmly.
“Who goes may also return. And I think your prayers should
have strong virtue, if you do not fall into doubt now, because
heaven has need of a little time. Even miracles have their times.
Half our lives in this world are spent in waiting. It is needful to
wait with faith.”
Rhun sat listening with an absent smile, and at the end of it he
said: “Yes, surely, and I will wait. For see, one of them
left this behind in his haste when he went away.”
He reached down between the close-set cots, and lifted to the
bed between them a bulky but lightweight scrip of unbleached linen,
with stout leather straps for the owner’s belt. “I
found it dropped between the two beds they had, drawn close
together. I don’t know which of them owned this one, the two
they carried were much alike. But one of them doesn’t expect
or want ever to come back, does he? Perhaps Matthew does, and has
forgotten this, whether he meant it or no, as a pledge.”
Cadfael stared and wondered, but this was a heavy matter, and
not for him. He said seriously: “I think you should bring
this with you, and give it into the keeping of Father Abbot. For he
sent me to bring you to him. He wants to speak with you.”
“With me?” wavered Rhun, stricken into a wild and
rustic child again. “The lord abbot himself?”
“Surely, and why not? You are Christian soul as he is, and
may speak with him as equal.”
The boy faltered: “I should be afraid…”
“No, you would not. You are not afraid of anything, nor
need you ever be.”
Rhun sat for a moment with fists doubled into the blanket of his
bed; then he lifted his clear, ice-blue gaze and blanched, angelic
face and smiled blindingly into Cadfael’s eyes. “No, I
need not. I’ll come.” And he hoisted the linen scrip
and stood up stately on his two long, youthful legs, and led the
way to the door.
“Stay with us,” said Abbot Radulfus,
when Cadfael would have presented his charge and left the two of
them together. “I think he might be glad of you.” Also,
said his eloquent, austere glance, your presence may be of value to
me as witness. “Rhun knows you. Me he does not yet know, but
I trust he shall, hereafter.” He had the drab, brownish scrip
on the desk before him, offered on entry with a word to account for
it, until the time came to explore its possibilities further.
“Willingly, Father,” said Cadfael heartily, and took
his seat apart on a stool withdrawn into a corner, out of the way
of those two pairs of formidable eyes that met, and wondered, and
probed with equal intensity across the small space of the parlour.
Outside the windows the garden blossomed with drunken exuberance,
in the burning colours of summer, and the blanched blue sky, at its
loftiest in the late afternoon, showed the colour of Rhun’s
eyes, but without their crystal blaze. The day of wonders was
drawing very slowly and radiantly towards its evening.
“Son,” said Radulfus at his gentlest, “you
have been the vessel for a great mercy poured out here. I know, as
all know who were there, what we saw, what we felt. But I would
know also what you passed through. I know you have lived long with
pain, and have not complained. I dare guess in what mind you
approached the saint’s altar. Tell me, what was it happened
to you then?”
Rhun sat with his empty hands clasped quietly in his lap, and
his face at once remote and easy, looking beyond the walls of the
room. All his timidity was lost.
“I was troubled,” he said carefully, “because
my sister and my Aunt Alice wanted so much for me, and I knew I
needed nothing. I would have come, and prayed, and passed, and been
content. But then I heard her call.”
“Saint Winifred spoke to you?” asked Radulfus
softly.
“She called me to her,” said Rhun positively.
“In what words?”
“No words. What need had she of words? She called me to go
to her, and I went. She told me, here is a step, and here, and
here, come, you know you can. And I knew I could, so I went. When
she told me, kneel, for so you can, then I kneeled, and I could.
Whatever she told me, that I did. And so I will still,” said
Rhun, smiling into the opposing wall with eyes that paled the
sun.
“Child,” said the abbot, watching him in solemn
wonder and respect, “I do believe it. What skills you have,
what gifts to stead you in your future life, I scarcely know. I
rejoice that you have to the full the blessing of your body, and
the purity of your mind and spirit. I wish you whatever calling you
may choose, and the virtue of your resolve to guide you in it. If
there is anything you can ask of this house, to aid you after you
go forth from here, it is yours.”
“Father,” said Rhun earnestly, withdrawing his
blinding gaze into shadow and mortality, and becoming the child he
was, “need I go forth? She called me to her, how tenderly I
have no words to tell. I desire to remain with her to my
life’s end. She called me to her, and I will never willingly
leave her.”
Chapter Twelve
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And will you keep him?” asked Cadfael,
when the boy had been dismissed, made his deep reverence, and
departed in his rapt, unwitting perfection.
“If his intent holds, yes, surely. He is the living proof
of grace. But I will not let him take vows in haste, to regret them
later. Now he is transported with joy and wonder, and would embrace
celibacy and seclusion with delight. If his will is still the same
in a month, then I will believe in it, and welcome him gladly. But
he shall serve his full notiviate, even so. I will not let him
close the door upon himself until he is sure. And now,” said
the abbot, frowning down thoughtfully at the linen scrip that lay
upon his desk, “what is to be done with this? You say it was
fallen between the two beds, and might have belonged to
either?”
“So the boy said. But, Father, if you remember, when the
bishop’s ring was stolen, both those young men gave up their
scrips to be examined. What each of them carried, apart from the
dagger that was duly delivered over at the gatehouse, I cannot say
with certainty, but Father Prior, who handled them, will
know.”
“True, so he will. But for the present,” said
Radulfus, “I cannot think we have any right to probe into
either man’s possessions, nor is it of any great importance
to discover to which of them this belongs. If Messire de Bretagne
overtakes them, as he surely must, we shall learn more, he may even
persuade them to return. We’ll wait for his word first.
In the meantime, leave it here with me. When we know more
we’ll take whatever steps we can to restore it.”
The day of wonders drew in to its evening as graciously as it
had dawned, with a clear sky and soft, sweet air. Every soul within
the enclave came dutifully to Vespers, and supper in the guest-hall
as in the refectory was a devout and tranquil feast. The voices
hasty and shrill with excitement at dinner had softened and eased
into the grateful languor of fulfilment.
Brother Cadfael absented himself from Collations in the chapter
house, and went out into the garden. On the gentle ridge where the
gradual slope of the pease fields began he stood for a long while
watching the sky. The declining sun had still an hour or more of
its course to run before its rim dipped into the feathery tops of
the copses across the brook. The west which had reflected the dawn
as this day began triumphed now in pale gold, with no wisp of cloud
to dye it deeper or mark its purity. The scent of the herbs within
the walled garden rose in a heady cloud of sweetness and spice. A
good place, a resplendent day—why should any man slip away
and run from it?
A useless question. Why should any man do the things he does?
Why should Ciaran submit himself to such hardship? Why should he
profess such piety and devotion, and yet depart without
leave-taking and without thanks in the middle of so auspicious a
day? It was Matthew who had left a gift of money on departure. Why
could not Matthew persuade his friend to stay and see out the day?
And why should he, who had glowed with excited joy in the morning,
and run hand in hand with Melangell, abandon her without remorse in
the afternoon, and resume his harsh pilgrimage with Ciaran as if
nothing had happened?
Were they two men or three? Ciaran, Matthew and Luc Meverel?
What did he know of them, all three, if three they were? Luc
Meverel had been seen for the last time south of Newbury, walking
north towards that town, and alone. Ciaran and Matthew were first
reported, by Brother Adam of Reading, coming from the south into
Abingdon for their night’s lodging, two together. If one of
them was Luc Meverel, then where and why had he picked up his
companion, and above all, who was his companion?
By this time, surely Olivier should have overhauled his quarry
and found the answers to some of these questions. And he had said
he would return, that he would not leave Shrewsbury without having
some converse with a man remembered as a good friend. Cadfael took
that assurance to his heart, and was warmed.
It was not the need to tend any of his herbal potions or
bubbling wines that drew him to walk on to his workshop, for
Brother Oswin, now in the chapter house with his fellows, had
tidied everything for the night, and seen the brazier safely out.
There was flint and tinder there in a box, in case it should be
necessary to light it again in the night or early in the morning.
It was rather that Cadfael had grown accustomed to withdrawing to
his own special solitude to do his best thinking, and this day had
given him more than enough cause for thought, as for gratitude. For
where were his qualms now? Miracles may be spent as frequently on
the undeserving as on the deserving. What marvel that a saint
should take the boy Rhun to her heart, and reach out her sustaining
hand to him? But the second miracle was doubly miraculous, far
beyond her sorry servant’s asking, stunning in its
generosity. To bring him back Olivier, whom he had resigned to God
and the great world, and made himself content never to see again!
And then Hugh’s voice, unwitting herald of wonders, said out
of the dim choir, “And are you demanding yet a second
miracle?” He had rather been humbling himself in wonder and
thanks for one, demanding nothing more; but he had turned his head,
and beheld Olivier.
The western sky was still limpid and bright, liquid gold, the
sun still clear of the treetops, when he opened the door of his
workshop and stepped within, into the timber-warm, herb-scented
dimness. He thought and said afterwards that it was at that moment
he saw the inseparable relationship between Ciaran and Matthew
suddenly overturned, twisted into its opposite, and began, in some
enclosed and detached part of his intelligence, to make sense of
the whole matter, however dubious and flawed the revelation. But he
had no time to catch and pin down the vision, for as his foot
crossed the threshold there was a soft gasp somewhere in the
shadowy corner of the hut, and a rustle of movement, as if some
wild creature had been disturbed in its lair, and shrunk into the
last fastness to defend itself.
He halted, and set the door wide open behind him for reassurance
that there was a possibility of escape. “Be easy!” he
said mildly. “May I not come into my own workshop without
leave? And should I be entering here to threaten any soul with
harm?”
His eyes, growing accustomed rapidly to the dimness, which
seemed dark only by contrast with the radiance outside, scanned the
shelves, the bubbling jars of wine in a fat row, the swinging,
rustling swathes of herbs dangling from the beams of the low roof.
Everything took shape and emerged into view. Stretched along the
broad wooden bench against the opposite wall, a huddle of tumbled
skirts stirred slowly and reared itself upright, to show him the
spilled ripe-corn gold of a girl’s hair, and the
tear-stained, swollen-lidded countenance of Melangell.
She said no word, but she did not drop blindly into her
sheltering arms again. She was long past that, and past being
afraid to show herself so to one secret, quiet creature whom she
trusted. She set down her feet in their scuffed leather shoes to
the floor, and sat back against the timbers of the wall, bracing
slight shoulders to the solid contact. She heaved one enormous,
draining sigh that was dragged up from her very heels, and left her
weak and docile. When he crossed the beaten earth floor and sat
down beside her, she did not flinch away.
“Now,” said Cadfael, settling himself with
deliberation, to give her time to compose at least her voice. The
soft light would spare her face. “Now, child dear, there is
no one here who can either save you or trouble you, and therefore
you can speak freely, for everything you say is between us two
only. But we two together need to take careful counsel. So what is
it you know that I do not know?”
“Why should we take counsel?” she said in a small,
drear voice from below his solid shoulder. “He is
gone.”
“What is gone may return. The roads lead always two ways,
hither as well as yonder. What are you doing out here alone, when
your brother walks erect on two sound feet, and has all he wants in
this world, but for your absence?”
He did not look directly at her, but felt the stir of warmth and
softness through her body, which must have been a smile, however
flawed. “I came away,” she said, very low, “not
to spoil his joy. I’ve borne most of the day. I think no one
has noticed half my heart was gone out of me. Unless it was
you,” she said, without blame, rather in resignation.
“I saw you when we came from Saint Giles,” said
Cadfael, “you and Matthew. Your heart was whole then, so was
his. If yours is torn in two now, do you suppose his is preserved
without wound? No! So what passed, afterwards? What was this sword
that shore through your heart and his? You know! You may tell it
now. They are gone, there is nothing left to spoil. There may yet
be something to save.”
She turned her forehead into his shoulder and wept in silence
for a little while. The light within the hut grew rather than
dimming, now that his eyes were accustomed. She forgot to hide her
forlorn and bloated face, he saw the bruise on her cheek darkening
into purple. He laid an arm about her and drew her close for the
comfort of the flesh. That of the spirit would need more of time
and thought.
“He struck you?”
“I held him,” she said, quick in his defence.
“He could not get free.”
“And he was so frantic? He must go?”
“Yes, whatever it cost him or me. Oh, Brother Cadfael,
why? I thought, I believed he loved me, as I do him. But see how he
used me in his anger!”
“Anger?” said Cadfael sharply, and turned her by the
shoulders to study her more intently. “Whatever the
compulsion on him to go with his friend, why should he be angry
with you? The loss was yours, but surely no blame.”
“He blamed me for not telling him,” she said
drearily. “But I did only what Ciaran asked of me. For his
sake and yours, he said, yes, and for mine, too, let me go, but
hold him fast. Don’t tell him I have the ring again, he said,
and I will go. Forget me, he said, and help him to forget me. He
wanted us to remain together and be happy…”
“Are you telling me,” demanded Cadfael sharply,
“that they did not go together! That Ciaran made off
without him?”
“It was not like that,” sighed Melangell. “He
meant well by us, that’s why he stole away
alone…”
“When was this? When? When did you have speech with him?
When did he go?”
“I was here at dawn, you’ll remember. I met Ciaran
by the brook…” She drew a deep, desolate breath and
loosed the whole flood of it, every word she could recall of that
meeting in the early morning, while Cadfael gazed appalled, and the
vague glimpse he had had of enlightenment awoke and stirred again
in his mind, far clearer now.
“Go on! Tell me what followed between you and Matthew. You
did as you were bidden, I know, you drew him with you, I doubt he
ever gave a thought to Ciaran all those morning hours, believing
him still penned withindoors, afraid to stir. When was it he found
out?”
“After dinner it came into his mind that he had not seen
him. He was very uneasy. He went to look for him everywhere…
He came to me here in the garden. “God keep you,
Melangell,” he said, “you must fend for yourself now,
sorry as I am…” Almost every word of that encounter
she had by heart, she repeated them like a tired child repeating a
lesson. “I said too much, he knew I had spoken with Ciaran,
he knew that I knew he’d meant to go
secretly…”
“And then, after you had owned as much?”
“He laughed,” she said, and her very voice froze
into a despairing whisper. “I never heard him laugh until
this morning, and then it was such a sweet sound. But this laughter
was not so! Bitter and raging.” She stumbled through the rest
of it, every word another fine line added to the reversed image
that grew in Cadfael’s mind, mocking his memory.
“He sets me free!” And
“You must be his confederate!” The words were
so burned on her mind that she even reproduced the savagery of
their utterance. And how few words it took, in the end, to
transform everything, to turn devoted attendance into remorseless
pursuit, selfless love into dedicated hatred, noble self-sacrifice
into calculated flight, and the voluntary mortification of the
flesh into body armour which must never be doffed.
He heard again, abruptly and piercingly, Ciaran’s wild cry
of alarm as he clutched his cross to him, and Matthew’s voice
saying softly: “Yet he should doff it. How else can he truly
be rid of his pains?”
How else, indeed! Cadfael recalled, too, how he had reminded
them both that they were here to attend the feast of a saint who
might have life itself within her gift—“even for a man
already condemned to death!” Oh, Saint Winifred, stand by me
now, stand by us all, with a third miracle to better the other
two!
He took Melangell brusquely by the chin, and lifted her face to
him. “Girl, look to yourself now for a while, for I must
leave you. Do up your hair and keep a brave face, and go back to
your kin as soon as you can bear their eyes on you. Go into the
church for a time, it will be quiet there now, and who will wonder
if you give a longer time to your prayers? They will not even
wonder at past tears, if you can smile now. Do as well as you can,
for I have a thing I must do.”
There was nothing he could promise her, no sure hope he could
leave with her. He turned from her without another word, leaving
her staring after him between dread and reassurance, and went
striding in haste through the gardens and out across the court, to
the abbot’s lodging.
If Radulfus was surprised to have Cadfael ask
audience again so soon, he gave no sign of it, but had him admitted
at once, and put aside his book to give his full attention to
whatever this fresh business might be. Plainly it was something
very much to the current purpose and urgent.
“Father,” said Cadfael, making short work of
explanations, “there’s a new twist here. Messire de
Bretagne has gone off on a false trail. Those two young men did not
leave by the Oswestry road, but crossed the Meole brook and set off
due west to reach Wales the nearest way. Nor did they leave
together. Ciaran slipped away during the morning, while his fellow
was with us in the procession, and Matthew has followed him by the
same way as soon as he learned of his going. And, Father,
there’s good cause to think that the sooner they’re
overtaken and halted, the better surely for one, and I believe for
both. I beg you, let me take a horse and follow. And send word of
this to Hugh Beringar in the town, to come after us on the same
trail.”
Radulfus received all this with a grave but calm face, and asked
no less shortly: “How did you come by this word?”
“From the girl who spoke with Ciaran before he departed.
No need to doubt it is all true. And, Father, one more thing before
you bid me go. Open, I beg you, that scrip they left behind, let me
see if it has anything more to tell us of this pair—at the
least, of one of them.”
Without a word or an instant of hesitation, Radulfus dragged the
linen scrip into the light of his candles, and unbuckled the
fastening. The contents he drew out fully upon the desk, sparse
enough, what the poor pilgrim would carry, having few possessions
and desiring to travel light.
“You know, I think,” said the abbot, looking up
sharply, “to which of the two this belonged?”
“I do not know, but I guess. In my mind I am sure, but I
am also fallible. Give me leave!”
With a sweep of his hand he spread the meagre belongings over
the desk. The purse, thin enough when Prior Robert had handled it
before, lay flat and empty now. The leather-bound breviary,
well-used, worn but treasured, had been rolled into the folds of
the shirt, and when Cadfael reached for it the shirt slid from the
desk and fell to the floor. He let it lie as he opened the book.
Within the cover was written, in a clerk’s careful hand, the
name of its owner: Juliana Bossard. And below, in newer ink and a
less practised hand: Given to me, Luc Meverel, this
Christmastide, 1140. God be with us all!
“So I pray, too,” said Cadfael, and stooped to pick
up the fallen shirt. He held it up to the light, and his eye caught
the thread-like outline of a stain that rimmed the left shoulder.
His eye followed the line over the shoulder, and found it continued
down and round the left side of the breast. The linen, otherwise,
was clean enough, bleached by several launderings from its original
brownish natural colouring. He spread it open, breast up, on the
desk. The thin brown line, sharp on its outer edge, slightly
blurred within, hemmed a great space spanning the whole left part
of the chest and the upper part of the left sleeve. The space
within the outline had been washed clear of any stain, even the rim
was pale, but it stood clear to be seen, and the scattered
shadowings of colour within it preserved a faint hint of what had
been there.
Radulfus, if he had not ventured as far afield in the world as
Cadfael, had nevertheless stored up some experience of it. He
viewed the extended evidence and said composedly, “This was
blood.”
“So it was,” said Cadfael, and rolled up the
shirt.
“And whoever owned this scrip came from where a certain
Juliana Bossard was chatelaine.” His deep eyes were steady
and sombre on Cadfael’s face. “Have we entertained a
murderer in our house?”
“I think we have,” said Cadfael, restoring the
scattered fragments of a life to their modest lodging. A
man’s life, shorn of all expectation of continuance, even the
last coin gone from the purse. “But I think we may have time
yet to prevent another killing—if you give me leave to
go.”
“Take the best of what may be in the stable,” said
the abbot simply, “and I will send word to Hugh Beringar, and
have him follow you, and not alone.”
Chapter Thirteen
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Several miles north on the Oswestry road,
Olivier drew rein by the roadside where a wiry, bright-eyed boy was
grazing goats on the broad verge, lush in summer growth and coming
into seed. The child twitched one of his long leads on his charges,
to bring him along gently where the early evening light lay warm on
the tall grass. He looked up at the rider without awe, half-Welsh
and immune from servility. He smiled and gave an easy good
evening.
The boy was handsome, bold, unafraid; so was the man. They
looked at each other and liked what they saw.
“God be with you!” said Olivier. “How long
have you been pasturing your beasts along here? And have you in all
that time seen a lame man and a well man go by, the pair of them
much of my age, but afoot?”
“God be with you, master,” said the boy cheerfully.
“Here along this verge ever since noon, for I brought my bit
of dinner with me. But I’ve seen none such pass. And
I’ve had a word by the road with every soul that did go by,
unless he were galloping.”
“Then I waste my hurrying,” said Olivier, and idled
a while, his horse stooping to the tips of the grasses. “They
cannot be ahead of me, not by this road. See, now, supposing they
wished to go earlier into Wales, how may I bear round to pick them
up on the way? They went from Shrewsbury town ahead of me, and I
have word to bring to them. Where can I turn west and fetch a
circle about the town?”
The young herdsman accepted with open arms every exchange that
refreshed his day’s labour. He gave his mind to the best road
offering, and delivered judgement: “Turn back but a mile or
more, back across the bridge at Mont-ford, and then you’ll
find a well-used cart-track that bears off west, to your right hand
it will be. Bear a piece west again where the paths first branch,
it’s no direct way, but it does go on. It skirts Shrewsbury a
matter of above four miles outside the town, and threads the edges
of the forest, but it cuts across every path out of Shrewsbury. You
may catch your men yet. And I wish you may!”
“My thanks for that,” said Olivier “and for
your advice also.” He stooped to the hand the boy had raised,
not for alms but to caress the horse’s chestnut shoulder with
admiration and pleasure, and slipped a coin into the smooth palm.
“God be with you!” he said, and wheeled his mount and
set off back along the road he had travelled.
“And go with you, master!” the boy called after him,
and watched until a curve of the road took horse and rider out of
sight beyond a stand of trees. The goats gathered closer; evening
was near, and they were ready to turn homeward, knowing the hour by
the sun as well as did their herder. The boy drew in their tethers,
whistled to them cheerily, and moved on along the road to his
homeward path through the fields.
Olivier came for the second time to the bridge over the Severn,
one bank a steep, tree-clad escarpment, the other open, level
meadow. Beyond the first plane of fields a winding track turned off
to the right, between scattered stands of trees, bearing at this
point rather south than west, but after a mile or more it brought
him on to a better road that crossed his track left and right. He
bore right into the sun, as he had been instructed, and at the next
place where two dwindling paths divided he turned left, and keeping
his course by the sinking sun on his right hand, now just resting
upon the rim of the world and glimmering through the trees in
sudden blinding glimpses, began to work his way gradually round the
town of Shrewsbury. The tracks wound in and out of copses, the
fringe woods of the northern tip of the Long Forest, sometimes in
twilight among dense trees, sometimes in open heath and scrub,
sometimes past islets of cultivated fields and glimpses of hamlets.
He rode with ears pricked for any promising sound, pausing wherever
his labyrinthine path crossed a track bearing westward out of
Shrewsbury, and wherever he met with cottage or assart he asked
after his two travellers. No one had seen such a pair pass by.
Olivier took heart. They had had some hours start of him, but if
they had not passed westward by any of the roads he had yet
crossed, they might still be within the circle he was drawing about
the town. The barefoot one would not find these ways easy going,
and might have been forced to take frequent rests. At the worst,
even if he missed them in the end, this meandering route must bring
him round at last to the highroad by which he had first approached
Shrewsbury from the south-east, and he could ride back into the
town to Hugh Beringar’s welcome, none the worse for a little
exercise in a fine evening.
Brother Cadfael had wasted no time in clambering
into his boots, kilting his habit, and taking and saddling the best
horse he could find in the stables. It was not often he had the
chance to indulge himself with such half-forgotten delights, but he
was not thinking of that now. He had left considered word with the
messenger who was already hurrying across the bridge and into the
town, to alert Hugh; and Hugh would ask no questions, as the abbot
had asked none, recognising the grim urgency there was no leisure
now to explain.
“Say to Hugh Beringar,” the order ran, “that
Ciaran will make for the Welsh border the nearest way, but avoiding
the too open roads. I think he’ll bear south a small way to
the old road the Romans made, that we’ve been fools enough to
let run wild, for it keeps a steady level and makes straight for
the border north of Caus.”
That was drawing a bow at a venture, and he knew it, none
better. Ciaran was not of these parts, though he might well have
some knowledge of the borderland if he had kin on the Welsh side.
But more than that, he had been here these three days past, and if
he had been planning some such escape all that time, he could have
picked the brains of brothers and guests, on easily plausible
ground. Time pressed, and sound guessing was needed. Cadfael chose
his way, and set about pursuing it.
He did not waste time in going decorously out at the gatehouse
and round by the road to take up the chase westward, but led his
horse at a trot through the gardens, to the blank astonishment of
Brother Jerome, who happened to be crossing to the cloisters a good
ten minutes early for Compline. No doubt he would report, with a
sense of outrage, to Prior Robert. Cadfael as promptly forgot him,
leading the horse round the unharvested pease field and down to the
quiet green stretches of the brook, and across to the narrow
meadow, where he mounted. The sun was dipping its rim beyond the
crowns of the trees to westward. Into that half-shine, half-shadow
Cadfael spurred, and made good speed while the tracks were familiar
to him as his own palm. Due west until he hit the road, a half-mile
on the road at a canter, until it turned too far to the south, and
then westward again for the setting sun. Ciaran had a long start,
even of Matthew, let alone of all those who followed now. But
Ciaran was lame, burdened and afraid. Almost he was to be
pitied.
Half a mile further on, at an inconspicuous track which he knew,
Cadfael again turned to bear south-west, and burrowed into deepest
shade, and into the northernmost woodlands of the Long Forest. No
more than a narrow forest ride, this, between sweeping branches, a
fragment of ancient wood not worth clearing for an assart, being
bedded on rock that broke surface here and there. This was not yet
border country, but close kin to it, heaving into fretful outcrops
that broke the thin soil, bearing heather and coarse upland
grasses, scrub bushes and sparsity trees, then bringing forth
prodigal life roofed by very old trees in every wet hollow. A
little further on this course, and the close, dark woods began,
tall top cover, heavy interweaving of middle growth, and a tangle
of bush and bramble and ground-cover below. Undisturbed forest,
though there were rare islands of tillage bright and open within
it, every one an astonishment.
Then he came to the old, old road, that sliced like a knife
across his path, heading due east, due west. He wondered about the
men who had made it. It was shrunken now from a soldiers’
road to a narrow ride, mostly under thin turf, but it ran as it had
always run since it was made, true and straight as a lance,
perfectly levelled where a level was possible, relentlessly
climbing and descending where some hummock barred the way. Cadfael
turned west into it, and rode straight for the golden upper arc of
sun that still glowed between the branches.
In the parcel of old forest north and west of the
hamlet of Hanwood there were groves where stray outlaws could find
ample cover, provided they stayed clear of the few settlements
within reach. Local people tended to fence their holdings and band
together to protect their own small ground. The forest was for
plundering, poaching, pasturing of swine, all with secure
precautions. Travellers, though they might call on hospitality and
aid where needed, must fend for themselves in the thicker coverts,
if they cared to venture through them. By and large, safety here in
Shropshire under Hugh Beringar was as good as anywhere in England,
and encroachment by vagabonds could not survive long, but for brief
occupation the cover was there, and unwanted tenants might take up
occupation if pressed.
Several of the lesser manors in these border regions had
declined by reason of their perilous location, and some were
half-deserted, leaving their fields untilled. Until April of this
year the border castle of Caus had been in Welsh hands, an added
threat to peaceful occupation, and there had not yet been time
since Hugh’s reclamation of the castle for the depleted
hamlets to re-establish themselves. Moreover, in this high summer
it was no hardship to live wild, and skilful poaching and a little
profitable thievery could keep two or three good fellows in meat
while they allowed time for their exploits in the south to be
forgotten, and made up their minds where best to pass the time
until a return home seemed possible.
Master Simeon Poer, self-styled merchant of Guildford, was not
at all ill-content with the pickings made in Shrewsbury. In three
nights, which was the longest they dared reckon on operating
unsuspected, they had taken a fair amount of money from the hopeful
gamblers of the town and Foregate, besides the price Daniel
Aurifaber had paid for the stolen ring, the various odds and ends
William Hales had abstracted from market stalls, and the coins John
Shure had used his long, smooth, waxed finger-nails to extract from
pocket and purse in the crowds. It was a pity they had had to leave
William Hales to his fate during the raid, but all in all they had
done well to get out of it with no more than a bruise or two, and
one man short. Bad luck for William, but it was the way the lot had
fallen. Every man knew it could happen to him.
They had avoided the used tracks, refraining from meddling with
any of the local people going about their business, and done their
plundering by night and stealthily, after first making sure where
there were dogs to be reckoned with. They even had a roof of sorts,
for in the deepest thickets below the old road, overgrown and
well-concealed, they had found the remains of a hut, relic of a
failed assart abandoned long ago. After a few days more of this
easy living, or if the weather should change, they would set off to
make their way somewhat south, to be well clear of Shrewsbury
before moving across to the east, to shires where they were not yet
known.
When the rare traveller came past on the road, it was almost
always a local man, and they let him alone, for he would be missed
all too soon, and the hunt would be up in a day. But they would not
have been averse to waylaying any solitary who was clearly a
stranger and on his way to more distant places, since he was
unlikely to be missed at once, and further, he was likely to be
better worth robbing, having on him the means to finance his
journey, however modestly. In these woods and thickets, a man could
vanish very neatly, and for ever.
They had made themselves comfortable that night outside their
hut, with the embers of their fire safe in the clay-lined hollow
they had made for it, and the grease of the stolen chicken still on
their fingers. The sunset of the outer world was already twilight
here, but they had their night eyes, and were wide awake and full
of restless energy after an idle day. Walter Bagot was charged with
keeping such watch as they thought needful, and had made his way in
cover some distance along the narrow track towards the town. He
came sliding back in haste, but shining with anticipation instead
of alarm.
“Here’s one coming we may safely pick off. The
barefoot fellow from the abbey… well back as yet, and lame
as ever, he’s been among the stones, surely. Not a soul will
know where he went to.”
“He?” said Simeon Poer, surprised. “Fool, he
has always his shadow breathing down his neck. It would mean
both—if one got away he’d raise the hunt on
us.”
“He has not his shadow now,” said Bagot gleefully.
“Alone, I tell you, he’s shaken him off, or else
they’ve parted by consent. Who else cares a groat what
becomes of him?”
“And a groat’s his worth,” said Shure
scornfully. “Let him go. It’s never worth it for his
hose and shirt, and what else can he have on him?”
“Ah, but he has! Money, my friend!” said Bagot,
glittering. “Make no mistake, that one goes very well
provided, if he takes good care not to let it be known. I know!
I’ve felt my way about him every time I could get crowded
against him in church, he has a solid, heavy purse belted about him
inside coat, hose, shirt and all, but I never could get my fingers
into it without using the knife, and that was too risky. He can pay
his way wherever he goes. Come, rouse, he’ll be an easy mark
now.”
He was certain, and they were heartily willing to pick up an
extra purse. They rose merrily, hands on daggers, worming their way
quietly through the underbrush towards the thin thread of the
track, above which the ribbon of clear sky showed pale and bright
still. Shure and Bagot lurking invisible on the near side of the
path, Simeon Poer across it, behind the lush screen of bushes that
took advantage of the open light to grow leafy and tall. There were
very old trees in their tract of forest, enormous beeches with
trunks so gnarled and thick three men with arms outspread could
hardly clip them. Old woodland was being cleared, assarted and
turned into hunting-grounds in many places, but the Long Forest
still preserved large tracts of virgin growth untouched. In the
green dimness the three masterless men stood still as the trees,
and waited.
Then they heard him. Dogged, steady, laborious steps that
stirred the coarse grasses. In the turfed verge of a highroad he
could have gone with less pain and covered twice the miles he had
accomplished on these rough ways. They heard his heavy breathing
while he was still twenty yards away from them, and saw his tall,
dark figure stir the dimness, leaning forward on a long, knotty
staff he had picked up somewhere from among the debris of the
trees. It seemed that he favoured the right foot, though both trod
with wincing tenderness, as though he had trodden askew on a
sharp-edged stone, and either cut his sole or twisted his
ankle-joint. He was piteous, if there had been anyone to pity
him.
He went with ears pricked, and the very hairs of his skin
erected, in as intense wariness as any of the small nocturnal
creatures that crept and quaked in the underbrush around him. He
had walked in fear every step of the miles he had gone in company,
but now, cast loose to his own dreadful company, he was even more
afraid. Escape was no escape at all.
It was the extremity of his fear that saved him. They had let
him pass slowly by the first covert, so that Bagot might be behind
him, and Poer and Shure one on either side before him. It was not
so much his straining ears as the prickly sensitivity of his skin
that sensed the sudden rushing presence at his back, the shifting
of the cool evening air, and the weight of body and arm launched at
him almost silently. He gave a muted shriek and whirled about,
sweeping the staff around him, and the knife that should have
impaled him struck the branch and sliced a ribbon of bark and wood
from it. Bagot reached with his left hand for a grip on sleeve or
coat, and struck again as nimbly as a snake, but missed his hold as
Ciaran leaped wildly back out of reach, and driven beyond himself
by terror, turned and plunged away on his lacerated feet, aside
from the path and into the deepest and thickest shadows among the
tangled trees. He hissed and moaned with pain as he went, but he
ran like a startled hare.
Who would have thought he could still move so fast, once pushed
to extremes? But he could not keep it up long, the spur would not
carry him far. The three of them went after, spreading out a little
to hem him from three sides when he fell exhausted. They were
giggling as they went, and in no special haste. The mingled sounds
of his crashing passage through the bushes and his uncontrollable
whining with the pain of it, rang unbelievably strangely in the
twilit woods.
Branches and brambles lashed Ciaran’s face. He ran
blindly, sweeping the long staff before him, cutting a noisy swathe
through the bushes and stumbling painfully in the thick
ground-debris of dead branches and soft, treacherous pits of the
leaves of many years. They followed at leisure, aware that he was
slowing. The lean, agile tailor had drawn level with him, somewhat
aside, and was bearing round to cut him off, still with breath
enough to whistle to his fellows as they closed unhurriedly, like
dogs herding a stray sheep. Ciaran fell out into a more open glade,
where a huge old beech had preserved its own clearing, and with
what was left of his failing breath he made a last dash to cross
the open and vanish again into the thickets beyond. The dry silt of
leaves among the roots betrayed him. His footing slid from under
him, and fetched him down heavily against the bole of the tree. He
had just time to drag himself up and set his back to the broad
trunk before they were on him.
He flailed about him with the staff, screaming for aid, and
never even knew on what name he was calling in his extremity.
“Help! Murder! Matthew, Matthew, help me!”
There was no answering shout, but there was an abrupt thrashing
of branches, and something hurtled out of cover and across the
grass, so suddenly that Bagot was shouldered aside and stumbled to
his knees. A long arm swept Ciaran back hard against the solid bole
of the tree, and Matthew stood braced beside him, his dagger naked
in his hand. What remained of the western light showed his face
roused and formidable, and gleamed along the blade.
“Oh, no!” he challenged loud and clear, lips drawn
back from bared teeth. “Keep your hands off! This man is
mine!”
Chapter Fourteen
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The three attackers had drawn off instinctively,
before they realised that this was but one man erupting in their
midst, but they were quick to grasp it, and had not gone far. They
stood, wary as beasts of prey but undeterred, weaving a little in a
slow circle out of reach, but with no thought of withdrawing. They
watched and considered, weighing up coldly these altered odds. Two
men and a knife to reckon with now, and this second one they knew
as well as the first. They had been some days frequenting the same
enclave, using the same dortoir and refectory. They reasoned
without dismay that they must be known as well as they knew their
prey. The twilight made faces shadowy, but a man is recognised by
more things than his face.
“I said it, did I not?” said Simeon Poer, exchanging
glances with his henchmen, glances which were understood even in
the dim light. “I said he would not be far. No matter, two
can lie as snug as one.”
Once having declared his claim and his rights, Matthew said
nothing. The tree against which they braced themselves was so grown
that they could not be attacked from close behind. He circled it
steadily when Bagot edged round to the far side, keeping his face
to the enemy. There were three to watch, and Ciaran was shaken and
lame, and in no case to match any of the three if it came to
action, though he kept his side of the trunk with his staff gripped
and ready, and would fight if he must, tooth and claw, for his
forfeit life. Matthew curled his lips in a bitter smile at the
thought that he might be grateful yet for that strong appetite for
living.
Round the bole of the tree, with his cheek against the bark,
Ciaran said, low-voiced: “You’d have done better not to
follow me.”
“Did I not swear to go with you to the very end?”
said Matthew as softly. “I keep my vows. This one above
all.”
“Yet you could still have crept away safely. Now we are
two dead men.”
“Not yet! If you did not want me, why did you call
me?”
There was a bewildered silence. Ciaran did not know he had
uttered a name.
“We are grown used to each other,” said Matthew
grimly. “You claimed me, as I claim you. Do you think
I’ll let any other man have you?”
The three watchers had gathered in a shadowy group, conferring
with heads together, and faces still turned towards their prey.
“Now they’ll come,” said Ciaran in the dead
voice of despair.
“No, they’ll wait for darkness.”
They were in no hurry. They made no loose, threatening moves,
wasted no breath on words. They bided their time as patiently as
hunting animals. Silently they separated, spacing themselves round
the clearing, and backing just far enough into cover to be barely
visible, yet visible all the same, for their presence and stillness
were meant to unnerve. Just so, motionless, relentless and alert,
would a cat sit for hours outside a mousehole.
“This I cannot bear,” said Ciaran in a faint
whisper, and drew sobbing breath.
“It is easily cured,” said Matthew through his
teeth. “You have only to lift off that cross from your neck,
and you can be loosed from all your troubles.”
The light faded still. Their eyes, raking the smoky darkness of
the bushes, were beginning to see movement where there was none,
and strain in vain after it where it lurked and shifted to baffle
them more. This waiting would not be long. The attackers circled in
cover, watching for the unguarded moment when one or other of their
victims would be caught unawares, staring in the wrong direction.
Past all question they would expect that failure first from Ciaran,
half-foundering as he already was. Soon now, very soon.
Brother Cadfael was some half-mile back along the
ride when he heard the cry, ahead and to the right of the path,
loud, wild and desperate. The words were indistinguishable, but the
panic in the sound there was no mistaking. In this woodland
silence, without even a wind to stir the branches or flutter the
leaves, every sound carried clearly. Cadfael spurred ahead in
haste, with all too dire a conviction of what he might find when he
reached the source of that lamentable cry. All those miles of
pursuit, patient and remorseless, half the length of England, might
well be ending now, barely a quarter of an hour too soon for him to
do anything to prevent. Matthew had overtaken, surely, a Ciaran
grown weary of his penitential austerities, now there was no one by
to see. He had said truly enough that he did not hate himself so
much as to bear his hardships to no purpose. Now that he was alone,
had he felt safe in discarding his heavy cross, and would he next
have been in search of shoes for his feet? If Matthew had not come
upon him thus recreant and disarmed.
The second sound to break the stillness almost passed unnoticed
because of the sound of his own progress, but he caught some quiver
of the forest’s unease, and reined in to listen intently. The
rush and crash of something or someone hurtling through thick
bushes, fast and arrow-straight, and then, very briefly, a
confusion of cries, not loud but sharp and wary, and a man’s
voice loud and commanding over all. Matthew’s voice, not in
triumph or terror, rather in short and resolute defiance. There
were more than the two of them, there ahead, and not so far ahead
now.
He dismounted, and led his horse at an anxious trot as far as he
dared along the path; towards the spot from which the sounds had
come. Hugh could move very fast when he saw reason, and in
Cadfael’s bare message he would have found reason enough. He
would have left the town by the most direct way, over the western
bridge and so by a good road south-west, to strike this old path
barely two miles back. At this moment he might be little more than
a mile behind. Cadfael tethered his horse at the side of the track,
for a plain sign that he had found cause to halt here and was
somewhere close by.
All was quiet about him now. He quested along the fringe of
bushes for a place where he might penetrate without any betraying
noise, and began to work his way by instinct and touch towards the
place whence the cries had come, and where now all was almost
unnaturally silent. In a little while he was aware of the last
faint pallor of the afterglow glimmering between the branches.
There was a more open glade ahead of him.
He froze and stood motionless, as a shadow passed silently
between him and this lingering glimpse of light. Someone tall and
lean, slithering snake-like through the bushes. Cadfael waited
until the faint pattern of light was restored, and then edged
carefully forward until he could see into the clearing.
The great bole of a beech-tree showed in the centre, a solid
mass beneath its spread of branches. There was movement there in
the dimness. Not one man, but two, stood pressed against the bole.
A brief flash of steel caught just light enough to show what it
was, a dagger naked and ready. Two at bay here, and surely more
than one pinning them thus helpless until they could be safely
pulled down. Cadfael stood still to survey the whole of the
darkening clearing, and found, as he had expected, another quiver
of leaves that hid a man, and then, on the opposite side, yet
another. Three, probably all armed, certainly up to no good, thus
furtively prowling the woods by night, going nowhere, waiting to
make the kill. Three had vanished from the dice school under the
bridge at Shrewsbury, and fled in this direction. Three reappeared
here in the forest, still doing after their disreputable kind.
Cadfael stood hesitant, pondering how best to deal, whether to
steal back to the path and wait and hope for Hugh’s coming,
or attempt something alone, at least to distract and dismay, to
bring about a delay that might afford time for help to come. He had
made up his mind to return to his horse, mount, and ride in here
with as much noise and turmoil as he could muster, trying to sound
like six mounted men instead of one, when with shattering
suddenness the decision was taken out of his hands.
One of the three besiegers sprang out of cover with a startling
shout, and rushed at the tree on the side where the momentary flash
of steel had shown one of the victims, at least, to be armed. A
dark figure leaned out from the darkness under the branches to meet
the onslaught, and Cadfael knew him then for Matthew. The attacker
swerved aside, still out of reach, in a calculated feint, and at
the same moment both the other lurking shadows burst out of cover
and bore down upon the other side of the tree, falling as one upon
the weaker opponent. There was a confusion of violence, and a wild,
tormented scream, and Matthew whirled about, slashing round him and
stretching a long arm across his companion, pinning him back
against the tree. Ciaran hung half-fainting, slipping down between
the great, smooth bastions of the bole, and Matthew bestrode him,
his dagger sweeping great swathes before them both.
Cadfael saw it, and was held mute and motionless, beholding this
devoted enemy. He got his breath only as all three of the predators
closed upon their prey together, slashing, mauling, by sheer weight
bearing them down under them.
Cadfael filled his lungs full, and bellowed to the shaken night:
“Hold, there! On them, hold them all three. These are our
felons!” He was making so much noise that he did not notice
or marvel that the echoes, which in his fury he heard but did not
heed, came from two directions at once, from the path he had left,
and from the opposite point, from the north. Some corner of his
mind knew he had roused echoes, but for his part he felt himself
quite alone as he kept up his roaring, spread his sleeves like the
wings of a bat, and surged headlong into the melee about the
tree.
Long, long ago he had forsworn arms, but what of it? Barring his
two stout fists, still active but somewhat rheumatic now, he was
unarmed. He flung himself into the tangle of men and weapons under
the beech, laid hands on the back of a dangling capuchon, hauled
its wearer bodily backwards, and twisted the cloth to choke the
throat that howled rage and venom at him. But his voice had done
more than his martial progress. The black huddle of humanity burst
into its separate beings. Two sprang clear and looked wildly about
them for the source of the alarm, and Cadfael’s opponent
reached round, gasping, with a long arm and a vicious dagger, and
sliced a dangling streamer out of a rusty black sleeve. Cadfael lay
on him with all his weight, held him by the hair, and ground his
face into the earth, shamelessly exulting. He would do penance for
it some day soon, but now he rejoiced, all his crusader blood
singing in his veins.
Distantly he was aware that something else was happening, more
than he had reckoned on. He heard and felt the unmistakable quiver
and thud of the earth reacting to hooves, and heard a peremptory
voice shouting orders, the purport of which he did not release his
grip to decypher or attend to. The glade was filled with motion as
it filled with darkness. The creature under him gathered itself and
heaved mightily, rolling him aside. His hold on the folds of the
hood relaxed, and Simeon Poer tore himself free and scrambled
clear. There was running every way, but none of the fugitives got
far.
Last of the three to roll breathless out of hold, Simeon groped
about him vengefully in the roots of the tree, touched a cowering
body, found the cord of some dangling relic, possibly precious, in
his hand, and hauled with all his strength before he gathered
himself up and ran for cover.
There was a wild scream of pain, and the cord broke, and the
thing, whatever it was, came loose in his hand. He got his feet
under him, and charged head-down for the nearest bushes, hurtled
into them and ran, barely a yard clear of hands that stooped from
horseback to claw at him.
Cadfael opened his eyes and hauled in breath. The whole clearing
was boiling with movement, the darkness heaved and trembled, and
the violence had ordered itself into purpose and meaning. He sat
up, and took his time to look about him. He was sprawled under the
great beech, and somewhere before him, towards the path where he
had left his horse, someone with flint and dagger and tinder, was
striking sparks for a torch, very calmly. The sparks caught,
glowed, and were gently blown into flame. The torch, well primed
with oil and resin, sucked in the flame and gave birth to a small,
shapely flame of its own, that grew and reared, and was used to
kindle a second and a third. The clearing took on a small,
confined, rounded shape, walled with close growth, roofed with the
tree.
Hugh came out of the dark, smiling, and reached a hand to haul
him to his feet. Someone else came running light-footed from the
other side, and stooped to him a wonderful, torch-lit face,
high-boned, lean-cheeked, with eager golden eyes, and blue-black
raven wings of hair curving to cup his cheeks.
“Olivier?” said Cadfael, marvelling. “I
thought you were astray on the road to Oswestry. How did you ever
find us here?”
“By grace of God and a goat-herd,” said the warm,
gay, remembered voice, “and your bull’s bellowing.
Come, look round! You have won your field!”
They were gone, Simeon Poer, merchant of Guildford, Walter
Bagot, glover, John Shure, tailor, all fled, but with half a dozen
of Hugh’s men hard on their heels, all to be brought in
captive, to answer for more, this time, than a little cheating in
the marketplace. Night stooped to enfold a closed arena of
torchlight, very quiet now and almost still. Cadfael rose, his torn
sleeve dangling awkwardly.
The three of them stood in a half-circle about the
beech-tree.
The torchlight was stark, plucking light and shadow into sharp
relief. Matthew stirred out of his colloquy between life and death
very slowly as they watched him, heaved his wide shoulders clear of
the tree, and stood forth like a sleeper roused before his time,
looking about him as if for something by which he might hold, and
take his bearings. Between his feet, as he emerged, the coiled,
crumpled form of Ciaran came into view, faintly stirring, his head
huddled into his close-folded arms.
“Get up!” said Matthew. He drew back a little from
the tree, his naked dagger in his hand, a slow drop gathering at
its tip, more drops falling steadily from the hand that held it.
His knuckles were sliced raw. “Get up!” he said.
“You are not harmed.”
Ciaran gathered himself very slowly, and clambered to his knees,
lifting to the light a face soiled and leaden, gone beyond
exhaustion, beyond fear. He looked neither at Cadfael nor at Hugh,
but stared up into Matthew’s face with the helpless intensity
of despair. Hugh felt the clash of eyes, and stirred to make some
decisive movement and break the tension, but Cadfael laid a hand on
his arm and held him still. Hugh gave him a sharp sidelong glance,
and accepted the caution. Cadfael had his reasons.
There was blood on the torn collar of Ciaran’s shirt, a
stain that grew sluggishly before their eyes. He put up hands that
seemed heavy as lead, and fumbled aside the linen from throat and
breast. All round the left side of his neck ran a raw, bleeding
slash, thin as a knife-cut. Simeon Poer’s last blind clutch
for plunder had torn loose the cross to which Ciaran had clung so
desperately. He kneeled in the last wretched extreme of submission,
baring a throat already symbolically slit.
“Here am I,” he said in a toneless whisper. “I
can run no further, I am forfeit. Now take me!”
Matthew stood motionless, staring at that savage cut the cord
had left before it broke. The silence grew too heavy to be
bearable, and still he had no word to say, and his face was a blank
mask in the flickering light of the torches.
“He says right,” said Cadfael, very softly and
reasonably. “He is yours fairly. The terms of his penance are
broken, and his life is forfeit. Take him!”
There was no sign that Matthew so much as heard him, but for the
spasmodic tightening of his lips, as if in pain. He never took his
eyes from the wretch kneeling humbly before him.
“You have followed him faithfully, and kept the terms laid
down,” Cadfael urged gently. “You are under vow. Now
finish the work!”
He was on safe enough ground, and sure of it now. The act of
submission had already finished the work, there was no more to be
done. With his enemy at his mercy, and every justification for the
act of vengeance, the avenger was helpless, the prisoner of his own
nature. There was nothing left in him but a drear sadness, a sick
revulsion of disgust and self-disgust. How could he kill a
wretched, broken man, kneeling here unresisting, waiting for his
death? Death was no longer relevant.
“It is over, Luc,” said Cadfael softly. “Do
what you must.”
Matthew stood mute a moment longer, and if he had heard his true
name spoken, he gave no sign, it was of no importance. After the
abandonment of all purpose came the awful sense of loss and
emptiness. He opened his bloodstained hand and let the dagger slip
from his fingers into the grass. He turned away like a blind man,
feeling with a stretched foot for every step, groped his way
through the curtain of bushes, and vanished into the darkness.
Olivier drew in breath sharply, and started out of his tranced
stillness to catch eagerly at Cadfael’s arm. “Is it
true? You have found him out? He is Luc Meverel?” He
accepted the truth of it without another word said, and sprang
ardently towards the place where the bushes still stirred after
Luc’s passing, and he would have been off in pursuit at a run
if Hugh had not caught at his arm to detain him.
“Wait but one moment! You also have a cause here, if
Cadfael is right. This is surely the man who murdered your friend.
He owes you a death. He is yours if you want him.”
“That is truth,” said Cadfael. “Ask him! He
will tell you.”
Ciaran crouched in the grass, drooping now, bewildered and lost,
no longer looking any man in the face, only waiting without hope or
understanding for someone to determine whether he was to live or
die, and on what abject terms. Olivier cast one wondering glance at
him, shook his head in emphatic rejection, and reached for his
horse’s bridle. “Who am I,” he said, “to
exact what Luc Meverel has remitted? Let this one go on his way
with his own burden. My business is with the other.”
He was away at a run, leading the horse briskly through the
screen of bushes, and the rustling of their passage gradually
stilled again into silence. Cadfael and Hugh were left regarding
each other mutely across the lamentable figure crouched upon the
ground.
Gradually the rest of the world flowed back into Cadfael’s
ken. Three of Hugh’s officers stood aloof with the horses and
the torches, looking on in silence; and somewhere not far distant
sounded a brief scuffle and outcry, as one of the fugitives was
overpowered and made prisoner. Simeon Poer had been pulled down
barely fifty yards in cover, and stood sullenly under guard now,
with his wrists secured to a sergeant’s stirrup-leather. The
third would not be a free man long. This night’s ventures
were over. This piece of woodland would be safe even for barefoot
and unarmed pilgrims to traverse.
“What is to be done with him?” demanded Hugh openly,
looking down upon the wreckage of a man with some distaste.
“Since Luc has waived his claim,” said Cadfael,
“I would not dare meddle. And there is something at least to
be said for him, he did not cheat or break his terms voluntarily,
even when there was no one by to accuse him. It is a small virtue
to have to advance for the defence of a life, but it is something.
Who else has the right to foreclose on what Luc has
spared?”
Ciaran raised his head, peering doubtfully from one face to the
other, still confounded at being so spared, but beginning to
believe that he still lived. He was weeping, whether with pain, or
relief, or something more durable than either, there was no
telling. The blood was blackening into a dark line about his
throat.
“Speak up and tell truth,” said Hugh with chill
gentleness. “Was it you who stabbed Bossard?”
Out of the pallid disintegration of Ciaran’s face a
wavering voice said: “Yes.”
“Why did you so? Why attack the queen’s clerk, who
did nothing but deliver his errand faithfully?”
Ciaran’s eyes burned for an instant, and a fleeting spark
of past pride, intolerance and rage showed like the last glow of a
dying fire. “He came high-handed, shouting down the lord
bishop, defying the council. My master was angry and
affronted…”
“Your master,” said Cadfael, “was the prior of
Hyde Mead. Or so you claimed.”
“How could I any longer claim service with one who had
discarded me? I lied! The lord bishop himself—I served Bishop
Henry, had his favour. Lost, lost now! I could not brook
the man Christian’s insolence to him… he stood against
everything my lord planned and willed. I hated him! I thought then
that I hated him,” said Ciaran, drearily wondering at the
recollection. “And I thought to please my lord!”
“A calculation that went awry,” said Cadfael,
“for whatever he may be, Henry of Blois is no murderer. And
Rainard Bossard prevented your mischief, a man of your own party,
held in esteem. Did that make him a traitor in your eyes—that
he should respect an honest opponent? Or did you strike out at
random, and kill without intent?”
“No,” said the level, lame voice, bereft of its
brief spark.
“He thwarted me, I was enraged. I knew what I did. I was
glad… then!” he said, and drew bitter
breath.
“And who laid upon you this penitential journey?”
asked Cadfael, “and to what end? Your life was granted you,
upon terms. What terms? Someone in the highest authority laid that
load upon you.”
“My lord the bishop-legate,” said Ciaran, and wrung
wordlessly for a moment at the pain of an old devotion, rejected
and banished now for ever. “There was no other soul knew of
it, only to him I told it. He would not give me up to law, he
wanted this thing put by, for fear it should threaten his plans for
the empress’s peace. But he would not condone. I am from the
Danish kingdom of Dublin, my other half Welsh. He offered me
passage under his protection to Bangor, to the bishop there, who
would see me to Caergybi in Anglesey, and have me put aboard a ship
for Dublin. But I must go barefoot all that way, and wear the cross
round my neck, and if ever I broke those terms, even for a moment,
my life was his who cared to take it, without blame or penalty. And
I could never return.” Another fire, of banished love, ruined
ambition, rejected service, flamed through the broken accents for a
moment, and died of despair.
“Yet if this sentence was never made public,” said
Hugh, seizing upon one thing still unexplained, “how did Luc
Meverel ever come to know of it and follow you?”
“Do I know?” The voice was flat and drear, worn out
with exhaustion. “All I know is that I set out from
Winchester, and where the roads joined, near Newbury, this man
stood and waited for me, and fell in beside me, and every step of
my way on this journey he has gone on my heels like a demon, and
waited for me to play false to my sentence—for there was no
point of it he did not know!—to take my life without guilt,
without a qualm, as so he might. He trod after me wherever I trod,
he never let me from his sight, he made no secret of his wants, he
tempted me to go aside, to put on shoes, to lay by the
cross—and sirs, it was deathly heavy! Matthew, he called
himself…
Luc, you say he is? You know him? I never knew… He said I
had killed his lord, whom he loved, and he would follow me to
Bangor, to Caergybi, even to Dublin if ever I got aboard ship
without putting off the cross or putting on shoes. But he would
have me in the end. He had what he lusted for—why did he turn
away and spare?” The last words ached with his
uncomprehending wonder.
“He did not find you worth the killing,” said
Cadfael, as gently and mercifully as he could, but honestly.
“Now he goes in anguish and shame because he spent so much
time on you that might have been better spent. It is a matter of
values. Study to learn what is worth and what is not, and you may
come to understand him.”
“I am a dead man while I live,” said Ciaran,
writhing, “without master, without friends, without a
cause…”
“All three you may find, if you seek. Go where you were
sent, bear what you were condemned to bear, and look for the
meaning,” said Cadfael. “For so must we all.”
He turned away with a sigh. No way of knowing how much good
words might do, or the lessons of life, no telling whether any
trace of compunction moved in Ciaran’s bludgeoned mind, or
whether all his feeling was still for himself. Cadfael felt himself
suddenly very tired. He looked at Hugh with a somewhat lopsided
smile. “I wish I were home. What now, Hugh? Can we
go?”
Hugh stood looking down with a frown at the confessed murderer,
sunken in the grass like a broken-backed serpent, submissive,
tear-stained, nursing minor injuries. A piteous spectacle, though
pity might be misplaced. Yet he was, after all, no more than
twenty-five or so years old, able-bodied, well-clothed, strong, his
continued journey might be painful and arduous, but it was not
beyond his powers, and he had his bishop’s ring still,
effective wherever law held. These three footpads now tethered fast
and under guard would trouble his going no more. Ciaran would
surely reach his journey’s end safely, however long it might
take him. Not the journey’s end of his false story, a blessed
death in Aberdaron and burial among the saints of Ynys Ennli, but a
return to his native place, and a life beginning afresh. He might
even be changed. He might well adhere to his hard terms all the way
to Caergybi, where Irish ships plied, even as far as Dublin, even
to his ransomed life’s end. How can you tell?
“Make your own way from here,” said Hugh, “as
well as you may. You need fear nothing now from footpads here, and
the border is not far. What you have to fear from God, take up with
God.”
He turned his back, with so decisive a movement that his men
recognised the sign that all was over, and stirred willingly about
the captives and the horses.
“And those two?” asked Hugh. “Had I not better
leave a man behind on the track there, with a spare horse for Luc?
He followed his quarry afoot, but no need for him to foot it back.
Or ought I to send men after them?”
“No need for that,” said Cadfael with certainty.
“Olivier will manage all. They’ll come home
together.”
He had no qualms at all, he was beginning to relax into the
warmth of content. The evil he had dreaded had been averted,
however narrowly, at whatever cost. Olivier would find his stray,
bear with him, follow if he tried to avoid, wrung and ravaged as he
was, with the sole obsessive purpose of his life for so long ripped
away from him, and within him only the aching emptiness where that
consuming passion had been. Into that barren void Olivier would win
his way, and warm the ravished heart to make it habitable for
another love. There was the most comforting of messages to bring
from Juliana Bossard, the promise regained of a home and a welcome.
There was a future. How had Matthew-Luc seen his future when he
emptied his purse of the last coin at the abbey, before taking up
the pursuit of his enemy? Surely he had been contemplating the end
of the person he had hitherto been, a total ending, beyond which he
could not see. Now he was young again, there was a life before him,
it needed only a little time to make him whole again.
Olivier would bring him back to the abbey, when the worst
desolation was over. For Olivier had promised that he would not
leave without spending some time leisurely with Cadfael, and upon
Olivier’s promise the heart could rest secure.
As for the other… Cadfael looked back from the saddle,
after they had mounted, and saw the last of Ciaran, still on his
knees under the tree, where they had left him. His face was turned
to them, but his eyes seemed to be closed, and his hands were wrung
tightly together before his breast. He might have been praying, he
might have been simply experiencing with every particle of his
flesh the life that had been left to him. When we are all gone,
thought Cadfael, he will fall asleep there where he lies, he can do
no other, for he is far gone in something beyond exhaustion. Where
he falls asleep, there he will have died. But when he awakes, I
trust he may understand that he has been born again.
The slower cortege that would bring the prisoners into the town
began to assemble, making the tethering thongs secure, and the
torch-bearers crossed the clearing to mount, withdrawing their
yellow light from the kneeling figure, so that Ciaran vanished
gradually, as though he had been absorbed into the bole of the
beech-tree.
Hugh led the way out to the track, and turned homeward.
“Oh, Hugh, I grow old!” said Cadfael, hugely yawning.
“I want my bed.”
Chapter Fifteen
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It was past midnight when they rode in at the gatehouse,
into a great court awash with moonlight, and heard the chanting of
Matins within the church. They had made no haste on the way home,
and said very little, content to ride companionably together as
sometimes before, through summer night or winter day. It would be
another hour or more yet before Hugh’s officers got their
prisoners back to Shrewsbury Castle, since they must keep a
foot-pace, but before morning Simeon Poer and his henchmen would be
safe in hold, under lock and key.
“I’ll wait with you until Lauds is over,” said
Hugh, as they dismounted at the gatehouse. “Father Abbot will
want to know how we’ve sped. Though I hope he won’t
require the whole tale from us tonight.”
“Come down with me to the stables, then,” said
Cadfael, “and I’ll see this fellow unsaddled and
tended, while they’re still within. I was always taught to
care for my beast before seeking my own rest. You never lose the
habit.”
In the stable-yard the moonlight was all the light they needed.
The quietness of midnight and the stillness of the air carried
every note of the office to them softly and clearly. Cadfael
unsaddled his horse and saw him settled and provided in his stall,
with a light rug against any possible chill, rites he seldom had
occasion to perform now. They brought back memories of other mounts
and other journeys, and battlefields less happily resolved than the
small but desperate skirmish just lost and won.
Hugh stood watching with his back turned to the great court, but
his head tilted to follow the chant. Yet it was not any sound of an
approaching step that made him look round sudenly, but the slender
shadow that stole along the moonlit cobbles beside his feet. And
there hesitant in the gateway of the yard stood Melangell, startled
and startling, haloed in that pallid sheen.
“Child,” said Cadfael, concerned, “what are
you doing out of your bed at this hour?”
“How could I rest?” she said, but not as one
complaining. “No one misses me, they are all sleeping.”
She stood very still and straight, as if she had spent all the
hours since he had left her in earnest endeavour to put away for
ever any memories he might have of the tear-stained, despairing
girl who had sought solitude in his workshop. The great sheaf of
her hair was braided and pinned up on her head, her gown was trim,
and her face resolutely calm as she asked, “Did you find
him?”
A girl he had left her, a woman he came back to her.
“Yes,” said Cadfael, “we found them both. There
has nothing ill happened to either. The two of them have parted.
Ciaran goes on his way alone.”
“And Matthew?” she asked steadily.
“Matthew is with a good friend, and will come to no harm.
We two have outridden them, but they will come.” She would
have to learn to call him by another name now, but let the man
himself tell her that. Nor would the future be altogether easy, for
her or for Luc Meverel, two human creatures who might never have
been brought within hail of each other but for freakish
circumstance. Unless Saint Winifred had had a hand in that, too? On
this night Cadfael could believe it, and trust her to bring all to
a good end. “He will come back,” said Cadfael, meeting
her candid eyes, that bore no trace of tears now. “You need
not fear. But he has suffered a great turmoil of the mind, and
he’ll need all your patience and wisdom. Ask him nothing.
When the time is right he will tell you everything. Reproach him
with nothing—”
“God forbid,” she said, “that I should ever
reproach him. It was I who failed him.”
“No, how could you know? But when he comes, wonder at
nothing. Be like one who is thirsty and drinks. And so will
he.”
She had turned a little towards him, and the moonlight blanched
wonderfully over her face, as if a lamp within her had been newly
lighted. “I will wait,” she said.
“Better go to your bed and sleep, the waiting may be
longer than you think, he has been wrung. But he will
come.”
But at that she shook her head. “I’ll watch till he
comes,” she said, and suddenly smiled at them, pale and
lustrous as pearl, and turned and went away swiftly and silently
towards the cloister.
“That is the girl you spoke of?” asked Hugh, looking
after her with somewhat frowning interest. “The lame
boy’s sister? The girl that young man fancies?”
“That is she,” said Cadfael, and closed the
half-door of the stall.
“The weaver-woman’s niece?”
“That, too. Dowerless and from common stock,” said
Cadfael, understanding but untroubled. “Yes, true! I’m
from common stock myself. I doubt if a young fellow who has been
torn apart and remade as Luc has tonight will care much about such
little things. Though I grant you others may! I hope the lady
Juliana has no plans yet for marrying him off to some heiress from
a neighbour manor, for I fancy things have gone so far now with
these two that she’ll be forced to abandon her plans. A manor
or a craft—if you take pride in them, and run them well,
where’s the difference?”
“Your common stock,” said Hugh heartily, “gave
growth to a most uncommon shoot! And I wouldn’t say but that
young thing would grace a hall better than many a highbred dame
I’ve seen. But listen, they’re ending. We’d best
present ourselves.”
Abbot Radulfus came from Matins and Lauds with his
usual imperturbable stride, and found them waiting for him as he
left the cloister. This day of miracles had produced a fittingly
glorious night, incredibly lofty and deep, coruscating with stars,
washed white with moonlight. Coming from the dimness within, this
exuberance of light showed him clearly both the serenity and the
weariness on the two faces that confronted him.
“You are back!” he said, and looked beyond them.
“But not all! Messire de Bretagne—you said he had gone
by a wrong way. He has not returned here. You have not encountered
him?”
“Yes, Father, we have,” said Hugh. “All is
well with him, and he has found the young man he was seeking. They
will return here, all in good time.”
“And the evil you feared, Brother Cadfael? You spoke of
another death…”
“Father,” said Cadfael, “no harm has come
tonight to any but the masterless men who escaped into the forest
there. They are now safe in hold, and on their way under guard to
the castle. The death I dreaded has been averted, no threat remains
in that quarter to any man. I said, if the two young men could be
overtaken, the better surely for one, and perhaps for both. Father,
they were overtaken in time, and better for both it surely must
be.”
“Yet there remains,” said Radulfus, pondering,
“the print of blood, which both you and I have seen. You
said—you will recall—that, yes, we have entertained a
murderer among us. Do you still say so?”
“Yes, Father. Yet not as you suppose. When Olivier de
Bretagne and Luc Meverel return, then all can be made plain, for as
yet,” said Cadfael, “there are still certain things we
do not know. But we do know,” he said firmly, “that
what has passed this night is the best for which we could have
prayed, and we have good need to give thanks for it.”
“So all is well?”
“All is very well, Father.”
“Then the rest may wait for morning. You need rest. But
will you not come in with me and take some food and wine, before
you sleep?”
“My wife,” said Hugh, gracefully evading,
“will be in some anxiety for me. You are kind, Father, but I
would not have her fret longer than she need.”
The abbot eyed them both, and did not press them.
“And God bless you for that!” sighed Cadfael,
toiling up the slight slope of the court towards the dortoir stair
and the gatehouse where Hugh had hitched his horse. “For
I’m asleep on my feet, and even a good wine could not revive
me.”
The moonlight was gone, and there was as yet no
sunlight, when Olivier de Bretagne and Luc Meverel rode slowly in
at the abbey gatehouse. How far they had wandered in the deep night
neither of them knew very clearly, for this was strange country to
both. Even when overtaken, and addressed with careful gentleness,
Luc had still gone forward blindly, hands hanging slack at his
sides or vaguely parting the bushes, saying nothing, hearing
nothing, unless some core of feeling within him was aware of this
calm, relentless pursuit by a tolerant, incurious kindness, and
distantly wondered at it. When he had dropped at last and lain down
in the lush grass of a meadow at the edge of the forest, Olivier
had tethered his horse a little apart and lain down beside him, not
too close, yet so close that the mute man knew he was there,
waiting without impatience. Past midnight Luc had fallen asleep. It
was his greatest need. He was a man ravished and emptied of every
impulse that had held him alive for the past two months, a dead man
still walking and unable quite to die. Sleep was his ransom. Then
he could truly die to this waste of loss and bitterness, the awful
need that had driven him, the corrosive grief that had eaten his
heart out for his lord, who had died in his arms, on his shoulder,
on his heart. The bloodstain that would not wash out, no matter how
he laboured over it, was his witness. He had kept it to keep the
fire of his hatred white-hot. Now in sleep he was delivered from
all.
And he had awakened in the first mysterious pre-dawn stirring of
the earliest summer birds, beginning to call tentatively into the
silence, to open his eyes upon a face bending over him, a face he
did not know, but remotely desired to know, for it was vivid,
friendly and calm, waiting courteously on his will.
“Did I kill him?” Luc had asked, somehow aware that
the man who bore this face would know the answer.
“No,” said a voice clear, serene and low.
“There was no need. But he’s dead to you. You can
forget him.”
He did not understand that, but he accepted it. He sat up in the
cool, ripe grass, and his senses began to stir again, and record
distantly that the earth smelled sweet, and there were paling stars
in the sky over him, caught like stray sparks in the branches of
the trees. He stared intently into Olivier’s face, and
Olivier looked back at him with a slight, serene smile, and was
silent.
“Do I know you?” asked Luc wonderingly.
“No. But you will. My name is Olivier de Bretagne, and I
serve Laurence d’Angers, just as your lord did. I knew
Rainald Bossard well, he was my friend, we came from the Holy Land
together in Laurence’s train. And I am sent with a message to
Luc Meverel, and that, I am sure, is your name.”
“A message to me?” Luc shook his head.
“From your cousin and lady, Juliana Bossard. And the
message is that she begs you to come home, for she needs you, and
there is no one who can take your place.”
He was slow to believe, still numbed and hollow within; but
there was no impulsion for him to go anywhere or do anything now of
his own will, and he yielded indifferently to Olivier’s
promptings. “Now we should be getting back to the
abbey,” said Olivier practically, and rose, and Luc
responded, and rose with him. “You take the horse, and
I’ll walk,” said Olivier, and Luc did as he was bidden.
It was like nursing a simpleton gently along the way he must go,
and holding him by the hand at every step.
They found their way back at last to the old track, and there
were the two horses Hugh had left behind for them, and the groom
fast asleep in the grass beside them. Olivier took back his own
horse, and Luc mounted the fresh one, with the lightness and ease
of custom, his body’s instincts at least reawakening. The
yawning groom led the way, knowing the path well. Not until they
were halfway back towards the Meole brook and the narrow bridge to
the highroad did Luc say a word of his own volition.
“You say she wants me to come back,” he said
abruptly, with quickening pain and hope in his voice. “Is it
true? I left her without a word, but what else could I do? What can
she think of me now?”
“Why, that you had your reasons for leaving her, as she
has hers for wanting you back. Half the length of England I have
been asking after you, at her entreaty. What more do you
need?”
“I never thought to return,” said Luc, staring back
down that long, long road in wonder and doubt.
No, not even to Shrewsbury, much less to his home in the south.
Yet here he was, in the cool, soft morning twilight well before
Prime, riding beside this young stranger over the wooden bridge
that crossed the Meole brook, instead of wading through the
shrunken stream to the pease fields, the way by which he had left
the enclave. Round to the highroad, past the mill and the pond, and
in at the gatehouse to the great court. There they lighted down,
and the groom took himself and his two horses briskly away again
towards the town.
Luc stood gazing about him dully, still clouded by the
unfamiliarity of everything he beheld, as if his senses were still
dazed and clumsy with the effort of coming back to life. At this
hour the court was empty. No, not quite empty. There was someone
sitting on the stone steps that climbed to the door of the
guest-hall, sitting there alone and quite composedly, with her face
turned towards the gate, and as he watched she rose and came down
the wide steps, and walked towards him with a swift, light step.
Then he knew her for Melangell.
In her at least there was nothing unfamiliar. The sight of her
brought back colour and form and reality into the very stones of
the wall at her back, and the cobbles under her feet. The elusive
grey between-light could not blur the outlines of head and hand, or
dim the brightness of her hair. Life came flooding back into Luc
with a shock of pain, as feeling returns after a numbing wound. She
came towards him with hands a little extended and face raised, and
the faintest and most anxious of smiles on her lips and in her
eyes. Then, as she hesitated for the first time, a few paces from
him, he saw the dark stain of the bruise that marred her cheek.
It was the bruise that shattered him. He shook from head to
heels in a great convulsion of shame and grief, and blundered
forward blindly into her arms, which reached gladly to receive him.
On his knees, with his arms wound about her and his face buried in
her breast, he burst into a storm of tears, as spontaneous and as
healing as Saint Winifred’s own miraculous spring.
He was in perfect command of voice and face when
they met after chapter in the abbot’s parlour, abbot, prior,
Brother Cadfael, Hugh Beringar, Olivier and Luc, to set right in
all its details the account of Rainald Bossard’s death, and
all that had followed from it.
“Unwittingly I deceived you, Father,” said Cadfael,
harking back to the interview which had sent him forth in such
haste. “When you asked if we had entertained a murderer
unawares, I answered truly that I did think so, but that we might
yet have time to prevent a second death. I never realised until
afterwards how you might interpret that, seeing we had just found
the blood-stained shirt. But, see, the man who struck the blow
might be spattered as to sleeve or collar, but he would not be
marked by this great blot that covered breast and shoulder over the
heart. No, that was rather the sign of one who had held a wounded
man, a man wounded to death, in his arms as he died. Nor would the
slayer, if his clothing was blood-stained, have kept and carried it
with him, but burned or buried it, or somehow rid himself of it.
But this shirt, though washed most carefully, still bore the
outline of the stain clear to be seen, and it was carried as a
sacred relic is carried, perhaps as a pledge to exact vengeance. So
I knew that this same Luc whom we knew as Matthew, and in whose
scrip the talisman was found, was not the murderer. But when I
recalled all the words I had heard those two young men speak, and
all the evidence of devoted attendance, the one on the other, then
suddenly I saw that pairing in the utterly opposed way, as a
pursuit. And I feared it must be to the death.”
The abbot looked at Luc, and asked simply: “Is that a true
reading?”
“Father, it is.” Luc set forth with deliberation the
progress of his own obsession, as though he discovered it and
understood it only in speaking. “I was with my lord that
night, close to the Old Minster it was, when four or five set on
the clerk, and my lord ran, and we with him, to beat them off. And
then they fled, but one turned back and struck. I saw it done, and
it was done of intent! I had my lord in my arms—he had been
good to me, and I loved him,” said Luc with grimly measured
moderation and burning eyes as he remembered. “He was dead in
a mere moment, in the twinkling of an eye… And I had seen
where the murderer fled, into the passage by the chapter house. I
went after him, and I heard their voices in the
sacristy—Bishop Henry had come from the chapter house after
the council ended for the night, and there Ciaran had found him and
fell on his knees to him, blurting out all. I lay in hiding, and
heard every word. I think he even hoped for praise,” said Luc
with bitter deliberation.
“Is it possible?” wondered Prior Robert, shocked to
the heart. “Bishop Henry could not for one moment connive at
or condone an act so evil.”
“No, he did not condone. But neither would he deliver over
one of his own intimate servants as a murderer. To do him
justice,” said Luc, but with plain distaste, “his
concern was not to cause further anger and quarrelling, but to put
away and smooth over everything that threatened the empress’s
fortunes and the peace he was trying to make. But condone
murder—no, that he would not. Therefore I overheard the
sentence he laid upon Ciaran—though then I did not know who
he was, nor that Ciaran was his name. He banished him back to his
Dublin home, for ever, and condemned him to go every step of the
way to Bangor and to the ship at Caergybi barefoot, and carrying
that heavy cross. And if ever he put on shoes or laid by the cross
from round his neck, then his forfeit life was no longer spared,
but might be taken by whoever willed, without sin or penalty. But
see,” said Luc, merciless in judgement, “how he
cheated! For not only did he give his creature the ring that would
ensure him the protection of the church to Bangor, but also, mark,
not one word was ever made public of this guilt or this sentence,
so how was that forfeit life in danger? No one was to know of it
but they two, if God had not prevented and brought there a witness
to hear the sentence and take upon himself the vengeance
due.”
“As you did,” said the abbot, and his voice was even
and calm, avoiding judgement.
“As I did, Father. For as Ciaran swore to keep the terms
laid down on pain of death, so did I swear an oath as solemn to
follow him the length of the land, and if ever he broke his terms
for a moment, to have his life as payment for my lord.”
“And how,” asked Radulfus in the same mild tone,
“did you know what man you were thus to hunt to his death?
For you say you did not see his face clearly or know his name
then.”
“I knew the way he was bound to go, and the day of his
setting out. I waited by the roadside for one walking north,
barefoot—and one not used to going barefoot, but very well
shod,” said Luc with a brief, wry smile. “I saw the
cross at his neck. I fell in at his side, and I told him, not who I
was, but what. I took another name, so that no failure nor shame of
mine should ever cast a shadow on my lady or her house. One
Evangelist in exchange for another! Step for step with him I went
all this way, here to this place, and never let him from my sight
and reach, night or day, and never let him forget that I meant to
be his death. He could not ask help to rid himself of me, since I
could then as easily strip him of his pilgrim holiness and show
what he really was. And I could not denounce him—partly for
fear of Bishop Henry, partly because neither did I want more
feuding between factions—my feud was between two
men!—but chiefly because he was mine, mine, and I would not
let any other vengeance or danger reach him. So we kept together,
he trying to elude me—but he was court-bred and tender and
crippled by the miles—and I holding fast to him, and
waiting.”
He looked up suddenly and caught the abbot’s compassionate
but calm eyes upon him, and his own eyes were wide, dark and clear.
“It is not beautiful, I know. Neither was murder beautiful.
And this blotch was only mine—my lord went to his grave
immaculate, defending one opposed to him.”
It was Olivier, silent until now, who said softly:
“And so did you!” The grave, thought Cadfael
at the height of the Mass, had closed firmly to deny Luc entrance,
but that arm outstretched between his enemy and the knives of three
assailants must never be forgotten. Hell had also shut its mouth
and refused to devour him. He was young, clean, alive again after a
kind of death. Yes, Olivier had uttered truth. His own life
ventured, his enemy’s life defended, what was there between
Luc and his lord but the accident, the vain and random accident, of
the death itself?
He recalled also, when he was most diligent in prayer, that
these few days while Saint Winifred was manifesting her virtue in
disentangling the troubled lives of some half-dozen people in
Shrewsbury, were also the vital days when the fates of Englishmen
in general were being determined, perhaps with less compassion and
wisdom. For by this time the date of the empress’s coronation
might well be settled, the crown even now placed upon her head. No
doubt God and the saints had that consideration in mind, too.
Matthew-Luc came once again to ask audience of the
abbot, a little before Vespers. Radulfus had him admitted without
question, and sat with him alone, divining his present need.
“Father, will you hear me my confession? For I need
absolution from the vow I could not keep. And I do earnestly desire
to be clean of the past before I undertake the future.”
“It is a right and a wise desire,” said Radulfus.
“One thing tell me—are you asking absolution for
failing to fulfil the oath you swore?”
Luc, already on his knees, raised his head for a moment from the
abbot’s knee, and showed a face open and clear. “No,
Father, but for ever swearing such an oath. Even grief has its
arrogance.”
“Then you have learned, my son, that vengeance belongs
only to God?”
“More than that, Father,” said Luc. “I have
learned that in God’s hands vengeance is safe. However long
delayed, however strangely manifested, the reckoning is
sure.”
When it was done, when he had raked out of his heart, with
measured voice and long pauses for thought, every drifted grain of
rancour and bitterness and impatience that fretted him, and
received absolution, he rose with a great sigh, and raised a bright
and resolute face.
“Now, Father, if I may pray of you one more grace, let me
have one of your priests to join me to a wife before I go from
here. Here, where I am made clean and new, I would have love and
life begin together.”
Chapter Sixteen
« ^
On the next morning, which was the twenty-fourth
day of June, the general bustle of departure began. There was
packing of belongings, buying and parcelling of food and drink for
the journey, and much leave-taking from friends newly made, and
arranging of company for the road. No doubt the saint would have
due regard for her own reputation, and keep the June sun shining
until all her devotees were safely home, and with a wonderful tale
to tell. Most of them knew only half the wonder, but even that was
wonder enough.
Among the early departures went Brother Adam of Reading, in no
great hurry along the way, for today he would go no farther than
Reading’s daughter-house of Leominster, where there would be
letters waiting for him to carry home to his abbot. He set out with
a pouch well filled with seeds of species his garden did not yet
possess, and a scholarly mind still pondering the miraculous
healing he had witnessed from every theological angle, in order to
be able to expound its full significance when he reached his own
monastery. It had been a most instructive and enlightening
festival.
“I’d meant to start for home today, too,” said
Mistress Weaver to her cronies Mistress Glover and the
apothecary’s widow, with whom she had formed a strong
matronly alliance during these memorable days, “but now
there’s such work doing, I hardly know whether I’m
waking or sleeping, and I must stay over yet a night or two.
Who’d ever have thought what would come of it, when I told my
lad we ought to come and make our prayers here to the good saint,
and have faith that she’d be listening? Now it seems
I’m to lose the both of them, my poor sister’s chicks;
for Rhun, God bless him, is set on staying here and taking the
cowl, for he says he won’t ever leave the blessed girl who
healed him. And truly I don’t wonder at it, and won’t
stand in his way, for he’s too good for this wicked world
outside, so he is! And now comes young Matthew—no, but it
seems we must call him Luc, now, and he’s well-born, if from
a poor landless branch, and will come in for a manor or two in
time, by his good kinswoman’s taking him
in…”
“Well, and so did you take the boy and girl in,”
pointed out the apothecary’s widow warmly, “and gave
them a roof and a living. There’s good sound justice
there.”
“Well, so Matthew, I mean Luc, he comes to me and asks for
my girl for his wife, last night it was, and when I answered
honestly, for honest I am and always will be, that my Melangell has
but a meagre dowry, though the best I can give her I will, what
says he? That as at this moment he himself has not one penny to his
name in this world, but must go debtor to the young lord’s
charity that came to find him, and as for the future, if fortune
favours him he’ll be thankful, and if not, he has hands and a
will, and can make a way for two to live. Provided the other is my
girl, he says, for there’s none other for him. So what can I
say but God bless them both, and stay to see them
wedded?”
“It’s a woman’s duty,” said Mistress
Glover heartily, “to make sure all’s done properly,
when she hands over a young girl to a husband. But sure,
you’ll miss the two of them.”
“So I will,” agreed Dame Alice, shedding a few tears
rather of pride and joy than of grief, at the advancement to
semi-sainthood and promising matrimony of the charges who had cost
her dear enough, and could now be blessed and sped on their
respective and respectable ways with a quiet mind. “So I
will! But to see them both set up where they would be… And
good children both, that will take pains for me when I come to
need, as I have for them.”
“And they’re to marry here, tomorrow?” asked
the apothecary’s widow, visibly considering putting off her
own departure for another day.
“They are indeed, before Mass in the morning. So it seems
I’ll have none to take home but my sole self,” said
Dame Alice, dropping another proud tear or two, and wearing her
reflected glory with admirable grace, “when I take to the
road again. But the day after tomorrow there’s a sturdy
company leaving southward, and with them I’ll go.”
“And duty well done, my dear soul,” said Mistress
Glover, embracing her friend in a massive arm, “duty very
well done!”
They were married in the privacy of the Lady
Chapel, by Brother Paul, who was not only master of the novices,
but the chief of their confessors, too, and already had Rhun under
his care and instruction, and felt a fatherly interest in him,
which the boy’s affection very readily extended to embrace
the sister. No one else was present but the family and their
witnesses, and the bridal pair wore no festal garments, for they
had none. Luc was in the serviceable brown cotte and hose he had
slept in, out in the fields, and the same crumpled shirt, though
newly washed and smoothed. Melangell was neat and modest in her
homespun, proudly balancing her coronal of braided, deep-gold hair.
They were pale as lilies, bright as stars, and solemn as the
grave.
After high and moving events, daily life must
still go on. Cadfael went to his work that afternoon well content.
With the meadow grasses in ripe seed and the harvest imminent he
had preparations to make for two seasonal ailments which could be
relied upon to recur every year. There were some who suffered with
eruptions on their hands when working in the harvest, and others
who took to sneezing and wheezing, with running eyes, and needed
lotions to help them.
He was busy bruising fresh leaves of dock and mandrake in a
mortar for a soothing ointment, when he heard light, long-striding
steps approaching along the gravel of the path, and then half of
the sunlight from the wide-open door was cut off, as someone
hesitated in the doorway. He turned with the mortar hugged to his
chest, and the green-stained wooden pestle arrested in his hand,
and there stood Olivier, dipping his tall head to evade the hanging
bunches of herbs, and asking, in the mellow, confident voice of one
assured of the answer, “May I come in?”
He was in already, smiling, staring about him with a boy’s
candid curiosity, for he had never been here before.
“I’ve been a truant, I know, but with two days to wait
before Luc’s marriage I thought best to get on with my errand
to the sheriff of Stafford, being so close, and then come back
here. I was back, as I said I’d be, in time to see them
wedded. I thought you would have been there.”
“So I would, but I was called out to Saint Giles. Some
poor soul of a beggar stumbled in there overnight covered with
sores, they were afraid of a contagion, but it’s no such
matter. If he’d had treatment earlier it would have been an
easy matter to cure him, but a week or so resting in the hospital
will do him no harm. Our pair of youngsters here had no need of me.
I’m a part of what’s over and done with for them,
you’re a part of what’s beginning.”
“Melangell told me where I should find you, however, you
were missed. And here I am.”
“And as welcome as the day,” said Cadfael, laying
his mortar aside. Long, shapely hands gripped both his hands
heartily, and Olivier stooped his olive cheek for the greeting
kiss, as simply as for the parting kiss when they had separated at
Bromfield. “Come, sit, let me offer you wine—my own
making. You knew, then, that those two would marry?”
“I saw them meet, when I brought him back here. Small
doubt how it would end. Afterwards he told me his intent. When two
are agreed, and know their own minds,” said Olivier blithely,
“everything else will give way. I shall see them both
properly provided for the journey home, since I must go by a more
roundabout way.”
When two are agreed, and know their own minds! Cadfael
remembered confidences now a year and a half past. He poured wine
carefully, his hand being a shade less steady than usual, and sat
down beside his visitor, the young, wide shoulder firm and vital
against his elderly and stiff one, the clear, elegant profile
close, and a pleasure to his eyes. “Tell me,” he said,
“about Ermina,” and was sure of the answer even before
Olivier turned on him his sudden blinding smile.
“If I had known my travels would bring me to you, I should
have had so many messages to bring you, from both of them. From
Yves—and from my wife!”
“Aaaah!” breathed Cadfael, on a deep, delighted
sigh. “So, as I thought, as I hoped! You have made good,
then, what you told me, that they would acknowledge your worth and
give her to you.” Two, there, who had indeed known their own
minds, and been invincibly agreed! “When was this match
made?”
“This Christmas past, in Gloucester. She is there now, so
is the boy. He is Laurence’s heir—just fifteen now. He
wanted to come to Winchester with us, but Laurence wouldn’t
let him be put in peril. They are safe, I thank God. If ever this
chaos is ended,” said Olivier very solemnly, “I will
bring her to you, or you to her. She does not forget
you.”
“Nor I her, nor I her! Nor the boy. He rode with me twice,
asleep in my arms, I still recall the warmth and the shape and the
weight of him. A good boy as ever stepped!”
“He’d be a load for you now,” said Olivier,
laughing. This year past, he’s shot up like a weed,
he’ll be taller than you.”
“Ah, well, I’m beginning to shrink like a spent
weed. And you are happy?” asked Cadfael, thirsting for more
blessedness even than he already had. “You and she
both?”
“Beyond what I know how to express,” said Olivier no
less gravely. “How glad I am to have seen you again, and been
able to tell you so! Do you remember the last time? When I waited
with you in Bromfield to take Ermina and Yves home? And you drew me
maps on the floor to show me the ways?”
There is a point at which joy is only just bearable. Cadfael got
up to refill the wine-cups, and turn his face away for a moment
from a brightness almost too bright. “Ah, now, if this is to
be a contest in “do-you-remembers” we shall be at it
until Vespers, for not one detail of that time have I forgotten. So
let’s have this flask here within reach, and settle down to
it in comfort.”
But there was an hour and more left before Vespers
when Hugh put an abrupt end to remembering. He came in haste, with
a face blazingly alert, and full of news. Even so he was slow to
speak, not wishing to exult openly in what must be only shock and
dismay to Olivier.
“There’s news. A courier rode in from Warwick just
now, they’re passing the word north by stages as fast as
horse can go.” They were both on their feet by then, intent
upon his face, and waiting for good or evil, for he contained it
well. A good face for keeping secrets, and under strong control now
out of courteous consideration. “I fear,” he said,
“it will not come as gratefully to you, Olivier, as I own it
does to me.”
“From the south…” said Olivier, braced and
still. “From London? The empress?”
“Yes, from London. All is overturned in a day.
There’ll be no coronation. Yesterday as they sat at dinner in
Westminster, the Londoners suddenly rang the tocsin—all the
city bells. The entire town came out in arms, and marched on
Westminster. They’re fled, Olivier, she and all her court,
fled in the clothes they wore and with very little else, and the
city men have plundered the palace and driven out even the last
hangers-on. She never made move to win them, nothing but threats
and reproaches and demands for money ever since she entered.
She’s let the crown slip through her fingers for want of a
few soft words and a queen’s courtesy. For your part,”
said Hugh, with real compunction, “I’m sorry! For mine,
I find it a great deliverance.”
“With that I find no fault,” said Olivier simply.
“Why should you not be glad? But she… she’s
safe? They have not taken her?”
“No, according to the messenger she’s safely away,
with Robert of Gloucester and a few others as loyal, but the rest,
it seems, scattered and made off for their own lands, where
they’d feel safe. That’s the word as he brought it,
barely a day old. The city of London was being pressed hard from
the south,” said Hugh, somewhat softening the load of folly
that lay upon the empress’s own shoulders, “with King
Stephen’s queen harrying their borders. To get relief their
only way was to drive the empress out and let the queen in, and
their hearts were on her side, no question, of the two they’d
liefer have her.”
“I knew,” said Olivier, “she was not
wise—the Empress Maud. I knew she could not forget grudges,
no matter how sorely she needed to close her eyes to them. I have
seen her strip a man’s dignity from him when he came
submissive, offering support… Better at making enemies than
friends. All the more she needs,” he said, “the few she
has. Where is she gone? Did your messenger know?”
“Westward for Oxford. And they’ll reach it safely.
The Londoners won’t follow so far, their part was only to
drive her out.”
“And the bishop? Is he gone with her?” The entire
enterprise had rested upon the efforts of Henry of Blois, and he
had done his best for her, not entirely creditably but
understandably and at considerable cost, and his best she herself
had undone. Stephen was a prisoner in Bristol, but Stephen was
still crowned and anointed king of England. No wonder Hugh’s
eyes shone.
“Of the bishop I know nothing as yet. But he’ll
surely join her in Oxford. Unless…”
“Unless he changes sides again,” Olivier ended for
him, and laughed. “It seems I shall have to leave you in more
haste than I expected,” he said with regret. “One
fortune rises, another falls. No sense in quarrelling with the
lot.”
“What will you do?” asked Hugh, watching him
steadily. “You know, I think, that whatever you may ask of us
here, is yours, and the choice is yours. Your horses are fresh.
Your men will not yet have heard the news, they’ll be waiting
on your word. If you need stores for a journey, take whatever you
will. Or if you choose to stay…”
Olivier shook his blue-black head, and the clasping curves of
glossy hair danced on his cheeks. “I must go. Not north,
where I was sent. What use in that, now? South for Oxford. Whatever
she may be else, she is my liege lord’s liege lady, where she
is he will be, and where he is, I go.”
They eyed each other silently for a moment, and Hugh said
softly, quoting remembered words: “To tell you truth, now
I’ve met you I expected nothing less.”
“I’ll go and rouse my men, and we’ll get to
horse. You’ll follow to your house, before I go? I must take
leave of Lady Beringar.”
“I’ll follow you,” said Hugh.
Olivier turned to Brother Cadfael without a word but with the
brief golden flash of a smile breaking through his roused gravity
for an instant, and again vanishing. “Brother…
remember me in your prayers!” He stooped his smooth cheek yet
again in farewell, and as the elder’s kiss was given he
embraced Cadfael vehemently, with impulsive grace. “Until a
better time!”
“God go with you!” said Cadfael.
And he was gone, striding rapidly along the gravel path,
breaking into a light run, in no way disheartened or down, a match
for disaster or for triumph. At the corner of the box hedge he
turned in flight to look back, and waved a hand before he
vanished.
“I wish to God,” said Hugh, gazing after him,
“he was of our party! There’s an odd thing, Cadfael!
Will you believe, just then, when he looked round, I thought I saw
something of you about him. The set of the head,
something…”
Cadfael, too, was gazing out from the open doorway to where the
last sheen of blue had flashed from the burnished hair, and the
last echo of the light foot on the gravel died into silence.
“Oh, no,” he said absently, “he is altogether the
image of his mother.”
An unguarded utterance. Unguarded from absence of mind, or
design?
The following silence did not trouble him, he continued to gaze,
shaking his head gently over the lingering vision, which would stay
with him through all his remaining years, and might even, by the
grace of God and the saints, be made flesh for him yet a third
time. Far beyond his deserts, but miracles are neither weighed nor
measured, but as uncalculated as the lightnings.
“I recall,” said Hugh with careful deliberation,
perceiving that he was permitted to speculate, and had heard only
what he was meant to hear, “I do recall that he spoke of one
for whose sake he held the Benedictine order in reverence…
one who had used him like a son…”
Cadfael stirred, and looked round at him, smiling as he met his
friend’s fixed and thoughtful eyes. “I always meant to
tell you, some day,” he said tranquilly, “what he does
not know, and never will from me. He is my son.”
About the Author
Ellis Peters is a pseudonym for Edith Pargeter,
author of many books under her own name. The recipient of the
C.W.A. Silver Dagger Award, she is also well known as a translator
of poetry and prose from the Czech. Miss Pargeter makes her home in
Shropshire, England.
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